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a saint in training: my life on Earth
Thursday, December 9, 2004
I must remember that winter gives way to spring
Mood:
cool
Now Playing: Winter in my Soul [not a song, but it is my inner state]
Topic: wondering where I stand
things have been hard for me lately, and I felt at times that I had more than I could handle, but God thought otherwise... I'm struggling to type to articulate my feelings (almost as usual) but I am enjoying the process this time (though I can't get it all down on paper or typed out here in the blog) It's not even winter yet- at least, not officially (though it does feel that way in many other places) but the winter solstice will be taking place on the 21st of this month -if I'm not mistaken that is. So, it is still autumn, and it is so HOT here in Florida, but I've been so cold lately- I don't think that this makes complete sense, but I have been scared as of late so that must be a part of the reason why I've been so chilly... it's been something like winter in my soul, a time where hearing from God is hard for me to do and to experience- not because I have told Him to go away or anything, but because I've allowed myself to drift from Him and to be preoccupied with such petty things, and serious worries- I hate it, I hate it, I hate it I want to remember... and I want to improve I want to improve so badly and I want things to be good but I can't let those things make me worry I can't let myself, and my good intentions be turned away to evil purposes (and I do mean "evil", I wasn't overstating my case). I want the Spring and I want my hope to flourish I need to remember that I need help always from God and from good companions I need to remember my limits and that it is painful for me to try to do too much I would like even more help and I am learning to be more specific in what I ask for so that I can recieve it well I want to have my brother by my side for him to be able to continue college and to do well this semester- -sigh- I'll just say that for now. -Daiko~ (pray for me...) (do you care to commission or support Daiko?)
Monday, December 6, 2004
"today, today, today..."*
Mood:
crushed out
Now Playing: Begging You to be my Escape [RelientK]
Topic: wondering where I stand
Today looks nice somewhat I was able to recieve a lovely gift from my good friend Cassandra (and that brought some cheer to my downtrodden heart, so I am quite grateful...) also, I gave my friends the gift of chocolate so that was nice as well... (unfinished stuff here. Read More...) **** Why is it that Advent and Lent are so similar to me? It seems that at these times of the year that I go through quite a bit of suffering- I am wondering... if this is the way that things should be- actually, I'm not sure of it at all All I know is that I will do what I can with the very little that I have, and that God will help me (He is so trustworthy) Read More...**** more stuff from today: I've been attending classes on Sumi-e painting as of late, and I always pass a small office bulding that is dedicated to the commercial art business (or so it appears) unfortunately for me, I don't seem to be able to stop-by the place and get all the contact info- so all I see as I'm on my way to where my classes are held is the sign on the building and I can't even catch their domain name properly! -it's been quite irritating, and all I can say is that it is something like "megadistic.com" ;_; in my atempt to find their website today, I ran across this: Megadigit.com and Megadigital.comthe latter is little more than a place for the company contact info rather than a real interactive informational website, but the former looks most excellent (I can't understand Spanish though, so I would have to avail myself of an online translator if I wanted to read what the artist had to say) -sigh- ah, I almost forgot to mention that when I went to Megadigit.com I found this link in a pop-up ad ... ;_; I so wish that this was a true good job opportunity for me, heaven knows that I really could use something like this *cries* (-.-;; I'll see about fixing this entry up more later- for now, I'm going to see about doing some job applications or whatnot.) -Daiko~ (pray for me?) (care to support this poor student? take a look: commission, support)
Friday, November 26, 2004
Okay, I'm ready now
Mood:
hug me
Now Playing: Begging you to be my Escape [Relient K]
Topic: wondering where I stand
to post that is. I wasn't writing lately because I found myself unable to say much since I've been going through quite a bit mentally and emotionally, but I found some precious solace in talking to two trusted, and wonderful friends (Ashley and Cassandra) -sigh- I know, I didn't say much of anything with regards to Thanksgiving, and I'm not sure if I have much to say for that holiday really- I did have a good time, and eat good food and get out for a bit, but it was rather quiet this year- hence, my reticience to put words down on this subject. hmm... with regards to blogging, I'm not exactly sure of where I want to go (and that applies to the other areas of my life as well) I know that I created this blog with the intention of talking about God (and to Him) along with covering how I am in my spiritual life, but I find it hard at times to write on that- also, I know that there are others things in my life too that don't neatly fit into the initial plan I had for this blog. I am wondering if I should have more than one blog that I update regularily... I could call it "Artist in Training" and use it to put up my ramblings on art and links and such, but I'm not sure if I want to do that- add more tasks to my life since I've got enough as it is (and this blog would get so much sparser too -I don't think that that would be so good). I would like suggestions please. (and oh, the end of this college semester is coming up for me and my younger brother- I am doing okay, but I know that he and I could both really use A LOT of serious prayer so that we can finish this term well and get on to a good next sem... so, HELP!!) today's browsings and stuff Read More...-Daiko~ (did what she could today but she still is a bit tired and empty pray for her and her family.)
Friday, November 19, 2004
;_; and T-T indeed!
Mood:
crushed out
Now Playing: "Who are you to tell me/that I'm less than what I should be..."
Topic: bits and pieces
well folks, I had quite a lot planned for today's initial blog entry but it became lost due to an inadvertant mistake on my little brother's part (;_; I had worked on it for quite awhile though) also, my internet connection was partially to blame since my wireless was unavailable at least twice (now it's doing that again for the third time- how irksome...) and so, that's what we have here now. **** ... ah, here is a bit of rambling that had to do with something my little brother was watching on the tv in the room- don't mind it, it's not even put together well. Read More...-Daiko~ (pray for me) nothing more here really. Read More...
Thursday, November 18, 2004
...(so much on my mind, but so little said. -sigh-)
Now Playing: Begging You to be my Escape (RelientK)
I am now in the middle of an unexpected hiatus I'll be returning to making blog entries when I find myself able to post again, I want to let you guys know now that I am over being sick- thanks for your prayers. :heart: unfinished stuff here, mostly URLs there's good stuff here but you'd have to paste it into your browser, and I haven't finished organizing all the stuff here yet... Read More...
Thursday, November 11, 2004
ugh hughblah!
Mood:
hug me
Now Playing: the "Daiko is poor and wants to work" song*
Topic: bits and pieces
ugh, I am not feeling as good as usual, and I'm not talking about emotional state I'm talking about physical state gyu~ ...I'm sick. -I know that this isn't anything serious (I think it's something like a passing cold or a 48hr bug) but I am not sick that often and I feel... uh, "crappy"? -ack! I can't even find a proper word to describe this... ah well. Anyways, it's just me letting you know what's going on with me and I'll do what I can in this limited state. Pray for me, won't you? (and do you think if I were to have something like the following, that it would be okay? ... here it is: Read More...I thank you in advance. well, what do you think?) **** my link chain if you wish to wade through it: Read More...*sing along with my song, won't you? -Daiko~ (pray for me- please! x_X' )
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Saturday, November 6, 2004
Daiko loves Hunter x Hunter!
Mood:
crushed out
Now Playing: Hunter x Hunter: Pale Ale
(arrgh! -give me more HxH music!! ;-; especially the second opening theme to the TV series !) ;_; I am now out of Hunter x Hunter, and I don't like it! (Yes, I'm crazy I finished the whole 60+ episode TV series as well as the 8 episode OVA series) I want more!! Hunter x Hunter searchmore Hunter x Hunter searching!cute .gifs! from the Hunter Headquarters HxH description from The Otaku.com about the TV series episode guide
**** some things from DA: Read More...
http://forum.deviantart.com/devart/status/318317/ http://faq.deviantart.com/326/ http://services.deviantart.com/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/10775899/ http://trueartistsalliance.deviantart.com/
oh dear, there's not much here either. Read More...
**** please note that this entry was originally created around 6 November 2004 20:15 EST it's just that I felt that the entry below this is far more important (I'm still not finished with this by the way).
-Daiko~ (pray for me.)
Friday, November 5, 2004
quick action!
Mood:
accident prone
Now Playing: arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! song of irritation against stupid things~
Topic: adventures!
Well, my mom decided almost at the last minute to become involved with a Heart Walk ( Tampa Bay HW 2004) and my family is going to walk tomorrow to raise money for research and patient care for those with heart problems. If you wish to help donate to this worthy cause, you will find a way to do so: Heart walk donation pagefor my family (specifically, my mother) -sigh- Why didn't I tell you guys this before? Well, as I mentioned above, my mom only decided to do this quite recently so I wasn't prepared to share the news with everyone (argh! -that's not good since the point of this whole thing is to walk and have sponsors who are willing to support us with monies for the sake of the patients- why on Earth didn't mom think of this?! ...*grumbles then stops*) Anyways, pray for us and support us if you can sorry for the hastiness of this message, but that couldn't be helped due to numerous reasons (one of which I've elaborated on quite enough by now). -sigh- Thanks in advance!...good night. -Daiko~ (ah! and please do pray for my little brother, he really, really needs help I fear that he truly lacks self-control for he is too prone to putting things off so that he can enjoy passing pleasures in the present instead of laboring for awhile so that he can have free time later -sigh- please help him!)
Festive Fall
Mood:
accident prone
Now Playing: sounds of life around me
Topic: bits and pieces
Today, my little town* has started it's Flapjack Festival for the season and... I'm missing it ;_; still, though I don't want to miss out I feel somehow that this is fine and that somehow I'll get there before the end of the festival (runs from Nov. 5-7 this year) at least, I hope so. **** four pieces from DA: fireflies in a jar"How to" tutorial by Ashwingsa word of warning for this, it has a HUGE image- but it is a good tutorial if you want to learn how to CG images, so be patient! Better than TV by CelesseRingwraith by Yonazto think, this guy did this entire piece with an optical mouse only since his tablet wasn't working ...o.0' personally, I am also an optical mouse user and I could do something like this with the same tool, but I am beginning to feel the limitations of the mouse and am now starting to wish I had a tablet- actually, a Tablet PC would be much more preferrable in my eyes. ------- *about my "town" it's actually a municipality of Tampa Read More...if you just want to know about the Flapjack Festival itself then the official site should help. -Daiko~ (the following was something of a joke, this really isn't important- the entry above this is important though.) Read More...
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