First, you, as a woman, should:
Use that slipping-into-mud thing you do so well, the layers of past embracing your chin,
slicking your tanktop, fingering his fossil heart in the geode under your bed, caressed like moss
clung to the back of your shirt after what he termed “field studies” or grounds for naming
mountains.
Secondly:
Flaunt your feminine wiles while using terms like horsetail, loosestrife, palm (against an open
cheek, my lover’s greeting). Claim nomenclature’s your specialty due to a mastery of Latin.
Extol the preeminence of classical language, nodding intently when discussing the
Pennsylvanian period (mouth “Penn’s Woods”). Decline in the neuter: disavow gender when
plundering limbs or parsing signals from both smoke and steam.
If no results yield, try this:
Shine your flashlight, always on your belt, into mocking darkness, the cave opening for you
again and again as you clasp hands, tricked down aisles, into ruins of ago, of yore, or a 40 story
tree shattered in remote blasts, aftershock’s edge, primordial wave, what happened when he
grinned, (teeth flash, neck bare), and find and find in your light amber grains, palm fronds,
crosshatched ceilings, the favored climate of sinsick musk vapors mingling with detergent,
determined for restructuring, for latching on, looping into muck, stained for an eon, (that crust
more than penetrated) accidentally recovered.
And, lastly, upon your success:
Try to forget your shortcomings (namely the “discovery event” of the First). Remember suddenly
those laboratory imprints, leaf rubbings, textbook wax comforting blisters on your left forefinger
where cigarettes burn when you pay them no mind. Deliberate the antediluvian: slice of canine
against veins; gusting mixture of must and soap; fossil hearts secreted in stones… Finally,
embrace your newfound expertise.