Written by Sarcastically
Me
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
"Is she on the list?"
The deck steward checked the list
a final time and I waited for the answer I dreaded.
I watched his eyes filter each
page, searching up and down. Then they came to a halt. He bowed his head and
murmured something indistinguishable.
I nodded, though I wasn’t
completely sure if I knew what exactly what I was nodding about.
Thoughts swirled about my head
and I couldn’t make sense of one of them.
The steward walked away, and I
walked across the deck to the rails. The sky was a very dull and daft gray,
with streaks of cerulean blue scattered across the sky, like paint on a canvas.
How could she be gone? It didn’t
make any sense.
I had only known her a few days,
but in those few days, there was a lifetime. My heart ached at the thought. I looked
out at the water and stared hard at it.
I hated that cold water.
I closed my eyes and all I could
see were the articles. Titanic: The Unsinkable Ship. That wretched
iceberg, and people, helplessly drowning, crying out for any source of help. I
could hear the bloodcurdling screams, and then the earsplitting and deafening
silence that followed afterwards. Then I could see the accusing faces of the
women and children who had lost their husbands and their fathers.
Why, God? Why has this
happened?
I opened my eyes, unable to take
anymore of it. And at that moment, I could feel my soul ripping apart, the
threads of my life beginning to tear one by one, and I was powerless to stop
it. My chest heaved; the pressure was so intense, I felt I could explode at any
given moment.
There were so many beautiful
moments. The way her eyes lit up when she saw me, the way her warm smile
reached her eyes, the melodic sound of her laughter, and the simple way that
she loved me. Now it all seemed to lie at the bottom of the Atlantic, along
with that damned ship.
Tears filled my eyes and I did
nothing to stop them when they poured down across my cheeks. I stood at the
railing, thinking back at what she had said the night before.
"I love you! You are like my
Romeo! And we’re…well, we’re just a pair of star-crossed lovers! But we won’t
end like them, will we?"
"No! Of course not!
Everything will be all right. You’ll see!"
"Will you promise?"
"Of course! I promise!"
I grasped her hands in mine and
pulled her towards me. I locked her in an embrace and gave her my kiss. Our
entire past was in that kiss, all three days of it. Our hearts were one, our
souls were on fire, and it was us, only us.
I shook my head and turned away
from the ocean. I knew in the deepest reaches of my heart that there was no
going back to what was before. It was done, over with. I started walking with
no particular destination, and I was at a slow pace, just looking down, but
when I lifted my head upwards, I slammed to a stop like I'd been instantly
fossilized.
Widows were sprawled out on
blankets, sobbing uncontrollably into each other’s chests. Their children stood
just watching the horrific scene that lay before them.
My eyes caught upon one
particular woman who looked out at the sea as I had previously had, the same
deadness and numbness plastered plainly across her face.
She had fern green eyes, like
hers. I felt I lump rise in my throat.
She had more emotion in those
eyes than one soul could possibly comprehend in a score of lifetimes.
Her hair flew around her face in
wispy strands. She must’ve felt someone looking at her, for she turned around
and looked at me. We stood there for a moment and cold electric shock ran
through me like a knife being stabbed through the center of my heart. The
realness of the situation swept over once again, and she seemed to know. Yet,
she turned back around, and I, unable to move, remained where I was.
After regaining some composure, I
walked away from her, returning where I was minutes before. I looked again at
the ocean, not feeling sorrow now, but pure and flawless rage. I suddenly
wondered how it would feel to jump. The pain would be no more. I nearly smiled
at the thought, but the hard lines that formed around my mouth told my muscles
otherwise. Would it hurt? How long would it take for the frigid waters to
overcome my senses?
I raised my right foot to the
bottom rail, my left foot shortly following. I grasped the top rail more firmly
and looked down once again to the Atlantic. I climbed the rest of the post and
hoisted my body over the top, with my eyes tightly shut.
"Harry?"
My stomach turned in the most
awful way, and a wave of potent nausea washed over me, making me numb with
realization.
It was her!
I opened my eyes, and in the
commanding shock, my hands slipped from the rail and I fell down to my death. I
threw my hands up into the air, grasping for anything or anyone to save me.
My last memory of her confused
face split my mind.
And then, it was over.
The End.