BACK WITH YOU
Chapter Five
Santa Monica
Early March, 1931
With a cling sound, Jessamyn triumphantly
closed the cash register and smiled. Finally, it was her lunch break! An hour
to do whatever she wanted before it was back to work again. This dull,
worthless job got more annoying and pointless by the day. What she really
wanted was nothing more than to quit and make her living as an actress or
writer, anything that was more glamorous or exciting than a waitress. But no,
she was stuck here, forced into this little world of sandwiches and hungry
adolescents. It was her fault, of course. She had dragged herself down here,
and she realized that. But it was still tedious and she still wanted out.
Humming happily, she reached behind her dress
and undid the apron stings. The boring white garment fell limp before she swiped
it over her head and hung it on a nearby hook. She straightened her dress,
pulled up one sock that had fallen down, and wiped some loose hair from her
face. Her strawberry blonde hair fell loose from the disgusting hair net as she
pulled the white mesh from her head and threw it in a nearby trashcan.
"I'm off, Billy," she called to her
co-worker, who signaled her with a slight nod of his head. She laughed, and
grabbed her purse and jacket from underneath the counter before she took off
out of the little deli. She was dreadfully hungry, but after serving sandwiches
and soup for the last four hours, she wanted something different. The sight of
another ham-and-cheese sandwich would make her sick. Just the smell was enough
to drive someone crazy after a while.
After leaving, Jessamyn crossed the street
and started walking up the block to where she knew there was a nice little
burger joint where she could get a good-sized salad for cheap. The sun was
shining, but even so, it was cold for early March, as it had been for the past
couple of weeks. Jessamyn pulled on her jacket as she walked. She hated the
cold even more than she hated extreme heat. Spring and fall she would take, but
summer and winter? Anyone else that wanted them could have them. She couldn't
explain what it was, but there was something about the cold that rubbed her the
wrong way. It was like she had been through some traumatizing experience with
it as a child that she had forgotten about, and now it haunted her. Or, she
sometimes thought, it could have been from a nightmare from long ago that still
affected her. Either way, she hated the cold. At least Santa Monica was one of
the warmer places you could be in the United States this time of year.
There were not a lot of people out and about;
just a few couples here and there, the few local workers that never seemed to
leave, and one or two tourists. With the promise of spring just around the
corner, everyone she saw seemed to be in a good mood, despite the chilly
weather. A few people even waved as they passed, or mumbled a hello, which
Jessamyn was quick to respond to. She, too, was in a good mood, despite her
complaints about her job and the lack of success she was having trying to find
Rose.
The wind was just picking up as Jessamyn
hurriedly rushed into the salad place a few minutes later. She smiled when she
saw the regular bunch of people. Old Mr. Johnson and his wife, who were always
eating lunch there at twelve o'clock on the dot, every day, were there. Also
included in the bunch were some of the students from the nearby college, a
couple of the dock workers out on their breaks, and some younger kids who were
obviously supposed to be in school. A few waved as she approached the counter
and then gave the boy her order. He tallied up her total and, as she was
paying, Jessamyn saw out of the corner of her eye Charles Beaumont come walking
through the door.
"Why, Miss Jessamyn...fancy seeing you
here!" he exclaimed teasingly as soon as he noticed her, which didn't take
very long. He came strutting up to the counter and stood beside her, giving her
a tiny pat on the back as he did so. Jessamyn grinned at him as he greeted her.
"Hey, Charlie," she said in
response to her lunch buddy. Charlie had been there the first day Jessamyn had
walked in and he, seeing that she was with nobody, offered to let her sit with
him. She had sat down, and since then a friendship had begun to blossom. They
ate lunch together most of the time, except on Saturday and Sunday, when they
both had the day off, or on Tuesday's when Charlie had an extra class. He was
putting himself through college by working down at the docks before and after
classes. It wasn't a very glamorous job; cleaning up after sailors, moving
crates of seafood, and catering to his superior's needs, but as he put it,
"It was a job."
Charlie mentioned to the boy behind the
counter that he would have whatever Jessamyn was having, making her laugh.
Charlie eating a salad? It didn't seem possible.
"What happened to the ole standby?"
she asked as they walked to an empty booth, referring to Charlie’s usual lunch
menu consisting of a big juicy hamburger that made Jessamyn's stomach churn.
She wasn't one for red meat.
"Eh, I decided a change was in
order," he said as they sat down, but he offered no other explanation. Then
he smiled in a silly, cheesy way that made Jessamyn chuckle. Charlie was
handsome, no doubt, but he had a charm about him that made you just want to
laugh sometimes. His brown hair was always falling in his face, and his dark
brown eyes were always secretive, like he knew something about you that you
didn't, and he wasn't about to tell you. And Jessamyn would never admit to
noticing it, but because he worked outside half of the day, he had developed a
rich tan, not to mention firm muscles that could be seen through his tee shirts
if he were wearing one. Sadly, today was not such a day and he had donned a
coat in response to the cold. He had grown up in New Orleans, which had
obviously caused him to have a deep Southern accent that still flew unchanged when
he spoke. He spoke French quiet fluently as well, having learned, from, among
other people, his grandmother. All those traits came together to produce this
funny, energetic, not to mention handsome, person that Jessamyn couldn't help
attach herself too. She liked him. Not in any sort of romantic way, of course,
but she liked having him around.
Their food came before long and they ate
pretty much in silence, aside from some pointless topics like the weather and
sports. But soon Charlie brought up a question out of the blue that took
Jessamyn by surprise.
"So, today are you going to tell me what
you're doing here?"
Jessamyn tilted her head to one side and
looked at him strangely. "What do you mean?" She unknowingly started
twirling a strand of her hair with her index finger, a habit she had picked up
as a child.
Charlie took a sip of his water and laughed.
"Come on, Jessamyn, you know what I mean. Why are you in Santa Monica? I
don't believe you're just hanging out as a waitress." He smiled and
nonchalantly took a bite of his salad.
Jessamyn dropped the strand of hair and
didn't say anything for a few minutes. Charlie waited patiently as she
contemplated what to say. He just kept on eating in almost this annoying way,
as if he were teasing her. In her mind, she scanned the contents of the last
month. She had got down here, started out living in a hotel, and then moved to
an apartment once she got her first paycheck. Her search for Rose was still
going very slow; she hadn't found any new leads in weeks. It was pretty much
non-existent, in fact. There really wasn't much to tell Charlie besides the
first part of the ordeal.
"Do you want the truth, or some lame
story?" Jessamyn asked finally, not really knowing why. She knew what his
answer would be. He just broke into a bigger smile, and didn't answer her. She
sighed and closed her eyes for a moment. How was she going to approach this?
"Basically," she heard herself
saying a few moments later, "I was given up for adoption when I was a
month old. I just found out a month and a half ago, and now I am out here
looking for my mom. This was her last known residence." She laughed.
"Pretty crazy, huh?"
Charlie shook his head. He was more shocked
then he showed. He didn't want Jessamyn to think he was some sort of sissy, or
that it was really that big of a deal. It was big, of course, but he didn't
want to irritate any emotions she might be holding back. He didn't know if she
was really doing okay with it or not. "I think it's great. You were really
given up for adoption?"
She nodded slowly. "Yeah, they never
told me, either. I'm such an idiot. I can't believe I never knew." She
took a deep breath and rolled her eyes. "I mean, you think I would have
realized when I was shorter than the rest of my family, when all my siblings ended
up with a way different hair color. But no, I was so far out of it that I never
knew."
"Wow, Jess, I can't even imagine
that," he said after a few moments. She was looking pretty distracted now;
her mood had definitely changed. "You've held up pretty well, I have to
say. You seem to be pretty calm and collected. At least from what I've
seen," he said, in between bites of his salad.
"Thanks," she mumbled. "It's
just hard, you know?" Jessamyn sighed and looked down at her half-eaten
lunch. She wasn't as hungry anymore. "I mean, what if this is a pointless
campaign? What if, by chance, I do find her, and she hates me? She doesn't want
anything to do with me. Or what if I don't find her at all, then where do I
go?"
Charlie reached across the table and put his
hand over hers. She looked up and saw that he was giving her a soft smile.
"Hey, gardez la foi. Whatever happens is suppose to happen. And if you
need someone to talk to, I'm here."
Jessamyn smiled softly. His comments meant a
lot to her, especially since she knew he was telling the truth. "You know
I don't speak much French past bonjour," she teased in reply. She had come
to realize that sometimes he would speak French without noticing it. "But
seriously, thank you, Charlie."
He stood, threw a couple of coins on the
table for the waiter, and then nodded to Jessamyn. He hated to leave, but if he
didn't he would be late. "No problem. Now, if you'll excuse me, I must be
off. I have a class in twenty minutes. " He grinned at her and then said,
"Au revoir, Jessamyn."
She rolled her eyes. "Good-bye,"
she called after him as he walked out of the cafe. He stopped in front of the
window outside and smiled, and then waved before he scampered off for good.
Jessamyn grinned, her heart fluttering unexpectedly.
*****
After work, late that night, Jessamyn was at
home getting ready for dinner when she heard the doorbell ring. She set down
the glass of water she had been holding and made her way to the door, confused
as to who it might be. She didn't really know anyone that would stop by like
this.
When she opened the door, she was shocked to
see Charlie standing in front of her. He had a big, ridiculous smile on his
face and was carrying a stack of papers in his hands.
"Hey," he greeted her. "You
have a minute?"
"Yeah, come in," Jessamyn said,
excited, but still confused by his unexpected visit. The chicken was going to
have to wait! Charlie must have something important to show her if he was just
dropping by. She moved aside to let him through, and then closed the door
behind him. "What brings you to my humble home? And how did you know where
I lived?"
"I got Billy to tell me what building
you lived in, then I just asked the man downstairs, who by the way is not very
nice, which apartment you were in." He turned his back to her as he did
this, and she used this time to straighten up. Inwardly, she groaned; she
didn't want him seeing her in the dirty, ugly old apron she had on. Or the
grungy dress, but that couldn't be helped. And her hair! Why couldn't it be
tame for once? She frantically tried to smooth it down with her hands. He
turned around just as she had finished, and she smiled.
"Oh," Jessamyn mumbled, feeling a
little stupid as they just stood there; he probably had known what she had been
doing. She didn't know why she was acting to silly around him. It was just
Charlie. She shook her head and cleared her throat before motioning to her
couch. "Here, sit down. Do you want something to drink?"
"Nah, that's okay. Thanks," Charlie
said as he sat. He waved her over, that silly smile still on his face.
"Come here."
Jessamyn came over and sat down next to him,
still wondering what on earth this was all about.
"I have here," Charlie excitedly
went on to say, "the list of all the registered voters in the city last
year." He raised his eyebrows and grinned. "Care to take a
look?"
Her jaw dropped as she reached over and took
half of the stack of papers. "How on earth did you get this?" she
asked, amazed at what he had just walked in with. Without waiting for an
answer, she began to frantically search through names that adorned the paper.
"I know a girl that works for the
auditor. She's kind of on his good side, if you know what I mean." Charlie
looked over and gave Jessamyn a teasing smile. "Anyway, I dropped by and
asked if she could get the lists for me."
Jessamyn looked at him, totally shocked.
"Wow," she breathed. "I didn't even know that they kept these
kinds of lists. This is so great!" She smiled at him and then went back to
searching for the page that contained the D last names.
"I didn't know either," Charlie
explained as he watched her excitedly look. "But apparently they do. It's
just the names. It doesn't say how the person voted." Jessamyn nodded to acknowledge
him, but she didn't look up or say anything. Charlie sat there for a moment
before it occurred to him that he should be looking as well. "Um, what
name am I looking for?"
Jessamyn looked up and gave him an apologetic
look. "Oh, I forgot, sorry. You're looking for a Rose Dawson."
"All right," he mumbled to himself,
as he started to search through the papers like Jessamyn was. It was quiet for
a few minutes as they looked at their sets. Jessamyn began to get frustrated as
she flipped and flipped but couldn't even find the D's. It seemed as if there
were a million last names that started with A, and then just as many B's. And
then, her stack of papers ended with C's. She must have handed Charlie the list
she needed.
"Did you find anything?" she asked
a few minutes after she finished with her lists. She was becoming restless.
This was going to give her a good idea if Rose was still around or not. And
with no new leads in weeks, this would certainly be a fortunate find if she
were indeed on the list.
Charlie held his index finger and ran his
other one down the list. He started nodding and smiling at the same time.
"I've got the D's," he said after a moment, shocking Jessamyn with
the excitement that was in his voice.
Jessamyn's eyes brightened and she quickly
moved closer to Charlie, so that she could look over his shoulder. She tried to
ignore the little spark of electricity she felt when her head softly bumped
against his body. All she wanted to concentrate on was Rose.
They were both scanning the list when
suddenly Jessamyn's eyes suddenly saw something. She gasped and excitedly
pointed it a name three-fourths of the way down the page. Dawson, Rose was
printed right there, in bold black letters. Her hand flew to her mouth and her
eyes filled with unexpected tears. Her mother's name stared back at her like a
treasure chest that she had just opened. Proof that Rose was still here was now
hers.
When she finally found her voice again, she
thanked Charlie profusely, to which he just laughed. He was embarrassed over
the fuss she was making, and started to blush.
"It was nothing, Jess," he mumbled
modestly.
Jessamyn shook her head and threw her arms
around his neck. "I don't think so," she said, before kissing his
cheek. "It's one of the nicest things anyone has done for me in a long
time."
Charlie was even more flushed now as he wiped
off the place where she had kissed him. He didn't know what to say anymore. And
maybe that was a good thing, because Jessamyn had gone off talking about all
the things that she was sure of now and of all the plans she had. He had
stopped listening until she burst forth and said, "Come to the library
with me tomorrow."
"What?"
"In all those detective stories, the
people always find something at the library," she explained as her face
lit up. "Oh, this is so great, Charlie! I don't know why I didn't think of
it before."
He just stared at Jessamyn. She was a little
more excited then he had expected her to be. In fact, she was a little
ecstatic, and it almost worried him. He didn't know if this library idea of
hers was going to work, but he would love to spend more time with her. So he
shrugged his shoulders and said, "What the heck. I will go with you. What
do you say to ten o'clock?"
Jessamyn stopped fussing around and turned to
smile at him. "It sounds great. Thanks," she said truthfully.
Charlie shrugged again, amidst gathering the
list together. After he was finished, he stood up and came over to her.
"No problem," he said, making her grin. "Now, if you excuse me,
I must be going." He gave her an affectionate tug on the ear, and then
started across the room toward the door. "I'll see you tomorrow?" he
asked as he opened the door.
Jessamyn nodded and leaned against the
doorframe as he stepped out into the hall. "Yeah. Thanks again."
Charlie smiled at her. "Okay. Good
night, then."
"Bye," Jessamyn said softly, before
closing the door with a soft click. Her heart was so full of excitement that
she thought it might burst. Rose was alive and, as far as they could tell, was
still living here in Santa Monica. It was so amazing, she could hardly believe
it. And she owed so much of it to Charlie now. She softly laughed to herself
for no real reason. She just felt like it. Things were turning out so well, and
she couldn't be more thrilled.