“Only three months left until we’re parents Chris, what do you think?” Andi said to him as they sat on the balcony looking out at the beautiful sunset.
“I think I can’t wait, God, this is going to be so amazing baby, I can’t wait to meet this little thing.” He told her, rubbing his hand lovingly over Andrea’s stomach.
“Me either, what do you think we should name it if it’s a girl?”
“I like the name Hannah Beth for a girl.”
“Yeah, that’s pretty. What about a boy?” She asked adding. “It will not be a Junior!”
Chris laughed. “Ok how about Sean Daniel?”
“Oooh…I am impressed baby, those are nice names. I was expecting something stupid!”
“From me? Never!” Chris told her. It was Andi’s turn to laugh now.
“Mmm…of course not baby, Who would expect anything but intelligent dribble to come out of your mouth?”
“I don’t know.”
“Ok, what do you say we go inside and get some rest, I'm tired.”
“Alright, come on.”
“Hello?” Cait answered her phone.
“Hey.” She heard his voice say timidly from the other end.
“What can I do for ya?” she returned, tucking her feet under her as she sat on the couch.
“Look, I just, I don’t know.” He stopped, confused about he should say. “What did I do?” He asked, knowing it was a stupid question, but he was confused. Should he apologize or not? How was this supposed to be approached?
“Justin you know what you did, the fact that you even had the balls to ask that doesn’t help it any either.”
“Well, Cait, I'm sorry but I Don’t know what you want to hear!” He said becoming angry.
“How about something along the lines of I'm sorry, I was an inconsiderate asshole and I should have know better?” She said told him, annoyed.
“Well, I didn’t know if that was right, I mean yeah I was inconsiderate, I should have been better about it but Cait, I’m sick of this. You think I want to leave? You think I want to get on that plane knowing that I won’t be able to see you for months? You think that’s easy for me or something?”
“Look Justin I know it is just as hard for you as it is for me but that’s why I thought maybe you could be a little more sympathetic when I talk about it, ya know? Have a heart.” Cait told him, her tone becoming softer as her heart sank.
“I know baby, I'm sorry about that. I really didn’t mean to be an asshole, I just, I don’t want to think about for now. I just got back a couple weeks ago and now you’re talking about me leaving again? Why?” Justin questioned.
“Why Justin?” She repeated. “So I can prepare for you leaving me alone for months and for me being alone not having anyone there at night that’s why. And don’t go thinking this is some kind of guilt trip either because that’s the last thing I'm trying to play here, I just wanted to give you an answer to your question.”
“Cait, don’t you think I think about those tings?” he asked rhetorically. “Every time I leave I just want to grab you and take you with me but unfortunately you have your life at home and I have mine on the road. God I just wish we could go together instead of me leaving and you standing there watching. It rips my heart out but I can’t stop these things, I have to do what I have to do.”
Cait had tears streaming down her face by now. Justin wasn’t the only one who had been inconsiderate, she had too. Why had she thought of his feelings? She was being selfish that’s why. She felt terrible, she just wished she could turn back time and take back their whole conversation but she couldn’t Now she had to think of a way to make it up to him.
“J, I'm sorry, I love you and I should have thought about your feelings not just my own, forgive me?”
“I'm the one who needs forgiving here not you, you didn’t do anything I Was the one being inconsiderate not thinking.”
“How about we call a truce?” Cait suggested.
“Deal, I love you, I never meant to hurt you baby.”
“I know and I didn’t mean to be so dramatic about it either sorry,” She told him. “What do you say you get your sorry self over here now?”
He laughed. “You got it I’ll see you in a few, Love you.”
“Alright see you then, Love you.” Cait said, hanging up the phone and letting out a happy sigh.
“What was that?” Whitney yelled at JC angrily later that night as they walked into her house.
“I didn’t do anything Whit, I'm telling you you were seeing things!” JC came back.
“Don’t tell me what I saw JC, I know what was. You were all over another girl, don’t lie to me!”
“Whit I’m not lying, I didn’t do anything with her, GAWD!” He said.
“JC you did do something, I'm your girlfriend, and I was even there! Yet you proceeded to go get all up on some other girl right in front of me!”
“WHITNEY! She turned me around and started to dance I didn’t start anything!”
“Yet you didn’t stop it either…” She pointed out.
“FINE! You’re right I should have done something but what was I supposed to do? Push her down to the ground?”
“That’s where she belongs if she’s acting like that.” Whit said.
“Stop it! She didn’t do anything to you, how was she supposed to know I was with you?”
“Well she had been watching us dancing ALL NIGHT!” She yelled.
“Whatever, give me a call when you get your head on straight.” With that he walked out the door.
Whitney sat down on the couch with a huff. She had clearly seen what JC had been doing. He had his hands all over that other girl, and there he is trying to tell her that she had forced herself on him. Please, like she was supposed to believe that! How he could flip on her and think that she was ‘making too big a deal of it.’ She definitely wasn’t. He had been all over another girl and she was supposed to be cool with it because he was a celebrity.
JC sat in his car thinking. Maybe he shouldn’t have turned on Whit like that. But she was overreacting, he hadn’t done anything. All he did was dance, nothing she hadn’t done before. Why did relationships have to be son complicated? Why couldn’t’ things just be easy and flow like he wanted then to? JC knew he would have to mend this patch but for now he wasn’t sure how to do it. And until he figured it out, things wouldn’t be the same with him and some people.
“Justin,” He said into his phone. “I'm on my way over, I’ll be there in a couple bye.” Never giving him an opportunity to reply Justin sat on the other end baffled. He wasn’t sure what it was but something suspicious was going on with JC and he had a hunch it had something to do with Whitney.
“Cait I don’t know what I'm doing!” Whitney said in tears as she talked to Cait on the phone. “Whit you saw what you saw, don’t go feeling sorry, it’s his fault for being a complete dick about everything. He needs to have some consideration for your feelings,” She told her. “Relationships are two sided, from my view you seem to be the one pulling all the weight, why?”
All the sudden a light went off in her head. Whitney knew there was something more than what happened earlier that night now she knew what it was. She was sick of being pushed around. Always being the one doing things to get her and JC together, he had never shown any effort to help make their relationship work. It was about time she confronted him about it too. But first there were some things she needed to do. “Cait I love you! You’re a freaking genius!”
“Oh, I know no need to tell me…” She replied cockily.
“I have to get going, thanks for the help, I’ll be in touch, love ya!”
“Alright, but Whit one piece of advice before I hang up…”
“Yeah…”
“Don’t do something you think you might regret afterwards.
Suddenly her plan crashed and burned. Whitney realized that she could never do anything to intentionally hurt JC, she loved him too much. No matter how much crap they had to work on to improve their relationship she was willing to do it, she was just hoping he was too.
“Alright man, What the hell is up with you?” Justin asked as soon as he opened the door to his house.
“It’s Whit,” He started as Justin smiled a bit of a knowing smile. “She’s blaming me of being all over some other girl and I wasn’t!” JC stormed into the house waving his arms frantically as he ranted.
“Whoa, calm down. First of all what are you talking about?” He asked, forcing JC down onto the couch.
He took a deep breath before beginning to explain. “Ok, me and Whit went out to a club tonight right?” Justin nodded. “Well, she had gone to get a drink and while she was away some girl had turned me around and started dancing all over me.” Justin nodded once again. “Well, when she came back all she saw was this girl all over me and she got pissed and ran out.”
“Yeah so then what?”
“Well, we got back to her house and she started yelling at me like I had done something wrong.”
“Well, did you tell her how the girl had started dancing with you?”
“Yeah then she got all pissy saying that I could have pushed her off of me.”
“Well, JC buddy, I’d hate to disappoint you but I think she may have a point.”
“I know Justin but I really didn’t do anything, all I did was stand there waiting for her to come back, I didn’t want to start any shit.”
“JC, if you knew you were wrong why didn’t you just admit it?”
“Because Justin, it’s not that simple…”
He cut him off. “Let me guess, your damn pride got in the way causing you to wreck possibly the best thing you have ever had happen to you.” He started getting mad. “Damn JC, I thought you would be the one yelling at me about this, how could you possibly be so pig-headed? I mean Whitney treats you SO good and you give her nothing in return.”
“What do you mean I give her nothing in return, I give her plenty of stuff.”
“Not material crap JC, I mean emotionally, she needs more attention from you, she needs you to show her some affection, open your eyes JC or you may just lose her for good.”
JC let out a loud sigh. Maybe Justin was right. Maybe he hadn’t been giving Whitney everything she deserved, maybe he didn’t deserve her…
“You ever wonder why people choose to dump their problems on you?” Cait asked Justin as they talked on the phone.
“No,” He laughed. “You should feel good that people trust you enough to dump their problems on you.”
“I suppose but then you have to keep it from the other person involved, and there’s always another person!”
“Yeah, there is.” He started, “anyways, I found out that I have to leave for California in like a week to record something.” He told her.
Cait sighed; this was the news she hated to hear. “Oh well, what do you want me to say, Jus?”
“Nothing, I just wanted you to know, I love you Cait, and I don’t want to leave you, I'm sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry Jus, it’s part of your job, and I understood that getting into this relationship.”
“Ok, well whatever you’re doing I'm coming over right now.” Justin laughed hanging up his phone and heading over to Cait’s house.
“That kid’s nutty.” She said to herself as she stared at the phone, “and I'm the one talking to myself…”
JC sat on the couch, wracking his brain for ideas. He knew he had to make this up to Whitney somehow, but how was the question, and would she accept it?
He picked up a pen and began to write down what he was feeling inside, and how what happened between Whitney and himself was affecting him. He wrote down every feeling inside his body, sealed it in an envelope and sent it to Whitney. Hopefully she wouldn’t hate him for it but instead forgive him and hopefully they could start to heal this great would he had inflicted upon their relationship.
Whitney opened the envelope, immediately recognizing the handwriting on the outside of the envelope. It was JC’s. Her stomach began to flutter as she began to read his words:
Whitney-
Words can’t explain how I’m feeling inside right now. The regret, remorse, sadness, and emptiness I feel without you here in my arms. I made a dumb mistake when I did what I did. It makes me ashamed. And it makes me feel more sorry than I have ever been in my life, more depressed than I have ever felt know that what I did could make me lose the on important thing in my life: you. I know I know, you’re thinking this is some stupid thing to get you back right? That I'm being a typical guy, trying to be cool acting all sweet trying to get back my girl. Don’t. You know me Whitney Littleton. You know I would never hurt you like that intentionally. If I ad realized what my actions what have done now, they never would have happened. I never would have been so stupid. I love you with all my heart; I know you’re mad and angry with me. And you have every right to be. I realize also that things between us will never be the same. Whether you do forgive me or banish me forever, there will a drastic change in the way things our. Trust will dissipate and need to be earned back. I know this and I am very willing to go at it. Now it’s up to you. Can you forgive me?
I love you forever and always,
She was stunned. What was she supposed to say? JC had just poured his heart and she was numb to everything. There were no feelings in her heart, there was noting. Was she supposed to forgive him or was she supposed to leave him in the dark and forget about all the fun things they had shared, all the love that she knew was somewhere in her heart for him, and only for him.
Whitney knew there was no one else in this world for her but she also knew that she wasn’t ready to have him back yet, she knew there was no way she could trust him yet. Not only had he been dancing all over another girl, but he had looked straight into her eyes and lied about it. How could he? She had given him her heart, given him her trust and he took it all and ran away with it, leaving her heart laying pieces along the way.