LOVE THAT NEVER FADES
Chapter Forty-Five
January 14, 1913
New Year’s Day went by quickly,
and before anyone knew it, Rose was through her ninth month. The doctor said
that she was due any day now, and her belly had grown bigger since Christmas. Jack
was out at work, while Rose was lying on the couch, fanning herself. Her feet
were swollen, and her back felt like someone was ripping her bones apart. This
had been going on since the day before, and Rose wondered when the feeling
would go away.
Getting up, she waddled over to
the kitchen. Suddenly, the pain hit her. She pressed her hand to her stomach,
hunching over and gripping the doorframe. She closed her eyes and breathed out.
A few minutes later, the pain struck her again.
"Ah!" Rose screamed at
the painful contraction. Her eyes suddenly widened, realizing that today was
the day she would give birth to her first child. "Oh, God…Jack…"
Rose looked at the front door.
She began walking, keeping her hand on her middle. She struggled, opening the
door and banging on Annie’s door.
"Annie!" Rose cried,
gritting her teeth against the pain. "Annie, please open the door!"
Seconds later, the door opened,
revealing Annie, who was dressed in a simple blue dress.
"My God, Rose, what’s
wrong?" Annie asked.
"The baby…it’s coming!"
Rose cried, breathing in and out in an attempt to push away the pain.
"Oh, my God!" Annie
said, suddenly growing nervous. "What should I do?"
"Get my mother…tell her to
get Jack, please!" Rose cried.
"Okay," Annie said,
about to leave, but stopped. "But first, I’ll get you to bed."
Rose nodded her head and allowed
Annie to take her to her bedroom, changing into her nightgown, laying down on
the bed, and propping pillows behind her.
"Are you comfortable?"
Annie asked, looking at Rose.
Rose nodded her head, gripping
the sheet.
"I’m fine," Rose said.
"Just get Jack here quickly!"
"Okay…" Annie said,
rushing out of the room and going to get Rose’s mother, who was happy to hear
the news that she would be a grandmother soon and rushed to get Jack. Annie
went down to get Michael, who was shaving. "Mike, get the doctor. Rose is
in labor."
"Oh, shit!" Michael
said, rushing inside and cleaning his face off, then going out of his apartment
and slamming his door shut. "I’ll be right back with the doctor!"
Michael ran out of the building
and went to get the doctor, who was three blocks away from their building.
Annie ran up the stairs to tend
to Rose, who suddenly screamed while having a contraction.
"How far apart are the
contractions?" Annie asked, going towards Rose.
"So far, five minutes,"
Rose answered, breathing irregularly.
"Don’t worry. Jack is going
to be here pretty soon," Annie said. "And so will the doctor. I sent
Mike to get him."
"Oh, Annie, what would I do
without you?" Rose asked, looking at her, a soft smile on her face.
A few minutes later, she heard
the door bang open.
"Rose!" she heard
Jack’s voice call. "Rose, where are you?"
"I’m in here, Jack!"
Rose called from the bedroom. She saw Jack standing in the doorframe, his hair
disheveled.
Jack rushed to her side, not
realizing that Annie was there, and took hold of Rose’s hand.
"How are you feeling?"
Jack asked, looking into Rose’s eyes.
"Fine," Rose said.
"But the contractions—" Another rush of pain ran through her, and she
gripped Jack’s hand tightly. She screamed in agony, leaning her head back.
"Oh, God, get this baby out of me!"
Jack gritted his teeth against
the pain in his hand, but he ignored it, for Rose needed him. He looked at her
enlarged stomach and realized that soon he would become a father.
Suddenly, they heard Mike’s voice
in the parlor.
"Rose?" Michael called.
"The doctor’s here!"
"In the bedroom,
Michael," Rose called, breathing in and out.
Soon, Dr. Thompson entered the
bedroom, a medical bag in his hand. Her mother also stepped in.
"Oh, Rose, I can’t believe
I’m going to be a grandmother," Ruth said, smiling, tears shining in her
eyes.
Rose gave her mother a soft
smile, holding Jack’s hand.
"All right. I’m going to ask
everyone to leave the room, please," the doctor said. "Including
you…" He looked at Jack.
"No!" Rose called, not
letting go of Jack’s hand. "He’s staying here."
"It’s not allowed, Mrs.
Dawson," Dr. Thompson said.
Rose clenched her teeth angrily,
glaring at the doctor.
"I don’t care about your fucking
rules. All right, Dr. Thompson?" Rose said, the pain getting to her.
"Jack is staying with me, and that is final! He’s not going
anywhere!"
Jack was surprised to hear such
language coming from his wife’s mouth, but looked at the doctor, pleading to be
allowed to stay.
"All right," Dr.
Thompson said, sighing. "But the rest of you…out!"
The others left the room, giving
Rose a final look. They closed the door behind them and waited in the parlor.
"All right, Mrs.
Dawson," Dr. Thompson said, examining her. "You’re dilated three
centimeters."
"Is that good?" Rose
asked, looking at him.
"It’s normal," Dr.
Thompson said. "But it will take hours to actually give birth to your
child."
"Hours?" Rose asked, a
worried expression on her face. "Oh, God, Jack…" Rose gripped his
hand, feeling a contraction hit her again.
"Shh," Jack said,
smoothing her curls. "I’m here…everything will be all right."
Rose nodded her head, breathing
out.
*****
Hours passed. It was four o’clock
in the afternoon, and Rose’s contractions becoming closer together. Jack sat by
her side, holding her hand and allowing her to tighten her grip around his hand
whenever she had a contraction. Dr. Thompson examined her again, and said that
she was almost there. Now her contractions were a minute apart, and soon she
would bring her child in the world. However, the pain was getting to her.
"Everything’s fine now,
Rose," Jack said. "Almost there."
"That’s easy for you to
say," Rose said, glaring angrily at Jack. "You don’t have to go
through the pain. You just have your pleasure and lovemaking, and…"
Rose screamed, another
contraction gripping her. She gripped Jack’s hand tightly, looking at him.
"I’m sorry, Jack," Rose
said, looking at Jack apologetically. "I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean
what I said…"
"I know," Jack said,
his voice calm. "It’s okay."
"All right, Mrs.
Dawson," Dr. Thompson said. "You’re ready to bring your child into
the world."
Rose nodded her head, getting
ready. She looked at Jack, her face drenched with sweat and her curls plastered
to her head.
"I love you, Jack,"
Rose said, smiling softly. "I always will."
"All right, Mrs.
Dawson," Dr. Thompson said, positioning himself. "When I count to
three, push. All right?"
Rose nodded her head, closing her
eyes. Her hand gripped Jack’s as she saw a vision of her father in her mind.
"One…"
Rose breathed heavily, looking at
Jack, a nervous expression on her face. In minutes, her baby would be born.
"Two…"
Oh, God…one more second, and
the baby is going to be born, Rose thought, clenching her teeth.
"Three…push!" Dr.
Thompson said.
Rose gathered all the strength in
her body and pushed, screaming. She felt the baby push its way out of her.
"Good," Dr. Thompson
said. "I see the head."
Jack looked at Rose, a gentle
smile on his face. Tears shone in his eyes as he gripped Rose’s hand lovingly.
"All right. Give me one last
push," Dr. Thompson said, holding out his hands to catch the baby.
Rose cried out, not wanting the
bear the pain again.
"I can’t…it hurts,"
Rose cried, tears sliding down her cheeks.
"Rose, you can do
this," Jack said, stroking the back of her hand lovingly. "C’mon. You
can do this. You’re strong. I know you are."
"I can’t," Rose said,
shaking her head and crying.
"Look," Jack said,
pushing himself closer to her. "All my life, I never dreamed that I would
fall in love with a girl like you. Nor did I ever dream of becoming a father.
Now I know that that fiery spirit is still alive inside you. I know you’re
strong enough to bring this baby into this world. Now, trust me on this, you’re
going to be a mother, and I’m going to be a father. Believe in yourself."
Rose nodded her head.
"I…trust…you…" Rose said between breaths.
"Good. Now, c’mon,"
Jack said. "Bring this baby into the world."
Rose nodded her head, gathered
her strength, and pushed. She screamed and gripped Jack’s hand tightly, feeling
the baby slide from her body. Seconds later, she heard a baby’s cry. Rose felt
tears sliding down her cheeks as she looked at Jack. A small smile came over
her lips when she saw that Jack was crying, too.
"You did it…" Jack
said, smiling and leaning over, pressing his lips against hers numerous times.
"You did it…" Jack pulled Rose into a hug, feeling his tears slide
down his cheeks.
Dr. Thompson smiled, looking at
the new parents.
"You have a healthy baby
boy," Dr. Thompson said. "With a strong set of lungs, might I
add."
Rose looked at him and smiled.
Her body was drenched with sweat and she sighed with exhaustion.
"Would you like to cut the
umbilical cord?" Dr. Thompson asked, handing Jack the scissors.
Jack took the scissors and cut
the cord, the doctor cleaning his son up and wrapping him in a light blue
blanket. Dr. Thompson handed him his son, taking care of Rose.
Jack looked at his son, tears shining
in his eyes. He had light blonde hair and round cheeks. Seconds later, he
opened his eyes, revealing a deep shade of blue. Jack’s hands held his son
carefully, smiling at him.
"You’re my son," Jack
whispered. He looked at Rose and smiled brightly, walking to her and handing
her the baby. He sat on the edge of the bed, gazing at his son. "He’s
beautiful, Rose."
"Yes, he is," Rose
said, smiling at her child. "He got his looks from you."
"Yeah, but I’m sure he has
your personality and your smile," Jack said, looking at Rose. He gave her
a gentle kiss, wrapping his arm around her.
"What are you going to name
him?" Dr. Thompson asked, pulling out a birth certificate.
Rose smiled and looked at her
son. "William John Dawson," Rose answered.
Dr. Thompson nodded his head,
wrote the baby’s name, and signed the certificate.
Jack looked at Rose with loving
eyes. John was his father’s name, and having Rose give his son John as a middle
name meant more to him than anything. He pressed his forehead against hers, smiling
at her.
"We’re parents," Jack
whispered, gazing at his son. He smiled. "Hey, baby…I’m your dad. We’re
going to be the best of friends. I can tell. I’ll teach you everything there is
to know. And maybe you will learn how to draw, just like me. What do you say,
huh?"
Jack extended a forefinger,
feeling his son grasp it tightly. Jack smiled, letting his thumb graze
William’s small fingers gently.
"That’s my boy," Jack
said, smiling, tears filling his eyes.
His son, William, looked like an
angel. It was as if he had been pulled down from heaven and given to them. They
had been blessed with a wonderful child, a child who would be loved and cared
for. Jack gave Rose a single glance and found that she was sound asleep from
exhaustion. Jack leaned down, gave Rose’s forehead a gentle kiss, and pulled
the covers over her with his free hand. William stretched out his arm and gave
a soft cry, then whimpered. Jack rocked him back and forth and hummed to him.
He looked at the doctor, who was packing things up, ready to leave.
"How is she?" Jack
asked, looking over his shoulder and seeing his angel fast asleep.
"She’s doing fine," Dr.
Thompson replied. "Just don’t have her doing much work this week. She
deserves the rest."
"I’ll keep that in mind,
doctor," Jack said. "Thank you so much."
Dr. Thompson smiled. "No
problem," he said. "And congratulations. I’m sure William here will
be a fine, handsome man when he grows up."
Jack smiled. "I hope
so." He looked at his son, who looked at him with sleepy eyes.
"Thanks again, doctor. I really appreciate it."
"Like I said before, no
problem," Dr. Thompson said. "It’s my job to bring babies into the
world. Well, I guess I’ll see you in a week. I’m going to come over to see how
she’s doing and how the baby’s doing. All right?"
"Not a problem at all, Dr.
Thompson," Jack said.
"Good-bye, Mr. Dawson,"
Dr. Thompson said.
"It’s Jack," Jack
corrected. "Just call me Jack."
"All right…Jack," Dr.
Thompson said. "Well, I have to go. I have another patient who needs me in
an hour. Have a nice day, Jack."
"I will. Bye," Jack
said, leading him to the door, opening it, and letting the doctor go through
the parlor, where everyone stood up.
Dr. Thompson smiled at them, then
left the apartment. Jack, however, was still behind the door in the bedroom, taking
a small peek into the parlor. He noticed that Fabrizio and Angelina had
arrived, as well. Jack looked at his son, smiled sweetly at him, then decided
to go into the parlor to show him off to the guests.
As Jack appeared in the parlor,
the guests looked at him, then looked at the bundle in his arms and gasped
quietly. Ruth was the first to come towards him.
"Is…is this him?" Ruth
asked, looking at Jack, tears filling her eyes. "This is my
grandson?"
Jack smiled and nodded.
"Yes, it is, Ruth," Jack said. "His name is William John
Dawson—named after his respected grandfathers."
Ruth put a hand over her mouth,
looking at Jack, then back at her grandson.
"W-William?" Ruth
muttered. "Oh…how I miss him…that’s sweet of you to name him after my
deceased husband…"
"It wasn’t my doing,"
Jack corrected. "It was all Rose’s idea, and she honored my father, too.
My father’s name was John Dawson, and it made me remember all the good times I
had with him. Now, I’ll have a part of him with my son always."
"Do you mind if I hold
him?" Ruth asked, looking at Jack. "It’s been a while since I held a
baby."
Jack nodded, carefully put
William in Ruth’s arms, and smiled, putting one hand in his pocket and the
other over his son’s thin blonde hair.
"Hello…I’m your grandmother,
Ruth," Ruth said. "I promise to love you the best I can, my darling
William, just as I did your grandfather. Oh, how he would’ve loved you. I wish
he were here to hold you in his arms and spoil you rotten."
A single tear slid down Ruth’s
cheek, gazing at her grandson, who stretched his arm and pressed it against her
chest. Ruth laughed softly, seeing her grandson’s blue eyes gazing at her.
"He has your eyes,
Jack," Ruth commented. "So intense and beautiful. I could look into
them all day."
"Thanks," Jack said,
looking at his son.
"He’s beautiful, Jack,"
Ruth complimented. "You and Rose have done a great job."
Jack felt a blush appear on his
cheeks and he smiled sheepishly. Jack slid his other hand into his pocket and
looked at his son, who was slowly beginning to fall asleep.
"Here," Ruth said,
handing him back to Jack. "He’s such an angel."
"Of course," Jack said.
"Just like his mother."
"Where is Rose, by the
way?" Ruth asked.
"Asleep in the
bedroom," Jack said. "You can see her if you like."
"I’ll be right back,"
Ruth said, putting a gentle hand on his arm before heading to her daughter’s
bedroom.
"Lui è bello bambino,
Jack," Fabrizio commented, looking at the new member of the Dawson family.
"Looks just like ‘a you…"
Jack smiled and put a gentle hand
on Fabrizio’s shoulder. "Thanks, Fabri," Jack said. "If it
weren’t for you, I would not be here with Rose right now."
"Sì, you would have,"
Fabrizio said.
"No, I would not," Jack
said. "I would’ve left Rose alone as she asked, and I would never have had
the chance to tell her I loved her—and I love her still."
"She looked for you down
below decks," Fabrizio said. "When ‘a she wore the beautiful
dress…with shawl, I think…but she look for you, and went to you. Remember
that."
"She looked for me?"
Jack asked. "I didn’t know that."
"She went down to me and ask
me where you were," Fabrizio told him. "She look like she really want
to parlare con tu."
"Fate brought us together
and kept us together," Jack said.
"Like we Italians say, amore
is not logical…it is just there to bring due persone together. Helga—she
died—but I still love her—and I love Angelina. I will always miss Helga, even
if we no understand our language. So, you and la bella Rosa has a wonderful,
unique love…e tu e bella Rosa will last forever."
Jack smiled. "I just want to
say thanks for being there for me when I needed you the most—and thanks for
being here with me as you are now. I really appreciate everything you have done
for me."
"Prego, but, I must thank
you, too," Fabrizio added. "Grazie, Jack. Grazie. Thank you for
bringing me to l’America. Like you promised."
"Remember, Fabri, the
Dawsons never break their promises, and if I make a promise, I’m gonna keep my
word and make it happen," Jack said. He remembered the promise he had made
to himself when he had bought the house in Santa Monica. "Speaking of
promises, I promised Rose that we would be moving to Santa Monica, and it just
so happens that I bought a house in Santa Monica, and I also promised myself
that once the baby was born, we were gonna be moving there, so…"
"You’re not going to be
living here anymore?" Annie asked, tears filling her eyes.
Jack shook his head sadly.
"Rose loves Santa Monica, and I promised her that we’d move there when we
were on our honeymoon, and so, now that I have bought the house, we’re going to
move there next week."
"Oh, Jack," Annie said.
"I’m going to miss you. And Rose."
"We’ll write," Jack
said. He looked at his son. "And I’m sure you want to hold my son."
"If you would not
mind," Annie said, hope shining in her eyes.
"Sure," Jack said,
handing William carefully to Annie. "Watch the head…"
"Oh, he’s beautiful,
Jack," Annie said. "Makes me wish that I could be a mother."
"Maybe someday you
will," Jack said, looking at her, then at Michael, who stood in front of
the coffee table, hands in his pockets.
Annie followed his gaze and
blushed. She looked at William and smiled.
"Hi, Willy," Annie
said, admiring the new nickname she gave him. "I’m your Aunt Annabelle,
but you can call me Aunt Annie, of course."
Jack chuckled softly, watching
Annie treat his son as if he could talk.
"He is bello, Jack,"
Angelina said, her voice soft and sweet. "You are a great father…and a
great person. Good luck on your trip to Santa Monica…"
Jack smiled. "Thanks,
Angelina," he said, putting a gentle hand on her shoulder. "I’m sure
you and Fabri will have the same thing Rose and I have…"
Angelina smiled and gazed into
Jack’s eyes. "Grazie…"
Jack looked at Fabrizio, who
smiled at him.
"Tu sono un bene
amico," Fabrizio said.
"So are you," Jack
said.
Fabrizio smiled, then reached in
his pocket, where he pulled out a handkerchief, skillfully wiped the sweat from
his forehead, and clutched the fabric.
"Hearing la bella Rosa
scream like ‘a that made me feel nervous," Fabrizio commented, sighing and
putting the handkerchief back in his pocket.
"Well, me and Angelina have
to go," Fabrizio said. "I’ll see you later, Jack."
"Okay, Fabri," Jack
said, giving him a brief hug. "See you around."
"Sì," Fabrizio said,
smiling. "Ciao, Jack. Congratulazioni, Jack."
Jack nodded and waved to his best
friend, watching him take Angelina by the hand before heading to the apartment
door and opening it, then disappearing into the hallway.
Jack turned to Annie, who was
rocking back and forth slowly, William whimpering in her arms. Jack smiled,
then walked towards her, ready to take his son.
"Thanks for letting me hold
him, Jack," Annie said. "He’s wonderful."
"Thanks," Jack said,
carefully holding his son, who looked as if he were about to cry. He looked at
Annie, his blue eyes shining with happiness. "Thanks for being here for
Rose. I don’t know what I would’ve done if she had been left alone during the
birth…"
"It’s not a problem,
Jack," Annie said. "Really."
Jack smiled and looked at his son,
covering him with the blue blanket.
"I have to go," Annie
said. "See you later, Jack."
"Okay," Jack said.
"Thanks for coming."
"No problem," Annie
said.
Jack nodded and watched as Annie
left the apartment, leaving Michael in the parlor.
"So, you’re a father now,
huh?" Michael asked, walking towards him. "What does it feel
like?"
"Wonderful, scary,
responsible…" Jack said. "I’m glad to be a father, though. I have
this feeling in my heart that makes me just want to shout out to the world that
this little creature is my son. And I thought that I would never become a
father…"
"Why did you think
that?" Michael asked, looking at Jack, brow raised.
"Well, before I met Rose, I
was on my own," Jack said. "And during my journey, I never thought to
meet a girl like Rose, nor have I ever thought of marrying her or anyone like
her. She means so much to me that if, God forbid, something happened to her,
I’d be crushed. I love her, Mike. Probably more than I should, but I can’t help
myself. She’s my wife—and the mother of my new son. I don’t know what I’d do
without Rose."
"Well, Jack, you have her
with you, and you have a healthy son," Michael said, patting his shoulder.
"I’ll leave you three alone. I gotta head off anyway. My mother’s visiting
later, and I don’t want her to show up when I’m not there."
Jack laughed and nodded his head,
understanding. "Thanks for everything, Mike."
"Not a problem,"
Michael said, smiling at him before he left the apartment, leaving Jack and his
son alone in the parlor.
Jack looked at his son, who
scrunched up his face and wailed sharply. His tiny clenched fists moved around
as he kicked his feet. His eyes were squeezed shut, his mouth forming a wide O
as he cried.
"Shh," Jack said,
rocking back and forth. "Everything’s okay, baby. I know you’re hungry,
but Mommy’s asleep now…shh…"
Despite his comforting words,
William wailed loudly. Jack chuckled, headed towards the bedroom door, opening
it and stepping inside, surprised to find that Rose was sitting upright,
pillows propped behind her.
Jack looked at William and
smiled.
"See what you did?"
Jack said, as if he were accusing his son of waking Rose up. "You woke
Mommy up."
Rose laughed, her flushed face
brightening. "Don’t blame him for waking me, Jack. He’s hungry."
Jack looked at Rose and smiled.
"Okay, baby, you have your
wish," Jack said, walking towards Rose and gently putting William in her
arms. Jack ran his hands gently over his son’s thin blonde hair and smiled.
He watched Rose expose one
enlarged breast, his son latching onto it, drinking the milk provided by his
mother. He smiled, turning to his mother-in-law, who looked at him with loving
eyes.
"Congratulations,
Jack," Ruth said. "You have a wonderful son."
"Thank you," Jack said.
He looked at Rose, seeing that she was smiling sweetly at William.
"Well, I’d better get
going," Ruth said. "I’m sure Rose deserves a well-earned rest, and I
would only be in the way."
"No, you would not be—"
Jack began.
"Hush now," Ruth said,
holding out her hand. "I know these things—I gave birth to Rose, and I
remember feeling exhausted, so don’t you dare think that I won’t be in the way.
If I stay, I’ll just keep Rose up. She deserves a rest. It’s a good thing I
took the day off from work, though."
Jack smiled. "Okay, Mom.
Thanks," Jack said.
"All right, Jack. I’ll visit
later," Ruth said, running a hand over Jack’s cheek before she looked at
Rose, waved, and left the apartment.
Jack stood there, both hands in
his pockets, sighing. He looked over his shoulder and smiled. Rose looked like
a professional. It was as if she had been a mother many times before. He walked
towards her, pulled out a chair, and sat beside her, smiling at his newborn
son.
The next room was the nursery.
Jack had bought a crib, a rocking chair, and other things needed for the baby,
and had put them in the guest room with Fabrizio and Michael’s help. Jack could
not help but smile, thinking that within a week, they’d be going to Santa
Monica again. He looked at Rose and ran his hand gently over her curls, which
were a bit damp with sweat, but he didn’t mind.
Rose looked at Jack and smiled
sweetly, nursing her son. Having given birth for the first time made Rose feel
as if she had accomplished a hard task. Of course, it was painful giving birth,
but it was also worth it. She would give birth to Jack’s children many times.
She also knew that William would not be the last child she would give birth to.
She knew that there would be many more children after him, and Rose did not
mind bearing them. She had done it now. She could do it again.
"Rose," Jack murmured,
sitting quietly beside her.
"Hmm?" Rose asked,
looking up.
"Uh…remember on Christmas,
when I told you that I had bought a house in Santa Monica?" Jack asked.
"Yes," Rose said, turning
her attention back to her son, who was still nursing.
"Well," Jack said,
running his fingers through his hair. "I promised myself that once the
baby was born, we’d move, and I was thinking that next week we’ll be able to
finally move to Santa Monica."
"That soon?" Rose
asked, her eyebrows raised.
"Well, yeah," Jack
said. "I don’t wanna wait, Rose. I think it’s best that we move as soon as
possible, and I’ll give it until next Saturday, so we can start packing
then."
Rose nodded her head and smiled brightly.
"All right," Rose said.
She looked at her son and pressed her lips gently against his forehead.
"You’re already a half hour old, my little one. You’re already growing
right before my eyes."
Jack smiled at the sight and got
up. "I’m gonna go out for awhile, okay?"
Rose looked at him, holding
William close.
"How long will you be
gone?" Rose asked, looking at her son.
"Just for a bit," Jack
said. "I’m gonna go to the gallery and quit my job there. That way I’ll be
with you for the next week before we move."
"I love you," Rose
murmured, looking at him.
Jack smiled. "I love you,
too."
With that, Jack left the bedroom
and closed the door behind him before he left the apartment building, heading
to the gallery.