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July 20, 2000 ~ Dude, it's too fucking late. Time is going by too fast. I don't like this. Part of me is ready to move and all that, but now I'm just really not wanting to leave. This sucks some ass. But alas. I got a postcard from one of my two roommates today. That was cool. So now I'll have to email her. It's exciting and frightening. Dude, too crazy. I've got so much I need to be doing right now too. Let's make a list so that I can refer back to it later, and cause I know you're all just so interested.

So yeah. These are the things I need to be doing right now. I haven't been accomplishing very much lately however. I've been really busy somehow. I guess I go out a lot, sleep a lot, and I have started working, so that takes up much of my day. It's really sad. My friends and I have seen pretty much every movie out here, and at the more independent-esque movie theater around here, so we're really running low on things to do. We're also uncreative when it comes to that kinda stuff. Warped Tour is on tuesday, and I am very very excited. I guess there's some good stuff coming up. I just don't want time to pass. Alright, well let's get to the events of the last few days. My God are things insane. Alright, well. How to talk about this without getting myself into possible trouble.... Well anyway, I told my very close friend/ex-boyfriend about some stuff, and he basicaly said he was never gonna talk to me again. Although he was very ambiguous about this. So who the hell knows. But yeah. I think that's pretty goddam shitty. I understand and all, but that's some bullshit. He was also wanting to cut off all of his high school relationships when he went to college anyway, altho I thought I was an exception, but I guess I've just been cut off a month early. It's so stupid and silly though, in my opinion. But whatever, we'll see what happens. But I've been really pissed and bitter about this, and not at all sympathetic, which is kind of bad. I do sympathize, I'm just not getting sympathetic, I think mainly cause I'm trying to make sure I don't start feeling guity about this. I think I feel guilty too much, so yeah. But anyway, this has been the big event in my life as of late. It's some fucking goddam crazy shit. But we'll move on now. So last night, my friends and I went to the Dave Matthews Band concert at RFK, but didn't actually go, cause we had no tickets and were planning on just chillin in the parking lot. Let me tell you, I was so shocked at how well this plan turned out. First off, we took the metro, so we had no car in which to go to, and it was raining the whole time. But see, we found this tarp which had been set up between these two cars(later termed the BFT or 'big fucking tarp'). So yeah. We also had more luck finding things, but I'm not getting into that. But anyway, that was quite a nice find. We got there just in time for Dave Matthews, but missed the opening people, but that's alright. So yeah. So we chilled under there safe from the rain and talkin about a lot o junk. Did kind of a senior year in review, and talked about what a good year it's been and how we were able to balance a lot of stuff out really well and such. Anyway, good stuff. So then this guy comes over to us, and we ask if he owns either of the cars, cause we were very grateful to the tarp owners, and he said he did, but he was lying. But anyway, it turns out this guy had driven down from Pennsylvania to see the show, and got kicked out after like 4 songs, cause he couldn't find his ticket stub when someone asked him for it. So that totally sucked for him. But then he got to hang out with us, so I think that makes up for it. So anyway, we chilled w/ him for awhile, but then I had to pee like a bitch, cause I always do. So then we went to the port-a-potties which they had set up outside, let me tell you this place is very nice to it's parking lot guests. Anyway, then we found this stage outside, so we all got up on it and danced and sang and shit. So that was fun. Then we went back to the tarp. Oh! We also found this old lawn chair w/ one of the legs snapped off, but we were able to level it off with a thermos we found. There was also this security guard who kept wandering around the parking lot, but he would just look at us and smile and stuff. He was really cool. As is the King Street metro station manager. Let me tell you. But yeah. So then we chilled and listened to the concert, which was really cool and talked and stuff. So anyway, then the show ended w/ a Ben Harper & Dave Matthews cover of "All Along the Watchtower" which was damn cool. Then everyone came out and our newly found friend Eric left us for his friends, and we got to meet the owners of the tarp who I believe go to Tech and were damn crazy. And then we had the horrible adventure of trying to get home, but that's cold and rainy and crappy, so none of that. So yeah, that was yesterday. It was really cool. I made myself feel sick today though, so that's not good. But it was a good time. So today. I didn't do too much. My room's closer to clean though. I just miss someone a whole hell of a lot, and that worries me a lot b/c of college and all. Bad stuff, let me tell you. But we'll shall see.... Bye-bye!

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July 16, 2000 ~ I'm so tired. I was in such a good mood today. Except I missed people, but still. Yesterday was so awesome. The Roger Waters concert was incredible. It was just damn cool in all aspects. It was really nice out, the moon was crazy looking, the concert itself was incredible (played an insanely insanely cool good set), and the company was pretty good as well. Anyway, I'm very glad I went. It was really nice. Dude, I swear last night is some crazy happy blurry hallucination in my mind. So nice though. Ahh, so tired. Today I randomly ended up going to this random punk show in DC. It was pretty cool though. I got to see this dude's band which I've been wanting to see for quite some time. So that was really cool. And there was a band there from Cleveland, so I talked to him (after much persuasion) since I'll be out there shortly. Dude, college is approaching so goddamn quickly. I don't like it one bit. Well, that's not true, but yeah. People are leaving in like exactly a month, and that's just too damn soon. It sucks a whole hell of a lot. Dude, insanity. So things with me are just really nice right now. And for once not overly complicated. But of course there's this massive threat of complication right now, which I'm really trying to avoid, which I really shouldn't be doing. Wow, this weekend went by fast. Alright, random thought. But yeah. So I know I've gotta deal with this soon, but I just don't want to interrupt my wonderful happy little dreamlike life of right now. Haha. I need sleep. I start working for my dad tomorrow since my attempts at finding real employment failed rather miserably. But then again I didn't really put in too much effort. So I'll have really short flexible hours, but a rather boring job. But it's all good. The flexibility and free time are what are important to me right now. I saw X-Men tonight as well. I really enjoyed it. I don't really know much of the actual story and shit, so I can't really compare it to much, but I liked it. And I really like Patrick Stewart so that helped. I think I'm an underdeveloped undercover trekkie. Haha. It's so me good stuff. Dude, I'm not accomplishing very much this summer. I'm definitely enjoying myself though. Oh! And I got my roommate assignments and stuff. Which is kinda scary cause it makes things so much more real. But anyway, they put me in a triple, which I'm not too happy about, cause groups of 3 just tend to have lots of conflicts. But we'll see. I don't feel like messin' with any of this. I'm pretty excited about meeting my roommates and stuff though. It'll be craziness. I just don't want the summer to end. But alas....

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July 13, 2000 ~ My life has changed a whole lot since I last updated. Well, kinda. But yeah. First off, hey there Peter, you may very well have inspired me to revamp my page. I just need to remain motivated. Response from people is always nice. But moving on, so yeah. It's so crazy. Like things in my life have just somehow come together incredibly in like the last week. And I'm just insanely insanely happy. Things I've always wanted to have happen, but didn't think ever would have. Fears I had about this summer have been put to rest. This summer has actually turned out exactly the way that I had hoped it would. And that never happens. I used to think that the reason nothing ever happens the way I idealy imagine it to is cause I imagine it and that jinxes it or something, but somehow it did this time. I guess I took more of an active role this time. Actually did things to try to make it happen. Haha, good thing to know and remember. Now the only thing that's wrong is that we've gotta leave soon. I know a part of me is getting excited about it, but I think I'm also trying not to think about it, and putting myself in a not so good state of denial. I'm listening to some very nice Led Zeppelin right now. I'm feeling inspired to revamp this page once again. Get something new up, get it cleaned out/re-organized before the onset of college. I like the look of it now though, so I don't want to change it too much(i also can't think of much more to do visually). But yeah. I dont' know. I can't really describe what's going on now. It's just insane. But let's see... what else. The Roger Waters concert is on saturday, and I'm quite excited about that. It should be really cool. Ooh! I must write a friend of mine back mighty soon. I suck at that. Umm.... I don't know. I really hope I'm able to work some stuff out. Need to get myself better at confronting things and talking and such. And there's some stuff that I know I have to do soon, but I just really don't want to. Cause of the risk of messing some stuff up, and my general dislike of confrontation. And I just don't really know how to go about it, but we'll see what happens I suppose. I say that a whole hell of a lot. 'we'll see what happens' should be my motto. I don't think I really like it though. Just how I think I suppose. But so yeah. Ooh, good sentence. Alright, I'm tired, and out of stuff to say. Well, maybe. I also had a cool conversation with my brother tonight. Very nice stuff. And nice to be able to think about this stuff and then talk about it. So yeah. Alright, off I go. Bye-bye!

Ooh! I also bought some very interesting red/purple hair dye today that smells like jello. I'm not really sure what I'm gonna be doing with it though. I don't know how long it lasts, and I'm not sure how I feel about risking starting off college that way. Although I'm sure it won't matter where I'm going. But yeah. I'll start experimenting with it soon though I think. Clarke got some too(really red), but he won't do it till I do, so we shall see. It'll be funny. Bye!

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July 5, 2000 ~ Hello all. Hope you had a good fourth. Mine was cool. Good times.... We went to the Masonic Temple (which creeps me out) and watched the DC fireworks from there. Not the greatest view, but it was cool. Except for this one horribly bitchy woman. Grr.... But anyway, it was cool. So, hmm. I don't know. It's summer, and it's July and time's goin by mighty quickly and it's weird. And it definitely doesn't feel like summer yet. I haven't been doing too much I guess. Went to the beach and got really badly sunburned. I'm still peeling like two weeks later. But yeah. I need a job, cause I'm really broke, so I'm kinda working on that. I've been on a month long campaign to clean my room and that's still not doing too good. I'm feeling rather odd right now. And obviously I'm not putting a lot of attention towards this page. I know before I was thinking I wanted to redesign it before college and such, but I'm not sure about that anymore, just cause I'm not feeling very motivated. I'm feeling like I've just got a whole lot I need to be focusing on right now. Stuff with people here, preparing for college, etc., so I'm thinking I'm gonna put this page on hold for a while so I can do that, and figure out what I want to do with it. See if I get any inspiration as to what it's future should be. So I dunno. Yeah. So I'm takin a break I think. If I'm feeling inspired, it'll get updated or redone. If not, then it'll be a little longer. But we shall see. I saw the Dalai Lama on sunday. It was incredible. He's got a great sense of humor. An incredibly wise man. It's weird trying to figure out how to view him. It's kind of like you're seeing a king and Jesus at the same time, but not really I guess. Anyway, what he said made more sense to me than just about anything I've heard in my entire life. I'm hoping I can find his speech somewhere on the internet or something. But anyway, it was a really good experience. Very glad I went. Things are weird weird weird. So off I go for now. Hope to be back soon. Bye-bye!

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July 1, 2000 ~ Sorry it's been so long. I had already written a thing, when somehow this entire page got erased from the screen, so now I'm really bitter. I'll write more later, but who knows if I actually will. So, I've graduated now. But I'll talk about all that stuff later. Actually, I'm gonna make this a really short fake update, just to say that I'm still here and I'll still be updating, and hopefully more frequently. I've got sooo much to talk about. It's late now though, and I've gotta get up really frickin early tomorrow, cause the Dalai Lama is speaking in DC. Very exciting. I'll try to give a report on that as well as the rest of my life tomorrow. Haha. But yeah. Sorry this is so late in coming and short and fake. Bye!


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