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Map of the Heart
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Aha! Now I get it...finally.
This is a test. It is only a test.
I was meant to fall in love with someone I can't have so I would know what this feels like for Doc. How I ache for him now. How I see my attempts at getting him a new girl were not only stoopid, they were hurtful. How I see I have been flippant and vapid.
The other one, my love, well, he will be okay because he is a charmer. He could talk a woman out of her clothes in two minutes. And good for us that he won't enter the home of a gun-toting rich girl and I won't cross the threshold into another woman's realm.
But back to my Doc, the man who loves me. I finally see what I am suppose to do. Viola! It will be my greatest gift to him.
I am finally beginning to understand the map of the heart.
All any of us want is to be happy. Although I do understand that happiness only occurs in moments, it is not an eternal state, like death.
I must admit that I would have liked to have had just one shot at that wicked man. One or two weeks would have been very very very nice.
At least Doc did get that.
--M.A.E.
