NIGHT TRAIN
Chapter Five
The Night Before Thanksgiving, 1948
Jack stood sipping his coffee, looking out
over the Pacific Ocean. He was in Jeannie’s tiny kitchen in the apartment
behind her gallery, watching the sun set in a pink and purple blaze of glory.
Behind him, he could hear the water running in the sink and the clinking of
dishes as she cleaned up after dinner.
“Sure I can’t help?” he offered.
“No, Dad, it’s alright,” she said quietly.
Jack was no fool. He knew exactly why his
daughter had been quiet and indifferent since she had seen him get off the
train with Rose today. She was worried that their relationship would change. In
a word, she was jealous. He could understand in a way. They’d had only each
other for her whole life. But wasn’t she about to have someone new come into
their life, her fiancé, Doug? But Jack knew enough about women that he was
certain she would say it was different.
“Jeannie, when you are done, let’s sit out
here on the porch and have a little talk,” he suggested.
“Dad, please, I’m not ready to talk about all
this,” she told him, not wanting to hear anything about that woman.
“I’ve never raised my voice to you. I’ve
never made you do anything you didn’t want. But just for tonight, just listen
to me for an hour or so. That’s all I ask. Please?” asked Jack.
Jean looked at her handsome father and gave
in. He was right. Somehow, he had managed to raise her all alone, with no
arguments, no loud confrontations. She at least owed him the courtesy of one
hour.
Bravely, she walked over to where he stood.
“Alright, Daddy. I guess I can hear you out.
But don’t think it’s going to change my mind.”
“I don’t understand how your mind can be made
up, when you don’t even know what’s going on,” Jack said, now slightly exasperated.
Jeannie bit her lip and decided whether or
not to tell him this one thing.
She sighed and said, “I saw those pictures,
those drawings of her from long ago in your safe.”
Jack closed his eyes, feeling betrayed
inside.
“Those were for my eyes only, Jean. That’s
why they were in the safe,” he said with a sad look on his face.
Jeannie hung her head as she had done as a
little girl, when she knew she was in trouble.
“I’m sorry,” she said softly.
“It’s all part of what I want to tell you. I
promise you that when you hear all this, you’ll understand, alright?”
They sat down on the porch. Jack was quietly
trying to compose himself. This was the second time in as many days that he’d
had to deal with the topic of Titanic.
“Daddy, can I ask you a question before you
begin?”
“Sure. Ask whatever you want,” he agreed.
“Did you love my mother?” she asked, sounding
very much like an uncertain little girl.
“Jean, I loved her, and if she had not died,
we would have gone on and had more children, and had a very good life,” he
said, knowing that even if that would have happened, a corner of his heart
would have always belonged to Rose. “And she gave me you, the most precious
thing of all. But this isn’t about your mother. It’s about fate and tragedy and
circumstances beyond anyone’s control. It’s about a part of my life that you
don’t know about.”
Jean took a breath, scared of what her father
was about to reveal. She thought she knew everything about him. Growing up in
Wisconsin, losing his parents, moving to New York and starting at the bottom of
the art business. What else was there?
Jack looked down into the murky bottom of his
half-finished coffee.
“Jeannie, did you ever hear of a ship called
the Titanic?”
“Sure, the one where so many people died and
there weren’t enough lifeboats? What’s that got to do with you?”
“Yes, that one. It has everything to do with
me, and with Rose. We met on the Titanic, fell in love and were the last people
off the ship as it slipped into the water.”
Jeannie’s mouth opened in shock.
“Why didn’t you marry her then, all those
years ago?” she asked.
“Because we lost each other in the water and
for all these 36 years, we both thought the other one of us was dead,” he
answered firmly. “Oh, we tried to go on with our lives and eventually we did.
But I can’t lie to you. I have thought of her everyday for all this time, and
she told me the same thing.”
“So you were unfaithful to Mom in your
thoughts?” said Jean with an accusing tone in her voice.
“You’re 25 years old. You’re in love
yourself. Rose was something special in my life, as was your mother. I lost
both of them. But because of the circumstances surrounding what I thought was
Rose’s death, well it’s hard to get something like that out of your mind. And
Jeannie, when I was with your mother, there was no one else in my mind except
your mother. Get that straight.”
Jeannie started to cry, upset at the
unusually harsh tone of her father’s voice.
“Let me finish the story. Please?” he asked,
a bit impatiently. “Please, don’t cry. Just listen,” Jack said, giving her hand
a squeeze.
She nodded and wiped her eyes with the
handkerchief that he handed her.
Jeannie listened unimpressed at first. All
right, he won a poker game, he made some friends, he saw a beautiful woman on
the deck. But as Jack continued talking she watched his face. His eyes took on
a mellow glow that she had never seen. The lines in his face and the creases
around his eyes softened. He became the boy of twenty again, stepping back in
time. He became a person she did not know.
“When I saw Rose hanging over the back of the
ship and realized that she was the woman I had seen earlier, I knew that fate
had stepped in. I knew we were destined for one another.”
Jack described the magical first class dinner
and the rowdy steerage party, where Rose had become the queen of the evening.
Slowly Jeannie felt herself being caught up in this real life fairy tale.
She was seeing for the first time her gentle
and modest father as a wildly romantic, impulsive person, who with his charm
and “ten bucks in my pocket,” stole away the fiancée of a millionaire. She was
starting now to understand the feelings that ran between the two of them.
“Just before the iceberg struck, Rose told me
that she was getting off the ship with me.”
“You mean she was willing to give up that
life of gowns and balls and servants and go off with you, who had nothing?”
asked Jeannie, whose opinion of Rose had just risen several notches.
“But that’s when all the trouble started,”
said Jack.
Jack had told Jeannie the whole story, almost
the whole story. He had not eliminated the parts about the drawing and the
Renault, but neither did he dwell on them. She was a grown up. Surely she would
read between the lines.
She was horrified when Jack told of being
arrested for stealing the necklace and being placed in the hopeless position
chained to the pipe, as the ship was sinking.
“What was going through you mind?” she asked,
thinking about all his close calls.
“Well, not a lot, except that I was pretty
sure things were going to end for me in that room. To me it’s still a miracle
that Rose came and saved my life.”
“She saved your life? How?” Jeannie gasped,
getting even more entranced with this amazing story.
“She got an axe and cut the handcuffs apart.”
Jeannie was having a hard time picturing the
elegant looking Rose wielding an axe. But she knew that her father was telling
the truth. Their love for one another must be much more powerful than she could
understand.
“She has such a fiery personality. I had her
all settled in a lifeboat and as they were lowering it, she climbed back on the
ship. She was determined that we stay together.”
“She was willing to die with you, Dad?”
wondered Jeannie, amazed at yet another astounding development to this tale.
He nodded.
“Yes, we both knew then it was pretty
hopeless. I tried to be optimistic, but I knew how cold that water was. Things
were fine, until I lost her in the water. At that moment, I felt that my life
had ended. That’s how I felt for a long time after,” he told her, starting to
feel tired after explaining this ordeal yet again.
“Oh, God, Daddy, that is the saddest story I
have ever heard, and the most romantic. I just never pictured you like that.
You must have been sweeping woman off their feet left and right,” said Jeannie,
now understanding things better.
Jack laughed softly, “Well, I wasn’t much. A
poor artist, no job. Yes, I met lots of woman, but nothing happened. Nothing
until I met Rose. Don’t get mad when I say this, but I have never met anyone
like her.”
Jeannie stood up abruptly. Her mind was
filled with so many conflicting thoughts. She needed some quiet to sort things
out.
“Dad, I’m tired. I got kind of worn out
listening to this. It’s a lot to take in all at once. Would you mind if I went
to bed?” she asked.
“No, I’ll just sit here and get some more
coffee. I have a few things I need to look at. Jeannie, I’m glad I told you all
this. Rose or not, it’s something you needed to know,” Jack said hopefully,
wondering if perhaps Jeannie would be able to come to terms with all he had
told her.
She smiled understandingly and then bent down
to hug him.
“Night,” was all she said.
Jeannie went to her room and laid down
without getting ready for bed. In her mind she went over and over the details
of the story that she had just been told. How could someone survive that ordeal
and also lose the person you loved? Now she understood some of her father’s
silent moods, his far away looks. She questioned herself and wondered if she
possessed Rose’s courage. The ability to save someone’s life and to want to
give up your own and die together. Her mind was torn. She wondered if even her
own mother would have been capable of doing those things for her dad.
It was about two A.M. when she got up. She
looked out in the hallway and saw that the living room light was still on.
“Dad must have forgotten to turn it off.”
She walked into the room. He was not there.
She looked back onto the porch and that is where she found him. He was still
sitting looking out onto the ocean. The strains of Eine Kleine Nachtmusik from
a record were playing softly in the background. He seemed to be deep in
thought.
“Daddy? Are you alright?” she whispered.
He covered his face with his hands and
stretched out his body.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just tired. Didn’t sleep
much on that train.”
Jeannie chuckled to herself, “I’ll bet not.”
“Dad, can we go for ice cream?” she asked.
Jack looked at his watch.
“Now?”
"Well, yes. We used to do that.
Remember?”
Jack looked up at his daughter. She had
pulled her hair into a ponytail and was dressed in the same pair of shorts and
sleeveless blouse she had worn at dinner. Her blond bangs hung in her face. She
looked about 12. He saw his face reflected in hers.
“Alright, pal. You used to want to do that
when you needed cheering up. Is that what you need tonight?” he asked.
“No, I thought maybe you did. I’m sorry I
made you feel bad about Rose. I’ve done a lot of thinking in the past few
hours. I acted like a spoiled little child and I’m sorry. I see now how much
she means to you, how right you are for each other. And I see too that mom was
one thing and Rose is another. They really have nothing to do with each other.”
“Thanks Jeannie. You’ve made things easier
for me. I am going to ask her to marry me. Is that alright with you?” he asked
her, hoping that Jeannie would be truly happy for him.
“Very alright. And I mean that. I don’t want
you to be lonely anymore,” said Jeannie putting her arms around her dad, giving
him one of their old bear hugs. “I want you both at my wedding. Do you think
she’d be like a mom and help me choose my dress?”
“I am sure she will. In fact, I am sure she
will be thrilled. So what are we waiting for? Are we going for ice cream?”
asked Jack, looking at his daughter fondly.
“Yes, Dad, only let’s not make it for
cheering up. We’re doing it to celebrate!!”
Jack stood up and put his arm around
Jeannie’s shoulder. He gave her a smile and thought of how lucky he was, how
proud he was of her. He thought briefly of that journey on Titanic and how it
had changed him and how another journey on a train, had also made a difference
in his life.
“So what shall we have?” he asked his
daughter, as they walked out to her car.
“Mmm, what do you say we share a banana
split?” she asked him, recalling that it had always been his favorite treat.
“Sounds great, just don’t let me fall asleep
in it,” Jack said laughing and yawning at the same time.
They rode along quietly for awhile, the cool
night breeze ruffling Jeannie’s hair as she drove.
“Where are you taking me?” asked Jack.
“Just to Jake’s Drive Inn. At Sunset and
Doheny. They’re open all night. And they have banana splits,” she said smiling
at him.
Jack studied the profile of his intelligent
and sometimes mischievous daughter. She was something special. He thought back
to Martha who was only a vague memory. Despite their short marriage, she had
given him the greatest gift of all, his Jeannie. His daughter had been his
world now for almost half of his life. He was happy that she too had found
someone to love. Hopefully, she would never have to suffer the things he had
been through. Then his mind moved on to Rose, a woman so special that the fires
of their love had never died, even when they thought the other was dead. She
had been in his heart for thirty six years. Now he was about to share the rest
of his life with her. The fact that they had found each other was still so
overwhelming.
“You okay?” asked Jeannie, looking over at
him, knowing now why her dad sometimes seemed in another world.
“Yes, yes, I’m fine,” said Jack, coming back
down to earth.
“It’s funny isn’t it, Daddy?” she said
softly, “Sometimes things just work out.”
“Yes, Jeannie, they do. Sometimes they just
work out, especially when you least expect it. Come on, let’s order two banana
splits."