LOVE THAT NEVER FADES
Chapter Thirty-One
The bar was dimly lit, the smell
of smoke filling the air. The murmuring of the men filled the room, glasses
banging on tables. Some were playing cards, while others were just talking with
each other. The two men stepped inside and walked towards the bar, each taking
a seat on a stool. A hand banged on the counter, Jack urging the bartender to
bring him and Fabrizio glasses of beer.
"Two beers, please!"
Jack spoke loudly so the bartender could hear him over the loud voices in the
room.
"Two beers coming up!"
the bartender answered, filling two glasses with beer. "Here you go,
lads." The bartender handed Jack and Fabrizio their glasses and smiled
towards them. He took a second look at Jack. "Wait a minute…you look oddly
familiar…"
Jack looked up and just smiled.
"Yeah," Jack said. "I was here a couple of years back. I’m Jack
Dawson."
"Jack Dawson!" the
bartender shouted, his eyes wide and shocked. "Well, I’ll be! I wouldn’t
have thought that I’d ever see you again."
"Ah…that’s what everybody
says," Jack said, taking a sip of the beer and setting the glass down on
the counter.
"Well, what do you
expect?" the bartender asked. "We haven’t seen you in two years, for
crying out loud!"
Jack gave a heartwarming chuckle,
looking at him. "Well, I’ve kind of changed now. I’m not traveling
anymore."
"Well, why is that?"
the bartender asked.
Jack was just about to answer
when a woman’s voice rang in his ears.
"Jack Dawson!" a
familiar voice said. "Jack…is that you?"
Jack turned, finding a woman with
black hair that fell past her shoulders and bright green eyes. A confused look
came over his face, eyeing the woman. She stood about two inches taller than
Rose, and had an evergreen-colored dress on. She neared him, a bright smile on
her face.
"My, Jack, I haven’t seen
you in years!" the woman said.
"Kristen?" Jack asked,
his eyes wide. He had never expected to see her again. He met her two years
before, when he was in New York before he headed off to Europe. Kristen Jackson
had been one of his girls that he had drawn. She was one of the first he had
drawn in the nude. Although they had nearly gotten into an unwanted
relationship, Jack had called it off and left to go to Europe. Now, as he
looked at her, she had longer hair and had grown a bit taller since the last
time he had seen her.
"Oh, so you do remember
me," Kristen said, putting a hand on her hip.
"How could I forget
you?" Jack asked, a crooked smile on his face.
Kristen smiled. "Well, who’s
your friend?" she asked, nodding towards Fabrizio.
"Ah…Kristen, this is my best
friend, Fabrizio di Rossi. Fabri, this is Kristen Jackson…my…um…my…" Jack
said, struggling to find the correct word.
"Friend…his good
friend," Kristen said, a mischievous smile on her face.
Jack just looked at her, his brow
knitted, seeing her smile. When she had said good, he could have sworn he had
heard a hint of possession and longing…as if she were expecting him to take her
in his arms and just make love to her. But Jack knew that that would never
happen, for he only shared his love with one woman…Rose. Rose, and only Rose.
He couldn’t even begin to imagine what he would do without her.
"Um…yeah…her friend,"
Jack said, coughing uneasily, picking up his glass, and taking a long gulp of
the beer before setting it back down on the table.
"Why do you sound so scared,
Jack?" Kristen asked, leaning a bit closer to him. "The Jack Dawson I
knew was never scared of anything." Kristen let her hand caress his
forearm, feeling his muscular build. "Well, well, well…I see that you have
certainly grown more muscular since the last time I’ve saw you, Jack."
Kristen smiled flirtatiously and inching closer to him, her arm going around
his waist.
Jack inched away from her,
feeling uncomfortable around the woman when he was married. Married to the
woman that he loved and always would love.
"Uh…Kristen?" Jack
asked, taking her hands off of him and setting them aside. "This is not
right. We’re not meant for each other."
"Oh, Jack, come on!"
Kristen said, smiling, a girlish laugh escaping her lips. "Where’s your
sense of fun? I mean, you’re the one who used to always do something
unpredictable."
"Kristen," Jack said,
sighing in frustration. "I’m not interested. Besides, I’m—"
"Of course you’re not,"
Kristen said, her eyes softening. "Oh, well. I’ve tried." Kristen
stepped away from him. "Would you like to go to the park? Maybe we can
catch up on old times."
"Sure," Jack said,
taking one last gulp of his beer, slipping his hand into his pocket, pulling
out a few coins, and dropping them onto the counter beside the drinks.
"Let’s go." Jack led the way out of the bar alongside Fabrizio and
Kristen.
*****
Rose sat on the bench and just
sighed, a hand gently caressing her lower abdomen. For the past hour, she had been
sitting there, thinking of her unborn child and her life with Jack. She looked
down at her purse laying on her lap and just clutched it, hearing the children
running around and playing in the afternoon sun. Looking at the afternoon sky,
she sighed and got up, ready to go home and prepare lunch. She was walking
towards the exit of the park when her steps suddenly stopped. There, about
twenty yards away from her, stood Jack and Fabrizio. But they weren’t alone.
Beside Jack stood a stunningly beautiful woman with raven hair and a slim body,
an evergreen-colored dress showing off her curves. She had a bright smile on
her face, as did Jack. Fabrizio just walked alongside them, listening in on
their conversation and sharing a few words with them.
Rose saw that Jack’s hands were
in his pocket as always, and saw that his steps were slow yet anxious, as if he
wanted to get away from the woman. To be far away from the woman. Rose was
glued to the spot, clutching her purse. She could feel her shawl flowing behind
her, the strength of the early summer breeze causing it to do so. Her red curls
fluttered in the wind, her eyes holding curiosity and a hint of jealousy
towards the raven-haired beauty that stood beside Jack. What was she to her
husband? Did she have anything to do with his past? Was she his girlfriend
before he met her? Was she his first? His first in bed? As these thoughts
played through her mind, she closed her eyes and took a calming breath. When
she opened her eyes, she saw the woman in front of Jack, caressing his chest
lovingly. Her hands clutched her purse tightly, feeling jealousy and anger
creep onto her face. Just as she was about to head over to them, she saw
something that she had never expected to see. Something that caused her heart
to ache and tears to well up in her eyes. There, about ten yards away, Jack and
the woman were sharing a passionate kiss. Her feet were glued to the spot she
stood in, in shock at what she saw. She didn’t see Jack make any effort to push
her away. Instead, he put his hand on the small of her back, pulling her closer
to him, as if he were enjoying the kiss. She saw his hand caressing her ebony
hair, his own hair falling over his eyes. Rose just stood there, heartbroken
and hurt.
Never had she thought that Jack
would do this to her. Never before had she thought that Jack would betray her
after what they’d been through. She put a hand on her lower abdomen, where her
unborn child was developing inside of her. Her unborn child, which Jack had
fathered. Which Jack had created with his lovemaking. She gave a loud sob,
turning around and running away from the park, her hand still on her lower
abdomen. Tears ran down her delicate cheeks, feeling her heart break in two.
The love that she had once felt for Jack suddenly broke into a million pieces,
replaced by hatred and hurt. Never before had she thought that Jack would cause
her so much pain and so much hurt. She had thought that their love would last
for all eternity. Well, she had been wrong.
*****
Jack stood between Kristen and
Fabrizio, walking through Central Park. The sun beamed down on them, the gentle
breeze causing their hair to flutter. Jack stopped when Kristen got in front of
him, a smile on her face. She moved a bit closer to him, feeling her hands
caress his chest. Jack removed his hand from his pocket and put it on her
forearm, shaking his head and pushing her away from him.
"Kristen, I—" Jack was
cut off when he felt her lips brush against his. He was about to protest, but
Kristen held him close to her, and within moments, he responded. His hand went
to the small of her back, his other going to her cheek, where he felt her hair
brush against his. He began to imagine that he was kissing Rose, so he pulled
her close to him, intensifying their kiss. His hand began to caress her hair,
expecting to feel Rose’s fiery red curls against his fingertips, but instead,
he felt soft, flat hair, and seconds later, he pulled away, his eyes wide. He
looked over her shoulder, seeing Rose running away, hearing her sob. He looked
over to Fabrizio, who just looked at him in shock. He looked over at Kristen,
finding a satisfied smile upon her face.
"Well, well, well,"
Kristen said, the pleased smile still upon her face. "I have to admit, you
are an excellent kisser."
"Oh, God," Jack whispered,
putting a hand over his face. "Rose…"
"Rose?" Kristen asked,
chuckling. "My name is Kristen, Jack. Not Rose."
"I know that!" Jack
exclaimed, his eyes shining with anger and moistened by tears.
"Why are you so upset?"
Kristen asked. "It was just a kiss, Jack. Nothing serious."
"Just a kiss?" Jack
shouted. "Kristen, my wife just saw us kissing, and you think it’s not
serious?"
"Wife?" Kristen asked.
"Yes, my wife!" Jack
said. "Rose is my wife!"
Kristen just laughed. "Oh,
please, Jack. How can you be married? You don’t seem the type to marry."
Jack just looked at her, his blue
eyes throwing daggers at her.
"I am married. I have been
for the past two and a half months!" Jack exclaimed, his voice shaking
with anger.
"What do you mean, for the
past two and a half months?" Kristen asked.
"I mean that I have a wife
who is pregnant with our first child and who just ran away because she saw us
kissing!" Jack said, furious, pointing behind her.
"Pregnant, huh?"
Kristen asked. "So, married for two and a half months, and you already got
her pregnant. Jack, you sure do work fast. And I thought that you said you said
you didn’t wanna get settled."
"Kristen, just stop,
okay?" Jack asked. "You ruined everything enough as it is!"
"Well, I’m sorry I
did," Kristen said, not showing that she meant it. "But if she
doesn’t forgive you, you know where to find me…"
"Kristen, I’m never going to
sleep with you, so don’t even try," Jack said. "I love Rose more than
I ever loved you. We were never in a relationship…you were nothing to me!"
"Nothing?" Kristen
asked, putting a hand on her hip. "So I am nothing, huh, Jack?"
"Look, Kristen," Jack
said. "I never loved you, nor did I have any feelings towards you. I only
love one person, and one person only. And that’s Rose. She’s everything to me.
And now, you may have ruined our marriage."
"Good," Kristen said.
"I’m glad I ruined your stupid marriage. She’s probably a whore
anyway."
Jack raised a hand and slapped
her across her face. "Never, ever, call Rose a whore again! Do you hear
me?" Jack shouted, angrily pointing at her.
Kristen held the spot that he had
slapped and closed her eyes, feeling her cheek burn. Tears welled up in her
eyes, but she fought them back. She looked at Jack, her eyes moistened by her
tears.
"Well, I gotta go," Kristen
said, her voice choked from holding back her tears. "Just to let you know,
Jack, I loved you. For the past two years, I never spent a day without thinking
of you." A single tear slid down her cheek. "Well…it was nice knowing
you, Jack Dawson. I hope you have a nice life."
Jack watched Kristen walk away,
and he could’ve sworn that he heard her sob. Sighing, Jack put his hand over
his eyes, feeling tears welling up in them.
"I’m sorry, Rose…" Jack
whispered, his voice hoarse and choked. "I’m so sorry…" Jack felt his
tears overflow, and once he did, he wiped them away with the back of his hand.
He looked over at Fabrizio, who looked at him, eyes shining with concern.
"Jack," Fabrizio said,
moving towards Jack. "Everything will ‘a be okay. Why don’t ‘a we go back
to the apartment and ‘a see if la bella Rosa is okay?" Fabrizio put a
brotherly arm over Jack’s shoulder and led him out of the park.
"What have I done?"
Jack cried, tears furiously falling down his cheeks.
*****
Rose lay on her side of the bed, tears
pouring down her cheeks as she looked up at the ceiling. She had been in the
bedroom crying for the past twenty minutes. Her heart broke more with every
minute that passed. She sat up and looked at her rings. As she looked at the
rings, images of their wedding day came to her mind. The day when they had
become husband and wife. The day when their love for each other grew and grew,
up until now, when she had found Jack kissing another woman. Rose covered the
rings with one hand and brought it to her chest, bowing her head and letting
her tears overflow.
"Why, Jack?" Rose
cried. "Why did you kiss her? Why?" Rose looked up, her eyes red from
crying. "I thought you loved me…I thought we had everything
together…" Rose looked around the room and fell upon Jack’s side of the
bed. More tears fell down her cheeks as she placed a hand on his side,
caressing the quilt. "Oh, Jack…what’s happening to us?"
She fell upon the bed and curled
up in a fetal position, tears continuing to spill out of her eyes, making her heart
ache more and more as she thought about the kiss shared by Jack and the woman
he had been with. A kiss that she had thought he’d only share with her, and
nobody else. Her body shook with heart-wrenching sobs, her heart pouring out,
making Rose more and more vulnerable and hurt with every second that passed by
without being able to love the man who had saved her. Her heart ached, longing
to be in Jack’s arms once again, feeling his lips brushing against hers, and
taking her to the stars. She ached for them to love again.
*****
Jack and Fabrizio entered the
apartment. Fabrizio closed the door behind him and watched as Jack cautiously
walked towards his bedroom. He looked over at Fabrizio, his face asking if he
should go inside.
"Go," Fabrizio said.
"Make her happy again."
Sighing, Jack nodded and raised a
fist in the air, gently knocking on the door a few times.
"Rose?" Jack called,
his voice hoarse. "Are you in there?"
"Go away!" he heard
Rose cry out, her voice shaking.
"Please…I can explain,"
Jack began.
"Leave me alone!" he
heard Rose cry, and with that, he leaned his forehead against the door. Tears
began falling down his cheeks.
"Oh, Rose!" Jack cried.
"I’m sorry! I’m so sorry." Jack banged on the wall. "I love you,
Rose…please…I love you…I love you…" Jack slid down the door and buried his
face in his arms, crying.
Fabrizio just stood there,
watching Jack cry. He had never seen Jack cry. He never witnessed Jack being in
this kind of state, nor had he ever heard him cry. Throughout the journey that
they had been on for the past two years--before the Titanic—Jack had been a
happy, carefree man. Never had he shed a tear, even if there had been something
to cry about. Jack had been known to be strong and brave, but now, when he saw
him sitting on the floor outside his bedroom door, Fabrizio found a new Jack. A
Jack who was in love and who was heartbroken.