let me write seriously and fully even after emotional highs have passed...
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: singing downstairs~
Last night, I finally got the book Deliverance from Evil Spirits a Practical Manual by Francis MacNutt
-it was well worth my two month wait and honestly, I DO recommend it strongly to all serious Christians.

The book covers quite a few subjects
from the existence of evil in demonic form
to levels of infestation
and levels of demons according to hierarchy

it also confronts the pervasive Western beliefs of Peleganism and Secularism

and after reading it...
though I don't identify myself as secular (nor conciously wish to do so) I find that I do fall into Western schools of thought -especially Pelegansim.

Now that I think about it, that is extremely foolish of me- especially since I have had the honor of encountering an angel... foolish that one who has actually seen an angel would come to believe or rather live as if she could save herself merely by being good... -sigh- it's a very common human belief though.

...I also see that there is quite a bit to myself that I was blind about earlier- and I will put a stop to all my curiosity about dark ungodly things- because that isn't anything that I want to be involved with -sigh-

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and so, I find that it is time to renew and purify myself again (and maybe after I do so, I will be able to feel more of the Joy of Advent...)

Lord, I want to come home to You- won't you help me more and more?

(let's go home together for Advent...??)

...

-Daiko~
(pray for me)
(please be well~)

it's been something like a small eternity, yet not "forever" the time I've been away
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: oldies radio station

I haven't said much here lately- I... *long pause* haven't run out of words (or thoughts for that matter)- it's just that I've been offline for so long that I am now somewhat unnaccustomed to it all (though this stuff is not unfamiliar to me, it's rather comforting really...) Specifically, I don't feel myself to be able to report accurately all the things that have taken place since my last entry- ah, despite this it seems that things really haven't changed too much with me!

(I still have the whole crazy "I don't know what to write/if I'm writing well and getting across the message that I want to say" thing going on ^^; ...)

... that's it for now (sorry for the patheticness on my part! ugh...)

-Daiko~
(wants to get over being sick/tired)
(pray for me)
(you all, please be well~)

test entry

sorry for this, but I felt that it was necessary
I don't know if I'm the only blogger on Angelfire that's having this problem or not
but I can't seem to see my most recent entries after I've posted them

...if this problem keeps up, I'll archive all my old posts from here and MOVE to a new and better location...

I've wanted to do so (but I won't use LJ for that though) and I've been wanting to get my own little domain on the internet so I'll probably doing that some time in the future

now if I could just get hired somewhere so I could have a good job to support myself with *growls at Wal-Mart a bit*

-sigh- Pray that I'll be hired soon there... (or where ever else it that God wants me to be, like the Sam's Club nearby...)

-Daiko~
(pray for me
God is GOOD!!)

A song for myself (yeah, I'm not dead- just quiet)
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: see below +Heaven
(this entry is mirrored on my LJ- save for the link log)

Superchic[k]'s We Live
(lyrics taken from Let's sing it.com)

There's a cross
on the side of the road

Where a mother lost a son
how could she know
that the morning he left

Would be the last time
she'd trade with him for a little more time

[That] she could say she loved him one more time
-and hold him tight

But with life we never know
when we're coming up to the end of the road

So what do we do then -with tragedy around the bend?

Chorus:
We live, we love, we for-give and never give up~

Because the days we are given are gifts from above

So, today we remember to live and to love~ (2x)


Verse Two:
There is a man
who waits for the tests

To see if the cancer has spread yet

And now he asks, "So why did I
wait to live till it was time to die?"

If I could have the time back how I'd live~
(Life is such a gift~)

So how does the story end?

Well this is your story and it all depends

So don't let it become true, get out and do what we are meant to do!~

Return to Chorus

Bridge:
Waking up to another dark morning

People are mourning

The weather in life outside is storming

But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway

So get our heads up out of the darkness
and spark this new mindset
and start to live life cuz it ain't gone yet

And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
and wake up!
And live the life we're supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living...

Return to Chorus one last time and fade out...

****
I'll remain hopeful and alive no matter what
God will help me to perservere...

a few stops of today
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-Daiko~
(pray for me)

not having reliable internet access is NOT fun
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: -sighs-
and not having the freedom to innocently go out and do things away from home isn't fun either- like just going to the library (from where I stand, freedom to come and go is an enviable thing and I'm an adult! -sighs-)

anyway, online stuff to visit later:
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pray for me, hopefully I'll be free in the future
and that I'll keep up with all my journaling

later...

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

what's going on? can someone explain this to me?
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: lots and lots of heavy rain & hail outside

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a strange occurrence
(explanation of events at deviantART)

approximately 3 days ago [3d 23h 31s ago to be exact], I had logged in to devART to find the community in a big uproar over something- it had to do with [Jark] so I went to his page to acertain what was going on- he'd been fired. ...one of the founders of deviantART FIRED. I couldn't believe it- I was shocked, and I still am.

I had been gone for 5 days and this happened while I was away- it's not as if the world has been flipped upside down, but this is a horrible thing to see happen to this place -sigh- I don't like this... I'm reminded of Disney- of Eisner, I hope I'm wrong in my thoughts though...

this is the art community I belong to, while I don't believe that it's perfect, I never thought that I would witness something like this-ever.

...and now, I don't understand what's going on over at [deviantART] really... I just read [Jark's explanatory journal entry] but I still don't understand exactly why Jark was involuntarily terminated (I guess that he and Spyed got into an intense disagreement, but still I don't think that that would merit Jark being fired from his original position -sigh-)

this is not good.
I wonder what's going to happen next (and I'm kinda hoping that Jark could get his job back- he did it quite well for years, I don't want it to be taken away like this)

-Daiko~

the going is good...
Mood:  special
Now Playing: random oldies...

*smiles* today, I am going to take the Nursing Entrance Test, and have done a little research prior to purchasing it and completing it (which you can see here as text urls: Read More... now, I will take the test with no fear (for it looks quite easy, really)

see you later!

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

T-T;; -sigh- ah! Last time I posted here, I thought that the entry I had spent so much time typing for LJ had gone through- and I see clearly that it hasn't -sigh- I love how LJ gives me grief when I want to post my entries...

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oh well, I'll survive...
(I just hope that the pot roast I was cooking didn't get overdone and burn the house down o.o!! ...help?)

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

time is of the essence! (and yet, I don't harness it correctly)
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: broken snatches of a song (can't remember title)

I am so cuucoo~ I have been online for like 4 hours now- I need to go get something to eat and finish my business here [at the college] (for further details, see my [rambling LJ])

places I've been (or want to remember):
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see you all later~

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

I want more free time

I couldn't seem to post to my LJ, so here I am with a half-finished entry again -sigh-

various stuffs
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darn it.