UNTIL I FOUND YOU
Chapter One
Rose walked along the steerage
deck of the Carpathia, her mind lost in the past couple of days. The last
couple of days with Jack. Closing her eyes, she could almost hear his voice,
feel his touch, smell the ocean scent of his blond hair. She thought of how
unfair it was. God had given her Jack just to take him away from her. A few
short moments of happiness were all she had, and all too soon, it was ripped
from her.
Meanwhile, while Rose was
drowning herself in self-pity, in the Carpathia infirmary laid Jack Dawson. He
was deathly pale, and if one was just passing by, you would think he was dead.
But thankfully, thanks to the dedication of the nurses and one Molly Brown, he
was just asleep, exhausted from the effects the hypothermia had caused to his
system. It was a long fight, but it seemed that he was finally winning. If only
he could stop wondering about Rose. Where she was, whether she was still alive
or not. What if Cal had her? Or was she was still out there, dead? Somehow, the
kind officer had overlooked her and left her out there to freeze to death. No!
Rose! Rose!
"Rose!" He bolted
awake, looking wildly around the room in search of his beloved.
"Rose!"
"Shh, Jack. Shh. Lay back
and rest. You still need to get your strength back." Molly Brown rushed
back into the room and gently pushed Jack back down onto the cot.
"Molly…Rose…I have to find
her. I have to know that she made it." Jack tried to get back up, but Molly
was persistent. "I have to find Rose."
"Shh. Jack. All this isn’t
good for your already depleted system." Molly noticed how he was beginning
to weaken again. If Jack didn’t calm down, he was going to have a relapse, and
he might not survive.
"Rose…"
"Shh. I’ll find her for you,
Jack, and bring her here. Just lay back and stay calm. You want to be at your
best when I bring her."
"Promise me, Molly, that
you’ll find her."
"I promise. Now, lay back
and go back to sleep." Molly nodded, staying until the young man drifted
back off into a restless slumber. She shook her head. Poor dear. He was so
distraught, and the doctor said it was so bad he doubted the young man would
survive. But she couldn’t give up on Jack yet. Not the strong, vibrant young
man that reminded her so much of her own son. What Jack needed was the
motivation to pull through, and Molly hoped that the motivation still survived.
He needed Rose, and by golly, Molly would find her. Rose was too much of a
fighter to just lay back and die.
*****
Rose stood on the deck, looking
out towards the endless ocean. An ocean as blue as her Jack’s eyes had once
been. Sighing, she got up and walked along the deck. Everything reminded her of
Jack now. He was everywhere. In the air, the sky, the ocean…in a child’s
laughter and a woman’s tears. She couldn’t get him out of her mind or her
heart.
"Why, bless the lord above,
there she is!" a familiar voice boomed from across the crowded deck.
"Rose! Rose!"
Molly pushed her way across the
deck to Rose, who was frozen in place, sure that Molly was going to drag her
back to her mother and Cal. Her great escape was now ruined.
"Rose, there you are! I knew
you made it! I knew it! Come with me! There’s someone who’s dying to see
you." Molly began to pull Rose from her spot, and was surprised to feel
the girl pull back.
"No, Molly, no. I can’t go
back. Mother will make me marry Cal, and I’ll die if I do that. I promised Jack
that I’d survive, and I’ll be going back on that promise if I go back to first
class."
Molly shook her head in
amusement. The girl thought she was dragging her back to Ruth and Cal.
"Oh, Rosie…listen. Just follow me. I promise. It’s not as bad as you’re
assuming it is."
"Molly…"
"Now, Rose, I’m not taking
no for a answer. Now, come on." Molly yanked on her arm and pulled her
along the deck.
All of Rose’s spirit and hope
faded as Molly pulled her along, certain that she was going back to her old way
of life. She had failed Jack and herself. Now she was going to be made into a
trophy wife. Rose was so depressed that she didn’t notice that they had never
gone up to first class. Instead, they were going deeper into the steerage
section of the ship, and just five short minutes later, they were standing at
the door of the infirmary.
"Come along, Rosie. No time
to waste." Molly pulled the reluctant girl into the brightly lit room.
Rose’s eyes widened with
surprise, shock, and fear as they entered the large room full of pale,
shivering, and sleeping people. They had quite a ways to walk still.
"Now, Rose, tell me, what
happened to you on that ship?"
"What?" Rose snapped
back to attention.
"Titanic, Rose. What
happened after you walked away from the lifeboat?" Molly spoke a little
louder.
"Oh. I found Jack, and we
went through the sinking together. We rode the stern down into the water. We
were holding hands, and somehow…I don’t know how…" Rose began to sob,
remembering her loss. "…somehow we got separated. I looked and looked and
called for him, but I couldn’t find him. So I found this board and got on, all
the while looking for Jack…but I never found him, Molly. I must have blacked
out, because I don’t remember being rescued or anything…just looking and
calling for Jack. He’s gone, Molly! I know he is!" Rose burst into renewed
tears.
"Oh, Rose. Shh…don’t cry.
Listen…just follow me. You’ll see that there’s light at the end of the tunnel.
Come on." Molly again forced Rose to follow her.
"Molly, what are we doing
here in the infirmary? Where are we going, and why?"
"You’ll see, darling. Just
follow me." Molly nodded.
"Mrs. Brown!" A nurse
ran up to them, her brown eyes frantic.
"What is it now?"
"Your young man is
worsening. He won’t wake back up! The doctor said he’s gone into a coma, and he
doubts he’ll wake back up!"
"Oh, my heavens, no! Come
on, Rosie! There’s no time to waste!" Molly pulled Rose along again, this
time quickening her pace.
"Molly! Who are we going to
see? Why won’t you tell me? Who is this man the nurse was talking about?"
Just then, Rose got her answer as
Molly pulled her into a room for the critically injured and found Jack lying on
his back, his face deathly pale. His closed eyelids were a slightly bluish
color. His blond hair lay limply against the pillow, and he was as still as
death.
"Oh, Jack…no…" Rose
gasped in horror, then fainted.