Chapter 7

By: Victoria S.

When we walked into the venue I was in awe as to how big it was. I pictured the whole place full of screaming girls all screaming Nick's name. The only concert that I had ever been to was *NSYNC's, and I hadn't enjoyed myself, but I knew that I would enjoy myself that night, because Nick would be on stage performing. This time would be different. Nick led me backstage and showed me around. He showed me all the lights, the pyros, and all of the equipment that was going to be set up that night. He showed me all the things that needed to be done, and then took me to a small room that was towards the back. He opened it, and inside sat: Kevin, Howie, Brian, AJ, and Leighanne.

"Hey!" Nick said.

"Hey bro.. What took you so long?" AJ asked.

"I just thought that I would show Rebecca around.. Let her get a feel of what we are going to be doing tonight."

"Hey Rebecca," Leighanne said getting out of her seat. She walked over to me and gave me a big hug. In my ear she whispered "How are you feeling?"

"Oh, much better, thanks," I said in a soft voice. "I'll tell you all about it a little later. From what I hear we are going to be sitting together."

"Yep, you heard right." She then turned to AJ and asked "Is your girlfriend gonna be sitting with us tonight?"

When she said the word 'girlfriend," I just about had a heart attack. AJ had a girlfriend? And he had the nerve to kiss me? And lead me on the way he did! I was sooo pissed. I tried to hold back all of my anger, but it wasn't working very well. AJ noticed that I was upset, because he said "Can we talk for a minute?"

Nick looked at me with a worried expression on his face. I could tell that he was confused. I nodded my head, and AJ and I walked out of the room.

"So," I began to say. "You have a girlfriend?" I asked very annoyed.

"Yes, I do," he said looking at the floor. "I know you are probably thinking that I am such a jerk, and that I should burn in hell, but.."

"No, AJ, that's not what I was thinking. I just don't understand how you kissed me, and even took me out on a date when you KNEW you were with someone else. That totally baffles me, and it really pisses me off too."

"And you have every right to be pissed. I'm so sorry. It's just that my girlfriend and I have been having problems. We had decided to put our relationship on hold, and maybe even think of ending it. Our schedules are so different, and we hardly have any time for each other, and its very hard.. So, yesterday when I kissed you, I wasn't really betraying her or anything, since we had decided to wait awhile before we considered getting back together again."

"That still is no excuse.."

"Yeah, well.. I really liked you, and since you were here with me, and she wasn't, I decided to give it a try."

"That pisses me off even more, AJ! That makes me feel like you were using me, just for the time being. And that when you and her were ready for the relationship you would just drop me, and not even give a shit."

"No! Please don't think that.. Cause that's not the case. You really meant something to me, and that is why I kissed you. And if I am not mistaken, you kissed me back.."

"Yeah, I did. I know I did. But I didn't know that you had a girlfriend!"

"Well, how do you think I feel when I see you and Nick together kissing? Or holding hands.. How do you think it makes me feel inside! I really liked you, a lot, and just cause I have a girlfriend doesn't mean that I am going to stop liking you. It's really hard seeing you and Nick together.. But I have to get over it."

"Oh, AJ, I didn't realize. I guess I never stopped to think of how you would feel."

"It's alright, Rebecca.. I just don't want us to be mad at each other anymore. I value our friendship."

"So do I," I said.

AJ grabbed me by my waist, and pulled me close to him, giving me a big bear hug in the process.

"Hey you two.." Nick said walking out of the room.

AJ let go of me, and I walked over to Nick, and put my arm around his waist. He kissed the top of my head.

"Everything alright?" Nick asked.

"Oh yeah, just dandy.." AJ said smiling at me.

"You ready to go?" Nick asked me.

"We're leaving?"

"Yep! I just called our manager and asked him what we had to do, and he said that I didn't need to do anything. He said just as long as I was back by 5:00 I could go anywhere."

"Cool!" I exclaimed. "Where do you wanna go?"

"I don't know, but let's not waste time. Tell Kev that we are taking his car." Nick grabbed my hand, and we began to walk. I turned around, and waved to AJ, and then I focused my attention on Nick. I watched as he walked next to me. The way his body swayed, and the way he held my hand made me feel like nothing could ever happen to me. He made me feel so safe. I needed that comfort, that safety, that security, and I knew that Nick gave me all of those things.

"So, where should we go?" he asked as we got into the car.

I got into the passenger's seat, and buckled my seat belt. "I don't know.. Do you want to just go somewhere and talk?"

"Sounds good," he said. "I know just the place."

Then we began to drive. We talked, but about nothing in particular. And then a few minutes later, we arrived at our destination.

"What are we doing here?" I asked confused. "Do you need to get something?"

He parked the car, and got out. I got out after him. "Nope, I don't need anything.. I just thought that coming to the hotel would be the perfect place to talk, because there would be no interruptions. See, if we went to like a coffee place, there is always a chance of a fan wanting an autograph, or a picture, or whatever. If we stay here at the hotel then that won't happen. This way we can talk, just you and me.." He then smiled.

I knew I wasn't about to object to that! Alone, in a room with Nick Carter. What girl would actually say 'no?' A crazy one if you ask me.. I knew that he wasn't going to try anything fresh with me, so I didn't have anything to worry about. And I knew that if he did, I wouldn't never in a million years let him! My whole life I have always taken things slow with my boyfriends. I figure why rush into anything, when you don't need to?

"Come on, you slow poke!" Nick said trying to get my attention.

"Sorry, I was just thinking.."

"Yeah, that was obvious. What about?" he asked me wanting to know more.

"Just about stuff.." I brushed off his question. I didn't want to tell him what I was really thinking about. How embarrassing! We walked into the hotel, and took the elevators up to our floor.

"Do you wanna chill in your room or mine?" he asked me casually.

"I don't mind. Whichever."

Nick grabbed his key and said "Well, mine's right here, so.." He put the key in the keyhole and then opened the door for me to walk in. I walked in, and I was greeted by the same thing that I was when I walked into AJ's room. A big mess.

"Geez.. Your a slob too?"

"What do you mean too?" he said confused.

"Well, when I went to AJ's room, it was exactly like this."

"Yeah, well, me and Bone are alike in that way. I'm usually not this bad," he said looking around, and surveying the mess "it's just that today I didn't feel like putting things away."

"Would you like me to help? I don't mine cleaning. I actually like to clean."

"Are you serious!? Where have you been ALL my life!" he said with a laugh.

I don't know.. I wish I had been with you.. Oh, how I wish. Well, at least I had opened up my eyes wide enough to notice that I had very, very strong feelings for Nick. Thank goodness.

"So, need my help?"

"Sure.. If you would like."

"Of course! I don't mind. Here, let's start with all these damn clothes.." I said kicking away some shirts, and pants that were strewn over the floor. "Why do you have all these dressy clothes on the floor? Where did you go that you had to get all dressed up for?"

Nick looked down at the floor embarrassed, and made his way over to the bed. Hey threw some clothes off, and sat down.

"So...?" I asked wanting to know. I strode over to the bed, and took a seat next to him. I could tell that he was ignoring my question. I didn't know why at the moment, but I soon found out.

"The reason all the clothes are on the floor is because I tried them all on before I came to the club yesterday."

"How come that was so hard to tell me?"

"Because, I tried them all on for..."

"For?"

"For you.."

"I'm confused.. Why would you try them on for--"

"Because I wanted to impress you. That's why," he said slightly embarrassed.

I felt bad for making him tell me. It was obvious that he didn't want to, because his face was turning a light color of pink.

"Don't be embarrassed. That's really sweet." I put my hand on his knee, and he put his hand over mine, giving it a tight little squeeze.

"You know, you don't really have to help me clean, it's alright. I'll just do it later. I mean, I am going to have to pack up again before we leave. How about we go to your room since it is guaranteed to be clean."

"Alright, let's go!"

We made it out of his room, safely. Don't ask me how, but we did. Then, slowly made our way to my room. I opened the door, and Nick walked in.

"I am gonna use the bathroom real quick, I'll be right back!" I said walking to the bathroom. I did my 'thing', and then walked back out towards Nick. Nick had his back towards me, and when he heard my feet shuffling, he turned around. He had his hands behind his back, and I gave him a questioning look.

"What do you have back there?" I inquired.

"Oh, nothing.."

"Come on, lemme see!" I whined.

He put his hands in front of him, and held my white lacy bra out towards me. "You left this lying out here." He smiled.

"Ugh!" I said grabbing it from his hands. I felt my face turn bright red, and turned my back towards him putting my bra in my drawer.

"Don't be embarrassed! Please, don't be. Its cool."

I turned and faced him. "Sorry about leaving that out.. I didn't expect anyone to be coming into my room."

"It's alright forget about it. So.. Do you wanna order something to eat?"

"Sure. I'll call for room service."

After what seemed like hours, and hours, we finally chose what we wanted to eat. I wanted to have a cheeseburger, with fries, and Nick wanted some chicken with mashed potatoes. We ordered, and then sat down on my bed. I sat Indian style, and Nick layed on his back, with his hands under his head.

"How many people are expected to show up for the concert tonight?"

"I think like 15,000. I am not completely positive, but something like that," he said nonchalantly.

"All girls, huh?"

"Most likely. There are guy fans, but a lot of them are to scared to show that they actually like us. I think that they are nervous as to what people are gonna say.. I never really understood it."

"Yeah, me either. I dunno.. That does seem kind of strange. The music you guys make is great, and people shouldn't be ashamed to listen to you."

"I agree. That was sweet.."

I smiled, and leaned into him, giving him a kiss on the lips. I moved in closer, and wrapped my arms around him, giving him a big hug in the process. He put his arms around my waist, and hugged me warmly. It felt really great to be in his arms, knowing that nothing could go wrong. He kissed my forehead, then my nose, and working his way down to my lips. They finally met, and we began a long make-out session. We were so involved in what we were doing, that we didn't even notice the knock at the door. We didn't notice till' we heard a loud bang, and a yell from outside.

"Foods here!" Nick yelled, and jumped off the bed, making me bounce up and down. He ran over to the door, paid the guy, and brought it into the room and over to the bed.

"Mmm.. Smells good," I said smelling my cheeseburger. I lifted up the bun, and licked some ketchup off of it. Ketchup was one of my favorite things in the world. I could eat ketchup all day long.

"You have a little--" Nick said pointing to my bottom lip. "Here, let me help."

Instead of wiping it off with his hand, or a napkin, he leaned in, and kissed it off. He licked his lips and said "Mmm.. Tastes good."

I laughed, and began to eat my burger. Nick began eating also, and I just watched. He looked so beautiful, so perfect in every way. And he was finally mine. Well, actually, I wanted him to be mine. Nick and I had no commitment yet, and I really wasn't sure what to think. Since I had my mind on the subject, I decided to bring it up with Nick. I wanted to know what he thought about 'us.' And if there really was an 'us.'

"Nick?"

"Yeah?" he asked nibbling on his chicken.

"Um.. Well.."

He put his fork down, wiped his mouth with his napkin, and put all of his attention on me, looking me straight in the eye. "What is it?"

"Well... I just wanted to know---"

"Yes?"

"I just wanted to know what our commitment towards each other is. Are we a couple, are we just friends, are we closer than friends? What are we?"

"Well, I never really thought about it, but I definitely know that we are more that friends. Don't you agree?"

I nodded my head.

"And I know that we are closer than friends... Right?"

I nodded my head again.

"Does that answer your question?"

I shook my head 'no.'

He took my hands and placed them in his. He looked me right into the eye and asked "Rebecca, would you like.. No, would you please... No." He shook his head in disgust. I didn't know what he was trying to say, so I was patient, and just gave him time to think for the proper words. He then started up again. "What I am trying to say is.. Would you do me the honor and be my girlfriend?"

I sat there stunned. Nick Carter had just asked me to be his girlfriend. I didn't know what to say, or what to do, or what to think. I was at a loss of words. I looked into his eyes, and they were begging me for an answer. I knew the answer, but it was just hard for me to say it. Finally, don't ask me how, I managed to say "Yes, Nick, I would love to be your girlfriend."

He grabbed me, and pulled me into a big bear hug, and kissed my cheek, then eventually my lips. And once again, we were kissing. This kiss was different though. It had so much more feeling, so much more emotion than all of the previous ones. It felt great... Our tongues met, and we ferociously grabbed one another tighter, and played some more tongue war. Then, the phone rang. I got so angry, because I was just starting to enjoy myself!

"Ugh!" I said loudly, and giving out a small sigh.

"Ditto."

I reached for the phone, and picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Yeah, hi, is this Rebecca?" an impatient voice asked.

"Yes, this is she. Who's calling?"

"Hey, Rebecca! This is Brian. Is Nick there with you?"

"Yes, he's right here.." I said patting Nick's knee.

"Can you please put him on?"

"Sure.." I handed the phone to Nick and said "It's B-Rok."

"Hi, B! What's up bro?" I didn't know what they were saying, all I could hear was a bunch of yelling. Nick finished up the conversation, and slammed down the phone.

"Something wrong?"

"Yes!" he said angrily. "I'm late!! All the guys and management are pissed at me! Damn it! I have 10 minutes to get to the show, and its a 20 minute drive! Come on, we have to go.." He grabbed my hand, and we bolted out of my room. I barely had enough time to grab my purse off of the dresser drawers. We ran down the stairs, and towards his car. We didn't speak the whole ride. Nick was too busy concentrating on not killing us with his wild and crazy driving. He was really pissed at the fact that he was late. His face was bright red in anger. I could tell that he was never one to be late, and he was angry that it had just happened. We arrived at the venue in record breaking time. He floored it the whole way over. He parked the car in a hurry, and quickly got out, without even locking his door.

"Come on, hurry!" he yelled. He was running so fast, that I could hardly keep up with him. We ran in, and quickly made our way to the stage, and the back towards the room that we were in earlier that day.

"Hey guys!" Nick yelled running into the room, and over to his wardrobe.

"Man, where have you been!?" AJ inquired. "Management is sooo pissed."

"Sorry, we're sorta late.." he said scanning over all the many outfits that were hanging off the racks. "What are we supposed to wear?"

B-Rok walked over to where Nick was, and showed him.

"Thanks Rok. I'll be right back," Nick said walking out of the room.

Everyone looked at me wanting to know what exactly was happening between Nick and myself. I could tell from the expressions on their faces that that is what they wanted to know. They all looked at me inquiringly.

"So..?" Brian said letting his voice trail.

"So..?" I repeated. I wanted them to actually, physically ask me the question before I subjected myself to anything.

Brian and Leighanne both walked up to me, and Brian put his arm around me and asked "Come on, kiddo.. Tell us!"

"Tell you what?" I asked innocently.

"About you and Nick dumb shit!" Leighanne laughed.

"Oh, that! Well.. Do you really wanna know?"

"Of course we do! We wouldn't be asking you if we didn't! Now, come on, spill!" Brian said looking at me in the eyes.

I could tell that the other guys wanted to know also, because they walked over to our little huddle with big huge grins on their faces. I was happy that AJ was smiling. I was very happy that he wasn't upset with me, and that we could still be friends even after what had happened between us. That is what scared me the most. I think that is one of the reasons that I didn't tell him right away if I regretted the kiss or not. I was scared that he would be mad at me, and would never want to speak to me again. I was very relieved that that wasn't the case.

"Girl, come on! Tell us!" AJ shouted.

"OK, OK! Your SURE you wanna know?"

"Positive!" they all announced at the same time.

"Well.. Guess what!?" I knew what I was doing was horrible, making them guess like that. They all wanted to know what was happening with us, and they wanted answers. I just liked playing mind games with them. It was so much fun watching them beg and plead to know more. I was getting a kick out of it.

"Nick asked me to be his girlfriend!" I blurted out. I had this huge wacky grin on my face. I could hardly contain my excitement.

"For real!?" Brian yelled.

"For real!" I repeated.

"Oh my god! That's great news!" he said embracing me for a hug. I was so happy that he was pleased. Brian was such a great friend to me, and I knew that I could always go to him for advice. No matter what it was.

"Wow, you go girl!" Leighanne said giving me a high five.

AJ smiled at me and leaned into me ear and whispered "See, I told you that you two were perfect for each other." He winked, and placed his arm around my shoulder.

"I'm back!" Nick said strolling into the room. I could tell by the expression on his face that he was a little confused as to why we were all huddled together in a little corner. And I could tell he was also confused at the big smiles and grins that were plastered all over our faces, especially mine.

"What's going on? Why is everyone so happy?"

"No reason.." Brian said walking away and over to the couch to tie his shoes.

"Yeah, no reason," Howie said walking over to the 'Arrowhead' container that was filled with water.

Kevin said nothing, but just walked away smiling. Then AJ walked over to Nick and said "Your a lucky man.. Take good care of her."

I knew that he had now figured out what exactly it was that we were talking about, because he broke out into a smile, then blew me a kiss. I caught it, and blew him one back.

"We'll talk more about it later," Leighanne whispered into my ear, and smiled. She walked off, and over to Brian.

"Well, babe, are you ready to see us perform for the first time?" Nick asked draping his arm over my shoulder.

My shoulder was getting a lot of action that night. It seemed that everyone wanted to hug me. I was loving every minute of it. Especially when it was Nick that was holding me.

"I sure am! I am so excited! I can hear all the screaming girls already!"

"Yeah, they usually show up pretty early. They think that they'll catch a glimpse of us coming up to the doors, but we usually come a lot earlier than them, or just sneak in through the back way to avoid the chaos."

"You must love the attention though."

"Oh, I do. AJ and me both. We get a kick out of it!"

"Hey, I would too if I had thousands of guys screaming my name. That would be pure heaven.."

Just then, someone pocked their head through the door and said "Mr. Carter, can I please speak with you?"

All the guys began yelling things like "Ooooo!!" or "Someone's in trouble now!"

Nick just gave them and evil glare. He seemed really nervous. I didn't know who this person was that wanted to speak to him, but I just assumed it was someone wanting to chew him out for being late. I couldn't help but feel that it was my fault. That I was the reason he was late. I partially was.. I mean, he was in MY hotel room.

"Coming!" Nick yelled. "I'll be back.. Once again." With that, he turned and walked out of the room closing the door behind him. The minute he stepped foot out of the room, I heard yells. I couldn't make out what they were saying, but I knew it wasn't good. I could only hope, and pray that they wouldn't get TOO mad at Nick. Oh, how I hoped.

Nick came in a few minutes, and I could tell right off that he was pissed. He stormed in, and slammed the door. "Man! I am a few minutes late, and I get my head completely bitten off!! Damn it! Ugh!"

"What did Jeff say?"

"Jeff just said that I should have been keeping track of time better, and that it is my fault, and no one else's that I was late."

"But, it was partly my fault also," I said interjecting. "You were in MY room."

"Yes, I know, but it was my fault. I should have been paying attention. It's alright, don't worry about it," he said. "I'm not mad anymore.. And in a few minutes they won't be upset anymore either. They'll forget about it."

"Ten minutes till' showtime!!!" a man yelled from outside.

"Come on guys, let's go!" Kevin said ecstatically.

"You gonna be OK with Leighanne?" Nick said worriedly.

"Oh yeah. She's really cool. We get along great. I'll be fine. When am I gonna see you next?"

"After the concert.. We are going to have a thing back here for all the fans with backstage passes, and then afterwards, we'll hang out. Do you wanna do something tonight?"

"Nick! Get your ass over here!" AJ shouted. All the guys were by the doorway and were looking at Nick expectantly.

"I'll meet you out there! Just give me a minute.."

The guys shrugged their shoulders, and just walked out. Leighanne followed them knowing that we wanted to be alone. She said she would meet me outside, and then left leaving Nick and myself alone in the room.

"So, do you want to do something tonight?"

"Yeah, I would love to. We only have tonight, and tomorrow night to hang out, and then I am going back home, and you are going God only knows where."

"Nevada."

"OK, your going to Nevada. So, we only have two more nights together."

"Well, you think about you want to do, and whatever you want to do I will make sure we do." He smiled and kissed the tip of my nose.

"Alright, I will think about it, and get back to you. Good luck with the concert.. Break a leg!" I leaned in a gave him a long and hard kiss filled with major tongue for good luck. Apparently Nick was satisfied because he just smiled in appreciation.

We walked out of the room, hand in hand, and over to where Leighanne was seated on a long red couch.

"Ready to take our seats?" she asked standing up.

"Oh yeah! I can't wait to see what the concert is going to be like.."

"You'll love it! I have been to so many of them but I never seem to get sick of watching my man get up there and pour his heart out to everyone in the audience. It still gets me everytime.."

I pretended to wipe a tear away from my eyes. "Awww.. How sweet!"

"Shut up!" she said nudging my ribs playfully.

"Good luck, Nick!" I yelled.

"Thanks babe!" He gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and ran off to meet the other guys.

Babe.. It felt so good to be called babe. I remember when AJ called me 'baby.' It felt good to hear him say it, but hearing Nick say it made me feel even better. It was very hard to explain, but I know that I loved it!

Leighanne grabbed my hand, and pulled me towards the stairs leading down to where our seats were. She swung the door open, and then I heard the defining roars, and high pitched yells from all of the fans. There were so many people. Definitly bigger than *NSYNC's concert.

"Wow.." was all I managed to say.

"Yeah, I know!"

"This is amazing.." I said in awe.

"And now, the one, the only: BACKSTREET BOYS!!!" I heard the announcer yell.

Leighanne tugged on my hand and pulled me to our seats. We got there just in time to see Nick run on. He was waving his arms frantically, and screaming sweet things to the fans. I won't go into much detail about the concert, but all I can say is that it was great. All of the guys gave it their all for the whole 2 hour concert. They were all great dancers, and had incredible voices. I couldn't keep my eyes off of Nick. He looked so great up there. He ran around all night screaming, dancing, and just basically enjoying himself. You could tell that they all loved being up there. I knew that it was an incredible rush for them, and it was such a nice feeling to know that he was mine. To know that him and I had a commitment. I felt like the luckiest woman in the world.. And in many ways, I still do.

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