SAVE ALL WHO DARE THE EAGLE’S FLIGHT
Chapter Eleven
Rose did not leave us, not until
the party was over. I seethed whenever I so much as caught a glimpse of her red
hair or decorated wrist, clapping in time to the music. She couldn’t possibly understand
the music, not the way we did. I danced more than I ever had before that night,
just to escape her. She was always as kind as could be whenever I was pulled
back to the table; she would try to make small talk while I swigged on a beer
and I always gave her short answers, conniving one of the other fellows to
dance with me. I was selfish and spiteful, but such is the way of young girls.
We can be nasty things, we females.
Bjorn tired quickly that night,
although I’m sure a great deal of it was attributed to Rose. Even Bjorn, my
sensible, impossible-to-understand newfound friend, was infatuated with her. I
decided right then and there that I should be rewarded in heaven for putting up
with so many stupid men falling over themselves for one measly girl. I had
found out through our conversations that she was seventeen—only a year older
than me. She wasn’t even a full woman yet. Jealousy burned at every inch of me,
and it only died down when I was away from her.
Timmy provided a wonderful
distraction—he was keen on dancing with me, since Rose apologetically informed
him that she couldn’t dance--no surprises there, so we dipped and whirled
around the room until I could no longer support him. Even then, we settled over
in a corner with Kathleen and Nora, neither of whom had any inclination to
visit with Rose. When Timmy began to nod off, as did Nora, Kathleen apologized
profusely and led them off to bed. Now I was left without a partner or even
someone to talk to, something I could not abide. I had to brave all and go back
to face her. No matter how hard I prayed, she was still there, still laughing
and clapping in time to the music and sipping daintily from the beers Tommy so
generously kept providing--he was strangely willing to get them tonight.
When I made my way to the table,
fighting against the current of people, Rose was sitting there with Tommy,
Bjorn, and Olaus; Helga and Fabrizio had been dancing the whole night and were
unlikely to stop anytime soon. The first thing I noticed was that Rose was still
there. The second thing I noticed was that Jack was missing. This was not good.
"Where’s Jack?" I
asked, trying to sound calm and laughing instead of frustrated and worried like
I really was.
"Over there," Tommy
bellowed, having to cup his hand around his mouth. He jerked his head at the
table behind him, where Jack was talking animatedly to the Cartmells. A moment
later, he led little Cora out to the dance floor and began to dance with her.
"Where’ve ye been?"
Tommy asked loudly.
"With Timmy. He had to go to
bed," I answered.
"What?"
"Timmy!"
"Who’s Timmy?" Rose
interjected. I had to keep myself from glaring at her.
"The little boy I was
with," I responded.
"What?" she asked,
unable to hear.
"The little boy I was
with!" I shouted, exasperated that I had to repeat myself so often
tonight--the lads, being idiots, always got a table near the band. Well, that
and the fact that I really just didn’t like communicating with Rose at all.
"Oh!"
God, I hated her.
Olaus asked me something, which I
had thought was in Swedish.
"What?" I asked,
shouting.
"You dance, uh?" he
asked, louder.
"Oh, yeah!" I said,
nodding enthusiastically as the last song died down. I pulled on Olaus’ hand,
thrilled I had a dancing partner and an escape from her highness. "Play us
a fast one, Eugene!" I called to the leader of the band, laughing for no
particular reason as he grinned and complied. Olaus wasn’t Bjorn, but he was
still a rather good dancer. I had grown used to the certain way he held my
waist by now, the almost-but-not-quite stiff way in which he danced. I
couldn’t, of course, understand anything he gabbled about, but I’m pretty sure
he enjoyed himself just as much as I did, if not more. For a time, I was able
to forget about Rose.
When I glanced over at Jack,
expecting to see him with Cora, I was shocked and somewhat hurt to see him
pulling Rose off of her chair and into his arms. I clenched my jaw but,
remembering that Olaus would most likely notice, I released it and forced a
smile, laughing loudly when he twirled me. The others expected me to play a gay
little girl full of laughs and jokes, and so I would play the part. Olaus
didn’t seem to notice, though; he, like many others, was watching Jack and Rose
prance all over the room. It sickened me to watch them, so I pointed at the
table where Helga and Fabrizio were showing off. It distracted Olaus—until Jack
pulled Rose onto the table as well.
Everyone has, at some point in
their life, encountered a girl who is young, loud, thinks the world revolves
around her, and will do practically anything to have as many eyes as possible
focused on her. This was how I perceived Rose at that moment. Jack, after
pushing his unruly hair back, began to tap out a little jig that I recognized
from England. Some tipsy Irishmen that we had met in a pub one night were
shocked we didn’t know any jigs and so proceeded to teach us. Jack was
displaying his talent for jigs now on the table for all to see. That part was
fine; it was Rose’s bit that bothered me. Of course, Jack had to pull her up on
the table so that everyone could see her attempt to be one of us.
Rose laughed, took off her shoes
and actually tossed them at some woman nearby. I recall that my mouth fell open
at her audacity; really, it was just rude of her to expect that we were all
born and raised to be servants. The woman accepted them with good grace,
setting them down on the bench. Rose proceeded to hike up her skirts well past
her shins--I was shocked that she would do something considered so scandalous
by her kind--and imitate Jack’s jig. I have to grudgingly admit that she wasn’t
bad, but the fact that she seemed so…so perfect…it annoyed me. Perhaps it was
jealousy, something I would never have admitted at the time. Rose was rich,
gorgeous, and she seemed to attract everyone to her—especially Jack. The more
his heart swelled for her, the more mine wilted.
After a few more steps, they
linked arms in imitation of Helga and Fabrizio, who were in their own little
world, and everyone of course clapped and cheered like they were watching a
baseball game. In a few moments, they had clasped hands and begun to spin in a
circle, gradually growing faster. As they both made whoops of glee, a less
generous part of me wished she would slip on her stockings and fall. That
injury would be difficult to explain to the fiancé.
"Oh, well, I was down at a
steerage party and I was dancing on a table with the poor boy we brought to
dinner, and since I wasn’t wearing any shoes, I slipped and fell!"
They hopped down from the table
after awhile and continued to dance around the crowd, caught up in themselves.
I was unwilling to get anywhere near them, so I returned to the table with
Olaus. He said something to Bjorn, who protested for a moment before heaving
himself out of his seat and going. I think Olaus tried to explain what had just
transpired, but he was less adept at communicating than his cousin and so gave
up after awhile. We set up a game of blackjack--Tommy was in a generous mood
tonight--and for a time, I forgot about the pest.
To men like Tommy Ryan, nothing
is accidental. They are convinced that every man--they would never blame a
female unless she was a sister--has an ulterior motive behind his every action
and they love to find someone to blame. That was why, when an energetic couple
caused Bjorn to crash into the back of my chair and slosh beer all over me,
Tommy lunged forward and grabbed Bjorn by the front of the shirt and said,
"You stupid bastard!"
Believe me, I was fine. I mean, I
would have preferred not to have any beer on me at all, but what was done was
done, and as they say, there’s no use crying over spilled milk. Spilled beer,
rather. I don’t think Tommy was actually defending my honor or whatever it is
that gentlemen do—it was more that he was bored and looking for an excuse to
get involved in something. When Bjorn spilled beer all over me, it was a rather
reasonable excuse. Bjorn, probably not understanding why Tommy was suddenly
scowling and bellowing at him, set down the beers and raised his fists to
defend himself. I knew that they probably wouldn’t really fight, and even if
they did, they would punch each other a couple of times and then laugh it off
over a beer. Men are like that. However, I wanted to be safe rather than sorry,
so I leapt in between them, one hand on each of their chests. "Boys, boys!
Did I ever tell you the one about the Swede and the Irishman going to the
whorehouse?"
The scowls on their faces and
their puffed up chests brought two words to mind--piss and vinegar. That was all
I could think of when looking at them at that moment. Then they suddenly broke
into grins and Tommy held up his arm, his hand cupped slightly. I wasn’t sure
what he was doing--although I should have, considering I’ve very rarely been
under the influence of feminine company, but Bjorn understood, and so the two
of them sat down at the table, facing one another, and locked hands in an
arm-wrestling match. It was not long before a small crowd had collected around
them and we were all cheering them on; even Maggie left her place near her
husband’s band and watched the fun. As I had before, I cheered for whoever was
winning; so far, the odds were leaning in Bjorn’s direction, judging from
Tommy’s red, screwed-up face.
I hardly noticed when Jack and
Rose approached, so concentrated was I on the match. I was aware that Jack
snagged two of the beers, but other than that, I completely ignored them.
Finally, Tommy’s hand crashed to the table, covered by Bjorn’s. Some drinks
were spilled and glasses knocked onto their sides, but there was no real
damage. Bjorn let out a sort of growling noise of victory, causing those who
had been rooting for him to let out their own triumphant noises. Those who had
been rooting for Tommy groaned, patting him on the back as if to say better
luck next time.
Tommy would have none of it,
however.
"Two out of three! Two out
of three!" he insisted, holding up two fingers.
Bjorn smirked and grasped his
hand again, preparing to win a second and third time.
"So," Rose interjected,
setting down her beer. Damn her. We were all getting along fine. We had been
enjoying a pleasant arm-wrestling match. And then she came to ruin it.
"You think you’re big tough men?" she asked, plucking Tommy’s
cigarette right out of his mouth and smoking it. My hatred for her increased
tenfold. "Let’s see you do this!" And with that, she reached down and
grabbed a handful of skirt. "Hold it up for me, Jack. Hold it up!"
she commanded imperiously.
Jack, being left with no other
choice, held up the shimmering skirts, shrugging at the rest of us. What was
she doing? Even the meretricious whores in the streets of Whitechapel were more
discreet with their business—they, at least, only showed their
poorly-stockinged legs in the privacy of a dark alleyway. Rose raised her arms
slowly, as if in a trance. Her closed eyes only added to the effect. Suddenly,
she was standing on the points of her toes. I was so shocked--as was everyone
else--that I couldn’t even form a spiteful thought. Her face bunched up in
pain, and after a few seconds, she cried out and collapsed into the arms of a
quick-moving Jack.
"Jesus, Mary, and
Joseph," Maggie declared in wonderment as some of the lads laughed and
clapped each other on the backs. Even when they did nothing, they felt the need
to congratulate each other.
"Are you all right?" I
heard Jack ask the drunkenly giggling Rose. I don’t see why she wouldn’t be;
she was enjoying all the attention.
"I haven’t done that in
years!" she exclaimed, laughing some more.
"Go see Maggie, lads! Give
her the holley! Let’s go!" Eugene could be heard shouting to his fellow
band members.
"Ho!" some of them
shouted in return, obviously recognizing the tune.
A train of people began to form;
first with a Scandinavian man I didn’t know and a very blonde Swedish girl, then
with Helga and Fabrizio, the latter of whom grabbed Rose’s hand, who in turn
grabbed Jack’s hand. Not to be outdone, I snatched up Tommy and Bjorn’s hands
and yanked them to the line before they could even figure out what was going
on. Everyone in the line was laughing and whooping; not even the scowling,
arm-wrestling Tommy could hide the fun he was having. A space cleared out for
us and we fell into a circle, clapping our hands and constantly moving with the
music. Someone was always in the center, either alone or with a partner,
showing off their dancing prowess.
Surprisingly, it was Bjorn who
pulled me to the center. We spun and twirled to the point where we were
definitely showing off, but then again, so was everyone else. Although everyone
clapped and cheered whenever anyone performed a step, I still glowed as we were
applauded. Bjorn ended by tossing me up in the air amid my laughing squeals.
When we fell back into our spot, he said something to Tommy, grinning. I don’t
know what it was between them, but they obviously knew when one was challenging
the other, because Tommy grinned back and grabbed my wrist, making as if to run
into the middle. I was out of breath but pleased; I loved being fought over,
even if it technically wasn’t really fighting over me. We never got the
chance—Jack and Rose ran out. Of course.
They weren’t really doing much of
anything; even now, at a considerably more mature and wiser age and with far
less dislike of her than I felt then, I know that they were only cheered on because
she was adorned like a Tudor and from a world that was equally foreign to us.
It was all I could do not to grimace—I was sure that my disgust of her would
damage my jaw if I wasn’t careful. Finally, Jack stepped away with an overdone
flourish, gesturing as if for her to make a curtsy. Tipsy as she was--and
believe me, that girl was tipsy, Rose managed to sweep into a graceful ballet
plie, her feet turned out perfectly as if she was from a painting and not real
life. Of course this caused everyone to burst into laughs and applause while
she giddily skipped back to her place with Jack. Fabrizio and Helga jumped in
next, whirling each other around; apparently, she was stronger than he was.
This, of course, amused Tommy and I, who laughed when Fabrizio almost lost his
footing with a wide-eyed expression.
After other men or pairs of
sisters or couples had shown off--Tommy had whipped me around so fiercely that
I laughingly swore my neck would kill me the next day, the circle closed in
until it was gone completely and everyone was dancing in a chaotic mass again.
We returned to the table, our feet sore from our exertions. Jack was forced to
go locate Rose’s shoes, which took a little bit and so left us Rose-less for a
few moments. I was extremely happy about this.
I can’t quite remember who it
was, but someone started to belt out Come, Josephine, in My Flying Machine.
The rest of us liked this song so well that we all began to sing it. I should
probably note that the combined voices of foreign tongues, strange accents,
drunken slurs, and some who could simply not sing--I was among that
percentile--does not produce the most glamorous effect, but we still had a
wonderful time shouting out the words, our faces red from the alcohol, the
dancing, and the singing. When the singing had died down to only a few tipsy
men mumbling it, Rose asked if anyone knew the time. It took awhile to locate
someone with a pocket watch; our table consisted of those who were far too poor
to own something. Finally, we found a man who pulled out a bronze, battered
watch and declared that it was 11:30.
"Is it really?" I
asked, suddenly yawning. It felt like it should be much later—half-past eleven
seemed far too early.
Rose’s already porcelain face
paled somewhat. She said something to Jack, and when he announced that he was
going to walk Rose back to her room, I had to stop myself from beaming.
Finally, the vixen was leaving our midst! I hoped that the next three nights
would be sans Rose; one night with her was quite enough for me. The lads all
lamented the fact that she had to go, telling her that it had been a damn good
time, damn good. I was forced to also note that I was sorry she couldn’t stay
longer. It’s a very good thing Jack couldn’t tell I was lying right through my
teeth; if he had, I’m sure he would have been upset with me for the rest of the
voyage. They made their way to the stairwell and disappeared up it.
"Jack’s one hell of a lucky
bastard," Tommy noted, lighting up a fresh cigarette.
I scoffed. "Please. I don’t
see why he’s so infatuated with her; she’s just a girl. And just because she’s
first class doesn’t make her Queen Victoria. Her head was full of air!"
"Aw, lay off her, Ang. Just
because Jack’s smitten with her doesn’t mean ye need ter get all riled
up," Tommy said wearily, momentarily removing his cigarette to take a swig
of beer.
My mouth fell open at that. Out
of all the sour, pessimistic things I had expected to come out of his mouth,
that was most definitely not one of them. I remember stuttering like an idiot
for a moment before finally forming coherent words. "What? But I…why do
you say that?"
Tommy and Fabrizio exchanged
glances, their lips curling up in a smile. Even Helga and the Gundersons were
smiling as if they knew something.
"Well, lass, ye are kind
of…taken…with him," Tommy said slowly, more to savor the words than
because he didn’t want to upset me.
"I…oh, God," I groaned,
putting my face in my hands.
"It’s-a okay, Angie,"
Fabrizio consoled me, patting my back carefully.
"I must look like a complete
idiot."
"No, you a-don’t,"
Fabrizio assured me, his pats sympathetic.
"Jack hasn’t noticed, if
that’s what yer so worked up about," Tommy said calmly, as if discussing
the weather.
"He hasn’t?" I asked hopefully,
raising my head and causing Fabrizio to cease his commiserating patting.
"Nah; he’s too caught up
with that Rose lass," Tommy said in that same monotonous tone.
My face must have fallen, because
he promptly laughed. "Ah, ye know better’n ter listen ter me, lassie. Nah,
I know that’s not why."
I chewed on my lip for a moment.
"So…you’re not going to…tell him or anything, are you?"
Tommy scoffed, looking annoyed.
"O’ course not! I’m a prick, but I’m not that bad of one. Are we,
Fabri?"
"We won’t a-let him know,
Angie," Fabrizio promised, giving me a smile before turning to Helga.
"Well…thanks," I
muttered, gulping down some beer. I winced. "Ugh; it’s stale."
Tommy reached over and tasted it.
"Aye," he nodded. "Much like the beer all over ye."
I looked down at my beer-drenched
attire and laughed. "To tell you the truth, I completely forgot about
that!" I admitted. "I was too preoccupied tonight to give it much
thought!"
"Yeah," Tommy agreed.
He paused for a moment. "Because you were too busy sulking."
I scoffed, turning red. "I
was not sulking!"
"Ye were sulking, and
unattractively, at that, I might add."
"I was not!"
"Ye were, too, and ye damn
well know it."
"I wasn’t!"
"Ye were."
"Wasn’t!"
"Were."
"Oh, hush up, the pair o’
ye." Maggie, who was passing by, laughed as we looked like ashen-faced
children.
"Where are the
Cartmells?" I yawned, glancing around the room. I was ready to go to bed.
"I dunno; I think they
already left," Tommy shrugged.
"Really?" I asked,
perplexed. Not that I was offended or anything; I perfectly understood that
they wanted to go to bed, and they certainly didn’t need to wait on me. But
even so, it inexplicably surprised me.
"Aye. Why, ye thinkin’ o’
goin’ ter bed?" Tommy asked, a small smirk showing on his face.
"Maybe," I admitted.
"Aw, come on; you can’t tell me you’re not tired, too!"
"I am, a bit," Tommy
conceded, nodding. "O’ course, I can always sleep in; there’s not much ter
do on a ship."
"If you sleep in, you won’t
get anything good for breakfast," I reminded him.
"Ah…ye have a point
there," Tommy agreed, stretching.
The Dahls came to collect Helga
presently, barely able to contain their contempt for Fabrizio. There was no
real reason for us to stay around much longer, so the lot of us gradually
dispersed to bed. I’m afraid that I opened the door of the cabin without
thinking; thus, I was accosted by an image of Bert changing. I let out a little
yelp and closed the door quickly, my face beet red. After a few moments, the
door was opened by Emmy, who was already in a nightgown.
"Angie, dear! I’m so sorry,
darling; Cora fell asleep on Bert’s shoulder and you looked like you were
having such a good time that we didn’t want to bother you—"
"Oh, no, it’s fine," I
assured her. "Really."
"Well, I’ll send Bert
outside for a tick," Emmy said warmly, chivvying her husband, who was clad
in only his pajamas and a worn bathrobe, out of the cabin.
Cora, who must have woken up
since falling asleep on Bert’s shoulder, sat up in bed and wrinkled her nose,
sniffing. "Why do you smell like beer? I mean, you really smell like
beer!"
I had grown accustomed to the way
I smelled, and I realized I must have been stinking up the entire cabin.
"I’m sorry; Bjorn accidentally spilled beer all over me."
"Well, let’s get it washed
out," Emmy said brightly, helping me undress. She rinsed out my things in
the water basin while I put on a nightgown and then she wetted a brush, running
it through my sticky hair. The beer was soon mostly washed out of my clothes
and hair, so we climbed into bed and called to Bert through the door that he
could come in. I don’t even remember him opening the door; I was more tired
than I had thought and I fell asleep before I could properly settle into the
bunk.