Damn! The concert is over and people are still screaming!! "I need Advil. I'm going to run backstage ok?" Carlie nodded and I took off. Where, I'm not exactly sure but I do know that I was running wherever my feet were taking me. Thank goodness that they actually took me to the area backstage. I flashed my backstage pass to one of the security gaurds and then walked around trying to find some advil. After successfully finding some advil which they have a whole stash of backstage, I guess the managers get headaches too! I walked around trying to find where Carlie was.
I finally entered a room where the guys were. I looked around and noticed Carlie working her charm on all of them. I knew this would happen. I ran out of the room and leaned against the nearest wall. Then I slid down and just started crying. Why? I really don't know. I'm not the type of person to cry. In fact, Carlie has been my best friend for years and she has never once seen me cry. So why was I crying now? I think the main reason was that my life just wasn't how I liked it.
Or maybe the fact that Carlie does get what she wants. I've never been known by anyone, I've never had guys love me. I've never had anything I want going for me. So I guess that's why I started crying. I don't how long I was sitting there but the door to the room opened and I heard footsteps. But then they stopped. "Is everything ok?" I looked up to see Nick Carter standing there, holding a waterbottle, and staring at me. I quickly wiped my tears and nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine."
He walked over to me and sat down next to me. "Are you sure? You don't look fine." I half smiled. "Yeah I'm just great! Everything is just fine! My life is just fine!' I said in a sarcastic tone. Nick looked at me weird. "I'm sorry. It's just my life isn't really agreeing with me right now."
"Want to talk about it?" I looked at him. "Why would you want to talk to me? Don't you have fans to meet?" He smiled. "Yeah but you look like you're more important, they're all crying because I got my hair cut while you're crying for other reasons. I'd like to help you if you talk to me." I laughed, well, I did one of those laughs that you have after you 've been really upset but then something strikes you as funny. Why that was funny I don't know. "Ah, there's a smile. You have a pretty smile you know, you shouldn't hide it."
I blushed and looked away. Nick grabbed my face by the chin and made me look at him. "So, you gonna tell me what's on your mind or am I going to have to tickle it out of you?" I looked at him as if he were crazy "You don't even know my name!" He let go of my chin "I will if you tell me." He stuck his hand out "I'm Nick Carter, and you are??" I laughed and stuck my hand out too. "I'm Ciati Walker" We shook hands "Nice to meet you Ciati." "You too Nick."
"So, what's on your mind?" I sighed "Everything. If I were you, I'd get out now because once I start, I'll never stop." "That's not a problem." I turned my head sideways and looked at him. "Why do you care so much?" He shrugged "Is it a crime for a guy to care?" I smiled "Nah. You know that girl in there.." I nodded towards the door and he nodded "Well, she's my supposed best friend but she acts like she doesn't even care about me anymore. We never talk or anything. I have to admit that I have a crazy obsession with you guys, we used to stay up forever just talking about how she was going to murder Leighanne and marry Brian and then I'd marry you..."
Thinking about what I just said, I stopped, blushed and looked away. He laughed "Hey, I've heard that numerous times so don't worry." I nodded and kept going "and well, she i guess what she calls 'grew up' and finds herself too old to like a band as much as I enjoy you guys and she reminds me of it everyday. I just..I dunno, I just love your music too much to not like it. So anyway she only invited me here because she thought that I wanted it but obviously it's not. Don't get me wrong or anything but I just don't feel like I belong here. I've never felt like I've belonged ya know? My life just doesn't agree with me. Sometimes I sit and think about what it'd be like to die, would people miss me? Would they go on like normal? Would they even notice? I always think about things like that that I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it ya know? Oh God, here I am boring you with my problems when you have other things you could be doing. I'm sure ManDUH...whoops, I mean Mandy wants you."
Nick laughed at my mistake. "Nah, ManDUH is in Florida right now. Besides, I'm here to help." He stuck his chest out trying to be macho. I laughed "Whatever Nick." We both started laughing. "Nick, we gotta go buddy!" We both looked up to see Brian and Aj standing there. Nick stood up and then held his hand out. I grabbed it and he helped me up. "Guys, this is Ciati, Ciati this is Aj and Brian." I nodded my head and smiled at them, as they did back. "Sorry to bother you Nick but we have to go to the hotel now. You might want to call MANDY when we get there." I laughed "You guys may not know me but I can assure you that I'm not trying to steal Nick from Mandy. It was nice talking to you Nick, thanks for listening."
"Anytime Ciati. I'm glad I was here to listen." He took out a piece of paper and scribbled down some things and handed it to me "Here's my cell phone number and my email address if you ever need someone to talk to again." I ripped off a corner and wrote down my email address and number "Here's mine. Thanks again Nick. I better go find Carlie now. It was nice meeting you two." I walked away to where Carlie was behind me. My smile quickly faded "Hey Carlie, have fun with the guys?"
She smiled huge "Oh yeah! Me and Brian were talking for a while!" I nodded. "What's that?" She asked pointing to my piece of paper "Nick's number and email address." Her eyes got wide "He gave that to you?!?!" I nodded "Wow, you must be soo happy! I guess it's a good thing I invited you huh?" I nodded again. "Can we go now?" I was tired of her cheery little attitude.
