THERE YOU’LL BE
Chapter Sixteen
The tiny saloon situated at the
side of the pier certainly hadn’t changed. It was still a welcoming and popular
locale.
There was a new dancehall open further
uptown and Jack had promised Rose some dances while they were there. They
hadn’t been dancing as a married couple yet.
There was so much to do and so
little time. After Jack and Rose had downed a couple of beers, Jack had let
Rose go on the roller coaster.
She screamed until she thought
her lungs would give out. She laughed until her face hurt and her hair was
flying all over the place, but she didn’t give a damn. Her stomach churned and
churned over and over as they rode it four times in a row. Rose professed that
she had a cast iron stomach and didn’t throw up very easily. Jack was quite the
opposite and made himself ill after another two times on the ride.
It was like magic. She felt so
free--like she was flying for real.
Jack heard her squeals of
laughter and joy. This was the happiest he’d ever seen her. The familiar glow
had returned to her cheeks and her fire was back. The fiery woman he once fell
in love with was back and here with him. Nothing could take her away again.
By late afternoon, the sun was
already beginning to set on what was one of the best days of her life. Anne had
telegrammed Rose telling her Meggie was doing all right and sending her best
wishes.
Rose always loved hearing news
from Anne about her daughter. She was the dearest little thing. Her small
giggles made Rose melt inside. At such a young age, Rose had thought that being
a parent wouldn’t suit her, and she was scared of not being a good parent. But
as soon as she’d held her wailing daughter in her arms for the first time, she
knew this was the path fate had chosen for her.
Jack had promised to take Rose
dancing that evening. He had gone out to find a late evening snack for them
while Rose dressed.
She opened her very small
wardrobe and scanned inside. Five dresses was all she had with her. She had
been reluctant to bring that many. Selecting the most fancy one she owned, a
dark purple one with three-quarter length sleeves and a matching lilac shawl,
Rose dressed herself.
The full-length mirror showed her
reflection, a girl of eighteen who’d been through so much, but her face showed
the biggest smile she’d ever seen. She was finally happy.
Rose fiddled around in a small
chest of drawers and found what she was looking for. She carefully applied some
rouge and lipstick. She hadn’t worn makeup since before Meggie was born, and so
she had decided to make an effort for Jack. Spraying a small amount of perfume
on her neck, Rose sighed. She was happy with her reflection. As she finished
pinning her hair up, there was a knock at the door.
Intrigued, Rose went to answer
it. Who would knock at this time? They knew no one. Jack wasn’t due back for a
half hour.
Upon opening the door, Rose
gasped in surprise. It was Jack in his Sunday best, a black blazer and trousers
and a crisp white shirt. They were the most expensive items he owned. A single
red rose hung from his mouth and he wiggled his eyebrows comically.
"Good evening, Mrs.
Dawson." Jack handed her the rose before taking her left hand in his and
kissing it tenderly.
"Hello," Rose replied,
not quite knowing what to say. Jack was up to something, and she knew it.
"You look stunning."
Rose blushed slightly. He always told her she was beautiful and she had never
quite grown used to the compliments, but tonight she felt good.
Rose placed the rose on her
dresser before heading out the door.
It was quite a walk from the
hotel to the dancehall, but Rose didn’t care. She took in everything around
her--the streets, the houses, the people. Everything was new to her.
The music blared out from Newton
Dancehall. The band there played everything from classical music to Irish jigs.
The night was spent dancing
rapidly to songs they didn’t even recognize, dancing steps they didn’t even
know. Rose’s wild copper curls flew carelessly, Jack’s hand in hers.
Sitting back at the table they
occupied, Rose breathed heavily. They had just danced to an Irish jig. Rose
loved Irish music and had loved her visit there the year before. It was so
cultured and historical. Nobody cared what people thought as long as they were
happy. The Irish immigrants she had met aboard the Titanic had been friendly
and gracious people. She would love to go back there one day.
Her faced was flushed and her
hair was everywhere. Most of her makeup had rubbed off and her dress was
slightly ripped at the bottom, but she didn’t care.
Jack appeared with another two
beers for them both. She knew she had drunk a little more than usual tonight,
but she didn’t care.
Downing at least half of his
beer, Jack smiled. He knew she could drink a beer or two. He sometimes joked
about her drinking more than him.
Soft music began, slow and quiet.
The lights dimmed slightly, and couples began to retreat to the dance floor.
They glided elegantly and swayed
to the soft music. Jack gazed at Rose in the lowered light. He had been right
earlier. She certainly did look stunning--her fiery hair, her glittering blue
eyes. Even out of breath from dancing, her hair in tangles, he thought of her
as beautiful. A lot of other men in the room had gaped in awe as soon as they
had seen her. Some were still gaping. This stirred feelings inside Jack. Not
jealousy--far from it, for he was the one who once longed for this princess,
who wanted nothing more than to rescue her and make her happy, and now he was
succeeding. The feelings were that of him being proud of her and her happiness.
Happy that she was happy and that she was his wife and would be forever. He
would never call her his. That was almost like she was a possession. She was a
person, with feelings and the right to do what she wanted, when she wanted, not
to be told what to do like some servant.
The music continued. Rose,
finally feeling Jack’s eyes on her, gazed up. He smiled gently, his face full
of love. He held his hand out to her. She took it gently and rose from her
seat.
He led her to the dance floor,
where other couples were dancing, too. He began to lead her in a waltz. A slow,
sensual waltz.
Rose held onto Jack’s hand and
shoulder as Jack held her waist. He slowly glided her across the floor and she followed.
It had been years since she had danced this way. She’d almost forgotten how.
She had loved dancing, especially as a child. She had taken ballet classes up
to twelve years old. She had also learned to play the piano and the violin. She
had loved music all of her life. Some things never went away, no matters where
fate led a person in life. Her love of music and dancing would never fade.
Jack held onto Rose’s waist
tighter and pulled her closer to his body. He gazed down at her lovingly, and
she was surprised at how well he could lead. Another hidden talent of Jack
Dawson.
Rose shivered slightly as Jack
adjusted his fingers on her waist. He moved closer to her and leaned her head
on his shoulder as he lightly kissed the top of it. She could feel the sensations
inside of her that hadn’t seemed to go away these past few days stir. She
hadn’t felt them this strongly in a while.
Gently, she felt Jack’s fingers
softly begin to run through her hair. She closed her eyes. Feeling the
closeness between them, Jack’s heart began to pound. He was overcome by
emotions and love for this woman who stood with him dancing. He softly kissed
the top of her head once more as she removed her head from his shoulder and
gazed fixedly at her husband’s eyes. She had felt his heartbeat when she was
close to him. She had butterflies and the world seemed to disappear as he
lowered his head and gently kissed her lips. It was a soft, long, and sweet
kiss, enough to boil over Rose’s emotions. She hadn’t felt anything like this
since, well, since Meggie was conceived. That one and only time they had made
love. Rose had a feeling that tonight might be special.
Pulling away, Jack pulled Rose
closer to him again and softly kissed her hair.
"I love you," he
whispered softly into her hair. He was unsure if she heard him, but he had to
say it at that moment. It was all he felt.
*****
Rose awoke earlier than usual on
the morning of April seventh. She was excited and ready for what the day held.
She remembered Jack’s words he’d
spoken a long time ago.
"I love waking up in the
morning, not knowing what’s going to happen, who I’m going to meet and what’s
lined up."
And she understood exactly how he
felt.
Jack stirred in his sleep,
turning on his side and facing Rose. Resting her head back on her pillow, she
softly stroked the small strands of hair from his sleeping face. A smile
appeared on her face, remembering the night before. It had been the best night
of her life.
They had made love for the first
time in almost a year. Rose had felt the same unfamiliar feelings she’d had
that night of April 14, 1912.
Her heart had pounded the entire
time. She had never been so nervous. Back then, she had been a child, impulsive
and spontaneous. Now she was a woman with a child. Her body had certainly
changed in some areas since giving birth to her daughter. There were marks
around her stomach, and her breasts were larger than usual, due to her
breastfeeding. But Jack had embraced each new mark and line on her body,
kissing her gently. It was slow and sensual and she had never wanted it to end.
All of these months of not making love had killed Jack. He’d wanted to show his
wife how much he loved her, to be close to her, make her feel wanted. But she
had shunned him for a long time, mostly due to her pregnancy and the fact that
she didn’t feel ready to be touched in that way again since that night.
It had affected her in more ways
than she had thought imaginable.
They had taken precautions,
though, to make sure she didn’t conceive another child just yet. She definitely
wanted more children, but for now, she wanted to concentrate on Meggie and the
new life she was adjusting to.
Feeling a gentle hand touching
his face, Jack awoke from his slumber and opened his sleepy eyes to Rose’s
smiling face.
He, too, smiled. It was
contagious, for the previous night had been magic. Their lovemaking had turned
out to be one of the best experiences he’d ever had. He’d loved her in a way
neither had thought possible. All of their time apart and not being able to
touch her had made him even more eager to make it special, and my God, it was.
Jack moved his arm and gently
touched her lower back before planting a lingering kiss on Rose’s lips.
"Good morning,
darling." Rose smiled.
"Hey, you." Jack sighed
before turning and stretching.
"Last night was--" Rose
trailed off. The night been unexplainable.
"Beautiful--" Jack
answered for her. His eyes shone in the morning sunlight.
*****
The day was warm again, another
perfect day. The beach was almost empty except for a small, round man with a horse
tied up near him. Jack recognized the man instantly, for it was the same man
who, six years before, had loaned him the horse for an hour to ride in the
surf.
Jack immediately pulled Rose in
the direction of the man and she followed, intrigued.
"Hey," Jack greeted,
smiling, and he held out his hand. The man obviously didn’t recognize him, so
he just cut straight to the chase. "How much for a horse ride, sir?"
Jack asked.
Rose’s mouth opened wide, looking
up at the great horse.
"Twenty cents for the hour.
You interested?" the small man asked, looking somewhat bored. He twiddled
his dirty thumbs around in a circular motion.
"Yes, indeed. I am. We’ll
take him for the hour, sir. Thank you."
Jack tossed the man twenty cents
before untying the horse from the fence and leading him further across the
beach.
Rose was frightened.
"How on earth can I ride
this, Jack? Look how tall he is."
He was at least seventeen hands
high. He was a beauty. Black in color, his hair glistened in the sun.
"Don’t worry. He’s sturdy.
Trust me?"
"All right."
Trust. It was one of Jack’s
biggest traits. Rose knew to always put her trust in him.
Jack held Rose’s hand as she
pulled up her skirts, stepped up onto the stirrup, and lifted herself onto the
steed. Her heart pounded hard from nerves and the fact that she was actually
doing this. It was almost a dream.
"Now put your other leg
over, Rose," Jack instructed. Rose laughed as she straddled the horse as a
man would.
"So, this is what it feels
like to be a man," Rose teased. Jack gazed at her and saw her beautiful
face, so full of happiness. Jack almost wanted to burst with pride and being so
proud of her.
Adjusting her skirts around her,
Rose looked straight ahead, off into the distance. The sun was about to set. Brilliant
shades of red, orange, and yellow merged and created a magical sunset.
Rose let out a small squeal of
joy before beckoning Jack to climb up and ride with her.
She’d never controlled a horse
before and was a little afraid. So, Jack climbed on behind her and took the
reins. The horse slowly began to walk forward and Rose giggled hysterically.
This was a whole new experience to her. When Rose felt comfortable, she gently
took over holding the reins. Jack’s arms slid around her waist and he rested his
chin on her shoulder.
She could feel him gently kiss
her cheek and the smile on her face widened.
Her heart soared. The horse
slowly trotted across the warm, sandy beach. The warm breeze caused her red
curls to billow freely. Another giggle and squeal escaped her lips. She let her
left hand gently entwine with his. He caressed her fingers softly, playing with
her wedding band.
Rose tilted her head slightly.
Her face met Jack’s. His breath tickled her cheek. His eyes darted from her
glittering eyes to her full, soft, and slightly parted lips. He gently kissed
her once and then again before turning their attention back to the beautiful
sunset before them.
The horse walked slowly towards
the surf, and water splashed gently around her ankles on the stirrups. Rose
looked out to sea. It was amazingly blue and seemed endless. Right into the
distance, it was pure blueness. She shivered slightly. She had always loved the
sea, but certain events in recent times had changed that.
"This is it, Rosie--the
horizon, and it’s ours--now and forever."
Rose felt a single tear slide
down her porcelain cheek.
They had talked of this moment,
thought about it, and even dreamt of it.
But the reality was even more
wonderful.
This was an indescribable
feeling. Nothing had prepared her for this moment.
She was lucky. She knew that. The
life that she thought once upon a time wasn’t worth living had turned into
perfection.