YOU JUMP, I JUMP
Chapter Four
As fate would have it, we did end
up moving to Boston in early February, and Mr. Dawson, whom we quickly came to
call Jack, went with us to help. It was hard, packing up everything we knew and
moving to Massachusetts. I stopped to look back at my empty, darkened bedroom
for a moment.
"It’s hard, isn’t it?"
I turned to see Jo standing there with Mama, Luke, and Jack.
"Yeah," I choked. I
hadn’t even realized I was crying. Jo came to stand beside me and placed a hand
on my shoulder. All of my memories were here. Daddy, Mama, Luke, and Jo…this
was the only home I had ever known, and I didn’t want to leave.
"It’s going to be great in
Boston, Jamie," she assured me.
"I know…" I whispered
and I felt Mama’s soft hand touch my arm as Jo fell back to stand with her
father and Luke. Mama crouched to look into my eyes.
"Hey," she said,
touching my wild red curls. "No one’s forgetting your daddy, Jamie. How
could we ever? We loved him so much." This made me feel better, and I
summoned up the courage to nod.
"I’m ready," I said, my
voice back. I looked up at Jack, who smiled at me, and I felt better.
The house we moved into in Boston
was an old-fashioned house that had been there for over a hundred years. It was
amazing, with little nooks and crannies to hide in. Jo even had a room there to
stay in until her wedding in April. She said that eloping wasn’t her idea of
romance and that she wanted a real wedding. Jonathan, in turn, moved to Boston
as well, though he was keeping the Philadelphia house he owned.
Mama married Jack in the middle
of February with a few guests. They got married in a church and we had a dinner
afterwards. There was no procession or anything. Mama simply walked down the
aisle. I got to stand with Jack while Jo stood beside Mama. They even let me
hold the rings until the time came to put them on. Jack winked at me as he took
them from me.
"I do take thee to my
husband." Mama began to cry and Jack chuckled while taking her hand.
"I do take thee to my
wife." I couldn’t suppress a yawn then, not because I was bored, but
because I had stayed up all night worrying that I would screw up or lose the
rings. Jo must have noticed me yawn because she smirked at me. They finally
kissed and I heard Jack murmur to my mother, "Those better be tears of
joy, Red."
"You know they are,"
she replied.
"I love you…you have no idea
how long I’ve waited to say that." He laughed. She laughed, but was still
crying.
"You have no idea how long I
waited."
That night, Mama and Jack spent
the entire night with Jo, Luke, and I. There was no party or anything. We all
changed into our pajamas and sat on the couch in our new living room, looking
through old photo albums. Luke, of course, was still very little and fell
asleep nearly right away. Mama took him to bed and rejoined us. Jo sat beside
Jack and I sat between him and Mama.
"These are fairly new
photos," Mama explained, pointing out everyone. "Here is Jamie…"
She squeezed my shoulder. "You were a baby then, see?"
"Look at how fat you
were!" Jo laughed. "How cute!"
"Shut up," I muttered,
looking at Jo’s braids and big smile in the picture.
"How old were you
here?" Jack asked Jo.
"Eleven," Mama answered
for her. "That was Jamie’s first birthday."
"I remember that day!"
Jo said excitedly. "He tried to eat his birthday cake without his hands
and he had icing in his hair for a week." They all laughed, but I was not
amused. Mama turned to page to reveal a picture of her holding Jo when she was
about Luke’s age. Her hair was in braids again, but she looked a lot different.
She was chubby and her eyes were big and bright and she still had baby teeth.
Mama looked like a little girl in the photo. Her face was thinner and more
tired and her hair was tied back. She was smiling, though.
"This is you?" Jack
chuckled in disbelief, nudging Jo. She turned red.
"Yeah…"
"Look at all that
hair!"
"Yes, well…my children were
doomed by this mop," Mama said, gesturing to her own hair.
"I like your hair. It’s
gorgeous," Jack assured her, making her blush. Mama smiled until she
turned the page. Her face became grim.
"What’s wrong?" Jo
asked. Biting her lip, Mama showed us the photo. It was Mama and Jo again, but
Jo was a tiny baby in this picture.
"This was the one year
anniversary of the sinking," she answered quietly.
"Oh, Rose…" Jack said
sympathetically, taking her hand. I remembered the little I had learned about
her being on that ship. Jo looked uncomfortable.
"It was so hard…that first
one," she said as a tear made a shiny path down her cheek. "I took
her to the pier."
"Yeah?" Jack asked,
sounding surprised.
"It was what you would have
wanted."
"You’re absolutely right.
I’m proud of you, Rose," he said, and he really did sound proud.
"You know what?" Jo
asked, standing and pulling me up with her. "Jamie and I have some worlds
to design…we’ll just leave the two of you alone." I looked up at her
hopefully.
"We’re gonna…you’re gonna
draw me something?"
"You bet. Just like old
times, Jamie," she said with a wink, turning back to Mama and Jack.
"Good night, Ma…" She stopped, staring at Jack for a moment before
moving forward to give him a quick hug. He stood and held her very tightly for
a moment before pulling back and ruffling my hair.
"Hey…" he said kindly.
"Me and you…tomorrow, Jamie. We’re going to have ourselves a time."
"Really?" I asked
excitedly, then darkened. "Does Luke have to come?" Jack shook his
head.
"Just me and you,
buddy," he said. I couldn’t help myself. I moved forward to hug him, too.
He beamed down at me just like Daddy used to do, and I felt a warmth come over
me. Of course, that could have been Mama, sweeping me into her arms for a kiss
on the cheek, but this was different. This was contentment. I was truly happy
for the first time since Daddy died. Jo and I went upstairs and I talked as she
drew the picture of the enchanted forest. We fell asleep together like that,
with her laying sideways on my bed and me curled up at the top.
Jack took me to the Boston
Children’s Museum the next day, where they had everything from cars to animals.
There was an exhibit about the Old West which I loved, and there was an art
exhibit which Jo would have liked, but my favorite would have to be the exhibit
on the recent World War. The thought of fighting for my country sent a small
thrill through me as I looked at the figurines set up to display a scene of
battle. Jack let me call the shots, following me. He crouched to look at things
with me and listened when I went on about something I was excited for.
As we left the museum that day,
we stopped for hot dogs and he sat me down.
"When it gets warmer
outside, I’m going to take you and your brother to Fenway park to watch a
baseball game," he said sincerely. "But I want you to know that I am
not trying to replace your dad, Jamie. Okay? You don’t have to call me Dad if
you don’t want to."
"Okay," I said, unsure
of how I was feeling. I liked Jack, but I had never thought about calling him
Dad until he said it. Then I remembered Jo…who had grown up without a father
and when my daddy had married Mama, she’d called him Dad without hesitation.
"One day at a time,
right?" Jack asked, grinning down at me. I nodded at him. "Come on.
Let’s get home to your Mom, brother, and sister."
"Did you have a good
time?" Mama asked when we walked into the house. She bent to kiss my
forehead before kissing Jack.
"It was the best!" I
exclaimed.
"We looked at
everything," Jack agreed. "Jamie’s got great taste…we especially
liked the World War exhibit."
"Good!" Mama said.
"Luke is in the kitchen and Jo is out with Johnny tonight, so you two are
just in time for dinner."
"What are we having?" I
asked anxiously.
"Spaghetti," Mama said.
"Your favorite."
"Mine, too," Jack said,
following Mama into the kitchen. He tickled Luke, making him giggle, and sat
down. I met Mama’s eyes as we all sat down together and I realized I hadn’t
stopped smiling since this morning. Her eyes were brilliantly blue as she
grinned at me and winked.
"Eat, Jamie," she said
gently.
The days seemed to fly by and it
was suddenly my tenth birthday, March twenty-first. We were having a dinner
with Jo, Johnny, Uncle Randy, Aunt Liz, Aunt Livy, and Uncle Grant. Belinda was
there, along with Dave and Gloria. Johnny had also brought along his little
sisters, Grace and Bianca, whom I had met once before. They were silly, giggly
things and though I liked them, I longed for a friend my age who was a boy. Jo
had helped make dinner, Mama’s favorite, stuffed chicken with asparagus. Mama
and Jack had given me a bicycle for my birthday, which Luke was extremely
jealous of.
As we all sat down to dinner, I
waited impatiently because I wanted to get right to the cake, which Mama would
never allow. The cake was chocolate with little candies on it. I had spent the
entire day admiring it and waiting for when I would be able to eat it. Mama had
slapped my hand playfully when she caught me trying to take some of the
frosting with my fingertip.
"I don’t think so,
James…" she’d said, but she was smiling. Tonight, I sat between her and
Jo. Jo took it upon herself to serve the dinner and set the table. Mama tried
to argue, but Jo shushed her.
Everyone excitedly began to
chatter and serve themselves, but Mama had stopped, staring ahead in confusion.
All the color drained from her face.
"Mama?" I asked
quietly. Jack looked back from his conversation on the other side of Mama.
"Rose?" he inquired,
his eyebrow quirked. She shook her head, closing her eyes. The room went silent
as Jo leaned in.
"Ma?" Her voice
quavered. Mama pushed her food away and covered her eyes with her hands. "Stuffed
chicken is your favorite!" Pushing away from the table, Mama rose and
turned, but she didn’t make it far enough and we could hear as she threw up
into the potted plant in the hall outside the dining room. Jo sat back down,
looking a little green in the face. Jack had since gotten up to help Mama and
Luke had noticed nothing and gone on eating. Everyone else ate in silence
before Aunt Livy broke the calm.
"Poor thing. This weather
isn’t good for anyone."
"She doesn’t get sick,"
Jo said.
"What?" Aunt Livy
asked. Jo met her eyes.
"She doesn’t get sick."
"Everyone does
sometimes," Aunt Liz interjected reassuringly.
"I’m sure she’s fine,"
Dave added.
Mama came back a few minutes
later with an apologetic look on her face.
"Do forgive me." She
chuckled. "A slight queasy moment." Patting my head, she sat down
again. After dinner and cake, I played blissfully with my new toys while Mama
rested on the sofa. Johnny had taken his sisters home and Belinda lounged near
Jo, Dave, and Gloria. Jack sat in the armchair reading the newspaper, eyeing
Mama every so often. I marveled at how calm he remained through everything.
"Doctor tomorrow,
Rose," he said firmly and she nodded.
"One step ahead of
you…" she replied weakly.
Jo stayed with us the next day
when Mama went to the doctor with Jack. They returned less than two hours
later, both of them looking dazed and out of sorts.
"Well?" Jo asked
impatiently, getting up to take Mama’s coat.
"I need to…to sit
down…" she said quietly. Jack sat first, his eyes wide. We stood before
them, staring them down as Luke climbed into Mama’s lap.
"Tell us now!" Jo
demanded, her arms crossed. Mama looked up at her and then at me.
"I’m pregnant," she
said softly. Jo and I exchanged glances and suddenly we began to laugh.
"What?" Jo giggled.
"Pregnant…baby…" Jack
managed. The two of them were still staring ahead as if in a trance.
"S-seriously?" Jo
whispered.
"You’re having a baby?"
I asked my mother. She nodded, looking down at me.
"Oh, my God…" Jo said,
sitting in the nearby armchair. I bit my lip, unsure if we were happy or upset
about this. Mama and Jack weren’t giving off any certain emotions, and I was
completely confused.
"Is this good?" I
finally chanced. Mama seemed to sober.
"Oh…yes. I mean, of course
it’s good, Jamie…but so fast…I thought I was done…a baby?" She looked at
Jack for confirmation. He nodded, deep in thought as he glanced at Jo, who had
a clandestine smirk on her lips.
"Smile, Dad…" she said,
patting his hand. He looked completely shell-shocked, but there was a slight exhilaration
to his demeanor as well. There was an awed look in his eyes.
"Where do babies come from,
Mama?" Luke asked curiously. Mama put her arm over her eyes and collapsed
against the back of the sofa. Jack chuckled and I looked at Jo, who only shook
her head. Then I grinned.