Written
by Kari
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
In her dream, Rose DeWitt Bukater relived
that dreadful moment again and again. Jack’s sturdy arms were locked around her
desperately. He seemed so calm and self-assured, but when she glanced at him,
the fear in his eyes was unmistakable.
The great hull of the Titanic was
disappearing fast beneath them, and would soon pull them down on top of it into
the blackness of the water. But Jack was there, and for a moment, he met her
eyes. "We’re going to make it, Rose!" he told her with all the
conviction of his being. "Trust me."
"I trust you!" she yelled above the
noise of the swiftly submerging ship. And there was no doubt in her heart. She
trusted him.
The water was now mere feet below them, and
Rose could feel the stinging spray on her face. Beneath the surface of the
blackness, she could hear the massive Titanic groaning with a last effort as
the sea swallowed it.
Almost there...the dread filled her heart,
but Jack was there. She felt him squeeze her hand harder. And on Jack’s mark,
she sucked in a large gulp of air.
And suddenly, the iciness enveloped her
whole, shocking her body, and the Titanic was no longer supporting her. She
felt Jack’s strong grip on her hand in the dark coldness--her only source of
comfort--and she concentrated on that. She held on tightly as she flailed her
legs, kicking for the surface as Jack had told her to do...but the problem was,
she didn’t know which way the surface was!
She felt Jack pull her closer to him as he
latched onto her lifebelt.
But suddenly, he was gone! She couldn’t feel
him! She groped desperately in the darkness for him, but the ocean had
swallowed him. Unexpectedly, her head broke free of the darkness.
Instinctively, she gasped for air, all the time searching the surface
desperately for her lost love.
"Jack!" she screamed again and
again, but her voice was lost in a sea of thousands upon thousands of voices.
So many people. So many like herself...but she did not see Jack’s face among
any of them.
She didn’t know how much time had passed when
she came across a drifting wardrobe door. Exhausted and numbed from the cold
and grief, she climbed on top.
After all that had happened, Jack had been
ripped from her arms and sucked into the darkness forever.
*****
Rose awoke with a start, but the coldness of
the dream followed her, leaving her chilled to the bone. She shivered, pulling
her sweat-soaked sheets tightly around her body.
"There, there," the nurse soothed
her gently, handing her a cool glass of water. Like a lightning bolt, reality
hit her. She was in the makeshift infirmary aboard the Cunard Liner Carpathia,
mere days after the sinking.
She had suffered severe hypothermia while in
the water, and when they brought her aboard Carpathia she had been disoriented
and delirious. She had not even been able to give them her name. In fact, she
had not even been able to speak in intelligible words or phrases.
The nurses had determined that she was
suffering from shock as well as hypothermia, and maybe even amnesia. But Rose
remembered everything. The memories came back to her in a rush--Titanic, her
suicide attempt, meeting Jack, falling in love with Jack, the iceberg, losing
Jack...
She forced that thought away as the nurse
took the glass out of her trembling hands. "You’re going to be fine, Miss
DeWitt Bukater, you’ll see."
Rose stopped dead, staring at the nurse in
horror. "What did you just call me?"
The nurse looked at her, a confused
expression plastering on her kindly face. "Miss DeWitt Bukater. That is
your name, isn’t it?"
Rose could do nothing but stare at this woman
as she tried to remember the confusion of the past couple of days, but it was
all such a blur. Had she revealed her own identity in her delirium?
"A rich gentleman named Caledon Hockley
identified you. He said that you’re his fiancee, and your mother--"
"No!" Rose exclaimed, sitting up as
dread filled the pit of her stomach. Jack was dead...and Cal had found her.
"No, he’s not my fiance. The man that I was to marry is dead."
Rose ignored the woman’s confused expression
as she bolted from bed--
And nearly collapsed at the door. Someone was
there to break her fall. Someone was holding her, bringing her back to bed, and
for a moment Rose thought that it was Jack. "Jack!" she exclaimed,
opening her eyes, only to find herself looking into the conflicted eyes of Cal
Hockley.
She recoiled in horror, clinging to the bed
rail.
"Hello, sweetpea," he said tiredly.
And the tone of his voice--was it possible to be angry, relieved, and irritated
all at once? But that’s how Cal seemed.
"Jack is dead, sweetpea," Cal said
gently, but Rose could hear the faint trace of triumph in his voice.
"Well, isn’t that convenient for
you," she snapped irritably.
Cal actually looked stung by the comment, but
he recovered almost immediately. He reached out in an attempt to smooth her
hair, but she instinctively pulled away from him. Rose glanced desperately at
the nurse who stood silently nearby, unsure of what to make of their exchange.
Around her, the sick and dying filled other
beds lined up randomly along the walls. There were even some on cots and
pallets on the floor. By the way Cal glanced around uncomfortably, Rose knew
that he felt out of place here among the sick and the poor. "Please, Rose,
let us care for you in our suite. Your mother has been so worried--"
"I’m not going anywhere with you,"
she told him forcefully, confidently. "Ever!"
Cal glanced around, clearly embarrassed that
she had raised her voice to him in public, and angry that he could not take her
forcefully without causing a scene. "Rose," he said in an obvious
effort to keep his voice down, "you know you’re in no position to argue.
You can barely stand."
Rose took a deep breath, standing up
carefully. There. She just had to make slow movements. Reaching down, she
grabbed the blanket, wrapping it around her shoulders. "Cal, can we please
go somewhere to talk quietly?"
He hesitantly complied, leading her out of
the infirmary section of the ship and out onto the nearest deck. She stumbled
several times and Cal tried to help her walk, but she refused to let him touch
her. Outside, they leaned against the railing. It was past sunset, and the
stars were just visible in the late afternoon sky, and the early moon reflected
its light beautifully off the surface of the water.
On any other night, Rose would have found the
sight beautiful. But how could she now? The water was a great black beast, and
it had swallowed Jack into its depths. And it had tried to take her, too.
A chilling breeze swept across the waters,
sending chills up her spine as she was suddenly reminded of the bitter cold
that those waters possessed. She pulled the blanket tighter around her
shoulders.
"Doesn’t this remind you of our time in
Venice the night I asked you to marry me?" Cal commented, breaking the
silence.
She looked at him strangely, not sure whether
she should be angry that he should mention something like that after all he had
done to her and Jack, or whether she should feel sorry for him for hanging on
to his illusions. "Cal," she said gently, "things are different
now. I don’t love you anymore."
These last words stunned him into
silence--something that didn’t happen to Cal Hockley very often. "Rose, I
do love you--"
"Cal, our marriage was arranged for
financial purposes, nothing more. To become richer. Before we became engaged, I
was enamored of you. I thought you rich, powerful, and handsome...and we had
some good times. I thought I was happy. I thought it was what I wanted."
He opened up his mouth as if to say
something, but she continued before he could get a word out.
"But soon after the engagement, I
realized that it wasn’t what I wanted. It’s what everyone else wanted of
me--you, my mother, and your father--everyone. Everyone but me. But I had
somehow convinced myself that it was for my own good. Cal, after the
engagement, you changed. During our courtship you were polite and courteous,
but when we became engaged you became protective and smothering and dominant. I
slowly realized that all you cared about was owning me."
"Rose, that’s not true. I told you I love
you." His voice was so desperate, almost pleading. It had been a long time
since she had heard him sound so sincere.
"Maybe you somehow convinced yourself
that you love me, Cal. But dominance is not love. Owning me is not loving me.
Maybe you sincerely believe that you love me, but I don’t think you could ever
understand the nature of love."
"And I suppose you do?" he asked,
his voice becoming angry. "You have a fling with some filthy gutter
rat"--he practically spat the word out-- "and suddenly, you understand
the nature of love? He had nothing to offer you, Rose. I have everything."
Rose shook her head sadly. He still didn’t
get it. "Not everything," she said softly, her eyes once again
focusing on the water ahead of her. "There are some things that all the
money in the world could never buy. Jack showed me this. He came along in my
darkest hour and he showed me how to love, and how to live..." Rose’s face
became dark as the next thought occurred to her. "And you tried to have
him killed."
The words hung in the air, the silence
between them palpable.
Cal’s face became dark. "You were the
one who betrayed me, Rose. And yet, here I am, willing to take you back, and
Jack is dead, no matter that it was not my doing."
This time Rose was the one to become angry.
"You’re such a pompous ass, Cal. You think you know everything about life,
but you can’t comprehend a thing. You’re so focused on your world and your
money that you’re too blind to notice anything else. That night that I slipped
and nearly fell over the ship--I didn’t slip. I tried to jump. But Jack
convinced me that living would be worth it. He understood things that you never
could, Cal. That is why he was a better man than you’ll ever be. That’s why I
fell in love with him."
She took a deep breath, noticing the tears in
the corners of his eyes. Caledon Hockley, crying! Rose would never have thought
it possible.
Yet she could have no sympathy for him. Not
after what he’d done to Jack, and done to her. He hadn’t tears enough.
"Good-bye, Cal," she said softly. "I hope that you find the
right woman to marry. In this society, I’m sure it won’t be too difficult. Tell
Mother...tell her I love her. Tell her I’m sorry that I can’t be there to tell
her that myself. We’re just too different. She would never understand Rose
Dawson."
Without another word, Rose Dawson was gone,
leaving Caledon with his form silhouetted against the moonlight. He did not
follow her.
The Carpathia docked the next day, and as it
did so, she made sure that her name in the survival list read Rose Dawson.
Rose DeWitt Bukater died on the Titanic.
In New York City, Rose found a home in a
strict boarding house near Central Park, where she went walking daily to watch
the young families. For months, Rose cried herself to sleep every night. She
desperately avoided any and all male attention. One particular night while
going through her only belongings, Rose was surprised to find The Heart of the
Ocean in the pocket of the coat Cal had given her. She had cried that night,
thinking that she finally had a real link to Jack.
In the first week after docking, Rose had
pawned her engagement ring. She had considered tossing it over the railing of
the Carpathia, but thought better of it.
After moving into the boarding house, Rose
had found work as a waitress to pay her rent. She had never actually done any
sort of real work in her life, but Rose discovered that she rather enjoyed it.
Some of the waitresses even talked to her about the new playhouses needing
actors and actresses. This intrigued Rose--she’d always secretly wanted to be
an actress. She remembered telling that to Jack on the Titanic.
And so after being introduced to the owner of
one particular playhouse, it wasn’t long before Rose had her first supporting
role.
So this is how it came to be that, five
months after the sinking, Rose Dawson sat in the dressing room after her first
performance in the opening play. She was absolutely exhilarated. She had given
her best performance, and how the audience had cheered! It had been a success!
She had not felt this alive since...well, since Jack.
Jack. Not a day went by that she did not
think about her doomed lover. "Like the tragic lovers in a play," she
whispered to her image in the mirror as she pulled the pins out of her red
curls, letting her hair bounce free.
"Nice performance, kiddo,"
Emily--the actual star of the play--told her as she patted her on the shoulder.
"Before you know it, you’ll have all my parts."
Emily smiled good-naturedly as she left the
small dressing room, leaving Rose alone with her thoughts. She liked Emily. In
many ways, she reminded Rose of Molly Brown.
She sighed. There it was. Something was
constantly reminding her of Titanic. And Titanic reminded her of Jack.
"These are for the star, miss."
Startled by the broken silence, Rose looked
up into the mirror to see a man behind her, his face partially hidden by an
armful of red roses.
"Emily just left," she snapped,
surprised by the man’s rude and inappropriate entrance.
"Actually, these are for Miss Rose
Dawson."
Rose froze in place, her shoulders becoming
abruptly rigid. His voice...so much like...no, it couldn’t be. He was dead.
Slowly the man came forward and laid the
roses down next to her on the dresser, but Rose didn’t dare look up out of fear
that it wouldn’t be so; fear that she’d wake up and realize that this was a
dream and that--
"Rose." His voice was so tender, so
loving. And his hand was on her shoulder now. Slowly, she looked up.
And the tear-filled blue eyes that gazed down
at her with so much affection were unmistakable. She thought her heart was
going to explode. Suddenly, his hand was on her cheek, and she was standing up,
her own eyes filling with tears, as she saw nothing but him. She could speak no
words because her vocal cords would not respond.
Before she even realized what had happened,
she was in Jack’s arms, and he was holding her tighter than he’d ever held her
before, and he was saying her name over and over, and it was the sweetest sound
she’d ever heard in her life. She was dimly aware of the sobbing that escaped
her chest, but she hardly noticed. Jack was in her arms. Her Jack. Safe and
alive.
They stood together like that, holding one
another and crying, for what seemed like a sweet eternity. Finally, Jack pulled
back, and when he did, she realized he was now grinning ear to ear.
At the sight--the beautiful sight--Rose burst
into laughter--that pure, heartfelt sort of laughter. She thought her heart
would explode from the feeling of bliss that poured through her heart at that
moment. They hugged again tightly, but they were laughing this time.
Rose pulled back slightly to run her hands
through his blond hair, before resting them on his cheeks. She gazed hard into
his eyes as if still trying to decide if he was real. He did the same, kissing
her red tresses softly and breathing in the scent of her hair, her skin. He
kissed her soft lips tenderly, loving the taste of her.
His Rose. His beautiful Rose.
"Jack," Rose finally said. The name
felt so good on her tongue. "Jack, I thought you were dead--"
"I thought you were dead, too," he
told her. "I couldn’t find you on the Carpathia and your name wasn’t on
the survivor list."
"I was sick in the infirmary almost
until we arrived in New York, and there was no record of you listed anywhere. I
searched the ship when I could finally walk without falling over. No one I
talked to had seen you. Jack, I’m so sorry. I should have looked harder. But
after we were pulled apart under the water, I was sure that you were..."
"Shh," he assured her, holding her
trembling body in his arms once again. He never wanted to let her go.
"It’s not your fault, Rose. It doesn’t matter now. We’re together
now."
"So how did you know I was here?"
she asked, curiosity getting the better of her.
He shrugged, a sly grin playing on his lips.
"I heard of this play and was interested in seeing it. Then I heard of an
actress named Rose Dawson. My logical mind told me it was a coincidence. I
mean, there have to be hundreds of Rose Dawsons in New York alone, right? Well,
I followed a hunch and cross-referenced it with the Titanic survivor list. And
sure enough--there was a single Rose Dawson listed. And incidentally, there was
no Rose Dawson listed on the original passenger list."
Rose smiled, shaking her head. "Why, Mr.
Dawson, aren’t you the clever one?"
He smiled back at her. "Not too clever.
Don’t know why I didn’t think of it before. I must say, though, Miss Dawson,
that I’m very flattered. And touched."
Rose blushed visibly. "Jack, let’s get
out of here. We’ll stay up all night talking at my place."
Jack looked at her with a mock-pout.
"After five months of not seeing each other? That’s what you want to do
all night? Talk?"
This time Rose turned beet red as she
remembered what they had done in the back of the Renault on the Titanic.
"Well, we might be able to find the time for
other...mmhmm...activities," she told him teasingly as she took his hand,
leading him out of the theater.
By the time they left, it was pitch black
outside, with only a few street lamps to guide their way. But Jack was with
her. She felt safe with him by her side.
"Jack, when we get inside, you’re going
to have to be very quiet. My landlady is very strict, and if she finds you here
we’ll both be out on the street."
Jack shrugged nonchalantly. "Makes it
more exciting, don’t you think?"
Rose punched him in the shoulder, laughing at
him at the same time. She shook her head as she wrapped her arm around his
waist, his solid form and warmth once again reminding her that he was real.
"What am I going to do with you, Jack Dawson?"
He grinned down at her, rubbing her shoulders
at the same time. "I can think of a few things, Rose Dawson," he
teased, once again making her blush.
As a moment of silence passed, they found
themselves enamored of each other, unable to keep their eyes off one another.
They traded smiles that dazzled their hearts, and they did not want to stop
touching each other.
"Jack, tomorrow let’s go to Central
Park. That’s where I go sometimes, and I want to share it with you."
"But of course," he said, flashing
one of his dazzling smiles as his blue eyes reflected the moonlight. "I
wish to draw you in a sea of flowers, ma belle mademoiselle."
"We’re here," Rose whispered as
they stopped by the door of an ancient brick building that had the look of an
old orphanage about it. Together, they stepped up the concrete stairs and Rose
pulled open the double doors, peering in cautiously. Ahead, across a long room,
she could see the stairs that led to the second floor. But no one was in the
long living room. Rose strained her ears, but she could hear no movement or
voices--even from the kitchen.
"All clear," she whispered, taking
his hand and pulling him in behind her. Together, they made their way quietly
towards the staircase, Jack’s gaze bouncing around the room in curiosity. The
room held practical furniture and a single fireplace--nothing too
extraordinary.
Finally they were at the base of the stairs
and climbing steadily up. Several times, the boards creaked nosily in the old
house, and Rose would stop dead in her tracks, fearful that someone would
emerge at the top or the foot of the stairs. But they arrived at the top
without incident, and they made it safely down the hall and into Rose’s room.
"Shhew," Jack whispered when they
made it inside safely. Looking around, Jack wanted to study her room, but all
he could do when she stepped to him and into his arms was collapse on her
narrow bed. It was suddenly a heart-wrenching feeling, to hold Rose again. He
felt the tears coming, but he pushed them back. He was with Rose now--there was
no need to cry anymore.
"Ya know," he whispered, pulling
back to trace her jaw and lips with his finger, "I hadn’t cried since my
parents died in the fire. But after I lost you...a day didn’t go by that I
didn’t cry for you."
Rose’s heart was broken. She couldn’t bear
the thought of him being in so much pain over her. "Oh, Jack," she
whispered, pulling him into her arms, holding him so tight she thought they might
meld into one. "I cried for you, too. I missed you so much."
"Rose, I love you," he said,
pulling back to look into her eyes. "I love you so much. I wanted to tell
you that every day the past five months. I hated myself for not telling you
while I had the chance."
"And I love you, Jack," she
whispered, letting the honesty of the moment ring in the air as she studied his
eyes. "I never want you out of my sight again. Let’s get married tomorrow.
In the park. I know a priest who would gladly do it."
And there it was--the moment of truth. She
could see the pure joy and love in his eyes. But there was hesitation--concern
for her. "Rose, are you sure that’s what you want so soon after..."
"Shh," she said, holding a finger
up to his lips. "That’s taken care of. I don’t think we’ll have to worry
about Cal bothering us. And yes, it’s what I want. I want you, Jack Dawson.
Forever."
And when their lips met in a passionate,
longing kiss, there was no more need for words. Their bodies and hearts spoke
for them. As their clothing disappeared and skin mingled with skin, they knew
that there would be hard times. But they realized that they could get through
anything.
Because fate had brought them together for
the second time.
The End.