THERE YOU’LL BE
Chapter Eleven
The early days of January 1913
passed as Jack set out for work early in a morning and returned at six o’clock
sharp every evening before he would then cook dinner as Rose was too weak to
stand. Her days were spent reading or writing in her diary, Anne would call
around a few days a week so she wasn’t lonely but she was now courting a man
named Earl she had met at the park just after New Year and was always telling
stories of him and his travels.
The days when Anne wasn’t there
were lonely for Rose. She wasn’t capable of much and hated being so dependant
on people. But that would change in just a few days, a little baby would be
here and would need her to depend on. Her discomfort grew by the hour and it
seemed so did her mood swings. She was dying to give birth just to be
comfortable again and she was more anxious than ever to meet her little one.
On January the eighteenth, Jack
left at seven o’clock for work as usual. He kissed Rose good-bye and told her
he loved her as he did every morning. He was growing more and more worried now,
by the day about Rose. He absolutely hated leaving her, but he was only a few
blocks away. He had begun to check up on her at lunch times and she was always
still in bed, sleeping peacefully.
Walking to work, Jack could feel
the winters chill wrap around his body, he pulled his scarf further around his
neck and picked up his pace. Any day now he would be a father. He himself had
to admit he didn’t know the first thing about being a father, but he would just
remember how good a father his own was and then he knew he would be the same.
He couldn’t wait to hold his little girl for the first time. Since Rose
announced she was pregnant, he had a feeling it was going to be a little girl.
Another little firecracker in the family. He could imagine her perfect little
angel face and hair as fiery as her mothers.
Arriving at Phillips, he
immediately smelt smoke from a pipe as he opened the door.
“Good morning, Jackie boy.” Phil
greeted. Pouring the tea into the pot. “Would you care for some tea lad? Warm
you up on this cold damn morning?”
Jack nodded, eagerly. Rubbing his
hands together to attempt to warm them before removing his coat.
“How’s Rose this morning?” Phil
asked, pouring the tea into a cup and stirring it gently.
Jack took a chair and waited for
Phil to hand him the teapot. “She’s alright thanks. I left her in bed again. I
hate leaving her Phil. Just hate it. But I know I have to support my wife and
child. Its just I’m so worried about her.”
Phillip sat beside Jack, who had
become to be like a son to him in the past nine months. “Hey lad. When Joan was
expecting my three girls, she was the same. I was the same. I’d wake every
morning and kiss her good-bye and my heart was ripping open. I worked on a farm
a few miles away and every morning I’d walk there and back leaving behind my
missus. Course when Anne was born, I stopped work for a few months, my boss was
a generous bloke he gave me a few months wages in advance so I could spend time
with my family.”
Jack smiled, “Wow” he took his
tea and began to blow it gently and then sipped it feeling the liquid warm his
insides.
“Has it sunk it yet lad?” Phil
asked, offering Jack a cigarette. He refused, he had become used to not smoking
recently due to Rose’s pregnancy.
“Has what sunk in?” Jack asked.
“That you’re gonna be a daddy?”
Phil said with excitement in his voice.
“It has. But I’m just scared of
the next part. What if I fail? What If I cant handle it well?” Jack voiced his
worried for the first time.
“Hey when Joan was pregnant with
Anne, here’s a little secret lad. I was twenty and she was nineteen and she
fell pregnant we’d only been courting for a few months. Her dad found out and
made us marry at once, I mean yeah I liked this girl, she was a cracker, long
black hair, big green eyes and very pale skin but man did all the men fall at
her feet. When she picked me I nearly died. She was a stunner. But I was a
rogue, lad. I didn’t want a kid or to be married. I thought why should I marry
this girl when I could be out at bars drinking and gambling or courting a few
more women. I didn’t want no baby. But you know what? I respected her, and I
married her. I grew to love her bit by bit. I worked and supported her and when
she went into labor I panicked. I nearly did a runner. I went to a bar got
steaming drunk and then fell asleep on a shop door and woke up stinking like a
brewery. So I thought to myself you know lad you’re a father now. So I went
home, had a wash and made myself walk into the bedroom where my wife and child
was. Joan was asleep, poor thing exhausted it was a long labor. But in the
corner in a little crib was my little Anne, six pounds six ounces with a head
of hair at black as her mothers. I heard her gargling and throwing her tiny
fist in the hair, so I bent down to pick her up and I did. At that moment, she
opened her eyes and her little fingers squeezed my thumb so tight, and at that
moment it all fell into place. I was a daddy, my little girl needed me. Just
like yours needs you.”
Phil slapped Jack on the back.
“Its hard lad. Very hard. The
long hours and sleepless nights. But its worth it, because I watched my Anne
grow into the fine young woman she is now. I don’t regret marrying my Joan, I
never will. God rest her soul. If she was here now she’s be fussing over you
like a rash. But you and Rose, you’re family now. I always wanted a son and I
got one and another daughter in the process. You just do right by Rose and your
baby and you wont fail. I swear.”
Phil left the room, leaving a
trail of smoke behind him.
Jack didn’t know any of the stuff
Phil had told him before now. It made him realize how everything does seem to
fall into place. He knew it would be a hard slog for him and Rose but they’d
make it.
One day, he’d love to take Rose
out to Santa Monica and to the pier. It was still his dream. It seemed far away
at first but it was getting closer and closer now.
*****
The early morning sunlight poured
through the curtains of the Dawson house. Rose yawned and stretched out before
pulling herself out of bed. She made the decision to stay in her nightclothes
today, maybe she would be more comfortable. Walking to her vanity unit, she
brushed her copper hair softly and left it to hang below her shoulders. It was
two days now before she was due to give birth and the anticipation was more
than ever. She hated that Jack was leaving her through the day and she was
terrified of going into labor on her own, but it had to be done. Marie was due
to call around that afternoon to bring Rose some teacakes she had baked the day
before especially for her. One of the things Rose missed was baking and
cooking, it was something she was proud of learning herself.
At around midday, the door opened
and Marie’s happy face came waltzing in. She’d had her very long mousy brown
hair chopped to shoulder length and Rose had to admit she looked better for it.
Marie was just like her father down to a tee. The eyes, the nose and face shape
and hair. Even the way she laughed. But her mouth she guessed was from her
mother.
Marie set the teacakes down on
the counter, before reaching over to give Rose a hug.
Offering Rose a teacake, she took
one.
“So how’re you today Rosie?”
Marie asked. Settling herself on the sofa.
“I’m fine.” Rose replied flatly.
“Sorry about the nightdress.” Rose indicated to the nightdress she was wearing
and apologized.
“Its fine honey. I understand.
How’s the teacakes.” Marie questioned. She loved hearing Rose’s views on her
cooking. It was something they both had in common.
“Delicious.” Rose replied with a
mouthful. She grinned slightly. “Its so nice to taste something so good. I
haven’t eaten anything this tasty in weeks.”
Jack did most of the cooking
around the house lately and to be honest he wasn’t the best cook. Simple things
he could handle, but the main evening dinner was sometimes either under or
overcooked. Sometimes even burnt. But it was something they laughed about.
Finishing off her teacake, Rose
reached out her hand to Marie to help her up from the sofa. On doing this she
felt a sudden burst inside of her and a wetness between her legs. Then reality
sunk in. Her waters have broken.
“Marie. Marie oh god.” Rose
panicked. Not now. She was alone. She needed Jack here.
“What’s wrong Rose?” Marie
gasped. Seeing her fright.
“My waters just broke, Marie. Oh
God Jack.” The room began to spin as she panicked more.
“No, no. Sit down.” Marie
attempted to calm her. “Now you sit down and I will run and get Jack and then
I’ll return here with the doctor. Alright? I’ll run now and get Jack.” Marie
yelled, grabbing her coat. Rose nodded absentmindedly attempting to take in all
of this information.
“Hurry” she uttered as Marie
slammed the door in a rush.
At work, Jack was just finishing
up before lunch. Business had been slow today but he sure was ready for a
sandwich. He could hear a woman’s voice shouting his name in the distance.
Thinking he was hearing things he carried on humming to himself. He sure was
worried about Rose though. He heard the shout again, this time plainer.
Glancing behind him he saw Marie running towards him. His stomach knotted.
“Jack…” She shouted. So out of
breathe she could barely speak.
“What is it Marie?“’ Jack
questioned hurryingly. Marie panted vigorously. “What is it?” Jack asked
sharper this time, grabbing her coat.
“Rose…” She managed. “Labor...Her
waters…broken.”
That was all Jack needed to know,
as soon as he heard those words he began to sprint straight away in the
direction of his home.
“I’ll fetch the doctor…” Marie shouted
after him.
Upon reaching home, Jack was so
out of breath but didn’t care. He needed to get to Rose. He needed to see her,
to soothe her. To help her through this.
He rammed the gate open and ran
through it. Upon reaching the door, he stopped for a few moments, to take all
of this in. He slowly opened the door and saw Rose who immediately reached her
arms out to him. Their lives were about to change forever.