non merci

nugget of love
nugget of time
nugget of freedom
the lie of the dream
the lie of sands
beneath semi naked skin

i birthed you
as a lie
dreamed you as a
fiction
wrote you as part
of some false future

tonight
you eat your bread
in another woman's
home

you eat your bread
wherever it
is offered

and if that is the
meaning of live for
the moment

i abdicate
and wait for
something better.

remember this

once you called it
bliss.

8/10/05
Los Angeles, CA