TUMBLEWEEDS
Written by Ananke Powell
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
The morning of April the eighteenth had been
bathed in rain.
Tired, cold, faintly bewildered, Rose Dawson
had stared up at the statue. Lady Liberty, some called her. It was hypnotic,
almost, and though she had known she should move on...get in out of the rain
this instant, Rose, before you ruin that gown and catch your death of cold...she
simply hadn't wanted to, hadn't been able to bear the thought of going to the
Carpathia's first class havens or the steerage decks. First class would have
only brought Mother and Cal, and she had vowed, with her soul, that they would
never see her again. Steerage had perhaps been the better option, but her
initial sweep had not revealed a Tommy Ryan or Fabrizio di Rossi or Cora
Cartmell and she hadn't expected a second to. Yet...it had, ostensibly,
miraculously. Fabrizio di Rossi had survived, the first ray of sunlight in a
universe of threatening storm.
She had discovered the diamond in the coat
pocket, of course, and had marveled at her own luck and Cal's decided misfortune.
He would be able to claim the insurance money, more than likely, and had money
enough to replace the lost cash, but the loss of it...that alone would be
grating. Mr. Hockley abhorred losing, and he had lost, in every way
possible...his fiancée, his money, his jewel, his reputation...
Why, then, had her victory been so very
hollow?
Three years later, another anniversary had
come, the morning of April the eighteenth, and the Atlantic horizon had shone
against the sky.
She and Fabrizio had argued then, their first
real disagreement in their three years of desperate friendship. It had, she
realized, been the first sign that they were no longer so needy that they
feared being alone.
Fabrizio had been frustrated, propping an arm
against the door of the modest flat they shared. "It's not about your
skill or not as a person or a journalist, Rosie, it's just..."
"My gender."
He had paused, shrugging. "I told you to
take that suffragette story for the paper last month. You could've stirred 'em
up."
"I didn't want a suffragette story. I'm
suffered enough without a group rally of women who wave their parasols in
outrage for an hour in the morning and return home promptly at noon to fix
dinner for their husbands. What I want is a war story."
"Rose, we just don't send female
reporters overseas...even if I could, I doubt you'd make it very far. Women
aren't wanted on a battlefield, capabilities aside."
Of course, of course, she had thought impatiently, out of one lifestyle
of restriction and into the throes of another.
"Rosie." The voice had been
cutting, kindly, reflecting both the knowledge he had picked up in three years
as a newsman and the exhaustion of the struggle in getting there. "Why not
just go back to wherever it is you came from? Haven't you tired of proving the
universe right yet?"
She had packed wordlessly.
Five years later, another anniversary, the
morning of April the eighteenth, and Lady Liberty had still stood her sentinel.
Rose Dawson had stood her sentinel as well,
met the memory unflinchingly. Let it rain, she had thought wistfully, stepping
backward slightly. The arms that caught her had been warm, protective, and she
had closed her eyes, allowing the grief free reign momentarily.
...you're gonna get out of here, Rose,
you're gonna go on, and make lots of babies, and watch them grow...you're gonna
die an old, old lady, warm in her bed...not here, not this night...do you
understand me, Rose...
"To l'America. To destiny. To
Jack." The voice in her ear had been soft, shared regret, shared hope and
remembrance.
Smiling slightly, she had gently disengaged
from his embrace, taking an arm instead. "You didn't have to come with
me."
"Oh, I did." He shook his head,
dark hair tangling against his eyes. "I was always drawn here, to America.
Now the statue, it seems more special than before...only luck got me here,
right?"
"It got us here." Glancing up, she
absently brushed the hair back, fingers lingering briefly.
He sighed, sweeping a blanket around her
shoulders and gripping a hand. "Rosie."
"No...it's...I'm fine. Let's leave.
We've said our good-byes, haven't we?"
He'd only nodded slowly, indulgently, and
sighed as they walked away together.
It was the mornings, the April mornings, like
those, when Rose wondered if good-byes had been made at all. She didn't consider
herself an overly morbid person...in fact, the better part of a decade had been
almost wholly dedicated to accepting, if not forgetting, Titanic. The cries for
rescue. Jack Dawson.
The first few years on her own had been hard...but
she'd pulled through, survived, become an actress and an artist. She hadn't
looked back. Then had come the Great War, the nursing, the attempts at
unauthorized war correspondence, against poor Fabrizio's best efforts to stop
her. It had been Titanic, in a way, on a global scale. The sinking of the
Lusitania had played a part, a terrible part, in America's involvement. The
Britannic had been sunk. She hadn't looked back, had given her share, become a
nurse, an undercover newsie, gone overseas, to Italy. Boys had passed through
her arms, wisps of men, with Jack Dawson's laugh and Jack Dawson's concealed
cynicism, and more of those same boys had died in her arms, their blood passing
through her fingers, on foreign soil.
She hadn't looked back, and when she had
finally returned home, wearily, it had been at Fabrizio di Rossi's side. That,
however, had been more than two years ago, and...
Falling comfortably into the niche of
Fabrizio's arm and pulling the picnic blanket over them both, she sighed. Undoubtedly,
the April mornings and the anniversaries were the hardest. They had become
adept at this, memorializing the day together, or apart, wherever the wind had
them at the moment. This day, it was Chippewa Falls, a grassy glade, just
beyond the horizon of the old Dawson place.
Propping up on an arm, she stared at the
Italian beside her, watching him silently as he began to stir. So strong, but
scarred...that boiler from Titanic hadn't killed him, but it had hurt. Fabrizio
di Rossi hadn't been the same since Jack Dawson's death either, but he had been
a good friend, a good soldier, very good at moving past wounds and picking
sunshine out of storms. Her best times had, really, been with him. She wasn't
wholly certain why it hadn't gone past friendship...Jack, perhaps. Fear,
perhaps even more. They had both lost too much to risk losing again...yet.
Someday, maybe. Maybe him, maybe her. Or not.
In the meantime, she had to find a way to
break the latest Rose Dawson news bulletin to him. He'd been wanting a joint
newspaper project hereabouts for months...tired of traveling, of wandering. She
understood, but wasn't entirely certain she was ready to do the same, settle
into small town life and work. She'd always wanted to act, to travel, and,
truthfully, with thirty fast approaching, she didn't think she had much time
left to pursue that particular dream. Coney Island had been for Jack, as had
bareback riding...but the acting was her own dream.
His voice interrupted her reverie as he sat
up, shucking the blanket, squinting around. "We made it an all-nighter,
didn't we? Rose, y'should've woken me. It isn't safe to sleep in the woods
these days."
"After running a German gauntlet, you're
telling me we ought to be afraid of road thieves?"
He grinned. "Point taken. You do swing a
mean blow."
"All of that seems a lifetime ago."
Not just the war, those crazy, terrified nights of nursing and interviewing and
running, sometimes staring the enemy in the eyes, never knowing whether the
next bullet or blast would choose you or them...no, that had been hell, but it
wasn't all she felt disconnected from. There had been the sinking ship of
dreams, and running from Lovejoy, and the poor, frightened porter she had
nearly knocked over in her desperation to free Jack...
Fabrizio stood, offering a hand, and they
walked back towards the car together. "We should start that newspaper out
here, Rose. Good land, good people. No big city mess."
Sighing, she stared at the sunrise before
them, weighing her words carefully. "Actually, I've been considering an
offer in California. Acting. No big movie reels, of course, just small projects
and theater. It'll all be headed by a man named Calvert."
Though brief disappointment flared in the
warm brown eyes, he masked it quickly, voice amiable, interested. "You've
never accepted any long-term commitments yet."
"He's a very persuasive man."
"Or you've just finally begun to get
over Jack, really."
"Perhaps both." Reaching over, she
touched his shoulder as the car started up. "You could still have your
newspaper. Give me some gratuitous spotlight."
"Maybe." He flashed a faint smile.
"I'd rather do it with you, but...we've never been very good at staying in
one place together, have we?"
"We'll always be tumbleweeds,
Fabri."
"On the wind, si." Squeezing her
arm briefly, he sighed, eyes reflecting memory and faint, amused appreciation
of the Dawson rejoinder.
They drove off wordlessly.
The End.