NEVER LET GO
Written by Princess Pinky
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
Her eyes were fixated on the
twinkling stars above. Her short, shallow breaths escaped her blue and frosted
lips in white puffs, partly reminding her of better times, when she used to
watch her grandfather smoke cigars as a child.
Incoherent words, a song,
seeped between each raspy breath. It was so cold. She couldn’t bear to move.
But she still had to stay strong. She had to stay alive. She’d made a promise
to Jack. Yes, Jack. Although she couldn’t see him, she could still feel his icy
hand wrapped tightly around her own. She promised to never let go. She intended
on keeping that promise. They would be with each other forever. So, she had to
keep talking. Singing. Humming. Whispering.
Then a soft beam of yellow
flitted across her deathly pale face. She looked just like one of the countless
dead, with her eyes frozen open to the heavens. Ever so gently, ever so
carefully, she twisted her head in the direction of the distant beam. She could
hear the cracking of the ice as it broke in her fiery red hair.
The beam hovered again, this
time seeming to stay on her face for several moments. It took her mind some
time to register. Following the beam of light to where it began, she could see
that it was coming from a flashlight. A boat. A boat was weaving its way in the
sea of death. The yellow shadow in the water rippled as the boat moved. It was
moving away. For several seconds, all she could do was stare, her ice speckled
lips slightly agape. Her mind was moving slower than frozen molasses. When it
finally caught up, she realized what she had to do.
"Jack." White plumes
of frost billowed from her mouth as she spoke. Her arms ached as she began to
shake her lover’s arm. "Jack." It hurt to speak. Her voice was
hoarse. When no response came, panic slipped over her, giving her the strength
to move her other arm. She touched his hand and tugged at him again.
"Jack." His hand didn’t have the slightest warmth to it. It was like
an ice carving of a hand.
She forced herself up, turning
over to gaze at his face. "Jack." It was blue. Frost had sealed his
eyes and mouth shut, and his body had been wrapped in a paralyzing cocoon of
ice. But she refused to believe it. Her movements became harder as she shook
him. "Jack." Her head turned, watching as the boat got further and
further away. Their only hope was disappearing into the dark night. The light
was fading.
Her voice began to crack, just
as the ice did as she moved. "Jack." She shook him again. The metal
handcuffs on his wrists clanked against the wood she was lying on.
"There’s a boat," she whispered. "Jack!" When no response
came, she just stared. Her heart was breaking. She wanted to cry. To scream.
And then she shook him again, although in her heart, she knew it would never
make a bit of difference.
She watched helplessly as his
blue-tinted head tilted back and forth with the gentle rocking of the water and
broken wood, almost making it look as though he was doing it on his own.
"Jack. Jack." Her white breath swirled around his frozen face as she
begged for him to awaken. "Jack!" The metal rang in her ears as she
spoke to him and shook him and refused to believe the truth.
"Jack." Her face was
contorting as she rubbed his hand, fruitlessly trying to rub life into her
love. "Jack," she choked. "There’s a boat, Jack." She began
to massage his statue-like hands. "Jack." Her eyes lifted back to the
boat. The light was almost gone now, but she could still see the shadows of the
oars lifting up and down through the body-dotted ocean.
She knew Jack was gone. She
painfully lay her head back down next to his as she continued to rub his cold
and lifeless hands. She was trying to cry, but the stiffness in her body made
it hard for her to even do that much. With each labored sob, a cloud of white
rushed from her mouth and dissipated around the lovers. She didn’t want to
leave him. She wouldn’t.
But as she closed her eyes,
ready to die right there beside him, an image invaded her thoughts. There he
was, just a short time before, shivering in front of her and telling her that
he wanted her to make a promise to him. A promise that she would survive. A
promise that she would never give up, no matter what. A promise to never let
go. A promise that she had agreed to.
Opening her eyes, her body
shook fiercely in the cold. Still holding onto his hands, she breathed,
"Come back. Come back." She lifted her head and attempted to speak
louder. "Come back." But her voice was too hoarse. "Come
back." She lifted her head and watched as they moved on. "Come back.
Come back." She swallowed. "Come back!" They couldn’t hear her.
She was too weak.
Staring out at the dark ocean,
the officer yelled , "Hello? Can anyone hear me?" As his crewmen
muttered something to him, he turned and swept his yellow beam across the water
again. A swishing sound greeted him as the oars splashed against the water one
more time.
"Come back!" Rose
pleaded from the darkness. "Come back," her dejected voice said
again. She was losing hope as she watched them disappear. She looked down at
Jack, frozen tears in her eyes. She pulled up her hand, which his frozen hand
was still clenched in, and forcefully pulled him free of her. His hand smacked
against the wooden board, making her cringe.
Jack’s body slipped into the
frigid water as her grip on him loosened. "I’ll never let go," she
murmured. "I promise." She brought his hand to her lips and kissed it
ever so gently. His head slipped under the bluish water and she let him go. His
blond hair swirled around his head as he slipped further and further into the
icy depths. His hands seemed to stretch out to her as he disappeared into the
everlasting blackness of the Atlantic Ocean.
She was crying gently as she
crawled off the floating board and dropped harshly into the frigid water. It
was like a thousand knives piercing her already bruised, battered, and numb
skin. Her arms flung out as she bobbed back up and rolled over. Then she
pressed on through the dark water. She splashed and kicked and thrashed as she
forced her cold blood to pump through her veins. White breath sprang from her
lips as she fought to stay alive.
Then she reached the floating
piece of wood, where the blue-skinned officer lay dead with his silver whistle
still frozen in his mouth. Her shaking hands plucked the whistle from his dark
blue lips and pressed it between her own. She began to blow. It wasn’t strong
at first, but as her will to live, to keep her promise to Jack, pressed on, the
whistle became louder and louder until it was ringing in her ears.
*****
"Don’t let go, Rose. Rose.
Rose!"
Rose DeWitt Bukater’s eyes
flashed open. The whistle was ringing in her ears. Her eyes met Jack Dawson’s
powder blue ones.
"Thank God," he
breathed. His arms wrapped snugly around her, or at least as much as possible
with her bulky white lifebelt in the way. Then he pressed the whistle to his
lips again and blew loudly.
Across the water, the few crewmen
on the boat turned their heads at the faint sound of the whistle behind them.
Their oars stopped as they waited to make sure it wasn’t an illusion, and sure
enough, the sharp whistle sounded again.
"Come about!"
"We’re going to make it,
Rose," Jack whispered softly in her ear. He gently massaged her frozen
hands as tears slipped from his eyes, instantly freezing on his face.
"We’re going to make it."
"I-I…" Rose looked
around the darkness at all the floating bodies. She’d seen him slip into the
dark water. She’d promised that she’d never let go and then she’d let him go.
"You’re alive," she choked.
"I promised I wouldn’t let
you die," Jack said quietly. He blew the whistle again. He could see the
lights washing over the water and he knew their saviors were getting closer.
His face grew dark as he locked his blue eyes onto hers. "But for a
moment, I thought I’d broken that promise."
Rose twisted her head, confused
by his words. "Jack--"
"You wouldn’t wake up,"
he said softly. His voice was laced with genuine fear as he spoke. His body
trembled as if to back up his words. "I was begging you to wake up,"
he said, "shaking you and I thought…" His voice cut off as a pale
beam swept over them. Jack blew the whistle again and then waved his free arm,
splashing to get the attention of the men in the boat.
Rose clamped her hand around his
as he held her tight. The water bounced off of her as the boat pushed it towards
them. Her voice was weak. "I-I love you."
As Jack opened his mouth, the
boat reached them and a pair of hands dropped over the side. "Take her
first," he commanded. He moved out of the way, allowing the crewman to
grab hold of Rose and pull her into the boat.
"Get blankets on her!"
the officer barked before returning his eyes to the blond young man. He reached
out a strong arm, which Jack grasped, and he helped pull the shivering young
man aboard. "Hurry! More blankets!"
Rose was shaking like as leaf as
the crewman piled large, woolen blue and gray blankets onto her. Her head was
spinning. She still couldn’t understand what had happened. How she and Jack
were here. She’d seen him die. Hadn’t she? Looking up, he was just several feet
away, also being wrapped in dry blankets. "J-Jack," she whispered
hoarsely.
"I’m here." Jack
squirmed away from the crewman and over to Rose, wrapping his arms around her
and pulling her shivering frame close. His white breath encircled them as he
whispered softly into her ear. "It’s okay now. You’re going to be
fine." As he felt her collapse against his chest, he soothed, "We’ll
be fine."
"H-how?" she asked
quietly, closing her eyes as she melted into his strong embrace.
Jack began to gently stroke her
frosty red hair. "How what?"
"What h-happened?"
Jack closed his eyes and drew his
slowly thawing fingers down her pale cheek. With a sharp sigh, he began,
"I couldn’t get you to wake up." He softly kissed the top of her head
as he slipped his hand under her blankets and entwined their fingers. "I
was calling you. Begging you to wake up, but you wouldn’t. I thought…the boat
was getting further and further away, and I knew I couldn’t let you go."
Rose clutched his hand. It fit so
well in hers. Her chest was heaving as dark puffs of white blasted from her
lips like gunsmoke from an old rifle. Her mind was spinning. He couldn’t wake
her up, yet she distinctly remembered it being the other way around.
"I told you not to let
go," Jack whispered. "And I promised that I wouldn’t let go. And then
I left you on the board so that I could go get the officer’s whistle and bring
it to you." A smile played on his lips. "I guess the noise was loud
enough to wake you up."
Rose closed her eyes as she felt
Jack’s warm breath on her ear, neck, and cheek. Her mind wandered. This was
definitely real. So, perhaps his words and him leaving her only to save her had
worked themselves into her subconscious, her dreams, and turned themselves into
a nightmare? She nodded to herself. That had to be it. She squeezed his hand
with renewed strength. "I promised you," she replied hoarsely,
"that I wouldn’t let go."
Jack turned her in his arms,
bringing their faces close together. Despite his shaking, he leaned to his
lover and gave her a long, powerful kiss like nothing he’d ever done before.
"I love you, Rose."
The End.