Grief

Your name is
grief
It starts with a G

You are a mask
behind which is
garbage

I keep thinking
an oasis exists
back there

But all I see
are insecurity
lies
falsehood
the fake

Your friends are
fake
as fake words

There is nothing

Wisps of crumpled
paper
spider webs
lint
dust

Nothing to make
a life of

I wish I would
forget you
Recycle you
into mulch

And make something
good of it.

I wish I didn't
care.

Thoughtless
free
and vain
as you.

I wish God
gave me a light
into the future.

I wish he would
protect me from
you.

You are a mockery.

I wish for the strength
to be free