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He speaks to me in French His limited English is rich with the honey of his native tongue. My heart flips over just to hear him. He tells me about Truths and speaks of Beauty Talks of Love As though he knows Her well. His syntax is charmingly off, But he communicates clearly, The messages received With zero distortion. I decide that Europeans Know more of love As a people and culture Because they have had longer To feel it.
He talks of holding me in his arms all night long And stroking my face Tenderly; Of wondering if I will linger in his embrace, Tells me I am safe. He promises to pull my hair just so When he kisses me Tells me he will make me his Alone, That he will wipe clean the Taint of pain from my soul.
I am taken with him, Absorbed Entranced Fascinated Hopeful Until it is time to say Goodnight And he says I should have "sweet dreams"; It is then the memory clambers in my head (Rattling around like pots and pans in a cupboard) Of you telling me goodnight, Saying I should have "some sweet ones"… ….The sadness comes rushing back As indefatigable as waves crashing on the shore.
How long will it be Until another man Can stand Out of your Shadow ??
How long before I stop Comparison shopping ? Why do I approximate A King to A Libertine ?? Or is my true sin Believing that there are any Kings ?
I can't understand how you Did this to me Or why I let you.
I had no defenses for you. I was not prepared. I was ripe for the picking. Why didn't I run ? Why am I stuck in this ? Too many questions, And the general anesthesia Of answers is Unavailable to me.
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