Written by Rose-Arwen-Padmé
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
They were rigid, metal, and made
too much noise for my liking when stepped upon. They were lined with sharp
edges that protruded dangerously at the corners. Ultimately, they were a young
child’s nightmare to fall and scrape a knee upon—and Jack and I ascended those
stairs as fast as we could, with the grace and caution of two wild drunks.
Because Jack was in front of me,
he reached the door first. Truth be told, we both probably had no idea where in
the world this door would lead, only that it would take us to another part of
the immense ship. We’d been climbing the stairs, laughing like content
lunatics, ever since we’d escaped from the cargo bay. We couldn’t help but
stick around, hidden behind loads of luggage, to watch the reactions of the
nosy stewards as they’d vainly searched for us. We had just managed to get
hurriedly get clothed after we’d…after our…after…
I could feel the blush on my
already red cheeks growing stronger.
With my right hand in his left
grip, Jack slammed his right half of his body into the mystery door. Because of
my strong momentum, I quickly brushed past him as he paused in the doorway. The
blinding lights that had surrounded us suddenly gave way to the peaceful night
sky above. If I had been any calmer, I might have paused to marvel at the
white, glowing jewels encased in the black canvas. As it was, the only thing I
could see in my mind’s eye was the hilarious look on the two stewards’ faces
after they’d thought they discovered us. Fresh laughter bubbled forth, and I
leaned forward as the noisy sounds of my merriment came out. Jack’s own
engaging laughter echoed in conjunction with mine.
In my somewhat delirious state,
suddenly my complete focus was on the fact that Jack’s warm hand was no longer
in my own. For a few brief moments that felt much longer than they actually
were, I felt a dreadful empty, cold feeling that started in the pit of my
stomach before spreading out through my body. I wanted to witness his eyes on
me, not on the door behind us, where he had turned in a clumsy attempt to slam
the door shut. In the same exact instant when I felt selfish and spoiled for
wanting all of Jack’s attention and his constant touch, I also felt, with every
fiber of my being, like I should and could want it that way. An indescribable
sensation of not feeling like I had to make any excuses about my emotions
towards Jack caused another wave of blissful laughter from me. Well, I
suppose that’s love, I thought.
I rebelled against my body’s
momentum, and turned to wait for Jack’s touch once again. I didn’t have to wait
long for his hand to determinedly find my own. Remembering, I found the sound
of the door slamming shut, and then ricocheting back open strangely incredibly
amusing. It added fuel to my already very loud laughter. Jack, who’d given up
closing the damned thing after one attempt, took a few steps with me before
stopping. Gleefully, I understood that he was swinging me around, and I extended
my left arm as best I could, to pretend that I was flying—much like I had
earlier, when he’d soared with me on the bow of the ship during the beautiful
sunset. But it was so hard to completely extend my arm, seeing as how I was
still doubled over with endless laughter. As the noise of our hoarse,
not-too-pretty laughter echoed in my ears, I faintly heard my mother’s stiff
voice saying that we sounded like donkeys—before I promptly snuffed that voice
out of my head without another thought.
Jack, still with that beautiful
grin on his face, continued to swing me around towards his body. I very
willingly obliged, and soon we were grasping each other’s arms and pulling
closer again. I firmly gripped his forearms, and he snaked his hands around my
sides and rested them on my lower back. I jumped so high, I’d thought I’d
surely jump out of my skin—well, on the inside, that is. My internal motion of
utter shock was so hidden on the outside that I doubt Jack had any idea I’d
made any irregular movement at all. The cause of my great surprise was one
simple thing—naturalism. The realization of how natural and normal and right it
felt for Jack to hold me so very intimately, without a pause for consideration,
had hit me with a large force. I remembered what I’d thought to myself earlier,
without my mind even noticing what my heart had said. Well, I suppose that’s
love.
Love. I love this man. I love
him.
Surely I’d known it when I’d
tracked him to the bow of the ship. Surely I’d known it when his lips had first
touched mine while we’d been flying. Surely, when I asked for and allowed the
young man to draw me wearing nothing but a necklace and a coy smile, surely I’d
known it then! I must have felt the sweet tendrils of it much earlier than
that, when I had followed him into forbidden territory—the party in the third
class. And when I surrendered to my emotions and gave in to passion in the
cargo bay below…
With an internal shrug, I just
knew that I knew it now, and that was all that really mattered. And with a
slow, wide smile, I realized that I had plenty of time to tell Jack just how
much I loved him.
How could love like this possibly
be forbidden? What I feel is so raw, so real, so…right. I sighed softly
as I continued to gaze on him lovingly. All the cliché phrases that I’d read in
those senseless romance books assaulted me with a strange sense of justice that
I didn’t understand. I can’t let this go. This is so much more than some
fling, some whimsical affair on a ship to look back on forty years from now
with a timid smile and the thought, "Yes, I did that once!" I can’t
let him go.
I quickly put aside the thought
that he might be able to come with me—the absurdity of the idea that my mother
would forgive and understand me, and then accept him into our family! I laughed
gently, and sought Jack’s eyes. I’d have to make a choice. I’d have to make the
biggest decision of my entire life.
"Did you see those guys’
faces?!"
He’s so beautiful…I love
hearing his laugh. I love seeing his eyes glimmer like that.
Jack almost choked on his
laughter. "Did you see the…"
You see people, Jack. I see
you. I choose you.
As if staking my claim, I placed
my soft fingers on his moving lips. He went silent almost immediately. I felt
his hands tighten around me protectively.
The firmness with which I had
made my decision earlier deserted me. It wasn’t that I was having doubts—no, I
knew what I wanted to say was exactly what I wanted. However, the courage to
get the words out…well, the supply of my bravery at that moment left something
to be desired.
The fact that I knew I had Jack’s
complete, total attention didn’t help at all. He was just looking at me with
those honest eyes, but I was suddenly the shy, timid girl, who couldn’t believe
the fervent things we’d done minutes ago in the back of the Renault. Although I
trusted him, I felt emotionally naked, frantically nervous, innocent, naïve,
and somehow insecure. After moving my hand to cup his cheek, I tried to look
him in the eyes several times, but would soon find myself darting my focus away
from those two blue-green pools of silent question.
Being the patient, understanding
Jack that he was, he simply stood there, holding me firmly, waiting for me to
gather my words together. He was the source of my inspiration and bravery.
"When the ship docks…"
I paused, and firmly raised my eyes to make direct eye contact with him. Here
I go… "I’m getting off with you."
Jack made a face like someone had
sucked the air out of his lungs. After a moment, though, his wide, crocked grin
that I had come to know so well graced his features. His eyes told me all that
I needed to know.
"This is crazy."
No long sonnet, no long
declaration of anything—just three simple words that were so Jack—just what I’d
wanted and needed to hear. A blissful laugh escaped my chest. "I know! It
doesn’t make any sense!" We’re young and in love. It doesn’t have to
make sense!
I ran my manicured nails across
the nape of his neck and through his hair. The softness of his golden strands
rivaled the finest silk that I’d ever been privileged to wear. There was no
hint of the whimsical tone heard in my most recent statements in my next words.
I knew he could hear the sincerity in my words now. "That’s why I trust
it."
Those eyes of his stared at me with
such unbridled love that I had never witnessed before in a man. Every heated
pore of his body seemed to scream his returned devotion to me. I watched his
hot gaze travel from my eyes to my lips and back again. His eyes made this
journey several times, and I knew and understood exactly what he wanted, as my
own eyes gazed with longing and lust at his lips. Primal passion took over as I
leaned forward first, capturing our lips in a burning exchange.
At first, once or twice, I opened
my eyes briefly, just to make sure this was all real. Quickly satisfied, I
returned to the focused exploration of his lips.
I didn’t care who saw us standing
there, arms wrapping tighter and tighter around each other every passing
minute, lips hungry and hearts pounding. Bring all the stewards as our
audience! Bring the captain of the Titanic! Bring King George V of England! Or
worse—bring my mother and Cal! I didn’t care who or what saw us exhibiting our
raw love and desire.
I. Did. Not. Care.
One person, and one person only occupied
my mind and heart—Jack Dawson. And it was his hands and his lips that were
keeping my mind a whirling blur. His ministrations took me soaring as high as
he had earlier at sunset, and they brought back fresh memories from the Renault
that had only just begun to settle in my mind.
Countless minutes later,
breathless and on unsteady feet, we finally separated our lips more than three
inches. Panting softly, we stared at each other in wonder. Gradually, knowing
smiles stretched across our flushed faces.
Jack gently moved a flying
tendril of my red hair out of my face. He tucked the stubborn curl behind my
ear, though he must have known, with the present strong wind, it would be free
within minutes. He softly traced my jaw line with his calloused, loving fingers.
I saw hope and excitement for the future in his eyes, and I knew he could see
it in my eyes as well. I felt him sigh, as his chest rose up against mine.
"Rose, I am so lucky I got that full house."
I bet the confused look on my
face was priceless. With my eyebrows raised, my mouth hanging open slightly in
surprise, I asked bluntly, "What?" Even so, already my mouth was
forming into a growing smile as I realized just how much I loved Jack’s
unpredictability and uniqueness.
He let out another content sigh.
"Never mind. I’ll tell you later. Come on. Give me another kiss before I
freeze to death."
Again, I very willingly obliged.
I’d never looked forward to the future so much in my life. We were going to
make it our own future, together. I could see the Santa Monica pier in my mind.
I envisioned the roller coasters, and I felt the rebellious thrill of riding a
horse with my legs on both sides. And through it all, Jack’s hand would be
intertwined with my own.
Oh, Jack…
The End.