Things had begun to finally look up for me
I had a job as an officer of the best line in the world
I got along with my fellow officers
I worked for my money and made an honest living
A few of my fellow officers and I even befriended each other
We worked as a team, knowing one another’s strengths and weaknesses
Looked out for each other, making sure everyone aboard was safe
It was the way the life of an officer should be
Until she struck the iceberg.
Then it seemed as if our captain and chief officer
Had mentally shut down and didn’t know what to do
Or how to face such a dire prospect as the unsinkable ship going down
Perhaps that is why they were unable to take charge when we needed them most
And that is why our first officer stepped up to become the person
Who was responsible for saving as many aboard as possible.
He will be one of the last to get off
He wants to make sure everyone else that can be saved is safe
That’s just who he is.
Now everything seems to be going wrong
People are panicking, not that I blame them
The ship is sinking faster than we can load people on the boats
Passengers are refusing to leave
Refusing to listen to the officers who are trying to save them, thinking they know better
Than the officers whose job it is to keep them safe while traveling
Oh, God, what is happening here?
I just heard gunshots and people screaming.
Only the chief, first, and second officers have guns, aside from myself
Please tell me none of my fellow officers have shot one of the passengers or themselves!
None of them are that cowardly!
Maybe they were just trying to prevent the passengers from rushing the boats!
It wasn’t Murdoch
I can see that now
He’s still loading the lifeboats
Lights wouldn’t shoot himself or the passengers
He might threaten to but he would never shoot one of them or himself
That’s not his way.
But our chief officer might have shot himself
Just not being able to take the strain of the sight of panicking passengers any longer.
Please don’t let that be the case!
We are already going to lose enough good people this night
There is no need for anyone to take their life.
Do they know that there isn’t much time left?
Is that why they are ordering me to man this lifeboat?
Does Murdoch know that he won’t survive? Does Moody?
Is that why they are bidding me good-bye and good luck?
None of us deserves this!
We all have people back home who are waiting for us.
People who in only a few hours will be widows, widowers, orphans.
None of these people should have to die this night.
I have to return and save as many as I possibly can
If I can save even one life, it will be worth the horrors I may see and won’t ever forget.
