Written by Veiled in
Darkness
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
Long after the one rescue boat
had picked up the few survivors from the icy cold water, Rose had gone numb.
She sat near catatonic on the Carpathia, surrounded by grieving women and
subdued children. Her eyes were glazed, haunted by the flashing images in her
mind. The stewards moved through the crowds, handing out more blankets and tea,
collecting the lifebelts. She felt curiously hollow. The wind flapped the edge
of her blanket just slightly. Jack...she sighed softly. A tear welled up
and spilled over her cheek.
Cal strolled through the steerage
passengers, his mouth clamped shut as he struggled not to scream. She must
be here. She has to be, he thought furiously. The girl that he had deemed
worthy of him was far too smart to have drowned like a gutter rat. Surely she
would have somehow found a way into one of the lifeboats. He scanned the
crowds, his eyes searching for a glimpse of that fiery auburn hair.
There! On the bench!
He gave in to his impulses and
ran to the huddled figure. He dropped to one knee, his hands reaching out to
clasp hers. "Rose?" he asked, on the verge of holding his breath.
Her eyes stared off into the
distance, seemingly unfocused. Cal snapped his fingers in front of her eyes,
but saw no flicker of recognition. "Rose? Rose! Damn it, Rose! Can you
hear me?" he shouted impatiently.
Slowly, she dragged her eyes to
meet Cal’s anxious face. She closed her eyes for a moment, and then she nodded
to herself. "Cal?" A throaty whisper.
"Yes!" crowed Cal.
"Oh, thank goodness I found you, sweetpea; I thought I’d never see you
again."
"Mmm…" Rose breathed,
dropping her eyes from his gaze.
Cal watched her carefully. She
seems so vacant, he thought. No matter. She’s mine now, he added
mentally.
Rose turned her head as Cal
placed her cold hands in between his warmer ones. He rubbed her skin
vigorously, attempting to bring some color back to her pale skin.
"Why are you here,
Cal?" she asked softly.
Cal blinked. What? "You’re
my fiancée, Rose. Darling, don’t be absurd. I was worried sick about you!"
he said sharply.
"Worried about me or perhaps
your precious necklace?" she whispered to him.
Cal froze for a moment. He placed
one finger under her chin. "What did you say?" he asked.
Rose yanked one hand loose from
Cal and dug deep into one of her coat pockets. She fished around for a few
moments before bringing her hand back up, the necklace chain slightly visible
in the early afternoon sun.
"Put that back in your
pocket!" he hissed at her.
With a lopsided smirk, Rose
dropped it back in. "Come. Let’s go inside now," he said as he stood
up, her hands locked in his.
"No," she said, prying
her hands loose. "Leave me be."
"I beg your pardon?" he
snapped. A long, drawn-out moment of silence hung between them.
"How is it that you’re here,
Cal? Women and children first. I see no other men on this level, and yet here
you are," she said, her voice soft but bitter.
"Rose, stop acting like a
child. I’m here by pure luck. Now, come with me!" he said as he attempted
to pull her up to her feet.
"I thought real men made
their own luck," she hissed at him.
Cal stopped struggling and heaved
her up with one strong pull. He brought her close to his face and leaned in as
if to kiss her cheek. In her ear, she heard his whispered words.
"You’ll never make it on
your own. You need to be reasonable. After all, darling, this is a man’s world.
Do you know what happens to pretty little rich girls who wander out on their
own?"
Rose felt her face burn with
anger and shame as she struggled not to listen to his words.
"And what of your mother?
She must be worried out of her mind by now," he said, a touch of smugness
in his voice.
Rose winced. She stared at her
feet, unwilling to admit the truths that Cal threw at her. She knew damned well
that it was almost impossible to make it in the world if you were a woman.
"I don’t want to care. I
don’t want to feel anymore," she muttered, hating the hot, helpless tears
that gathered behind her eyelids.
"I can help you, Rose,"
Cal said through clenched teeth. "Open your heart to me. I’ll help
you."
Rose glanced out at the ocean and
thought of Jack’s face. She remembered her promise.
"God forgive me. I’m sorry,
Jack," she mumbled to herself.
She stared up into Cal’s eyes and
nodded slowly. "I’ll come with you," she choked out, struggling with
urge to scream, to vomit, to cry until her lungs gave out.
Cal smirked as he wrapped his arm
around her trembling shoulders.
I always win, one way or another, he thought victoriously.
Sixty Years Later
Rose stared out the window of her
bedroom, overlooking the gardens. She watched the sun begin to set in the early
evening sky. A matronly nurse walked up behind her and cleared her throat
quietly. Rose turned to her and exclaimed softly, "Look at the sunset,
Jack! Isn’t it beautiful?"
"Yes, Ma’am, it is,"
the nurse agreed. "Come along now. It’s time for dinner." She guided
Rose away from the window. The last of the sun’s rays shone through the glass,
illuminating her hair and turning it back to a fiery red color. The nurse
blinked as the Rose’s hair slowly turned back to white while the sun completely
set.
Rose walked passively to the
dining room, her eyes lightly glazed. Cal sat at the head of table, slightly
stooped but still fairly intimidating. He watched the nurse guide Rose to her
seat. He snorted at the way Rose stared dreamily at her plate. He’d kept his
promise all these years. He’d promised to help her not feel, and now, as he
watched her slowly but neatly spoon mouthfuls of soup, he felt the pangs of
regret in letting her become so addicted to the painkillers.
Her daily dosage had been slowly
creeping up throughout the years. She was weaned off long enough to bear his
only son, but before too long she had to be medicated heavily to keep her from
screaming. Rose’s brief periods of lucidity left him reeling when she began to
shriek and cry, tearing at her face and hair, wailing about breaking her
promises.
Now, she spent virtually all her
time in a haze of oblivion, believing that she was still seventeen years old
and on the Titanic. He wondered now if insisting that she go with him had been
the best thing for her. He carefully sipped a spoonful of his soup and
contemplated his past choices.
Rose lay on her bed that night
and dreamed. She slipped away silently, walking in her dream along the deck to
meet Jack at the clock, to see all her friends and fellow passengers clapping
and smiling approvingly as she and Jack kissed.
Every night she dreamed the same,
and awoke every morning with tears on her cheeks.
The End.