NIGHT TRAIN
Chapter Nine
One week after Thanksgiving, 1948
Rose sat on the tiled edge of the pool at the
Bel-Air hotel. It was an exceptionally warm evening for November in California
and she and Jack had decided to take advantage of the lovely weather before
heading back to the dismal gray winter of New York. They had taken some
sandwiches to the beach and then had come back here to relax for the evening.
In just a little more than 24 hours they would be married.
She watched as his angular, athletic body cut
through the water with swift efficient strokes, contrasting sharply with
delicately rounded gardenia blossoms that floated gently on the water. Her
thoughts were not on the ceremony itself or even being Jack’s wife. She was
more concerned with how she would fit into his life in New York. Would there be
a place for her in his busy gallery? Could she learn about the business and be
a real help to him?
Jack got to the shallow end of the pool where
Rose sat, lovely in her black swimsuit. She hugged her knees to her chest and
rested her head there.
“What’s wrong?” he asked looking at the
pensive expression on her face.
“Nothing,” she said, not wanting to worry
him.
“Don’t tell me nothing,” he said gently. “I
know you. I can see that something is on your mind. Now come on Rose. We have
to learn to open up to each other.”
Rose looked down into his eyes. Sometimes she
was sure that he knew what she was thinking before she even spoke. That
introspective quality about him had never changed. He already knew she was
troubled about something and he was right. Might as well get it all out.
“Jack, I’m a little worried about living in
New York. I’m kind of a small town girl now. When I lived in Philadelphia,
everything was done for me and in Los Angeles, it was still a pretty small
place back then. For the last 26 years, I’ve hardly left Cedar Rapids. It’s
nice, but really small compared to New York.”
“Is that ALL you’re worried about?” he asked,
pressing her for more information.
“Well, Jack, you have an established life
there. All your friends, activities, your business. What am I going to do? I
don’t know anyone.”
Jack pulled himself up on the side of the
pool so that he sat next to her. He put his arm around her and she wiggled as
she came in contact with his wet body.
“Jack, you’re getting me all wet,” she
smiled, not really minding his nearness.
“Good,” he said teasing her. “You looked a
little too neat sitting up here. Look Rose, my friends will become your
friends. We’ll do the things that you and I like. And I plan on showing you all
I know about my business so you can really be my partner. And as far as not
knowing anyone? I’ll give you a week and I think everyone in the neighborhood
will be paying more attention to you than they ever did to me.”
She leaned her head against his shoulder.
“Do you really think so? I want to things to
work out, Jack. I guess I’m just scared. I want our life to stay perfect like
it is now,” she told him almost in a whisper.
He took both his hands and looked her
straight in the eye as he said firmly, “Rose, we’ll give it a year. And if you
are not happy living in New York, I’ll move my business out to Long Island to
one of the little tourist towns there. I will do anything I can to make you
happy.”
“You’d do that, for me?” she asked.
“I only want us to be happy. That’s all I
want. You’re not getting cold feet are you?” She shook her head.
“No. Not really cold feet exactly. I guess
I’m just a little nervous, that’s all,” she answered.
“Well, I can understand that. I’d be nervous
too, if I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with an old grouch like
me,” he said with laughter in his eyes.
His teasing brought her out of her sad mood
and she gave him one of her stunning smiles.
“I think this has been one of the most
incredible weeks of my life. And unusual,” she told him.
“In what way,” he wanted to know, giving her
a quick kiss.
“Well, most of the time, it’s the bride who
plans the wedding. I feel like I’ve been left out in the dark. You’ve just
taken charge. And I am dying to see what you have planned.”
Jack tapped her nose with his finger and
smiled at her.
“You’ll find out,” he smiled mysteriously.
“And I don’t think you’ll be disappointed. Now how about a swim with me before
we go up? You’ve been sitting here on the edge of the pool all evening, wasting
that gorgeous swimsuit you bought."
She gave him a fleeting smile, but it was not
happiness that Jack saw in her eyes. As soon as he mentioned the pool, her eyes
had widened and her sparkling mood suddenly changed. Surely she was not afraid
of the water.
Jack slide down into the pool and gently
clasped both of her hands.
“Come on, Rose,” he urged gently.
Her head moved slowly from side to side.
“No, Jack, I can’t do this,” she told him
with a shaky voice.
Usually when Rose said no, it meant yes, or
at least that she was willing to try, but he did not sense that in her now. No,
something was definitely wrong.
“What is it?” he asked softly. “Tell me.”
Rose put her head down, embarrassed to look
straight at him as she spoke.
“I’m afraid, Jack. You see, since that night,
the only water I’ve been in, is a nice, safe bathtub,” she said sadly. “I’ve
never been able to face a lake or a pool. I still hear all the screaming and
feel the cold water by just looking at it.”
Jack turned his head away for a minute,
giving some thought on how to handle this.
“Rose,” he began, “listen to me. I’ve always
been a good swimmer. I love it. But I was afraid for awhile too. But I had to
force myself to do it again. I wanted Jeannie to learn and I couldn’t let her
see my fears. For years now, since she started school, I’d drop her off and
join some of my friends at the neighborhood “Y” for an hour or so. As I kept
doing it over and over, the thoughts of that night went away, while I would be
joking and talking with my friends.”
He took one hand and moved her chin so that
she had to look at him.
“We’ve overcome so much. Just try. This is a
beautiful pool, and it’s warm and shallow right here. I’ll hold you. On
Titanic, things we couldn’t control just happened. But now, it’s okay. I
promise, Rose. What do you say?” he asked her calmly.
Her face looked so incredibly sad.
“I want to for you, but I am still
scared."
“I know you trust me. Now let me help you,”
Jack said, slowly slipping his hands around her waist.
She shivered involuntary. In her mind she
could almost feel the frigid water. And yet, Jack looked so comfortable and
relaxed standing there before her. Slowly, he pulled her into the warm water,
holding her closely against him. Rose gave a slight gasp as the water came up
to her waist. She had been expecting to be chilled, but instead she was
surprised at the warmth that she felt.
“How are you doing?” he asked, looking at her
with concern.
“Okay,” was all she managed to get out.
“I want you to close you eyes. And I want you
to think about what you are feeling. Just take your time, but keep your eyes
closed, Rose.”
Jack continued to keep a firm hold on her. He
was not about to let anything thing happen.
Rose shut her eyes and put her arms around
Jack. She took a deep breath and arched her neck back, trying to relax. The
silken warmth of the water moved gently back and forth against her body. In
front of her, was the solid strength that was Jack’s body. She leaned her head
against his shoulder.
“Well, what do you feel?” he asked.
“I’m warm. The water is moving around me.
It’s just very calm. The water feels so smooth.”
“Do you feel calm, Rose?”
At this question, she hesitated. Yes, as long
as Jack was there with her, she felt calm. She wondered though if she could do
this alone.
“Yes, right now I feel calm. But there are no
people here. It’s quiet. I don’t know if that would change things,” she
admitted.
“We’re not done yet. Now you can open your
eyes. Take my hand. We’re going to swim. All the way down there,” said Jack,
pointing to the end of the pool.
She looked back at him, her eyes filled with
uncertainty. For a moment she felt the urge to get out of the pool and run. She
let go of Jack’s hand.
“I, I can’t do this,” she said, taking a step
back from him.
“Please Rose. Trust me. If you can do this
one thing, you will have conquered your fears. I will not let go. You know
that,” he said, smiling hopefully at her.
He was right. If she stopped now, this
nagging fear that she had of the water, would be with her forever. Somehow she
was lucky that she had not passed this on to her sons. No, Jack was right. It
was now or never. Slowly she lifted her hand and put it back in his.
“Just hold my hand,” he said nodding his head
in approval. “Keep kicking your feet and try and do the side stroke with your
left hand. Let me do the rest. Ready?”
He looked at her with hope in his eyes. When
she saw how much he wanted this for her and when she realized herself how very
important it was to at last come to terms with this problem, some of her qualms
began to subside.
She took a deep breath and said, “I’m ready.
And Jack, I trust you,” she replied, giving him a very tentative smile.
Slowly he began to swim and Rose followed,
her feet soon leaving the bottom of the pool. Gently he pulled her along with
his sure, strong strokes. Every few moments he looked back to see how she was
doing. Her eyes were focused on the end of the pool.
“You’re doing fine, Rose. We’re almost
there,” he shouted encouragingly at her.
Her only response was a quick shake of her
head.
Before she knew it, they had crossed the
length of the pool to the deep end, a distance of about 50 feet. Jack was
grabbing onto the side and in one motion he took her hand that he held and put
it up on the side of the pool as well.
“Whew, we made it. How do you feel? Still
scared?” he wanted to know.
“Well, I still have to do this by myself
sometime,” she smiled. “But I didn’t even think I could do this much. Maybe
we’ll take another swim in the morning, so I don’t lose my momentum.”
“Good idea,” agreed Jack, knowing that he
would enjoy a sunrise swim with her. “But you are not quite done with this
exercise,” he said, drawing her near with one arm. “Now close your eyes again
and tell me what you hear.”
Rose followed his directions. She was afraid
that she was going to have to force the sounds of shouting and thrashing bodies
out of her mind. But she felt relaxed now. She was warm and in Jack’s arms.
“I hear the water lapping softly against the
wall of the pool. The palm trees are rustling. Somewhere the drain from the
pool is gurgling. I can even hear the traffic on the other side of the wall.”
“Anything else?” he probed. “Anything that
scares you?”
She looked wondrously into his eyes. He had
helped her in so many ways. Now he had helped her conquer the last reminder
that remained from that April night so long ago.
Just as she was about to answer, came the
shouting and shrieking of 5 college aged boys, as they came running and splashing
into the pool. Jack gripped her tightly, worried that somehow this would
disturb the peaceful balance of her mood. But he watched her face. It lit up
with a smile, amused, instead by their antics.
“No, nothing scares me now,” she answered
honestly. “I just need you Jack.”
“You’re sure there are no more fears left
over?” he wanted to know, before he ended their session in the water.
She took on a thoughtful look. As is she was
pondering some difficult problem.
“Actually, you are the one who has something
to worry about,” she said with a teasing look, more like the unpredictable Rose
that he enjoyed so much.
“Me?” he asked, putting his hand over his
chest. “What could I possibly have to worry about?” he chuckled.
“We are getting married in a few hours and
there are still a few things you don’t know about me.”
Jack gave her a puzzled look. Sometimes Rose
just said things out of the blue and he never knew when one of those comments
was coming.
“You, Mr. Dawson, should be worried as to
whether or not I can put a meal on the table. Surely someone of your artistic
taste would require something more refined and sophisticated than chicken hot
dish and red Jell-O,” she said jokingly, knowing that was one meal most men despised.
His face fell and he said, “Is that really
all you can make Rose?”
She gave him one of those looks of hers that
made if difficult to tell whether or not she was telling the truth. Then she
laughed and told him that he would just have to wait and find out.
“If you can’t cook Rose, I won’t starve.” he
told her, confidently. “They do something wonderful now in New York. You can
call up on the telephone and someone will deliver a pizza to your house. Can
you imagine? And,” he continued, with a daring look in his eyes, “that leaves
you with more time for other things.”
“Such as,” she asked with a blank look on her
face.
“I can see where you must have been a very
good actress. Did you always play the innocent acting woman, out to tempt men
with your beguiling looks?” he laughed.
“Oh, Jack, you are really are outrageous. I
think we truly do deserve each other,” she giggled, her lips almost on his.