A simple request for directions any hotel desk clerk in town would know, early this soft-cold
morning, directions to a new popular landmark, the Riverwalk, well, not. Donna said, politely
b/c she just moved here (to attend MUW) so did not know but got the manager who
emerged with outraged incredulity spread over her plump reddish-pink face; affront & scorn
stiffened her un-athletic body then her voice
“Whaat? Whaat yu askn foah? In alll the yeahs Ah’ve been heah, nevah had
ennyone ask for that!” personal insult stretched her vowels like i was a
criiiiiminal to challenge her clerkship as she flicked her beady Dursley eyes
over me head to
toe head to toe adamantly insisting that it did not exist; she had not heard of it
she swole up in righteous denial squishing little polite Donna behind her saying
she might have directions / “But I might know where that is if it’s what I think
it is, near Harvey’s Restaurant? Then you get on the freeway and . . . ”
background to the manager’s challenging bark “Where’d yu see that at?” as a tiny house
cleaning elf rolled up, leaned on her cart and got in it too (“Whar’s she a-wontin ta go? To
walk? The hospital’s the best, safest place. “ “Safe . . .” Donna echoed,
nodding (& what they say that for but come back to that) so i told Miz HWWIC*, that i read
about the park in a magazine. (“Whaat?”) i told her, calmly smiling, the park was a cover
feature article in that magazine in our hotel rooms
and offered to get mine but she said she had one and stalked back to her office,
like uh huh, i got her now ! And came back and slapped the offending magazine,
quietly, on the counter where i read the cover to her and turned to the article
(Donna still trying to give me directions) and the woman manager
deflated, some. “Humph. Don’t have much time to read.”
And then, “That’s okay,” as she thumped the magazine and retreated back to her
office. “That’s okay.”
Well, no.
It is not okay that arrogance, ugliness and ignorance prevails. It really is not
okay, that White Southern psychological tradition of (mis)perceiving all “blacks”
as objects, servants, dumb serfs - rarely subjects, masters of knowledge.
It is not good to be a writer - and not affirm it.
It will never be right that wimmin be unsafe in
any place, at any time. Really.
When the time arrives, firmly & clearly articulate truth.
Get directions to your own reality.
Find it.
Go there.
Own it.