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Figure 01. Broken ((DREAMscape Part I))
Figure 02. Flames
Figure 03. Lies
Figure 04. Rise
Figure 05. Me
Figure 06. Fraud
Figure 07. End of Everything
Figure 08. Thinking of You
Figure 09. The Light
Figure 10. Deep Inside
Figure 11. Searching
Figure 12. Angelus
Figure 13. Sweet Salvation
Figure 14. Bring It
Figure 15. My Mistress
Figure 16. For You ((DREAMscape Part II)
Figure 17. Thank You
Figure 18. Ready or Not
Figure 19. A Hidden Meaning in Time
Figure 20. This Pain
Figure 21. Part of Me

Figure 22. Run and Hide
Figure 23. Foreign
Figure 24. Trigger
Figure 25. Home
Figure 26. Suffer
Figure 27. Triple Six
Figure 28. A Different Agenda
Figure 29. Torment
Figure 30. A Song for the Failed Spirit
Figure 31. Lullaby
Figure 32. ChAoS
Figure 33. Four Letter Word
Figure 34. On My Own
Figure 35. Living for Nothing At All
Figure 36. Fade Away
Figure 37. Without You
Figure 38. Wish
Figure 39. Into the Sun
Figure 40. Anything
Figure 41. Takedown

Figure 18
~Ready or Not~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Slowly life starts to give away
Everything that ive ever really known.
Plastic smiles and crimson dreams
Are all i know of left to me.
Battered and beaten I stand on
In a never-ending battle with my enemy,
Myself.

Give me a minute here,
To define myself.
A little chance to let go,
Some of the things ive felt.
Another time to search for,
My piece of comfort now.
These days, this life,
Here I am, Ready or Not.

Catastrophic memories engulf my mind
Into an ever-burning inferno
Raging inside of my soul
Graphic imagies of distorted
Better days, and nocturnal nights
Fill me with a sense of comfort
In a new day, helping me to dominate my enemy,
Myself.

This is me, It's my time.
To open the doors to my mind.
Putting myself out on the line,
To show you what im made of.
Im my own best friend,
My own worst enemy
My Heaven and my hell,
As well as everything between.
A battle i wage inside my own,
A battle i wage against a world,
Where people are forgetten
And memories erased
But I'm only a memory to be replaced.

Give me a minute here,
To define myself.
A little chance to let go,
Some of the things ive felt.
Another time to search for,
My piece of comfort now.
These days, this life,
Here I am, Ready or Not.

Ready or not, Here I come,
Taking back my piece of mind.
These days and nights
So lost to me, but gained in time.
Pouring out my heart on page,
And letting go all of my pain.
Only to one day,
Live again.

Figure 19
~A Hidden Meaning in Time~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Im breathing now,
But for how much longer?
Im sething now,
But i dont feel any stronger.
Im remembering now,
Just how this came about.
Remembering how,
My life became full of doubt.

Peaceful days behind me,
Rendered useless now.
When I succumb to,
The life thats pinned me down.
Pushing it back,
Pulling me closer,
Fighting and biting my way,
Back to what is really in me.

Im drifting now,
Above the surface.
Im drifting now,
Without a purpose.
Ive lost it now,
Struggling to find whats real.
Finding myself somehow,
Through all of this insanity.

Peaceful days behind me,
Rendered useless now.
When I succumb to,
The life thats pinned me down.
Pushing it back,
Pulling me closer,
Fighting and biting my way,
Back to what is really in me.

Somewhere hidden in this meaning in time
Deep in the scryptures told
A glimmer of hope for a new dawning
Glows bright, grows bold,
A phoenix arises.
Lighting an inferno in my soul,
Taking me to solace,
Making me whole.

Tormenting days behind me,
Making them useless now.
When I overcome,
The life ive pushed away.
Pushing it back,
Pulling myself closer,
Fighting and biting my way,
Back to what is really in me.

Taking and breaking the frail fear
inside me,
Discarding it from my mind.
No more breaking and shaking this pain
i manifested.
I can live without it now.
I can live without it now.
I can be myself...now.

Figure 20
~This Pain~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

This pain,
A feeling i'm familiarized with.
Seeking a change,
Finding it harder and harder
to cope.
Eating away at my inside,
Every time i hurt like this.
Why cant i just get away,
And never feel again...

Cause all i feel is pain
God make it go away,
So i dont have to feel this anymore
again.

Another fruitful day,
Spoiled by the rotton ones,
Will it ever be something else
that matters more?
This pain,
has been too long,
This pain has been too long indeed
I cant remember the last time
I felt myself.

Cause all i feel is pain
God make it go away,
So i dont have to feel this anymore
again.
All i feel is distain
Burning scars upon my soul
And I dont think I can take it
that much more,
Just make it go away.

I wish i could find,
My angel in the snow
Something to take me away from here,
To where I wanna go.
To whee I can be free,
Cause right now I just cant be
Another victim of a world so cold.

Cause all i feel is pain
God make it go away,
So i dont have to feel this anymore
again.
All i feel is distain
Burning scars upon my soul
And I dont think I can take it
that much more,
Just make it go away.

And all I feel is pain
(Pain)
God make this go away,
So I dont have to deal with this
again.
All i feel's distain
(Pain)
Leaving scars inside myself
And I know that i cant deal
with it anymore...
Please God, just make it go away.

Figure 21
~Part of Me~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Give me a little back
That you took from me then
A piece of me i cant replace.
There's a hole in my soul
About a mile all around
Begging to heal over.

Because there's a piece of me missing.
I just can not survive,
Without what you hold in your hands,
The piece of me that helps me to live.
So I'll breath and struggle and flail about,
Cause You still have a part of me.

I remember giving it over a long time ago
Thinking i would never need it again
What was mine became yours
And the error in my ways
Through all the blissful days
Was trusting that forever meant itself.

Because there's a piece of me missing.
I just can not survive,
Without what you hold in your hands,
The piece of me that helps me to live.
So I'll breath and struggle and flail about,
Cause You still have a part of me.

Taking back what you took from me,
And stealing yours while im there.
Repairing these deepened wounds
Inside of me, haunting me, hating me.
Fixing the mistake i made one day,
And never looking back.

Because there's a piece of me thats been missing
I'd never be able to survive without.
That which you held in your hands
Always seemed to help me to live on
Until i took it back and regained what was lost
Taking back that which was mine,
That Part of Me.

Figure 22
~Run and Hide~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

I need another life
One i havent wasted yet.
With all my foolish nature
And nonsensical madness.

How can i find myself
When i cant seem to find the sky?
No up or down,
No wrong or right,
How can i dream
When all thats left are nightmares

I wish that i could fly,
I wish that i could fly,
Why should i even try,
When nothing works out right?

Watching as life just passes me by
For reasons I cant explain
Watching as all the hurting cry
Wishing i could make it go away

But the sky's gone black
It's too dark to see
Any light in this tunnel
Or see hope somewhere for me.

I wish that i could fly,
I wish that i could fly,
Why should i even try,
When nothing works out right?
WIsh I could kiss the sky,
Or maybe run and hide,
Wishing is useless now,
When i just cant be free.

Floating above the clouds
Gliding above the world we know
A world so cold, a world so red
Fading into chaos,
Frantic in all of this insanity
Looking for a place to escape
A place to run, a place to hide.

I wish that i could fly,
I wish that i could fly,
Why should i even try,
When nothing works out right?
Wish i could kiss the sky,
Or maybe run and hide,
Wishing is useless now,
When i just cant be free.

Wish I could run and hide,
Wish i could fly and climb,
To a place away from it all,
where i can be at peace.
I wanna run and hide
I wanna touch the sky
But nightmares are all i see
So just let me run and hide
From everything thats red.

Figurer 23
~Foreign~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Take a look around...
Everything is different,
Nothing is the same as it was before
Things i saw so familiar once
Seem so changed now.

And when I saw all of you
You all just turned and walked away
Forgetting all of the memories we shared
Forgetting all of the times you cared
What happened to us in this life we breathed.

I feel LOST!
Searching for my own
little place to hide.
somewhere deep inside,
My own mind
A new structure where
I can confide in a new existance
Where all of this doesnt feel
Foreign to me.

Take a look around...
Life is what you make of it,
And I must have made something wicked
In order for so much change
So much insanity to wrap iteslf around me

Because so little seems the same
And none of you remember who I am anymore
Reality has taken a backseat to fantasy,
A nightmare in a time
When frail form could break so easily.

I feel so exposed to the world
All of my fear,
All of my frustration,
Mutilation,
Desecration,
Self- humiliation.
I feel so alone in a world so cold,
With all of my pain
All this madness
Sadness,
Weakness,
So afriad that i cant beat this
Hell that ive put me through.

I feel LOST!
Searching for my own
little place to hide.
somewhere deep inside,
My own mind
A new structure where
I can confide in a new existance
Where all of this doesnt feel
Foreign to me...
I feel so GONE!
Tearing through the bars
that break me.
The memories that take me,
away from the bliss,
A life I'm doomed to miss.
And im begging for the old life
Where all of this doesnt feel
Quite so foreign to me
Foreign to me,
Forfeit this dream
For a place not so foreign to me

Figure 24
~Trigger~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Again and again
I find myself at your doorstep
Wondering why it was that
the past had to be so far behind us.
Tracing back my steps to the place
Where I felt the safest,
But find only a locked memory
and a cold wall.

I remembered how the masses felt
When they heard we were one
The way they peered and scurried about
As we were together, oblivious,
to their cries, to their scowls, to their hate.
I remember how we felt back then
And wonder why we feel that no more.

So perhaps you can stop hiding,
Stop running away.
Free yourself
From your misdirected trip
Take one look around you
And realize your true purpose.

Swallow,
Follow,
This road gets no harder
Thinking,
Sinking,
Into this new perception
For all I've done,
And all I've said,
Your trigger's still ringing in my head

I can see into your window,
As i stand here on your street.
But youre not home, so why do i still care?
You're off on your journey in life
And I cant find where you've gone
Maybe that was the intention all along?
Who knows, except for the fact that
im bleeding inside and youre the only one
Who can heal my wounds.

One day you'll grow tired of running
And you can quit all of your misdirecting
You can take a long look around
And see just what you've been missing

Swallow,
Follow,
This road gets no harder
Thinking,
Sinking,
Into this new perception
For all I've done,
And all I've said,
Your trigger's still ringing in my head

Come find me,
Before I fall apart
It's been so long since we've held
this love that i can barely remember.
Remind me,
of the days when life was bliss
And the world faded behind the backdrop
of this dream we were living out.

Stop all the running
Quit all the misdirection
Take one long look around
You'll see what you’ve been missing

Swallow,
Follow,
This road gets no harder
Thinking,
Sinking,
Into this new perception
For all I've done,
And all I've said,
Your trigger's still ringing in my head
(Stop running)
Swallow,
Follow,
This road gets no harder
(No more misdrection)
Thinking,
Sinking,
Into this new perception
(Take a look around)
For all I've done,
And all I've said,
(You see we need each other)
Your trigger's still ringing in my head
For all I've done,
And all I've said,
Your trigger keeps ringing in my head.

Figure 25
~Home~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

I sometimes remember that place
Where i felt so alive
So free from all the pain and torment
Life had pushed on me for so long.
I've strayed from that place
Taking a risk at what was beyond
the gate
Only to find that the makeshift fantasy
was the only reality i could handle.

Life is killing me
Slowly every day
Pushing me farther and farther
Beyond my means
I need to go back
Back to the start of it all
Back to where the fear subsides
I need to find a place i can call
Home.

Looking back at the choices i made
Were all in vain
Drowning my sorrows in the things
i thought were so real, so pure
Only brought more pain
Today i wish i never would've left my cage
and searched the world for bigger and better
'Cause yesterday i realized that it was
nothing more than a faux fantasy
that we all thought was just so real.

Life is killing me
Slowly every day
Pushing me farther and farther
Beyond my means
I need to go back
Back to the start of it all
Back to where the fear subsides
I need to find a place i can call
Home.

Find me here
Release me from this torment
Release me from this hell that
I have made me here.
Take me back
Back where I belong
If only for a moment
So that i may breathe again
So that I may live again
If only for a day.

Life is killing me
Slowly every day
(I just wanna go Home)
Pushing me farther and farther
Beyond my means.
(Take me Home)
I need to go back
Back to the start of it all
(Back Home)
Back to where the fear subsides
I need to find a place i can call
(A place to call Home)
Home.

Figure 26
~Suffer~
M. Patton/ So Not Ninja Musik © 2003

Can anybody tell me
Whats the point of this game?
I never understand these feelings
All the times I cried about
Another blown chance to
Make some sense of what is mine
Another day wasted
In this confused reality.

Caught in between the world
And all the pain
All of the hate and distain,
You suffer.
Put in between all of the lies of this place
You cast away every other face
Of our sadistic sub-human race,
Where here, nothing is sacred
You Suffer.

Caught up in the moment
Caught up in a duldrum
Caught between what is
And never seemed to be.

Caught in between the world
And all the pain
All of the hate and distain,
You suffer.
Put in between all of the lies of this place
You cast away every other face
Of our sadistic sub-human race,
Where here, nothing is sacred
You Suffer.

Figure 27
~Triple Six~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

You take my words and twist them,
Morph them them and contort them,
Just to watch me break.
Step by step and inch by inch,
I beg and plead for some mercy,
And end up paying for you to see me downed.

Shallow memories of when
Things weren't quite so hard.
When we were friends
Instead of foes.
You turned your back
And walked away from me.
Burning bridges as you marched.
Keep moving further away now
Because I've got no place for you,
In my newly formed reality.

To you life was yours to steal
From me, raping me of my sanity
And a sense of happiness I longed for.
But I was always too weak
To fight back.
So I wrote it all down
To show you the hell you've caused
And how your words inflicted
upon me.

Shallow memories of when
Things weren't quite so hard.
When we were friends
Instead of foes.
You turned your back
And walked away from me.
Burning bridges as you marched.
Keep moving further away now
Because I've got no place for you,
In my newly formed reality.

When will you come to realize?
How my life has been compromised
One day you'll wake up and understand
I'm just doing the best I can.

Shallow memories of when
Things weren't quite so hard.
When we were friends
Instead of foes.
You turned your back
And walked away from me.
Burning bridges as you marched.
Keep moving further away now
Because I've got no place for you,
In my newly formed reality.

Shallow memories of when
(Someday you'll come to realize)
Things weren't quite so hard.
(How my life has been compromised)
When we were friends
(Why cant you look and understand)
Instead of foes.
(That I'm doing the best I can)
You turned your back
(Someday you'll come to realize)
And walked away from me.
(That I don't need you...)
Burning bridges as you marched.
(Someday you'll come to realize)
Keep moving further away now
(That I don't want you...)
Because I've got no place for you,
(In my reality!)
In my new reality.

Figure 28
~A different agenda~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Giving a little of what you got...
Taking whatever you don't think
That I need.
What gave you the right to choose?
Who said it was right for you to
live through me?
Cause I don't think ya should.

Its my life, its my way,
And I'm gonna make it no matter what you say.
Its my rules, and its my game,
And I'd suggest you go and do the same.
Its my life,
And its my game,
That's why you gave me my own name
These are my rules,
And this is my way,
So turn your back and look away,
Cause we are never gonna be the same.

You told me I could be,
Whatever I wanted.
You tried to make me see,
Everything,
Through your censored screen.

But that's over now,
All so over now
Threes no running away
Cause this is how its gonna be
Its all over now
All so over now
Threes no turning back
Cause I'm livin the life for me
ITS MY TURN, NOW!

Its my life, its my way,
And I'm gonna make it no matter what you say.
Its my rules, and its my game,
And I'd suggest you go and do the same.
Its my life,
And its my game,
That's why you gave me my own name
These are my rules,
And this is my way,
So turn your back and look away,
Cause we are never gonna be the same.

Its our life
Its our way,
What else is there that we have to say?
Its our rules, Its our game
And we are more than victims of shame.
These are our lives
These are our ways,
This revolution starts today
Our rules, our game
And we stand up tall, with our own name

This is our life
This is our way...
It is never going to be the same
These are our rules
This is our way...
So grab on tight and play the game.

Figure 29
~Torment~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Staring at these four walls
surrounding me.
With eyes glazed over and sanity
abandoning me.
I reach out for something to hold on to
Something that could save me from,
This hell we've made here

Each passing day
Each passing night
I sit and think about the loss
Of every bend
And every break
Seems to not balance out the cost
For all the pain
And all the hate
That we could never really take
I still go on knowing that,
It wont let me go.

I'm sorry that, I had to say
this world so cruel, wont go away.
I'm here today, by force alone
Wishing just for a better home.
Every breath that I take
This crushing pain, drives me to break.
Another numbness, held inside
Knowing that I could never hide.

Each passing day
Each passing night
I sit and think about the loss
Of every bend
And every break
Seems to not balance out the cost
For all the pain
And all the hate
That we could never really take
I still go, on knowing that,
It wont let me go.

So tell me why,
I circle this, like never ending,
horror.
And tell me why,
I go through this, holding my breath
to never know.
Fallen to my knees, I'm begging please...
Just let me go.

Each passing day
Each passing night
I sit and think about the loss
Of every bend
And every break
Seems to not balance out the cost
For all the pain
And all the hate
That we could never really take
I still go, on knowing that,
It wont let me go.

Each passing day
Each passing night
I sit and think about you.
Every bend
Every break
Seems to not balance out my loss
Just to get by
And to get through
Trying everything I can do
I cant go on, knowing that,
It never lets me go.

Figure 30
~A Song for the Failed Spirit~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Take my hand
I will show you what I've done
Burdens have burried
Suffocate, put to an end.

Ive taken myself
Taken my life
Dead and disarmed to the world
Blackened my soul
Eaten up whole
Now i fade into forever.

Fade out my spirits
Days have come with no beginning
And searching for endings
There is no more time, only time to bleed.

Ive taken myself
Taken my life
Dead and disarmed to the world
Blackened my soul
Eaten up whole
Now I fade into forever.

Now I sing out loud
To the heavens
[Strike me down]
Fall from grace
I bid you farewell

Ive taken myself
Taken my life
Dead and disarmed to the world
Blackened my soul
Eaten up whole
Now I fade into forever.

Ive taken myself
Taken my life
Dead and disarmed to the world
Blackened my soul
Eaten up whole
Now I fade into forever.

Figure 31
~Lullaby~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Oh now, lay me down
But dont, put me to sleep
Im gonna bleed through the valleys
And, Im gonna weep.
Hush little baby, come on
Oh no, please dont cry
Im comin home soon darlin
But I just cant deny
That theres a monster in my closet
And another under my bed
Theres a million little creatures swarming
Deep inside of my head.

Cause lifes not worth the pain ive endured
The little madenings, and the massive insecure
Im gonna play my cards now
Lay down the hand ive ben delt
but i know ill make it back someday honey
through all the feelings ive felt.

Life could be tragic
But life could also be sweet
All I know is that im gonna make the Earth move
From underneath your feet.
I will take my time,
And I'll try not to make these mistakes
Gonna rumble the ground now
Oh my, oh for Goodness sakes.

Cause lifes not worth the pain ive endured
The little madenings, and the massive insecure
Im gonna play my cards now
Lay down the hand ive ben delt
but i know ill make it back someday honey
through all the feelings ive felt.

Cause lifes not worth the pain ive endured
The little madenings, and the massive insecure
Im gonna play my cards now
Lay down the hand ive ben delt
but i know ill make it back someday honey
through all the feelings ive felt.

Figure 32
~ChAoS~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Back down before I rage
Like electrical impulses to the brain
Stoking the fire
For one last show
You treat me like shit
Backing me down,
Tearing me apart
Causing all this chaos in me

All of these voices are yours alone
Ringing in my head
Over and over
Like some old broken record
I cant seem to give in
I cant seem to give up
But thats just the way life seems to be
When chaos rules.

Most of the days I wonder why
Or if I will ever make it through
With all of the torment you pass on to me
Sometimes I struggle to make sense
Questioning of you will ever again
Give me the chance to escape this
Chaos with you

All of these voices are yours alone
Ringing in my head
Over and over
Like some old broken record
I cant seem to give in
I cant seem to give up
But thats just the way life seems to be
When chaos rules.

I can only live to hope that one day
I can succeed where others have failed
I could break free from the world im in
Escaping this chaos in my mind.

All of these voices are yours alone
Ringing in my head
Over and over
Like some old broken record
I cant seem to give in
I cant seem to give up
But thats just the way life seems to be
When chaos rules

Figure 32
~Four Letter Word~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Today feels so much like yesterday
And every other day before
Unable to find some sense of balance
While holding on, waiting for the storm
Life it seems will fade away
Leaving nothing more but remorse
I can not fight these feelings
Swarming inside my brain
How can I keep on going
When everything I feel is pain?

So hard, So hard
To live when this is all thats left
So long, So long
Skipping beats, as I'm skipping breaths
All this fear wont seem to go away
Again for another day.
Fearing another day.

Memories sting like living scars
Reminding me of the fear before
Honest answers now fading away
But still somehow this pain remains
Ive lived with all this for so long
Its gotten so hard I cant go on
I must have missed something in between
The fear that I live with and the dream.

So hard, So hard
To live when this is all thats left
So long, So long
Skipping beats, as I'm skipping breaths
All this fear wont seem to go away
Again for another day.
Fearing another day.

Ive tried so long to break the chain
To face the fight, to make a change
Deep down inside i feel the same
Not bitter-sweet, but bitter shame

Fearing life, fearing death
Fearing everything thats left
[I'M FALLING]...

So Hard, So Hard
Its so hard to live like this
So Long, So Long
Its all so long, im slipping away
All of this fear
And all of this pain
Forever another day
Forever another day
Alive for another day.

Figure 34
~On My Own~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

I ask your help to get me through
I asked your hand to guide me
Looked up to you with swollen eyes
Cried out my heart to reach you.
Asked for your savior,
For your grace
Seeking your solace.

Forgive me,
For looking out
Hoping you would save me.
Blessed be,
The one who needs no handouts.
Forgive me,
For not wanting to be
[On My Own]

Sanity, my reality
Tragic eyes still blind me
Reality, is vanity
Ever twisting whats inside me
Lonely lives never seem
To pass me by.

Forgive me,
For looking out
Hoping you would save me.
Blessed be,
The one who needs no handouts.
Forgive me,
For not wanting to be
[On My Own]

Figure 35
~Living for Nothing At All~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

If sometimes I seem faded,
Jaded by the world around me.
Twisted and molested by what I see
compounded on me.
If sometimes I act shameful,
Blameful, for my own mortal misery
It becomes easy to forget that I'm
Trying my best

I dont know, I once said
As she turned and walked away.
I dont know how I've made it here
All I know is that I'm here.
Do I look clueless? I asked her
Before she disappeared
Cause All I know is that I'm lost.

I know this day could be the last
Fast on the road to nowhere
If I'm not all ready there.
I know I'm against the ropes
Hopelessly praying for anything
To make a change.

I dont know, I once said
As she turned and walked away.
I dont know how I've made it here
All I know is that I'm here.
Do I look clueless? I asked her
Before she disappeared
Cause All I know is that I'm lost.

While I waited, I was wasting away
I tried, facing each day
And still I ended up here
With no doors to escape

I dont know, I once said
As she turned and walked away.
I dont know how I've made it here
All I know is that I'm here.
Do I look clueless? I asked her
Before she disappeared
Cause All I know is that I'm lost.

Figure 36
~Fade Away~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

A single second of sole devotion
I tried to [listen to you]
Sympathy was no friend to me
All I could [try to do is breathe]
Maybe later I could pay attention
But for now [I'll just fade away]

Life is going away
I wish that I could change
Not just fade away
Substance is leaving me
But Maybe someday
I wont fade away.

Blessed seems to be
The one who can adapt
To his surroundings [to take a stand]
A restitution for time served before
To serve as a lesson [to get it right]

Life is going away
I wish that I could change
Instead of just fade away
Substance is leaving me
But maybe someday
I wont fade away.

So I say this to you
So that I may save you from
Yourself and all the same
Mistakes that I made before.

Life is going away
I wish that I could make a change
Rather than fade away
The substance is sucked out of me
Maybe someday though
I wont fade away
I wont fade away
Maybe someday,
I wont fade away.

Figure 37
~Without You~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

I find myself
Down again, Drowned again
In your little nonsense
Pushing on me all of your worldly ways
Thinking you're so much better than me
But I'll show you

[Scream]
I'm trying to push you away
Trying to knock you back
Another useless feeling to me
As I try to learn just how to flee
[But I cant]
So I'm spiraling,
Spiraling out of control.

Like you, I always sought the power
Thinking In capturing it,
I could control you.
Could you ever see
Living inside this power struggle
Tore us apart at the head
And I wish I could've saved you from all this
But we both knew I was never enough
For your tangled ways.

I'm trying to push you away
Trying to knock you back
Another useless feeling to me
As I try to learn just how to flee
[But I cant]
So I'm spiraling,
Spiraling out of control.

Its true that one day
You'll come to see
This life you're forced to live
And the one I'm forced to take...
WITHOUT YOU...

I'm trying to push you away
Trying to knock you back]
Another useless feeling to me
As I try to learn just how to flee
[But I cant]
So I'm spiraling,
Spiraling out of control.

Figure 38
~Wish~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Early days, and later nights
Always seemed to cause you pain
I want to say that I feel the same way you do
Hidden in this mortal life
A rage so deep, unparalled
I just wanted you to know...

I wish that I, could say something
Something to bring you back.
Maybe I could've said something
To save you from yourself.
I wish that I, could one day
Help you to find your peace, your grace
But for now I'll stand beside you.

It seems there is always something
Something to bring you down.
We could never escape the passion
Of these feelings that control.
On through the madness, of your infinite sadness
I just wanted you to know...

Somewhere, someday
We'll look back upon our past
Better than we were before.
Looking up, at the lights
Wishing I could see the sky
But I know we'll live again at night.

I wish that I, could say something
[Wish, that, I]
Something to bring you back
Maybe I could've said something
[Maybe, I]
To save you from yourself
I wish that I, could one day
[Wish, That, I]
Help you find your peace, your grace
But for now I'll stand beside you
[Stand beside you].

Figure 39
~Into the Sun~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Find me now, I'm drowning.
I'm drowning in silence.
Falling through the cracks,
The spaces between faith
Follow me down as I'm searching,
I'm searching for signs.
Breaking through the barriers on my way
Into the sun.

The dust settles around me
And the fork in the road.
Leaving me frozen,
Wondering where my journey goes.
The roads seem foreign to me,
I'm blinded, no sense of direction.
I need to find my way
Around the darkness that binds me,
Blinds me.
I need to find my way into the sun.

Deep in this circle
I'm forever trapped in this cycle
Broken, warped, shifted
Seeking to find some way
Sought out to find my inner self
I'm stuck in a stalemate,
Deadlocked at every turn,
Needing to find the light that guides
Where I need to be.

Finding out, everything
That I knew was inside out.
Standing here, burning
My body wretched with doubt.
Give me a sign, give me a chance
For one more run
One last dance.

I'm coming...

Figure 40
~Anything~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Twisted, Tattered, Tainted
Sick and saturated.
All of these feelings
I cant.. quite... escape.
Blackness constant calling
Taken off my feet, I'm crawling
Hopelessly I'm falling
Through... time... and... space.

Sensations inside that I cant possibly flee.
Find themselves wrapping around me.
Now I feel like I could finally conceive
That I feel like I could finally make believe
In anything.

Bracing, bound and lacking
Everything inside attacking
All of this I know
I...cant...escape.
Breath by breath aloud
Wish I could stop it all now
pushing through the the walls
In... my...way.

Sensations inside that I cant possibly flee.
Find themselves wrapping around me.
Now I feel like I could finally conceive
That I feel like I could finally make believe
In anything.

Don't touch me
I'm falling down
I've hit the ground
And I cant find my grasp
A little more than nothing
Still stalling, hoping for something
Gotta get up,
Gotta find...my...way
Gotta make...believe
Gotta finally...see

Sensations inside that I cant possibly flee.
Find themselves wrapping around me.
Now I feel like I could finally conceive
That I feel like I could finally make believe
In anything.
Sensations inside that I cant possibly flee.
Find themselves wrapping around me.
Now I feel like I could finally conceive
That I feel like I could finally make believe
In anything.

Figure 41
~Takedown~
M.Patton / So Not Ninja Musik 2003

Say hey, have you ever been through a breakdown?
TAKEDOWN!
Making you crazy, making you IRATE now.
Fight Back! For something you're believin' in,
Sound Back, cause this is your time to...

[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, every little thing you gain is all your own.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, for every little game they play, its time to go.

Who knows, what it is that makes us?
But we know, what it is that takes us.
Such PAIN, and all we ever get is SHIT,
Such HATE, when we can never get away from it.
Nega-tivity that finds us,
Anti, everything that binds us.
Seeking, truth and everything between,
But they, don't know things the way we see...
...And we are everything they'll never be!

[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, every little thing you gain is all your own.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, for every little game they played, its time to go.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know! Every little thing you gain is all you know.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, you know, LETS GO!

FIGHT BACK, face down on the concrete.
WHAT'S LEFT? Victory or defeat.
ONE CHANCE Better make the best of it.
TAKEDOWN every-one-of-them that you...
::pause::

{{Acoustic Chorus}}
You know, every little thing you gain is all your own.
...
You know, for every little game they played, its time to go.
...
You know, every little thing you gain is all you know.
...
GO!
{{Full band final Chorus}}
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, every little thing you gain is all your own.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know, for every little game they played, its time to go.
[TAKEDOWN!]
You know! Every little thing you gain, its all you know.
[Takedown!]
You know, you know, LETS GO!

[Takedown!]
[Takedown!]
[Takedown!]
[TAKEDOWN!]