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Dear journal,
It’s been a while hasn’t it?? Is the last time I wrote really when I was about to leave for Europe?? Well, I don’t know that you’re really the right person to tell all of this to then, but ever since I dumped AJ, after that first couple of days, my life has been so much better. At first I didn’t know how I was going to go on, but Kemp helped me. He told me how to live, how to breathe on my own. I feel like I’d been under chains for so long that I couldn’t do anything anymore. But I can now. Now I’m free from the burdens of having a boyfriend. Free from restraint and any constrictions. Kemp asked me yesterday if I was planning on getting another boyfriend any time soon and I told him I wouldn’t dream of it. I told him it would be at least a year before I was ready to get back into any kind of relationship like that simply because I just was there for five years and I want to be able to see the world. See the world and all the cute guys in it.
Howie called me the other day. “I just wanted to tell you that I think you did the right thing.” He told me.
“I’m glad you think so. I’m much happier,” I replied smiling. “Is he hurt too bad?”
“No.” Howie sighed. “He’s hurt, but he’ll be alright. I think he knew the same thing you did he just didn’t want to admit it.”
“I’m glad. Any new prospects for him yet?’
“I don’t think I can answer that one.”
“Okay!” I laughed. “Please, if I ever come up make it known that I didn’t dump him because I didn’t like him anymore. I know I told him that, just reinstall it. And if he ever wants to call me then he can.”
“Alright I’ll tell him.”
So sad, yet so happy.