A SIMPLE KIND OF LIFE
Chapter One
April 9, 1912
London was a very lonely place.
The weather was on the cool side and the nights were long and boring.
For Rose DeWitt Bukater, this was
something new. She had never been alone at night before, especially in a hotel
in a city she had never before traveled to.
The hotel, however, was simply
beautiful. It was a five-star in the heart of London and was world famous--the
Ritz.
Rose’s heart beat faster than
ever before, it seemed, as she lay in the darkness and saw the unfamiliar
shadows which the trees outside the window cast across the walls, as if an
unknown shape was walking past.
The bed seemed hard and uncomfortable
and the pillow seemed cold and unwelcoming.
The whole city seemed
unwelcoming. Or maybe it was just her. For tomorrow, she would set sail alone
for the first time on the maiden voyage of the Titanic.
She had tried but failed to sail
on another ship a little less attractive, but because of the coal strike in
England at the moment, she was forced to take a first class ticket aboard the
ship.
Rose DeWitt Bukater was just
seventeen years old. She was born and raised in Philadelphia by her mother,
Ruth DeWitt Bukater, and her father, Dick Bukater. Her beloved father had
passed away when she was just eleven.
As Rose had grown, she had
attracted attention from various males wishing to court her, but her mother had
refused, much to Rose’s delight.
Although that story had later
seemed to change.
It was a Wednesday evening,
December nineteenth, when Caledon Hockley had asked permission to dine with the
DeWitt Bukaters when they all attended a ball at the country club.
Mr. Hockley was very handsome and
dashing, tall and with perfect black hair. Rose had thought her heart had
skipped a beat when he had asked permission to court her.
He had been twenty-eight and she
was not quite sixteen, but that hadn’t seemed to matter. Especially to Ruth,
Rose’s mother, who couldn’t have been more delighted about the match.
Mr. Hockley was a rich man. His
father, Nathan Hockley, was a steel tycoon and one of the wealthiest men in the
country at the time.
Caledon was set to inherit the
money when he married.
Rose had been affected by this
man. She was flattered by his affections and thought she had grown to love him
in some way.
He treated her the way she had
always wanted to be treated by a man.
Rose’s seventeenth birthday had
come in January of 1912, and Caledon Hockley had proposed to her.
As happy as she was to court this
rich, handsome man, as he bent on one knee, holding the most expensive-looking
diamond ring she had ever laid eyes on in the box held out to her, she had felt
somewhat trapped.
She felt she had some sort of feelings
for this man, but marriage at just seventeen?
Other women of her age were happy
wives and mothers already.
Maybe she had just felt selfish
for thinking of herself too much. What could getting engaged mean?
Rose had said yes and placed the
diamond on her finger. It was beautiful, she had to admit, and probably cost
enough to feed a few small countries, but to Cal, that didn’t seem to matter.
As soon as the ring was placed on
her finger, she had felt as though she was a dog wearing a dog collar for the
first time. A dog collar which marked who the dog belonged to.
A ring to show who Rose now
belonged to, in body and mind.
After ignoring the initial
feelings of entrapment, Rose had begun to shove those feelings to the back of
her mind and continued on with her life.
Her mother, Ruth, had never been
so happy about anything in her life, it seemed. It was then that the wedding
began to be planned around her.
Everything from her long, lace
ivory dress to the color of the seating was planned around her. Rose felt as
though it wasn’t her wedding.
She felt like an actress in some
play. She didn’t feel like herself anymore. At times, she was even ignored by
Caledon while this wedding was planned. She felt as though she wanted to scream
just to have a small amount of attention, but even if she did muster up the
courage to scream, she feared she would still be ignored and the people would
continue to work and plan around her.
In late February, Caledon had
announced he would take Rose around Europe on a trip as an engagement present
before they would return to the States to marry.
At the thought of this, Rose had
been excited beyond belief. She had never been on a ship before and never been
to Europe.
The pair had boarded the
Mauretania in New York early in the morning of February 19, 1912.
Their journey around Europe had
taken them to Spain and France. Cal had planned to head to England, Ireland,
and then to Athens, Greece.
But they never made to it England
together.
During their three-week trip to
France, Cal had begun to be make advances at Rose. He had been trying to get
her into bed for some time now, but Rose had put him off, stating that they
should wait until they were married, which was something Rose had been looking
forward to at one point in her engagement.
It was one night at the Moulin
Rouge which had changed everything.
April 1, 1912
Rose DeWitt Bukater held out her
arm as her maid, Trudy, proceeded to fasten the diamond-encrusted bracelet onto
her wrist.
Next came the necklace to match.
The weight of the jewelry around her neck felt as though it would choke her.
The mirror in the vanity unit
reflected Rose, a girl of just seventeen.
Her long red hair was twisted up
into a tight bun and held in place by several pins. Her eyes were a deep blue
and her skin was pale porcelain.
She was the picture of her
mother, Ruth.
Her evening gown was black and
covered in pearls. She felt as though she was royalty. She felt as though she
was a woman of great importance in the world. But she knew she wasn’t. She was
just a young woman, barely even a woman, who was engaged to the great Caledon
Hockley.
Tonight they were to don their
glad rags to see a cabaret at the world famous Moulin Rouge. The French artist,
Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec, had made the Moulin Rouge popular around the world
from his amazing artwork. Rose owned a piece at home in Philadelphia. To just
look at the art and see the Moulin Rouge had made Rose want to come here many
times in her young life. Cal knew of her obsession with art, so this was his
gift to her. He knew of the reputation of the Moulin Rouge, he knew of the
prostitutes who had worked there at the turn of the century, and who knew if it
was any better now? But this was what Rose wanted and he wanted tonight to be
special for her.
The door clicked open and Cal
appeared in the doorway and startled Rose. There he was, dressed perfectly in a
tuxedo.
Rose forced the best smile she
could onto her face. Even though she was to go to the place she’d dreamed of
for years, she couldn’t help but feel smothered and sick. She almost wanted to
vomit, but she put on a brave face for her husband-to-be, which was something
she had grown quite used to.
The Moulin Rouge was in the Paris
red light district of Pigalle. It was famous for being the birthplace of the
can-can dance.
The cabaret was full of sensual
dancers, singers, and actors. They all seemed larger than life and more in your
face than anything Rose had ever seen before in her life.
The women of the cabaret wore
raunchy dresses uplifting their cleavage and making the men of the audience
swoon.
Cal had encountered discomfort
early on and had wanted to leave since just after the show had begun. When Rose
refused to budge, he had up and left without a word.
The show itself had inspired
Rose. The raunchiness had opened Rose’s eyes a lot to what life as a showgirl
at the Moulin Rouge was like.
A life which she found herself
actually yearning for. She had felt ever so out of place in her beautiful gown
and perfect posture.
Rose had wondered for many years
what it would be like to just slouch, just once, in a public place. The entire
party would gasp and it would cause uproar.
The show had ended just after
midnight and the respectable Mr. Caledon Hockley had been found in the chambers
of Madame Amelle. Drunk and half-clothed, he had been thrown onto the streets
as Rose had been leaving.
The stench of absinthe on his
breathe and his half-clothed body were enough to make Rose attempt to move away
from him, but her attempts to escape were useless.
When they had reached their hotel
room, Cal had ordered Rose to undress for bed, and when she hadn’t done as she
was told, he had raised his hand to her and cut her lip.
It was the first time Cal had
ever laid hands on her and the first time Rose had ever been hit. She didn’t
like blood. Why was he doing this?
“Come on, Rose. Take off your
clothes. You’re happy to see other women do it and you seem to enjoy it, so why
won’t you do it now?” Cal’s voice seem to echo into the dark room of the hotel.
He forced Rose from the floor to
her feet and held her against the wall.
Rose could feel her own heartbeat
in her ears. She had never felt so much fear. She just wanted a big hole to
swallow her up and take her away from this hell.
“Why are you doing this, Cal? You
were the one who went to bed with a whore.”
A sting came around Rose’s cheek
as she felt his hand strike her sharply. After that, he let her go and began to
wander around the hotel room, somewhat absentmindedly.
“Don’t speak to me like that,
Rose.”
Rose watched him go and had
wondered whether to make a run for the door to get out, but she knew he would
follow her. She knew it. She was too afraid to speak. Too shocked for words.
Too much in pain to move from the floor where she sat, tears running from her
eyes.
Violence was never the answer to
anything, Rose had always thought. It was a way of being punished. But why was
she being punished for loving this man?
“Why are you doing this, Cal? I
have never hurt you.”
Her voice seemed scared, like
that of a small child. A bitter laugh came from Cal as he opened a bottle of whiskey
and downed almost half of it. He could taste the burning of the liquid in his
throat and he thought he would vomit.
“You don’t disobey me, Rose. I am
your husband in practice. You honor me. You don’t make a fool out of me.”
“You made a fool out of yourself,
Cal. You went to bed with a woman who wasn’t even your fiancée.”
Rose found inner strength and
stability from somewhere to stand. She looked at the man she had once thought
she loved and stared with contempt and disbelief.
“How could I go to bed with my
fiancée when she wouldn’t let me? This is your fault. Now it’s your
punishment.”
With that, Cal swooped Rose from
her feet and carried her kicking and screaming to his bed. His stench was vile
and when he tried to kiss her, she squirmed away.
What was wrong with him?
“Cal. Stop. Please stop.”
Cal just laughed at her whimpers
of desperation. He would get what he wanted, whether she liked it or not. He
pulled violently at her corset strings as she attempted to move from under him.
He pinned her down strongly with his legs and one arm. He was strong, and it
seemed the strength of the alcohol had added to it.
Tears spilled from her eyes as
she didn’t know what was happening. Her back was to him and she could hear his
muttering of curse words and feel his dreaded touch.
He hitched up her skirts and
began to pull at her stockings.
“No. No! Get off me, Cal.”
Rose attempted once again to kick
him away, but he just covered her mouth with his dirty hands.
Tears spilled from her eyes and
she panicked. She wished someone would just walk in or he would just stop. She
had never felt so much pain in her life.
She wished she could give him the
same pain in return.
Then she thought of something.
Cal continued to struggle with her corset as Rose opened her mouth slightly and
bit as hard as she could on the finger which Cal had over her mouth.
He seemed to back off slightly
and moaned with pain.
“You little bitch!” he stormed,
and then more violently threw himself at her. She panicked and rolled over from
her back onto her stomach, raised her legs, and kicked his chest. Cal stumbled
backwards.
In a few seconds, she saw Cal
stumbling back towards her. Rose had never seen her life flash before her eyes
before. She reached for the first thing which seemed possible to reach and hit
him over the head with it. It was a glass vase.
Blood poured everywhere. Rose
could also taste the blood from biting his finger.
She screamed a little, seeing the
scene she had just caused. It seemed too violent to be reality.
Scanning the room, Rose saw blood
and pieces of her dress, which he had torn away. She sat in just her corset and
stockings, which were torn.
Reality kicked in. Rose knew she
had to get out. Cal lay stone cold unconscious on the bed.
Rose quickly found her suitcase
and packed in it what she thought she would need. Her breathing was quick and
she was dizzy from hyperventilation, but she knew she couldn’t stop for a
second. He could awaken soon.
Rose packed a few dresses and
stockings, her perfume, lipstick, brush, a few select pieces of jewelry and
three pairs of shoes. That would be fine until she was home with her mother.
Pinning up her hair and changing
into a more comfortable dress, Rose raided the safe and was shocked by what she
found. A gun.
She had no idea Cal even carried
a gun with him. Would he have killed her?
Just then, Rose realized she held
no remorse for what she had done. She took all of the money in the safe, which
totaled almost ten thousand dollars. He owed her that, at least.
With that, she left the hotel
room, shaking, shivering, and unsure of what to do next. She knew she had to
leave the country and somehow get home. But it was almost two in the morning.
How could she do that?
After wandering the city
endlessly for what seemed like days, Rose found a train station when daylight
came. She boarded a train for the coast and never looked back.
The clock ticked endlessly on the
bedside cabinet, the wind blew heavily, and the rain tapped on the window.
Rose’s heartbeat grew faster
again. She sat upright in bed, turned on the small lamp beside the bed, and
gazed at the clock. It was just after eleven and she could not sleep. On the
dresser hung Rose’s boarding dress, hat, and shoes. She had bought them here in
London and hoped the large mauve hat would hide her face the next day while
boarding, for it would be a huge social event and the press would be there,
too. Rose was nervous about boarding a ship alone, especially after what had
happened, but she was glad to be free.
She had already telegrammed her
mother, telling her she would be returning home without Cal, but didn’t give a
reason why. She couldn’t wait to be at home, but most of all, she hoped that
Cal would never come to her again. She hoped she would never lay eyes on him
again. She could still feel the pain from what he had caused her, even though
it was over a week ago.
She wondered where Cal was, what
he was doing, and what his intentions really were towards her that last night.
She knew they were sexual.
A hundred thoughts ran through
Rose’s mind, mostly of what would happen the next day. She had so many doubts
about boarding a ship alone, but she was also excited that she would be
witnessing history as she boarded the largest moving object ever made by man.