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April 1, 2001 It's been a long time guys…I'm really sorry. But I'm going to try to post from now on. I have been anticipating and fearing this day. For my service fraternity, we are having our elections to fill the exec positions for next year. This whole year, I have been told that everyone wanted me to be president. Ever since the semester after I pledged for this fraternity, I really wanted to be the president, but there was always something stopping me….Julie. She was also told early on that they was, one day, going to be president. And I knew that she was going to run for it this year. Well, this year…our chapter has really gone down the tubes.. The current president, Julie's boyfriend, has done an absolutely terrible job. He hasn't really lead the group, and the productivity of our group has really dropped. This whole week, I have been preparing myself for tonight. The people supporting me as the prospective president have been talking to the people whose votes were swaying. I was really scared because of the people in my chapter. There is a handful of people who don't exactly like the fact that I am gay, and I know that this is weighing heavily on their minds. But some of the things that they have done has been absolutely disgusting. Here is a conversation that I was told about: "So, what do you think about BJ running for president?" "Well, he's a really good leader, and I know that he's a really strong candidate." "So, are you going to vote for him?" "Well, I don't know. He's gay right?" I digress…. Then I was told that at one of the pledge projects earlier this week, that people were talking about the elections, and the candidates for president. Somehow, that turned into people discussing the fact that I was gay. I just don't understand that mindset these people are in. I mean, how will me sleeping with guys effect how I lead a chapter? I mean, will I require that everyone in the chapter must suck a dick before I let them become active members? Anyway, we had our activation ceremony for the pledges before the election, and the whole time, I was worrying about the election. I was tired of all the bullshit in my chapter, and I wanted a big change. After the ceremony, it was finally time. The rules were set for the election, and the first vote was president. I knew Julie wasn't going to be prepare for the election, so I let her speak first. She said that usual, "I'm in…blah, blah, blah…I think I would be good for this position…blah, blah, blah…vote for me." It was my turn. I had a prepared speech, that said that I was really passionate about this group. I wasn't running for the position for the prestige of the position, but because I wanted to see change. I proposed some new ideas for next year, and even though I went over my allotted two minutes of speaking time, no one stopped me. I said it all, and it was time for me and Julie to leave the room. Talk about being uncomfortable. Here I was in the hall with Julie and her boyfriend. We had to wait while everyone in the room discussed us. The discussion was only supposed to go on for two minutes, but it went on for about ten minutes. We were called back into the room, and our sergeant of arms announced that I was the new president. I was just about ready to jump out of my seat and start screaming, but I couldn't exactly do that. I acknowledged everyone clapping at me, and I sat down. We went on through the rest of the positions, and I was happy about everyone that got elected. We have, coming into next year, a strong and diverse group of people to fill the exec positions. The meeting ended and Dom and her roommate Jody told me what everyone in the room said while I was in the hall. Apparently, it was a really heated discussion. There were people crying and yelling, and it was all positive for me. One of the newly activated pledges discredited Julie as his pledge-trainer, and said she didn't do a good job. He then went on to say that his vote was with me because he could see my dedication and my hard work. Dom, Jody, and I went to Perkins because we hadn't eaten all day. Before the meeting we spent four hours doing hair and trying on outfits for the ceremony. Well, I guess I was the one doing their girls hair, and telling them to try on a different outfit. It was the only thing that I could do to get my mind off the elections. We were sitting at Perkins, and in comes Julie and another member. We said hi, and we luckily got seated shortly there after. A couple minutes after we ordered, K and R walked in a joined us. We all talked about the evening, and how shocked we were. I just have to say that it was a wonderful evening, and I was on suck a high. The five of us went back to Dom's room, and R had brought a bottle of Champaign for us to drink. We toasted and drank. I had to leave after that because I told Todd that I would visit him. I went to his room, and it was him and S. They were just about to start a movie they rented. I sat on the couch, and Todd sat next to me. Through out the whole first movie, we sat in our corners of the couch. But eventually by the second movie, we were in the middle of the couch, and he was caressing my arm. S didn't stay for the second movie, but Todd and I finished it. When the movie ended, we started watching whatever was on tv. His roommate had gone to bed by this time, and I just took the reigns and put my arm around him. We started to kiss, and it didn't really stop. It was probably 4:00am when we started making out. After a couple of hours, we rested, and took a little nap. Then we would wake up and start making out again. It was a really good evening, and it was even betting because I had someone to put their arm around me as I fell asleep. What more could I have asked for? 
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