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“Fatima! You gotta help me! Where is a good place to spy on everyone and not be seen?” I begged.
“Um...around the corner. What are you doing?”She questioned puzzled.
“Don’t worry. Just act like I’m not here. Okay?” I pleaded as I ran around the corner. Slowly I slid down to the ground, just maybe this would work.
I listened as all the guys and dancers came in. They started working on new choreography for the songs on “Black and Blue”.
“Nick!” Brian called for about the third time. “Fatima is talking to you. Please pay attention and we’ll all get out of here sooner.”
“Whatever, B.” Nick mumbled in return.
For close to an hour or so, I listened to their feet on the floor, Fatima’s orders and so many comment about me and Nick. It was torture to just sit and listen to hid pain. I wanted to be able to fix it. And maybe that was just possible.
“Okay guys. Water break.” Fatima called.
“Alright!” AJ yelled as he sped off.
“Hey guys. “I smile walking onto the dance floor.
“Ann! I thought you went shopping!” Nick exclaimed. “At least that’s what AJ said.
“Oh,well, I’ve been watching you guys.” I smiled. This wasn’t going as good as I had hoped. I watched as everyone left as me and Nick stood starring at each other. Without warning, a look I had never seen spread across Nick’s face.
“What are you doing here? What do you want?” he threw at me coldly.
“Nick...I” I stammered, unsure of what to do. Should I keep on going with my heart, or just leave so I didn’t have to bare his icy stare.
“You what? I’m doing what you asked. Just friends. That is how you want it! So I’m giving it to you!”
“Nick, I’m so sorry!” I screamed. “I’m so so...never mind. I can tell you wouldn’t listen to anything I say, so I just won’t waste my breath.”
“Good! I didn’t wanna hear your whining anyway! It gets so annoying. I believe I’ve been so worked up about losing you! You’re so young and immature, I need someone better then you!” he said hotly. I could hear that he regretted every single word.
“That’s great Nick!!” I cried. I said I wouldn’t cry again, but I couldn’t help it. Tears slowly trickled down my cheek. I didn’t bother to wipe them away. “Thanks for saying the truth.”
“Oh, Anne! You know that’s right. You’re a smart girl. Your place is not with me.” Nick continued mad.
“Okay. I just won’t waste the time in asking you to be my boyfriend again. I had changed my mind, but now it seems that you’re changed yours, too. Thanks Nick, it’s been great, but I think I’ll head back to AJ’s” I flung at him and ran off crying. I had no idea where I was going. I didn’t care. It was away from his treatment that only tortured me. It did show how much I did love him. But he wouldn’t have me, it was my fault for waiting so long. He could do so much better then me. What was so special about me?
“Nick what just happened? Brian questioned as they all came back in the room. “We just saw Anne run down the hallway crying! What did you say to her?”
“I ruined it! Now I’ll never get her! Never!” he screamed trying to hold back his tears.
“You know she was going to take you back.” Amanda informed.
“Yes, I do. She told me after I yelled at her. Of all the times for me to lose my cool! When I would have had her back in my arms.”
“Gosh! Things like this never seem to get solved easily. But whoever said that love hurts, knew what he was talking about. “Howie complained.
“Nick! How could you yell at Anne! That was just about the worst thing you could have done!” Brian exclaimed.
“Don’t you think I know that?” Nick replied. “Just get off my back. I can work this out!”
“Yeah! And you’re getting really far, ya know Anne is just gonna come running up to you.....”
“Shut up, AJ! Just shut up!”Nick cried as he took off running.
“Nick wait...never mind!” Fatima mumbled as she watched him run off. “Please tell me this doesn’t have to do with Anne?”
“Get used to it. Everything does.” Kevin sighed.
“Man! They really and I mean really need to get back together. I can’t even have a normal practice. Do you think he’ll be back?” Fatima questioned aggravated.
“Who knows, more then likely hell be back a few minutes. Just give him a little while.” Brian told her.
I ran blindly though the halls. Finally I just stopped and rested against the wall. Without success I tried to stop my tears. “How could he say such mean things? What is he meant them?” I said out loud.
“He didn’t.” Another voice said a few feet away from me. “He wishes he could take back every single word he said.”
I listened as the voice got closer. I then realized that it was Nick. I wouldn’t and couldn’t answer anything.
“He wishes that you would talk so he could apologize.” he mumbled slipped his arms around my waist. I felt his lips press against the side of my neck and my hand caressed his cheek. Slowly his kisses trailed up to my cheek. He pulled away for a second hesitated, but soon threw caution to the wind. His grip tightened as our lips met. I couldn’t move as he deepened the kiss.
“No!” I cried breaking away and trying to run. But Nick had a firm grip around me. “Let go!”
“No! I told you I wouldn’t let you go! So I’m not going to.” he firmly stated.
I glanced up and noticed two things, The icy cold eyes were gone and his whole face was tear stained.
“Nick, why do we always wind up kissing when we’re alone?” I questioned pushing away a stray hair from his face. I felt his head lean towards my hand,
“Because we love each other and just can’t help it. We’re meant for each other!” Nick whispered.
“I know. I just can’t now. Please let me go.” I mumbled. He gently released me and we left to go our own way.
“Oh my gosh! Are you Anne?” A small blond yelled at me when I got outside.
“Yes, I am?” I smiled. I couldn’t let the fans know that anything was wrong.
“How could you treat Nick so bad? He’s too good for you! He would be better off with anyone else, but you!” She screamed.
I just looked at her, not knowing what to say. There really was nothing to say. I knew this had to be one of the worst days I’ve had. I’ve been yelled at twice in one day, how much worse can it get? I sighed and looked over at the fan. “Sorry to not stay and talk, but I have to go. If you’ll excuse me.” I smiled. Quickly I pulled out my car keys and soon was on my way to AJ’s.
Through the next week, nothing new happened. Some how me and Nick were going okay as ‘just friends’. Although I could see it in his eyes that he was miserable, but so was I. My feelings never once faltered about him. I knew for sure that I loved him, I just had to over come, my fear. I finally realized how much your actions do decide your future. My past had scared me terribly and may be keeping me from one of the most important people in my life.