The wine I drank on an empty stomach has conjured up my thickest Appalachian, making communication with the Sicilian all the more difficult since we are both speaking bastardized English, and I am falling asleep on the dance floor, woozy from the wine and sightseeing. He says I am thinking too much and not moving near enough. I ask him if I’ve spoilt his evening. His face screws into confusion until I can come up with a translation: ruint for spoilt, then ruined for ruint. Ah, he says. No no no, and kisses me again and again, which, admittedly, is not too objectionable in the context of ignorance and blaring American music and bottles clinking like teeth. I am already so eager to learn. Better to spend my lips on him than the struggle to converse. After all, when two tongues come so close together, language barriers disperse into the taste of salt and Italian cigarettes, allowing raw cultural exchange to occur, an educational experience I had not anticipated, but in many ways prefer. Besides, as the Sicilian keeps reminding me, this is my last night here. In a few more hours, I’ll be gone.The View from Giotto’s Tower
Sure, it’s easier to appreciate this view when you can’t see any of the men or women below you, the ones winning and losing and yearning and dying— all of them, all the time, none rising above any other for very long. It is much easier to appreciate what’s been built up beautifully when you can’t see what’s been torn down, which is to say, you can’t perceive the lives that are not being lived as yours is now, which is above the rest, full of wonder and thanks to God for all that exists and as little concern as possible for what does not, or, more poignantly, what you cannot and do not wish to see. The desire for this view is the foundation of this city, and for most places everywhere. You need not climb the 414 steps to the top of Giotto’s Tower to achieve this vista. You can blind yourself at street level, gliding along on the legs the beggars do not have. You can gape at the gold-plated ceiling of St. John’s Baptistry while the gypsy woman in the doorway canters for the few copper coins she keeps clinking, clinking. The rays of light breaking so gloriously through those distant clouds are shining just as brightly on the monuments of the dead as they are the houses of the living. And who is to say one is not the other? Listen, poet, life is no panoramic view. The bells are tolling, and the dark tower beckons. You must return. You must descend, letting the old stones press cold against you all the way down.TransitionPictures of uncommon nature, painted by the Master’s hand
Draw me ever on life’s journey, rendered thus to understand.
–Reeltime Travelers, “As a Songbird That Has Fallen”
Her childhood set like the sun that evening: one solitary star bleeding into a field of Tuscan poppies. She watched herself from the train, watched herself sink into the violet pall, unsure of what would come with the next dawn or the next. Perhaps another light would rise to illuminate what the child had done. What a mess she’d made, pretending to know right from wrong, guarding the sanctuary of her body, her soul, driving her demons away. Then Florence and Sienna and Venice and Rome. Chaos appeared as the pecking pile of pigeons in the Piazza San Marco, each individual bird one concession, then another, the mass of them overwhelming. Then the rain falling in Rome, demure as she, and as inviting. She found herself wandering through the mazes of streets, searching for someone or something familiar, some reminder of home. She found none. Not in the glass shops or the wine or the masks she tried on. Not in the discotech or the Uffizi or the Sistine Chapel. There were no labeled arrows, no tourist maps for the canals of the self, no familial guideposts. Every time the Cathedral bells tolled, her inhibitions scattered like the birds of Sienna. She was, for the first time, truly on her own, with newborn eyes that could not yet see the tortures lying in bed with liberation. What she could perceive that evening was one distant mountain, fading with resignation, just as she was, shade by shade.____________________
Morgan Richards, who grew up in the Ohio Valley region of West Virginia, is a graduate student in English at West Virginia University. Her poems have appeared previously in Nantahala Review.