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April 4, 2001 So, the first night that I met Todd, he asked for my number because he claimed that he wanted to go to one of the Alliance meetings with me. We talked about going to the meeting tonight. I gave him a call after dinner, and I told him that I would pick him up at around 6:45pm. Dom and I left her room, and we headed for Todd's room. We hung out for a little. I looked at some Playgirl mags, and we finally left. We all walked to the Union, and when we got to the room, it was pretty full. T was there, and he said hello. He sat next to me. T and I have a pretty strange relationship where we are very flirtatious and sexual with each other, but it means nothing. So, when he has his hands all over my body, and he's nibbling on my ear…it's means nothing…just plain old goofing off. For some reason, even though I knew Todd was there…I didn't stop T from touching me. I don't know why…maybe I wanted to cause conflict…but I didn't do anything. The meeting was pretty much a bust. They did nothing but make the decorations for the parade float. Todd, Dom and I left early. And so, we went back to Todd's room. We all played Mario Karts for a little, and when Dom said she had to leave…I went along with her. I do feel really bad for prolonging this relationship when I perfectly know that I am going to break up with …but that's the point. I don't want to break his heart. After a little while in Dom's room, I went back to Todd's to just hang out. We watched tv for a while, and then he handed me a box. He told me to open it, and I did. Inside was this pretty elaborate mask that was hand crafted by this lady in New Orleans(Todd's home)… He told me that it was mine, and that I could just consider it a late birthday present. Now, I felt even worse. I told him that I had to leave. I smoked a cigarette, and I went up to my room… Ugh…I am a bad, bad person… 
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