THERE YOU’LL BE
Chapter Thirteen
April 1, 1913
Dear diary,
Yesterday Jack and I arrived
at Chippewa Falls, Wisconsin. This isn’t how I imagined it at all. Its so
picturesque. I can imagine Jack as a young boy running around this town.
We are staying at the Country
Inn. It’s a very small and quaint hotel. The owners are a nice old couple and
according to Jack they ran the hotel when he was a young boy.
Jack is very happy but uneasy
about been back here.
I suspect the memories are
killing him. He told me all about his parents on the way here and I would have
loved to have met them. They sounded like such good hearted people. It’s
heartbreaking he has to live without his parents.
Jack is such a good man and he
doesn’t deserve to suffer the grief.
I miss my father dearly. I
think of him daily. He would have loved Megan, she is such a beautiful child.
I miss my daughter terribly
but I am glad to be here in Wisconsin. I think back to the night when Jack
saved me from jumping overboard, almost a year ago to the day. I think about
when he told me he was from Chippewa Falls, Wisconsin. That he was ice fishing
when he was a child with his father. I can honestly say I would never have
imagined me here a year on. Never would I have thought in my wildest of dreams
I would even be here in Jack’s hometown, never mind would I have married him or
given birth to his child.
When I saw him there that
night, this crazy man telling me he would be prepared to jump overboard if I had
decided to I thought he was bluffing.
This obviously poor steerage
boy who was telling me what to do. I had immediately remembered my place in
society and had told him in so many words to leave me alone but he had
proceeded to convince me to not jump overboard.
I didn’t dislike him, I had a
feeling he was someone special in his own way. But I knew he wasn’t special to
me. I thought he never would become a large role in my life. I thought I would
never speak to him again.
That night I didn’t have
feelings for him, feel attracted to him in any way or think of him in a
romantic way but I did know I would like to get to know him.
It wasn’t until the evening of
April the thirteenth after Jack had walked me back to my stateroom when I had
begun to feel things stirring inside me. I admired the man, I wanted to live
like him. He had the life I had always wanted.
I had come to find him an
interesting, caring, gentle person and of course he was very handsome in a very
innocent way. He still is.
That night we had gazed at the
stars and I am not afraid to admit I was curious as to what it would have been
like for him to kiss me, just for a split second. What it would feel like to be
kissed by this beautiful man. What it would feel like for him to have the same
attraction which I strongly felt for him.
When Jack had told me the next
day he was worried about my safety and my life in first class I had been
stunned and overwhelmed but I was scared. Cal and my mother had sworn me away
from Jack and I felt guilty for disobeying their orders but I also felt drawn
to Jack for some strange reason. It was forbidden and I think part of me liked
the fun. I had not done an adventurous thing in my life so sneaking away with
Jack meant I felt free and safe. I felt like a young girl of my age should do,
not with this burden of marriage to a man I didn’t love upon my shoulders.
As of now, I cannot simply
begin to express the love I feel for my husband. Words could not begin to
describe my feelings. As for my daughter, the product of our love, she is an
absolute treasure. I look into her eyes and see my husband and every time I do
I could weep tears of happiness.
As for tomorrow, I will meet
one of Jacks friends from his childhood which will be nice. I have heard a lot
about him.
Rose Dawson
Chippewa Falls, Wisconsin
The Country Inn was one of two
only hotels in Chippewa County. It was a very small place but homely. It was a
farming county with horse and carriages passing carrying hay every now and
again. The roads were long, dirty and dusty with tracks imprinted into the
dust. The roads were very long and stretched for what seemed like eternity.
The few people who Rose had met
in the small amount of time she had been in Chippewa Falls were very friendly
and the few who knew Jack from his childhood each told their tales of how much
of a terror he was as a child. Most of the time the residents were very
surprised to see the face of Jack Dawson in town again, they had expected to
never see him again. They thought he would never return to these parts again
especially with a wife in tow.
People still talked about his
parents and their deaths, it just went to show what the people around these
parts were like. They liked to gossip. Their stares were still filled with
sympathy and judgment for him and one person in particular was happy to see
Jack, Alfie Burton, an attractive, tall, dark man with large brown eyes, was
ecstatic to see Jack again. His childhood best friend.
From the ages of five to fifteen
they were inseparable until Jack had left in the summer of 1907.
They’d have a very happy
childhood, mucking around together, playing football and fishing down by the
river.
When Jack had begun to show a
very good talent for drawing when he was just ten, it was Alfie who’d
encouraged him to follow him dreams. Which was exactly what young Jack did when
his parents had died in a house fire in the July of 1907, leaving him
devastated.
Jack was then just a fifteen year
old boy, but he decided to set out on a journey he would never forget. A
journey to chase his dreams.
Packing the necessities in a
small backpack, he had left there not planning to look back.
First he had ridden the railroad
and headed to Monterey where he worked on a squid boat, he moved on from there
after just two months and went out west to Santa Monica. He had managed to sell
a few sketches to help him with money for a few weeks.
He had heard stories and seen
pictures of Santa Monica’s beauty and atmosphere but now he was here, from an
artists eye it was unbelievable.
The place was so alive with the
pier, the roller coaster which he rode so many times he actually made himself
ill, but he didn’t care. This was the life he had always wanted for himself.
He would ride horses on the beach
and drink the cheap beer from the pub near the pier. Before he’d head out onto
the pier and just gaze out to sea for hours at a time, just taking the scenery
and the sea air. It was beautiful. He had always wanted to go out to sea, but
he’d never even been on a ship. Perhaps it would be yet another one of his goals
to achieve whilst making each day count. It was his motto and way of life since
his parents passed away suddenly at a young age.
After seven months in Santa
Monica, he found his grief eased gradually. He was no longer in pain and
blaming himself for his parents death and he found he didn’t miss the place he
once called his only home at all.
In February of 1908, sixteen year
old Jack headed to Los Angeles and then Hollywood. There was always talk of how
Hollywood was becoming the big city for the silent movies and its stars. So
packing up his few belongings once again, Jack headed to Hollywood.
With its beaming lights and
electric atmosphere, Hollywood certainly was all about the stars.
Jack even saw his first
nickelodeon whilst in Hollywood. He saw a high class man kissing the hand of a
very beautiful young woman and it would amuse him for years to come.
Jack was in awe of everything around
him, although he didn’t see any stars of the moving pictures.
In June of 1908, Jack decided to
head to Europe, when he’d saved enough money for a third class ticket aboard a
ship. This again was another dream of Jack’s, just lazing on deck gazing at the
stars, taking in the beautiful sea air and the unfamiliar surroundings. He had
sketched people on deck and some had paid him but as for others he had refused
to accept any money. He had always loved the sound of running water and the
rushing, probably from the lake nearby his house in Chippewa Falls.
First he headed to Greece ,
explored Athens and the very ancient buildings. The world was a very inspiring
place to Jack. He filled sketchbook after sketchbook with drawings of subjects
and people he took an interest in.
Art was his first and foremost
love and he thought that would never change. Money was tight and he could
rarely scrape together enough money for a proper lunch or dinner.
Talk was that art was really
beginning to bloom over in Paris. Jack had planned to head there someday, maybe
make more money and become a famous artist someday.
Italy was Jack’s next stop in
Europe.
Upon arriving, he felt at home at
once. He really loved it there. He even found himself a steady job as a waiter
at a small downtown café, working for an Italian family named the Di Rossi’s.
They weren’t the richest family,
but the welcomed him with open arms, the whole family had never met an American
before.
Mr. Di Rossi was the head of the
household. He ruled his family with an iron rod and his three children couldn’t
get away with anything.
His wife Penelope Rossi was a
very attractive woman, with a long mane of thick black hair, chocolate brown
eyes and olive skin, which all of her three children had inherited.
Stefan was twenty and he too
worked at the café with his father and brother. Fabrizio was the middle child
and had just left school and had begun to work at the café too. He and Jack
were around the same age and found they both had a love of art and traveling.
They became very good friends in the year which Jack stayed with the Di
Rossi’s. When Fabrizio’s father died suddenly of a heart attack, it was his
grieving family which took Jack in and gave him a bed to sleep and good evening
meal.
Fabrizio’s younger sister Selma
was just sixteen, she was a pretty little thing and took a very early interest
in Jack.
When he wasn’t at work, Selma
would hang out with him and Fabrizio and when then sometimes they would hang
out alone. Selma would beg him to draw portraits of her and she would giggle
and squeal with excitement when he presented the finished sketch to her.
On Jack’s eighteenth birthday, he
shared his first ever kiss with Selma when they had taken a walk in the late
evening. His heart had pounded and he had stuttered nervously afterwards. He
grew fond of Selma but they both knew they couldn’t court because of her
family, if they found out he’d be a dead man, and beside she’s always known of
his dreams to visit Paris from the first day they met.
So after stealing a few more
kisses, Jack decided it was time to move on to Paris in May of 1910, with his
best friend Fabrizio in tow.
Leaving Selma behind had been a
little harder than he had expected. He had feelings which he had never felt
before. Selma had wept when he had kissed her goodbye.
Fabrizio kissed his ma and
siblings goodbye as he and Jack headed into the horizon yet again, but this
time he was not alone, he had company.
The two shared a passion for
adventure and Fabrizio’s dream was to travel to America and become a millionaire.
Whereas Jacks dream lied in Paris, the art capital of the world. And now
finally he was finally going there.
To his disappointment, all the
French seemed to only take an interest in cubism, but Jack felt this type of
art just had no heart in it. Whereas Jack drew from the heart. For him it was
all about living on the streets and putting the amazing city on paper.
Not many people took an interest
in Jack’s art except a man in the local bar who offered a few times a generous
amount for a portrait of himself and a very lovely woman named Amelie.
She was undeniably pretty, with
long poker straight black hair and light brown eyes. She spoke fluently in
French, knowing very little English. Her dresses were always very low cut
showing an ample cleavage, she was obviously a very sensual woman despite only
having one leg.
The man had always paid Jack very
good money to not say anything about him sketching them but never told Jack why
but he didn’t care he did as he was paid to do it put food on the table and
shelter for a few nights.
One night when Jack had drank a
few beers, Amelie offered Jack money to draw her. He agreed.
Upon arriving at the place he she
called home. He noticed more attractive, sensual and provocatively dressed
woman. Amelie lead Jack to her chambers, where she sat him down and slowly
peeled her clothes off and begged for him to draw her naked. Jack at that point
had never seen a woman fully naked and found himself feeling things he’d never
felt before.
He agreed, blushing every time his
eyes laid on the most intimate parts of her body. Upon finishing, she took a
seat beside him and gently but unexpectedly kissed his lips. She took his hand
in hers and gently brushed her lips against his knuckles sending tingles all
the way through his body and causing things to stir he didn’t know how to
control. She lowered his hand and guided it to her bare breast before leaning
forth and kissing him again.
Feeling flustered, Jack pulled
away and shyly excused himself whilst stuttering. After that night, Amelie made
several more attempts to get Jack into bed. He was a very handsome young man
and she was very sexually attracted to him.
But he was always a gentleman and
had politely refused each time. Although he did find she had very beautiful
hands and could draw them endlessly, he had quite a few sketched he’d planned
to keep for memory of Amelie and her hands. She was a very attractive woman but
Jack had plans to move on soon.
Paris had done wonders for Jack
and his Italian friend Fabrizio.
They had grown to become very
good friends during their time in Paris.
The best experience by far for
Jack was seeing his favorite artist Monet through a keyhole. It had made him
the happiest he’d even been that day.
In January of 1912, Jack had been
taking a break from sketching in a park in the upper class side of Paris. He
didn’t really like to come this way much, but he had dressed in the best
clothes he owned and walked to the park. He needed the money as his was
planning on leaving France soon, maybe for England.
Lighting a cigarette, Jack rested
back against the bench he was sat on. The afternoon sun was strong and warm. It
was dead this time of day, usually everyone was eating their dinner.
Taking another puff from his
cigarette, Jack heard a very loud slam of a door. Standing immediately, he saw
a very well dressed lady in a lilac tea dress run from a hotel building with
fiery copper curls. This lady looked like an angel. She ran, obviously crying.
For just a moment, Jack thought
of following her to see if she was alright but a dark haired man dressed
formally in an obviously expensive suit followed her.
Picking up his art supplies, Jack
immediately left the park. Wondering what on earth could be troubling the
pretty redhead.
At the end of March 1912, Jack
and Fabrizio had decided to move onto England.
He’d heard many good things about
Britain, they attractions, the culture, the people.
London was one of the places he’d
planned to visit. After saving up enough money to ride the train from Paris to
London, Jack and Fabrizio packed up their belongings yet again and set out for
the horizon once again.
Upon arriving in London, Jack had
noticed a drastic change in the weather. The rain had poured down horridly
until well into March when British springtime had began.
London had many famous sights
including the Westminster Abbey where royal and rich people were usually
married. Buckingham Palace, was a very large house where the royals lived. Big
Ben, the huge clock which looked over the Houses of Parliament and the River
Thames.
Jack would wake each morning from
beneath the bridge he called his bed during the time he had been there and
wonder around the streets endlessly. It was very different from America, the
littlest thing inspired him. Each building, place and person was steeped in
culture and history.
Towards the end of March 1912,
the newspapers were going crazy about the new ocean liner the Titanic. It was
the biggest moving object ever made by the hand of man in all history. It was
to set sail for New York on April the tenth and from the pictures Jack saw in
the newspapers, it certainly was a beauty.
Fabrizio had joked that’s the
ship he would sail to America on before becoming a millionaire.
England was a good experience for
Jack, he learned a fair few things and met a few nice people. But he knew he
could never settle there, he never felt at home.
Jack often pondered his next
move. Spain? Egypt? Holland? All of the places appealed to him, he just didn’t
have the money to survive on in London, let alone move on again.
London was a place mostly for
rich people, Jack decided to move further south on the fifth of April 1912, to
Southampton.
He and Fabrizio had decided to
watch the Titanic as she would set off for her maiden voyage.
Jack couldn’t wait. This day for
sure he knew would go down in history.
Southampton was a little less
cultured than London.
The English weather continued to
be pleasant through early April.
Fabrizio and Jack found shelter
under a small bridge near a river, where they would wash each morning and
evening. Their money was tighter than ever but life was good. He loved waking
up in the morning even though it was a cold hard floor. He loved not knowing what
was to happen that day, or who he would meet or what was lined up. He loved the
mystery of life and he wondered what card he would get dealt next.
Jack took life as it come at it.
He didn’t plan, he just wondered and drifted. It had been a hard five long
years since his parents died.
Five years? It was just five
years ago, Jack Dawson was just a young boy with a dream and now here he was in
England of all places about to watch history go down as the biggest ocean liner
in the world was about to set sail.
On the morning of April 10, 1912,
Jack and Fabrizio had woken up around eight and washed before heading to the
docks. People were already gathered around the docks edge. The Titanic in all
her glory, stood proudly in the harbor. She certainly was beautiful. Jack could
see now what all of the fuss was about. All the months of anticipation, the
papers had made her sound fantastic and here she was larger than life and she
was better than the press made her sound.
Settling in a small pub near the
docks, Jack and Fabrizio found a spot near a window to sit with two Swedish
men. After nodding their heads in acknowledgement, Jack immediately pulled out
his sketchbook and began to draw her. The Swedish men were playing poker over a
beer, Fabrizio joined in their play and minutes later so did Jack. The drawing
he was so engrossed in was suddenly forgotten. The Swedes certainly were
passionate players as they bet their third class Titanic tickets in the game.
Jack also bet everything he had: five pounds and a few small pieces of French
and Italian change.
Fabrizio had been mad, muttering
Italian swear words but Jack laughed at him, he was confident he was to win
those tickets. He was feeling lucky today, like it was to be the beginning of
something new and amazing. But what if he did have the chance to go home? Jack
worried slightly. Could he face Wisconsin again after five long years?
No he couldn’t. There was always
New York, theatres were always hiring artists to draw posters for plays. Maybe
he could do that for a while?
Jacks thoughts were interrupted
by a loud beeping of a Renault car outside the window. Looking at the time on
the pocket watch in the middle of the table, it was twenty to twelve. He
watched the Renault car pull further into the docks and then stopped, a well
dressed male chauffeur opened the door to the backseat of the Renault and held
his hand out stiffly to a woman who took it gracefully and pulled herself out
of the car. As she lifted her head, Jack thought he recognized her. But then he
shook his head. She was obviously a very rich woman with the look of her
clothes and the was she looked at wonder the ship was so calmly and as though
it was just scrap of metal.
Jack then lit a cigarette and
turned his attention back to his game of poker.
Minutes later, a smile appeared
on Jacks face. He had a full house. Fabrizio revealed his cards, nothing. The
two Swedes revealed theirs. Oh shit! Two pairs.
“I’m sorry Fabrizio” Jack turned
to his friend, whose face fell. He began to mumble something madly in Italian.
“I’m sorry you’re not going to
see your ma again for a long time” Jack spoke over Fabrizio. His face had a
confused look. “Because we’re going to America. Full house boys.” Jack whooped,
happily as Fabrizio began to collect all of their winnings and scrape them into
his backpack.
Olaf stood and looked at Jack
with contempt. He would be taking their tickets to board Titanic. He grabbed
Jack roughly by the scruff of his neck and thought a moment about hitting him.
Jack squinted his eyes, expecting a huge thump until Olaf turned his attention
to his brother and knocked him from his chair.
Jack laughed before helping
Fabrizio collect up their winnings. “I’m going home” Was all Jack repeated out
loud. After five years he would return home on the Titanic. Luck was in for
him.
The pub keeper reminded them the
Titanic was due to leave in five minutes.
Grabbing their backpacks they ran
for the gangway of the Titanic, making it just in time. Boarding the ship, Jack
thought of just how lucky they were. If they could win tickets who knows that
else luck may bring him when he returned home. Or even aboard the ship.