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you feel like you’re entering a new stage in life
one filled with friends, and love
you congratulate yourself on past bravery
you tell yourself now is the time for rewards
you feel you have climbed that last rock
and now a flat, sunny plain stretches as far as the eye can see
you can feel yourself grow outward
to meet new friends
and inward
growing strong, and more self-sufficient than ever before

you analyze yourself
cautious about being too optimistic
nervous that it’s all a mirage
you absorb the sunshine
like you’re preparing for a long hibernation
like a layer of fat to draw upon when times are lean

but you cannot see into the future
all you can do is talk, and listen, and try to understand
live in the moment
re-live the past
daydream the future
and try to understand.