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Updates I'm writing again. And I think I may have finally nailed chapter 9 (only took me a year, right?). Check back soon and I'll keep you updated. Oh, and by the bye...Belle's too lazy to get a mailing list. Really Important Update: 8.26.04 Now, there's a nice long explanation for all of this, and I can only hope that you'll all be willing to sit and read through it before you start sharpening your knives and pick-axes and track my ass down. So...yeah. I'll just start with the excuses now...
First off, I haven't left the community. I really haven't. Sure. I haven't updated Grow Up! since last September. And this is the first Shrine update since March 22nd. I just...well, shit has been happening. A lot of shit, and it's had me quite overwhelmed for quite a while.
The Shrine itself, for one thing. Angelfire has gone too far with the advertisements, to the point I'm too exasperated to log into my own site and change the submissions banners to both say closed. Which, unfortunately, they are. And I apologize to the two or three people who have sent me submissions lately. I can only hope you didn't think I was just telling you to sod off and stop writing 'cause I wasn't. I just can't accept any submissions - I've had two stories that I've been meaning to post for a year. Let alone my own. So...yeah. Submissions closed. Sorry for the inconvenience.
I've looked into geocities, lycos, sphosting, and it doesn't exactly get any better. Either bandwidth is a number so small that it'd have been maxed out in an hour were I still working on PT (and updating), or there are just as many popups and banners as here at angelfire.
Dont' get me wrong. I'm attached to angelfire and this address. I don't want to move. But I can't stand it, and it's my site. I don't even know how the few who still come here manage the patience to see if I've updated.
Back around Christmas last year (2003) I started looking into buying a domain name and some server space. I'd just escaped a semester from hell during which I'd had 16 units, was at school 2 days, therapy one (Belle has head problems...had to see a doctor about it for a while, but don't worry, she's better now), and work the other four. I hadn't had a break in a while, and I was looking forward to getting started on the site. Got half of chapter nine of Up! typed out, and most of it planned.
But those of you who've been here for a while know that I work at Kmart...and Kmart at Christmas is like getting your teeth pulled. You think you're gonna die but you're laughing too hard from the nitrogen to care. After Christmas was over and my hours went back down, school started back up and my wallet got raped by my school books, so I put the idea off for a little while longer.
This is when shit hits the fan and the real reasons I haven't updated.
The beginning of the year had started with my sister refusing to take anymore of her mother's shit, and moving out. I provided the car and helped her escape to live with her boyfriend; not long later I was toying with the idea of moving out myself, either with her or with my own long-term boyfriend. But he got evicted from his apartment by a bitch landlord and moved several hours south to live with his brother.
Also, there were (and still are) problems involving our 17 year old dog, who should honestly have been put down back in January, but is still limping around. I was taking 18 units last semester, 4 days a week, at work the other three. By March, I couldn't remember sleep.
On top of this, I'd found out around this time that my oldest friend/big "brother" had gotten his 17 year old girlfriend pregnant, and they were getting married right after she graduated high school in June. I'm twenty. He's older than me. It bothered me and still bothers me, especially because this girl and I have issues. So when spring break finally got here, all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and sleep. Which is what I did. I dug out Up, worked a little on the chapter, but spent most of the break doing homework, sleeping, or at Kmart.
And...things will now get worse.
Last day of March I got into a car accident. Actually, "accident" isn't the right word. "Holy-fuck-you-walked-away-from-that!?!?!!!" is probably more accurate. I was supposed to have gone and bought my own car (thus I hadn't really touched the domain thing) April 3, but on March 31st I took the family car (1989 Ford Bronco, full size piece of american steel big-ass-car...we're talking one of the original SUV's here), essentially played chicken with a guardrail, and obliterated the thing. It was dead. I was lucky to be alive, let alone walking without a concussion. I fucked my left hand up something bad, but it was another three weeks before anyone was willing to tell me it was broken, and yet another week before I found out I'd broken my wrist and two knuckles.
Not long later, I found out that a kid I'd gone to high school with (was never really close to him, but I'd known him and most of my friends had been close to him) had committed suicide. Week before finals. I had papers to write (one handed, I might add, so typing was *fuuuuuuun*), Japanese to study for, and 18 units to pass.
Those who've talked to me know I've always had problems with my mother; and things were reaching the boiling point at the end of the semester. So I hoped on a bus with my hand in a splint and spent four days in Davis with my boyfriend.
A little bit of good news here, Belle got engaged before she came home. So yay for that, but dear-Lord-why for everything that happened when I got home. Mom lost it and I started looking for a place to live because I couldn't stay here any longer. For some reason, she didn't understand that this is going to be one of those "engaged for at least three years" engagements and that nothing is being planned and I'm not going to move down and live with him because I want my degree.
So there was much screaming and stress on top of summer school and I spent a few nights with my sister to get away from it.
Mom and I worked things out, I struggled through summer school and work. Went to my bud's wedding, which was a complete mindfuck, excuse my mouth, but it wasn't exactly fun. Finally got a few weeks vacation. Came home. Went to work full time. My buddy's munchkin was born and that threw what little motivation I had down the drain and I spent a few days curled up in a ball remembering how my buddy would run around a neighborhood full to bursting with kids with his dad's loaded crossbow and buck hunting bolts when we were thirteen and dealing with the fact that he has a munchkin his wife will never let me see. And now I'm back in school with classes that I have a strong feeling I won't be passing.
(Very livejournal. I know. But I swear to God it's all the truth. Dig back through my blog if you want. The last year has been bearable but it's a wonder I'm not paralyzed or locked in a psychiatric hospital.)
Add in with all of this that I haven't seen DB-anything since long before GT came out anywhere (legally) in the States, and you now know where Belle has been.
So, like I said. I haven't left the community. I'm still here, and I really want to finish the story of Up, if only because I want to harass Shiki-kins some more. That, and I like the little scottish dude in Trunks's head. I know I left everyone at a bad place, and I apologize. Greatly. I can't really do much to show how sorry I am except get off my ass and write, but Jack and Neth fear for their lives around me and thus my muses have been avoiding me. No to mention this semester's not going to be much easier, just hopefully without the flying broncos and ten day eviction notices.
I will get to work on Up as soon as I can, I just request that you all be patient. Like you haven't been already. But for those who've been patient enough to stick around since the early days of PT, you should know that I usually come back with a vengence after a prolonged, unannounced hiatus. And that the longer I'm gone the more I come back with, ne?
Ye-ah....so...email me and let me know you're still there. Emails like the ones I found this morning convinced me to wade through the advertisements to leave at least this much for you, and it's the length of a decent chapter :P More emails like them might motivate me to get off my butt more often and forsake sleep more than I already do.
I just have to warn you...I might take a while to respond and I'll probably use really big words and not sound like me (I know I don't sound like me as it is, but it's me, I swear...just had to do a lot of growing up myself in the last year), but I will respond. I'm mind-boggled by the support I can still find in the DBZ community when I have the time to venture into it, and I want to let the people waiting for me to update know I appreiciate their kindness. Just know that I spend most of my days right now doing the customer service thing and reading textbooks, so humor me because I might sound like a textbook every once and a while. But I swear I'll make it up to you.
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