Tuesday, July 30, 2002 8:51pm ~ So today at work (PBS IT internship) I was horribly bored. Unlike yesterday which was really fun and exciting. But anyway, the good side to today being horribly boring is that I worked on this page a lot instead. So.... There's commenting now! So comment on my entries damnit. It'll make me very happy. I also added some psychotic amounts of pictures all from the same day. The Philadelphia roadtrip and Chris' birthday day.

Speaking of which, I'm missing that boy and hoping we'll hang out a lot before I leave, rather than stopping hanging out since I'm leaving soon. I'm gonna start pushing for the first alternative.... Grr.

This has all been making me realize how much a stickler for continued relationships I am. This is why I'm still friends with all my ex-boyfriends, friends with people from elementary school and high school and all. Etc, etc. And though it definitely makes things complicated at moments, I like it this way. You know more people, and really my theory is, that you were obviously with these people for a reason (mostly in the dating realm), there's some kind of connection there, something you got out of it that was really worthwhile, and just because a relationship doesn't work out from that, those connections shouldn't be lost. Though certainly it's necessary and better at times. Especially depending on what those connections are. But good conversation and somebody who knows you very well. Those things are all good rare things that I don't think should be given up lightly. I dunno.

So it really feels, quite suddenly, like the summer is coming to a close. Clarke and I are panicedly planning the Europe trip, Thomas has already quit his job and is coming home soon, Eileen and Tim are having issues w/ her going back to school, folks at working are starting to leave, Chris just told me of his over attachment for me leaving issues, and everything's just come down to the point where it's a few weeks till this or that or this person leaving or whatever. I don't like it. It's like summer before college started, the second it became August, that's all it was about. Anyway, this is sucking, cause I really do think this has probably been the best summer for me ever. Funnest anyway. The summer Thomas and I got back together was really wonderful, but also crappy cause Kurt stopped talking to me and all. Anyway, this will be a tough one to leave, and I really hope I can keep in touch with or keep hanging out with these kids in some way. Ana, Val, Tim and Helena are supposed to be getting a house together, so that'd help out in that effort I think. But Ian's moving to California, and Chris is planning on doing that eventually. Anyway, it's all wacky. Such an unstable period of life this is. Kinda good kinda not.

So yeah, Thomas comes back this weekend. I'm really looking forward to seeing him more, cause he's still a very happy thing to me despite the more depressing sides to things. And maybe it'll be a little complicated, and I am worried I'll get myself good and attached to him just in time for him to leave, but when it comes right down to it, this is a person I love immensely, relationship or no relationship, and I want the time I can get, and with my being in London for the next 3 months, this time should be really good.

Speaking of which, there's a lot of stuff I need to take care of as far as London/Europe goes. Too much, and I need to really get going on that. Ah, how my social life impedes me. I don't think I used that word right. Anyway. And it looks as though I will soon be hosted on Eileen's domain, so there'll be some moving going on. And hopefully I'll do lots of updating from Europe, cause I feel like that'd be really interesting.

Oh, and I've been emailing this guy who signed my guestbook awhile ago (hello if you're reading this), and that's been really cool. Though I owe him a response. Quite a cool and interesting guy. So that's been fun too.

I really don't want this summer to end.

Hopefully London will be just as fun and wacky.

This really is the year of shaking things up. Definitely interesting though. Alright, I'm off. Byebye. Use the comment thingy, I gotta figure out how to work this thing.

Thursday, July 25, 2002 4:41pm ~ I just lost an entire update. It's all cause of damn popup ads too. Damn popup ads. Oh well. I've got an hour of work left and I'm horribly bored, so there ya go. Not that I don't have lots I should be working on. So there'll be less here than there was, but that's okay. First,

A Picture

From Chris' birthday party, same day as the roadtrip to Philadelphia. I really like this picture. It looks so dramatic.

Monday, July 22, 2002 12:32 am (technically tuesday) ~ It's been way too long this time, but now it's not my fault. Angelfire decided to take away like 10 megs of space w/o informing me, so I was over the limit. Hence the video being down until I find another server or something. We'll see. So sad though, video's fun.

So plenty's happened as you can imagine, I don't know where to start. Ok, yes I do. Well today was my first job at my internship w/ PBS, which I got last week. They called me back for a different one than I applied for, but ah well. It's all IT stuff too, weird weird. So my htmling has now gone professional. It's rather intimidating though, even though all the people are cool, just cause it's all performance based. Like I'm producing something for a national organization. Making a website that will go public in 3 weeks. Crazy shit. I feel underqualified and intimidated. But it'll all work out. I think day to day it's all quite handleable.

So that's been exciting, and has put a legitimate spin on my summer of fakeness. Which is kind of good and kind of not. More money, better experience. Less going out, have to go to bed on time (like I'm not doing right now). Less Ben and Jerry's, though I'm still doing that weekends and nights if I can stand it.

Clarke and I also finally sat down and did some logistical Europe planning, and now that I know about how much it's gonna cost I'm gettin a little freaked out. It's doable, just a lot. Yet still hyper budgeted. Ah well. It'll be awesome and hopefully we won't go insane and kill each other.

Thomas was in town this last weekend which was interesting. Strange as we hadn't been talking so much beforehand, but fun to be with him. Things have definitely changed, which I think is good, but I definitely care about that guy, and he's wonderfully affectionate. It was also cool to be in his house again and have his sister around and have everything feeling normal again. Strange that all that's normal to me.

So anyway, I'm hoping the balance between the internship and my Ben and Jerry's fun will work out. Cause that place is fun and I like all those folk.

I'm having a really nice summer so far, that's why I'm worried I guess. Thomas is coming back for the rest of the summer in a week or two, and that'll definitely change things too. Though it'll be nice. Such a strange summer of some very cool people and new experiences and exciting things. It's crazy. And a crazy messed up cute boy I like.

I went out w/ Kurt tonight and had a good time. We're gettin to get along pretty good now. I like that. Saw The Crocodile Hunter. Heh heh heh.

We need to plan out our annual trip to Front Royal. It has to happen. This summer's so crazy! Everybody's got somethign wacky going on, there's so many new people everywhere. Clarke's got this whole other group, everybody's meeting people. Suddenly we all got much older and the world got much bigger. This crazy Alexandria World.

Off for now. Maybe this internet savvy job will provide me more opportunities for updating. Oh, and there was a trip to Cleveland in there too. And if Eileen does her job, there should be a lot of pictures up soon. Ben and Jerry's folk, Philadelphia roadtrip and Cleveland Roadtrip.