May 13, 2001 ~ Blech. I've been mean to my stomach tonight. But oh well. So yeah. 6 more days here, then I go home. It's crazy! Seems like a really long time and very strangely short at the same time. I dunno. I keep not thinking I have work to do though, which is bad, and it's starting to get to the point where I'll really be screwed if I don't start working all the time for the next few days. Blech. So yeah. I should be writing my philosophy paper right now, but no, I'm writing this. Oh well. I wanna go home. That'll be nice. I miss people. It'll be crazy to be home for that long. It seems all strange now. That's crazy. That it'd be weird to be home for 3 months. What the fuck. Hmm, I don't know if I've talked about my crazy crocheting obsession on here at all. Well, my roommate taught me to crochet in February maybe? So yeah, I kinda went crazy with it. I'm making an afghan now. It's an excuse to never not be crocheting, cause it's big as fuck. Big as fuck. I'm looking forward to the 8 hour car ride home cause it'll be a good opportunity to work on it. Haha. Funny funny. I'm an old woman. An old woman who doesn't wanna write a philosophy paper. Hmm.... Well there's a few drag ball pictures up now. I've been reluctant about putting them up just cause I wanna be able to present them to my friends, but ah well. It's too much to keep back for another week. Haha. Oooh, and I have more film to pick up tomorrow. How exciting. This job getting is weird. I've gotta call up some people tomorrow about interviewing and stuff. And write this paper and another one. And read a whole fuck of a lot and do a bunch of work I should have done a long time ago. But ah well. I wanna pack. Packing is exciting. What's good about now, in terms of my not wanting to do work, is that before I would be having a tough time during finals cause everyone from home would already be there and I'd wanna be there and all, but now it's more cause I wanna be spending time with people here. A good change. Not that I'm not dying to be home and upset that people are home without me. But it's not as crazy now. So yeah. Well, my roommate just discovered that I wasn't in fact typing my paper, so I think I'll go try to do that now. Maybe.... I'm beating her in the paper writing though. Heh heh heh. Home soon! YAY!!! Byebye.
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May 8, 2001 ~ This is crazy. It's almost the end of the year, people are home, craziness. A week and a half left. I'm feeling good here. I'm feeling like I've got good friends and there's people here who I can actually see myself getting close to and it's not all craziness and it's just a matter of me doing more. So that's good. But strange because this whole year summer has been such a big deal, in so many ways. It was always about making it till summer, and now that's not such a big thing, and now that's here. And I've got some thinking to do about the balance of what I want now and in the future and I'm young and all and I can't be forgetting about all the stuff I want to do and living my life on my own, etc. Craziness. It's time for some serious Java Zone writing/talking. Indeed. Bedtime. I haven't come up with a paper topic. I suck. Man.
