SAVE ALL WHO DARE THE EAGLE’S FLIGHT
Chapter Four
"So, tell us about this
kiss, Angie."
When Jack and Fabrizio woke up
the next morning, they had enormous hangovers. They weren’t as bad off as I had
been my first time—they managed to pull themselves out of bed and beg me to get
them coffee. When I came back, they were fully dressed and, even though their
eyes were a little bloodshot, they otherwise seemed fine. After we had turned
in our room keys, we traveled down the Seine until we came to Dijon. From
there, we sneaked onto a train that took us to Toulouse. There we found a man
with a cartful of hay. His name was Felipe and he was going back home to Spain.
He agreed to take us to his village for a reasonable fee, so we climbed into
the back and nestled in the hay. We had been like that for quite some time when
Jack prompted me to tell them both about my kiss with Yves.
"What about it?" I
asked, pulling some hay out of my hair.
"Aw, come on, Angie! This
was your first kiss! Tell us about it," Jack urged, a malicious glint in
his eyes.
I couldn’t help but smile at
Fabrizio’s eagerly mischievous expression.
"Well…he walked me back to
the room and said good-bye…"
"Aw," the boys chorused
at the same time. It was like they had rehearsed this or something.
I didn’t really mind; like any
teenage girl, I loved the attention. I stuck out my tongue, grinning. "And
then he just…kissed me."
"What? Just like that?"
Jack asked, sounding genuinely interested.
I shrugged. "Yeah. It was
kind of sudden, but..."
"He didn’t strike me as that
type of guy," Jack said, more to himself than to Fabrizio and I.
"What do you mean by
that?" I asked, huffing a little. Even if I didn’t like Yves as much as I
had thought, he was my first kiss. Although the kiss itself hadn’t been as
wonderful and romantic as everyone had promised it would be--don’t even get me
started on those silly dime novels going on about it--there was still some sort
of sacredness about my first kiss.
Jack and Fabrizio shared a look
that made my heart sink. They had been talking again—without me. What was worse
was the fact that they were talking about me. Well, about Yves, but talking
about him basically involved talking about me, didn’t it?
"Anyway…uh…what was it like?"
Jack asked, adopting his usual casual air.
I bit my lip. "Cold," I
decided after a minute.
They collapsed in giggles. Well,
Fabrizio giggled; Jack laughed.
"Well, we had just come from
outside," I defended half-heartedly, feeling a smile tug at my own lips.
"Is he…ah…French, through
and through?" Jack asked a minute later, his face contorting in laughter
he was trying and failing to suppress.
"What do you mean by
that?" I asked, utterly nonplussed.
This set Jack off again.
"Really, what?" I
asked, turning to Fabrizio, who was silently shaking with suppressed laughter.
"What he means is…uh…"
Fabrizio let out a tiny giggle. "Did Yves use his…tongue?"
I must have gone pale, or red,
either one, because Jack roared with laughter at my face.
"What? No! Ugh! You’re a
creep, Jack Dawson!" I shouted, whacking Jack on the back as he rolled
around on the bottom of the wagon, laughing.
Felipe, who had been ignoring us
ever since we scrambled into the back of his wagon, muttered something
incomprehensible in Spanish.
*****
Felipe’s village was just three
miles from the Spanish-French border, so the day after we arrived there, we
walked to the train station, which was a good five miles away, and sneaked into
one of the empty cars that had some crates stacked up in the corners. The train
unknowingly carried us all the way to Barcelona, where we stayed for five
weeks. In Barcelona, we vowed not to enslave ourselves like we had in Paris.
Well, Fabrizio and I did.
Barcelona was indeed warmer than
Paris. It was still chilly, but it was a vast improvement over the freezing
cold weather of Paris. There was an abandoned barn just on the outskirts of the
city that we took to sleeping in for the five weeks that we were there. The hay
was usually itchy and uncomfortable, but coats and jackets that we weren’t
using served as comfortable mats. Jack loved drawing the people there; they
were so full of life, of passion. We found an obscure little bar one night
where the music was wild and frenetic, even better than that of Les Augustine.
The girls danced in full, colorful skirts, radiating a rare kind of beauty.
It was in Barcelona that I met
Pablo. I couldn’t keep this one secret; I was almost always in the company of Jack
and Fabrizio. Pablo was my age and enthralled by Jack’s drawings. More often
than not, Fabrizio and I would find the two of them sitting on a street corner,
sketching the various people at the marketplace. Pablo stayed with his uncle,
who disappeared into the bars late into the night and slept well into the
afternoon. His business was kept a secret—Pablo confided that he thought his
uncle was doing something illegal. Therefore, Pablo spent most of his day with
us.
The first time I met Pablo, I was
frustratedly trying to buy some fruit from a vendor. I can’t even remember what
the fruit was; all I know was that I wanted it and the vendor didn’t understand
me and I didn’t understand him. At all. And then out came Pablo, speaking
rapidly to the vendor. The man nodded and had this look of realization before
turning to get it. Pablo turned then and grinned at me. "You do not speak
Spanish, sì?"
I shook my head. "No, I
don’t."
The vendor handed me what I had
asked for ten minutes ago and I paid him the due amount. I had thought that
that would be the end of it, but Pablo kept walking beside me. I’m not sure if
this is common knowledge or not, but the Spanish tend to get very close when
they want to talk to you. You can smell their breath. It’s not exactly a bad
thing; it’s just a little surprising when you turn around or look up and
they’re right in your face.
"My name is Pablo
Montoya," he said, his face so close to mine that I caught a whiff of
jalapenos he had no doubt had for lunch. I would have shaken his hand had one
of mine been empty.
"Angie Marshall," I
returned, backing up as much as could be considered polite.
Pablo walked with me all the way
to the abandoned barn we were sleeping in. His English was rather good;
apparently, his mother had taught him when he was young. And though I know I
may sound awful and shallow when I say it, I liked him better than Yves. Pablo
wanted to see the world. He told me that he would get up and leave at any hour
of the day, so long as he was not alone. He liked Barcelona, but he wanted to
leave. He felt the music.
Jack and Fabrizio liked him, too.
Jack loved having another artist to talk to and Fabrizio and Pablo found one
another entertaining. I didn’t act like such an idiot around Pablo as I had
around Yves—I was truly comfortable around him, just like my two boys. Pablo
came to visit our musty old barn often and he was always taking us to some bar
where there was lots of drinking, dancing, and fun. Pablo showed
me--somewhat--how to dance like the Spanish girls and I taught him how to play
blackjack. We often found ourselves holding hands without thinking, something
Jack and Fabrizio were quick to pick up on.
"I like Pablo," Jack
declared one day after Pablo had visited. "He’s better than Evie."
"Yves," I sighed. Jack
still called Yves Evie. "And yes, I like to think so. He would probably
come with us wherever we went, you know."
"Yeah. I like the kid. When
we leave, whenever that will be, we’ll take him with us," Jack decided.
"Are we talking about a
person or a dog?" I asked.
Jack threw a handful of hay at
me.
*****
As it turned out, Pablo was the
one who suggested we leave.
"My uncle has spent all of
our money! The men he works for will come for him soon, and they will come for
me, too, if I am there," Pablo announced after bursting into the barn one
night.
"Then we’ll go," Jack
decided firmly.
And so we did. Pablo sneaked a
few meager possessions from his house that night before joining us at the train
station. We sneaked onto yet another train. The conductors never checked the
last cars, where we were; the authorities in Spain were considerably more lax
about stowaways than any other country I’ve ever been to. The four of us made
the car as cozy as comfortable, using our coats for beds again. By now, the
weather had warmed up, so we left one of the doors open most of the time to see
the gorgeous scenery. It was truly breathtaking. We didn’t find out until we
got off the train, but Jack’s nineteenth birthday came and went in that train
car. We had lost track of time and forgotten that it was April twenty-ninth.
One night--I think it was Jack’s
birthday, actually--I found myself unable to sleep. It wasn’t unusual; I’ve
never been an easy sleeper. So I did what most girls my age caught up in
romantic fantasies would do; I sat on the edge of the train car with my feet
dangling over the side and admired the midnight sky. It really is something to
see. Presently, I was joined by Pablo. We sat there for a good long while in
complete silence, just staring at the stars. I was silly and romantic—a million
things were running through my head at that point. But I kept quiet.
Finally, I trusted myself enough
to speak. "It’s very beautiful here. The sky was nothing like this in
America or France. I don’t think even Italy was this beautiful." You see
why I’ve never been adept at the art of conversation.
"It is very beautiful,"
he agreed. "I once heard that the stars are all the same, no matter where
you go. They…travel with you. I like that."
"Me, too," I said
automatically. I did. It was somehow warming to know that even if you were
completely lost and had no clue where in the world you were, you could still
look up at the stars and they would be the same. Doesn’t that strike a chord
somewhere within?
I remember looking down and
realizing that our hands were intertwined, something that happened often and
usually without our knowledge of just how we ended up like that. Pablo must
have looked down, too, because we both looked up at the same time and our eyes
met. It was the kind of moment you read about in those shoddy dime novels or
see in paintings; the often used moment where two people’s eyes meet and a
certain frisson passes between them. I would have laughed if it were anyone
else; at the moment, I wasn’t about to laugh.
Pablo’s hand came out to toy with
one of my mousy locks of hair then, and I knew what was coming. The part of me
that wasn’t fully concentrated on Pablo vaguely wondered if his kisses were
cold and quick like Yves’s were. I closed my eyes when we were only inches
apart and found out. Pablo’s lips were warm and soft and so nice. And, unlike
Yves, he used his tongue. The funny thing is, I didn’t feel any remorse or
awkwardness. Maybe I was finally no longer in love with Jack. Yes, Pablo had
definitely found a place that no other man had yet taken.
By the time we hopped off the
train in Madrid, Jack and Fabrizio were well aware that little Angie was
growing up. They didn’t tease Pablo and me as much as I had originally thought;
mind you, though, they did tease us.
Madrid was a rather modern city,
as it was the capital, so more people there spoke English and thus made it
easier for us to go to the market. There were no abandoned barns for us this
time, so we slept under bridges, along with some other travelers. The other
travelers were always coming and going with no real destination in mind. It’s
strange; we slept under the same bridge as perfect strangers whom we trusted
completely. Most people would think that we were crazy, but it was just how we
lived.
We stayed in Madrid for roughly
two months and enjoyed every minute of it. The weather grew so hazy and humid
that we shed our jackets and rolled up our sleeves in the fine Spanish sun.
More fruits appeared at the markets and Jack, Fabrizio, and I tasted foods we
had never even heard of before. The air was rich with the scents of spices and
flowers. The air was alive, pulsing. The days rolled sleepily by and we basked
in them serenely.
When two months had passed, Jack
announced that we had stayed in Madrid long enough and that it was time to move
on. No one had any complaints against this, so we slung our sacks over our
shoulders and sneaked onto the next northwest-bound train leaving Madrid. The
train carried us to a town called Zamora, where we were forced to get off
before we were caught. We had been in Zamora for about a week before Pablo
noted something.
"You know, my aunt and my
cousins live a few miles away. We could stay there so that we wouldn’t have to
sleep under a bridge."
Jack twirled an apple in his
hand. "Where do they live?"
"It’s called Oviedo; it’s
not far," Pablo assured him.
"We could go there," I
chirped.
"Sì, let’s go!"
Fabrizio urged.
We had to wait another week
before we got hold of a man named Salvador. When we told him we wanted to go to
Oviedo, he laughed. We had to ask Pablo to translate, and he looked hesitant
about doing so. "He…he says that in his wagon, Oviedo is days away. He can
take us as far as Palencia."
"I thought you a-said Oviedo
was less than a day away!" Fabrizio complained as we settled into
Salvador’s wagon.
"I thought it was,"
Pablo apologized. "But trust me, it is not far away. We should be able to
find passage from Palencia to Oviedo."
We reached Palencia by the end of
the day. Salvador, like many Spaniards, was very hospitable and allowed the
four of us to sleep in his home, even though Pablo was the only one who could
understand him. When we were eating breakfast the next morning, which was
provided by Maya, Salvador’s wife, Salvador came from outside and began to
speak to Pablo. Pablo turned to us after a few minutes to translate. "He
says that his brother-in-law is going to Burgos today, and there is a train
station there. The train’s first stop is Oviedo."
"Oh, thank you!
Uh…gracias," Jack said to Salvador.
"Sì; ringraziare,
signore!" Fabrizio added.
Salvador gave Fabrizio a strange
look; obviously, Italian wasn’t as close to Spanish as we had originally
thought. But he got the general gist of it and smiled uncertainly. In less than
an hour, Jack, Fabrizio, Pablo, and I all clambered into the back of the wagon
owned by Salvador’s brother-in-law. True to his word, he took us to a town
called Burgos, right to the train station. We sneaked on board again--now that
I think about it, I doubt there was a single time when we didn’t sneak onto a
train--and, within two days, we were at Oviedo. We had to run for it; we think
that someone at the station there may have seen us. But we escaped unharmed.
It was rather easy from that
point on; Pablo merely inquired of various people who were out and about where
his aunt was. It only took three people to direct us down the road to a small
little house with some chickens walking around in the yard. They scattered as
we walked up to the door, led by Pablo, and knocked on the door. It took a few
moments before a small child opened the door and blinked at us.
The little boy asked us
something, to which Pablo replied rapidly. The little boy beamed, revealing
several missing teeth, and toddled inside, shouting, "Mama! Mama!" We
followed him into a sitting room of sorts, where a woman who was heavily with
child was trying to hush a fussy child. She looked extremely surprised as the
little boy babbled something. Pablo stepped forward and added something, to
which the woman beamed and embraced him warmly.
Jack, Fabrizio, and I stood there
for a long time, waiting patiently as Pablo and his aunt spoke in rapid
Spanish. After they had properly been reacquainted, she turned to us and
smiled. "Welcome! Welcome to my home!"
Anita’s English was very good,
and so we had hardly any communication problems. She had five
children--Diego--the little boy who had greeted us at the door--Beatriz,
Consuelo, Teresita--the fussy child she had been soothing when we first walked
in--and the baby, Javier. We were welcome to stay with them, according to
Anita, and we did stay for several months. When we were starting to feel that
it was time to go, Anita was so far along that I argued we couldn’t very well
walk out on a woman about to give birth. We spent a good few hours arguing
before Jack and Fabrizio agreed to stay as well. It was the first argument I
had won with the two of them, and I flaunted the fact whenever I could.
Anita went into labor on a dull
September morning not long after I had won the fight. I had never witnessed a
woman giving birth before, nor did I ever want to, so I played with the
children and burped Javier occasionally with Jack and Fabrizio while Pablo ran
to get the midwife. Several women who didn’t understand a lick of English also
came to help out with the birth. It lasted well into the night, by which time
the children had fallen asleep. It was for the best, now that I think back on
it; the child Anita had been carrying was a stillborn.
We stayed with Anita for another
month. It was the first child she had lost. She was confined to her bed for
three weeks, during which time the four of us had to run the household. I knew
that Jack and Fabrizio wanted to leave, and to be brutally honest, I would have
been more than happy to go as well. But every time I looked at Pablo, his
pained face made me feel duty-bound to stay. I didn’t like it much; as I’ve
said before, I’m not one to stay in one place. Running a household made me feel
like a normal woman, something I did not want to be; I would have been a man, had
I been able to determine my gender before my birth.
When a month had passed and Anita
was moving around the house again, Pablo approached Jack, Fabrizio, and I one
day. "My aunt says that Gijón is only a few miles away. You can get
passage to England from there."
We had been sitting under a tree
and I had been slumped against it, the haziness of the afternoon making me feel
more tired than I really was. I sat up straight. "What do you mean by you?
You’re coming with us, aren’t you?"
It was one of those horrible
moments when you ask a question and only as you ask it do you realize the
answer, and not the answer you want. I looked around at Jack and Fabrizio to
gauge their reactions, only to be further disappointed. The looks they were
giving each other…I knew at once that they had already discussed it. Why was I
never included in these conversations?
"Angie, Anita can’t run the
house by herself. She’s been having trouble for awhile now. Pablo feels that
it’s better if he stays here to take care of her and his cousins," Jack
said gently, as if I were a temperamental child.
I swallowed. "Okay." I
really wanted to storm off, but I knew that would only make them treat me like
a child even more. So I sat there and plucked up pieces of grass while Jack
sketched Beatriz and Diego romping around nearby. Pablo joined Jack a few
minutes later and Fabrizio put his cap over his eyes and fell asleep. The
stillness of the air under the tree nearly drove me crazy, but I would not
storm off juvenilely.
In two days, we were off. I won’t
disclose all that Pablo and I said before we parted; there are some things that
ought to be left private. In any case, Anita’s neighbor, Jorge, gallantly
offered to take us to Gijón in his wagon. By now, we were used to hay-filled
carts that trundled along on dirt roads, so it was rather easy to fall asleep,
especially under the hazy sun. I wish I had been able to fall asleep. But Jack
and Fabrizio weren’t tired, and if they weren’t tired, I would never get any
rest.
"Are you a-gonna miss
Pablo?" Fabrizio asked.
I gave him a look. "What a
dumb question. Of course I am."
Jack looked at me
contemplatively. "Are you gonna cry?"
I frowned. "Why would I do
that? This stuff happens."
"That’s true," Jack
acquiesced. "But it’s okay if you want to, you know. We won’t make fun of
you."
Let me make one thing clear--Jack
and Fabrizio had never once promised to not make fun of me. Then again, I had
never cried in front of them, either. I hadn’t wanted to appear weak in front
of two older boys, but I decided to keep the crying in mind next time they were
taking the mickey out of me and I didn’t like it.
We had not been in Gijón for two
days before Jack announced over a stolen dinner of chicken that he had found a small
tramp steamer whose captain had agreed to take us on. Jack figured that the
ship would eventually stop in England, for that was where most of the trade was
conducted. We boarded the tramp steamer in three days. I can’t even remember
the name of it, so insignificant was it to me. Our first port was at Brest,
France. Fabrizio had fallen ill with a rare bout of seasickness, and since he
was getting off--by the captain’s orders--so did Jack and I.
Our stay in France was short; we
sneaked onto a train bound for Cherbourg, and from there we planned to take a
ship headed for England. It was quite something to see the lady elitists in all
their finery, their regalia looking almost ridiculous. I did envy some of their
silken gowns and ornate hats, but I laughed whenever they attempted to walk
through a door with those wide hats. Cherbourg was apparently where many
wealthy families spent their time, and we were reminded strongly of the
Parisians and the visiting Americans.
In Cherbourg, we found another
tramp steamer. This one was definitely headed for England, to Plymouth. Having
been assured that Fabrizio was healthy and would not suffer seasickness again,
we arranged passage with the captain and headed for England the very next day.