STARTING ANEW
Chapter Forty
“Tonight Rose, we will have a special meal to
honor you and Jack. I want to ask you something. I only want to do this thing
if you feel comfortable.”
Rose looked anxiously at Golden Moon,
wondering what the question would be.
“I would be happy if you would accept an
honorary name of my people as Jack has done.”
Rose did not answer right away. She thought
about how far she had come in leaving her past behind. Maybe this would be a
good chance to shed her old life in a symbolic way.
“What do I have to do?” she asked.
“You just need to be yourself. And if you
would like, you may wear one of my ceremonial dresses.”
“Do you think Jack will approve? You don’t
think he will make fun of me for doing this?”
“On the contrary Rose. I think he will think
even more highly of you,” said Golden Moon.
“Alright,” agreed Rose.
Golden Moon and Rose walked along the bank of
the creek quietly picking berries. When they reached a spot that had two large
boulders, Golden Moon stopped. She sat down on one of the boulders and took of
her shoes and stockings.
“Would you like to do this too, Rose?” she
asked.
“I would,” said Rose as she looked longingly
at the cool water. She was not frightened of this gently bubbling creek. In the
past weeks, her fear of the water had haunted her, but she felt safe with this
woman, in this quiet forest.
Rose also took off her shoes and stockings
and pulled up her skirt. She sat on the other boulder and put her feet in the
water.
The two women sat for awhile in companionable
silence. The only sounds were of the gurgling water and the call of the birds.
Golden Moon watched Rose who appeared to be lost in her own thoughts. She was
going to honor Rose tonight with a name of her people. As she studied Rose, she
tried to decide what would be appropriate. It would be something to help her
get through the hard times ahead in her life.
Rose loved the way the water tickled her
feet. It was cool, but not uncomfortable so, having been heated by the afternoon
sun. She thought of what her mother would say if she could see her now, sitting
barefoot in the woods, with a woman that Ruth would probably consider an
undesirable companion. She still did not understand her mother. It would be
wonderful to enjoy a day like this with her. But Rose thought that would never
happen and she sighed sadly. She still had the chore of trying to work things
out with her, when they returned to Denver. And when she told Ruth that she was
pregnant, she was certain that her mother would become positively apoplectic.
For now she was content to enjoy Golden Moon’s quiet company.
After awhile she spoke to Golden Moon,
“Please don’t think that I am trying to patronize you, but I have to tell you
something.”
“Go on, Rose,” she encouraged.
“All my life, I have been reminded to watch
my behavior and live by certain standards because I was rich, privileged. Until
I met Jack and he set me free from those ideas. But since then, and especially
today with you, I see that you are the ones that should be envied for this
peaceful, orderly life that you lead. Jack has been teaching me all the time
about finding beauty in simple things. Today, with you, I have learned even
more, and I thank you.”
Golden Moon’s opinions of Rose were confirmed
after she heard this. She was a special person.
“Thank you. I am proud that you understand
our lives and want to be a part of it. I wish I could teach you more. But maybe
someday you will return,” said Golden Moon.
“Oh, yes,” agreed Rose, “I hope so.”
Then Golden Moon face broke into a huge
smile. The look was contagious and Rose started smiling too.
“What it is?” asked Rose.
“Do you remember what I said about a bath in
the creek?”
“You mean like in a bathtub with no clothes?”
asked Rose, her eyes widening.
“Well,” laughed Golden Moon, “I don’t think
that even the white eyes take a bath with their clothes on."
Rose giggled nervously. She had never done
anything like this before. But now it sounded like fun.
“I have brought towels and soap from the house,”
said Golden Moon.
Rose was beaming. What until she told Jack
about this.
“Rose, that wonderful look that you have on
your face now, is the way you should look all the time. You must put the past,
whatever it is, behind you. You have life inside of you. If you feel joy, the
baby will also feel joy. Let’s get ready Rose. No one will see us.”