Today I listened to a couple of songs by Garth Brooks, "Unanswered Prayers" and "The Dance". They really made me stop and think about some things in my life. And I think they are good things to reflect upon.
I loved my ex-husband so much and had prayed so hard for things to turn around and work for us. But listening to that song made me realize that it would never work with us. With him I would never have the emotional security I seek in a relationship. He is not able to give it. About the only thing that we had in our relationship was passion and that just is not enough to hold something together. A relationship needs so much more than just passion. It needs understanding and acceptance. It needs friendship and love. It needs helping and listening and sharing to survive all the trials of this world.
So I need to thank God for my unanswered prayers. And the gift of the most wonderful man I have ever met. Though we are only friends and the hopes of it ever being more are in my dreams. But I know that if God thinks we should be together then it will happen.
And in "The Dance".... !!! Yes, I have been through a lot of pain and heartache but I do not feel I would ever take any of it back as I do have some good memories and a lot of growth and learning from the experiences. I would not be the person I am today if it were not for these experiences. I do not want to go through them again, but I am glad that I had them. I have grown stronger and smarter for the experiences. So I would not have missed the dance.
I can only hope and pray that the perfect relationship for me is in the near future. Someone that I can share my world with and he with me. Someone to love me as I love him. Someone that will accept me as I am and love me in spite of it. Someone that will ground me but not control me. Someone that will walk with me side by side and explore this great world with me...
Perhaps it is this wonderful man I have grown to love with all my heart. And if it is then God will bring us together soon. If not then I know that the right person is in the future and God knows who he is and will bring him to me...
So let us trust in that greater power and just know that when he feels the time is right then he will bring you together. Only he knows what is good for us,we think we know what is but most of us have shown that we can sure mess things up and bring a lot of pain to ourselves. So follow that inner voice and allow the great spirit lead us to our soul mates and allow happiness and our future come together...
