FINDING LOVE IN THE PAST
Chapter Eight

Lily slammed the cabin door and fell to the floor next to her bed. Tears ran down her face. She heard footsteps running towards the door. She quickly dashed to the door and locked it.

The doorknob turned. "Lily! Lily, unlock the door, please," James said calmly.

"Go away, James!" Lily exclaimed.

"Lily…"

"Go away!" A few moments later, she heard him walk away. She leaned against the door and slid to the floor, crying.

*****

James walked away from the cabin with mixed feelings. He was angry, angry about being kissed by Linda. Why did she kiss me when she knew full well that I love Lily? he thought. Then his mind flashed back to when he first realized he was in love with Lily. It was this morning. He woke up and Lily was in his arms. He remembered the sunlight coming through the porthole. He also recalled the smell of Lily’s hair. He had felt so content holding Lily in his arms. He remembered thinking that this was where he wanted to be, with Lily. He had never felt like this before about anyone.

Suddenly, James felt the floor shaking slightly. It was barely noticeable, but he felt it. Then he heard a loud noise. What is going on? James thought. Oh, no. He quickly turned around and ran to Lily.

*****

Lily was still sitting against the door, thinking, her tears subsiding. James, why did you kiss her? Her mind flashed back to that horrible scene--Linda talking with James in the middle of the room, Linda kissing him, and then James turning around and looking at her…with that look of guilt in his eyes. I should have known better, she told herself. Once a Marauder, always a Marauder. She recalled hearing about James at Hogwarts, about him having a new girlfriend every week. What makes me any different from any of his ex-girlfriends? Her mind flashed to the time she spent with James since they were brought to the past, thoughts of kissing him and enjoying every moment with him. She smiled inside. She had never felt happier than when she was with James. Oh, no. I think I’m in love with him! This is so confusing. Lily said out loud to the empty room, "If I’m in love with James Potter, send me a sign!"

As if on cue, Lily felt movement underneath her. "Oh, my God! It’s a sign!" Lily stood up and sat on her bed. She wiped her tears away. Okay, she thought. I’m guessing that sign means I’m in love with James. Weird. It actually worked. Okay, if I’m really in love with James, he’ll knock on the door in five seconds. Five…four…three…two…one…okay. Never mind.

"Lily! Open the door!"

Lily immediately ran to the door and unlocked it. As soon as she opened the door, James walked in.

James put his hand on her cheek, noticing the redness under her eyes. "Lily, are you all right?"

She touched his hand before answering. "I’m fine."

He didn’t want to start another argument by badgering her, so he walked into the middle of the room, looking around. "Where would the lifejackets be?"

"The what? Oh, that was the iceberg," Lily said, then added, with a whisper, "not a sign."

"Of course it was the iceberg. What did you think it was?"

"Nothing. You’re right. Where are the lifejackets?" Lily changed the subject.

"I’m looking." James looked on top of the wardrobe. "Found it, but there is only one." He held it up.

Lily thought for a moment before saying, "Well, we’ll be on a lifeboat, so why would one of us need a lifejacket?"

"Well…"

There was a knock on the door.

James opened the door to find John out of breath. "What’s wrong?"

"You will not believe this, but we hit an iceberg." Seeing the unsurprised expressions on their faces, he continued, "We struck an iceberg. The post office is already underwater. I wouldn’t believe it if I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes. This is serious. We need to get up top to the boat deck."

"Give us five minutes to get ready. We’ll meet you in the general room," James said to John.

John nodded and left quickly.

They didn’t waste any time. They both put on their Hogwarts robes over their clothes. Lily used her wand to expand the pocket in her coat. She put the rest of her Hogwarts uniform and her wand in the pocket. James did the same thing.

"Lily, I think you should wear the lifejacket."

"But I thought I didn’t need one."

"But what if we don’t get to a lifeboat in time? We might end up in the ocean. That’s why I would feel better if you had the lifejacket."

Lily murmured, "You’d probably feel better if Linda was wearing the lifejacket."

"What did you say?"

"I said, I don’t know how to put this on," Lily said quickly.

"Let me help." James put the lifejacket over her head and then tried to secure it. Lily was trying to ignore the fact that James’ face was only inches away from hers, and that James had his arms around her waist, trying to secure the lifejacket. "I can’t figure this out!" James said, starting to get frustrated.

"It’s fine." Lily took off the lifejacket with difficulty and took her shawl. "We’d better get going." They left the cabin, heading for the general room and leaving the lifejacket on the bed.

*****

It took them twice as long to get to the general room as before because the hallways were crowded with passengers trying to find their way up. "Lily! James! What took you so long?" John asked when he reached them.

"Sorry. The hallways are so crowded," Lily apologized.

"It’s all right. I just got here myself," John said. "We need to get to the boat deck, but all the gates blocking the way there are locked."

Lily paled. "What should we do?"

"We could go with everyone else and wait for the stewards to unlock one of the gates. Mind you, that will take a lot of time. But we will get into a lifeboat."

James thought for a moment and realized that John didn’t know that there were only enough lifeboats for about half the passengers on board. "I think we should try to find our own way up."

"Okay. Let’s go."

"Wait," Lily said. "Where is Linda? Shouldn’t she be here?"

John didn’t notice the coldness of her voice and answered, "She didn’t believe me, and she still thinks the Titanic is unsinkable."

"Let’s go. We’re wasting time."

They were following John down a flight of stairs when Lily asked, "Does anyone else notice that slight tilt?"

Lily was right. Everything was tilted downward. We have to get out of here, James thought. John was in the lead. They went down another flight of stairs. That was when they found one of the locked gates. A large crowd of third class passengers with some of their luggage was waiting for the stewards to unlock the gate. The stewards were trying to calm them down. They moved past the crowd and kept walking down hallways that led to Scotland Road. "There’s a gate down these stairs," John said as he started to walk down. When they reached the end of the stairs, they noticed that there was some seawater leaking in.

"The water is freezing!" Lily exclaimed. They started to walk faster toward the gate.

James tried to open the gate. "No! It’s locked."

"Damn," John said tiredly. "Wait. Do you hear footsteps?"

They turned around and saw a young man they didn’t know running towards them. The man ran up to the gate and shook it. He turned to them and yelled out, "Ouvrez cette porte en ce moment!"

"We don’t speak French," Lily said calmly. "Calm down. We can lead you to the main gate."

"Je vous commande d'ouvrir cette Porte. Je dois obtenir à la plate-forme de bateau."

"Sir." John took a step towards the livid Frenchman. "Follow us. We’ll take you to the gate." John was saying this slowly in hopes the man would get the concept.

"Stand en arrière. Ne venez pas plus étroitement."

"We’ll help you."

In one sudden movement, the Frenchman pulled an object out of his pocket and lunged at John. John collapsed to the floor, while the Frenchman ran away.

"John!" Lily shouted as she and James knelt beside him. "Oh, my God, James. He’s bleeding!"

"He’s been stabbed!"

Chapter Nine
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