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July 7, 2001 ~ So, it's been awhile. Noone's been visiting this site, and my guestbook's lonely, so it's time to update. I've been really busy, so it's been hard to do that, but I'll try to more. So anyway, I feel like I'm doing pretty well right now. Getting refocused. I've made a lot of realizations about stuff lately. Had some good conversations. Tho one was interrupted by some police, but that's alright. Grr. So things are good. I'm working at Children's Hospital in DC now, which is cool, but kind of insane. My first real job, which is exciting and makes me feel all accomplished, but 40 hours a week, which is a surprisingly damn large amount of time, and it's in an office that can get really crazy sometimes. But I like it. The people are nice, and it's not too bad. And it's very exciting to get pay checks. So anyway, I'm trying to get back to stuff now. I'm feeling good. Yeah. Kind of came to the realization that I was becoming too dependent on my boyfriend, to the point where when I couldn't see him it would just be badly upsetting and not fair to him and making me not take advantage of time with other people and with myself. So yeah, that was a good realization to have. Haha. There's a whole lotta balance issues. That's what it's all come down to. So yeah. I'm looking forward to going back to school now I think. Which is nice. I'm looking forward to seeing people again and having some new stuff going on. This summer hasn't been too exciting, although there's some good stuff coming up. Some trips and such. And weddings, lots of weddings. I went to my aunt's bridal shower this morning which was cool. And my youth group leader's getting married next weekend which should be cool. And Karen's coming up! Yay! Hehe. I saw Massey last night for the first time in a long time. That was cool, altho a little weird. She seems to be doing really well which makes me happy. And I like her new boyfriend a lot. Aw, Massey. YAY! There's still a lot of people I need to see. Haven't really hung out with Kelly yet. And then there's the neverending saga of one particular person. I wanna see him, but feel like, because of one encounter, he'd be weird about it and stupid and that'd just piss me off too much, so I'm using that as an excuse to avoid making the effort now. Which is bad, but ah well. I would definitely like to see him, but if it's still gonna be stupid after a year, I don't wanna deal with it. So I feel like it's up to him, although that means nothing will happen I'm pretty sure. So maybe I'll make a fake effort. Indirect things, letters and such. It's a possibility. We'll see. Or maybe the end of summer will push me to it. Who knows. I'm really excited about going to San Francisco. That'll be awesome. And we're planning a weekend at Clarke's Front Royal house again, which should be a lot of fun. So the summer's looking to get a bit more exciting. Work just sucks all the time and energy out of everything. Grr. But oh well. I wanna go to the zoo. And the hookah bar. Hmm... I need to make a list of places to go to. And I wanna start taking more random pictures of weird things in this area. Maybe I'll do some of that tomorrow. I'm making Thomas come with me so I don't get killed tho. Haha. He's good to have around. I'm not looking forward to doing the long distance thing again, and kinda freaked out about going to school in that respect, but I guess all you can do is see what happens. Hope everything will work out in the end. I don't know. It's a shitty situation. I'm enjoying this time though. Had our anniversary yesterday. That's some craziness. That's a damn long time, although since we had weird stuff going on for a long time before that year started, it really doesn't seem like that's all it's been. Weird weird. It's strange how ingrained in me he is even though he wasn't part of my daily life for such a long time. I don't know. Craziness. He's a very happy place in my life tho. Nice to have something like that. Anyway, time for me to go to bed I think. I updated! hooray! I'm making a picture-filled explosion on my wall right now. So I'm gonna get back to that. And Dustin... haven't heard from you... sign my damn guestbook! Hehe. Hope you're good again. As with everyone else. Byebye.

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