katie says hi at 10:55:53 AM

Monday, September 02, 2002

Well, I had deactivated my page for several important reasons. Very important, and part of that purpose was so I wouldn't talk about them on this page. That's fine, but Storey's rant about bipolar disorder. Also, cause he has the time to post that rant :) But that's alright.

So, about bipolar disorder. Now, I know I don't have it. Or so says the psychiatrist who I've seen for 30 minutes in my life. The psychologist who I saw more often thought I had it, but thats just her. But I'll include all mental health problems because I think Storey is against medicating against all of those issues. I'm not going to tell you that some of the great minds of the arts world were not mentally disturbed. That would be a losing proposition. However, I will tell you that people (especially children) who live with depression or a mental disorder sometimes don't even live to be creative. Who also have terrible experiences throughout childhood. Also, all children do need to learn self-control, that is true. but when there is a chemical imbalance that makes you different from all of the other children who also need to learn self-control, that makes it more difficult for you to learn self-control and practice self-control. More so, the reason is not even because adults try to group them together, but instead because trying to relate to other people, who constantly seem happy, who don't have the world's worst mood swings is a very difficult chore. As a response, some people turn to other substances (alcohol, drugs) to try to self-medicate. That's why a lot of people who have terrible things happen to them being bipolar DO have them happen after drug and alcohol abuse. It also doesn't take drugs or alcohol for bad things to happen to people. Someone in a manic period has their life racing so quickly that they dont just make snap decisions, they're often unable to actually reason out decisions that they make. These drugs do help them do that. PEOPLE CHOOSE (at an adult level, I acknowledge that children don't decide, can't, and parents don't often make the decision in the best interest ofthe child) to take these drugs. They acknowledge that their lives will be more like they want their lives to be. Also, where there is shoddy diagnosis and overmedication of problems like ADD, a lot of these medications and diagnoses DO diagnose the correct people and help kids and adults live their lives.

This is no longer applicable to the person who knew it was applicable to them. However, it is good advice.
Oh, one thing? Don't promise things to a crazy person. They'll do things like expect you to follow through on them. And so life becomes a series of disappointments. That's my last crazy statement, I promise.

katie says hi at 9:53:03 PM

Sunday, September 01, 2002