Disclaimer: you know the drill people!!!!!! They' re not mine!!!! Warning: yaoi warning...ya know! m/m... um..yah....

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I kneeled closer to where Seifer sat rocking back and forth on his heels ignoring me. Tediously, I placed a shaky palm on his arm only to be pushed violently away.

"NO! Don't touch me! I don't want to hurt you again, Squall!" He buried his head in his arms, tears freely spilling from his red puffy eyes. I frowned. This wasn't the Seifer I knew. The Seifer I knew always hid his true feelings. Created a barrier between himself and others by taking whatever it was that was hurting him out on the weak. He covered up his sadness, but I saw through it. I knew that when he picked on me for no apparent reason, it was his misery showing its true, deviant colors. He looked up at me, peering deeply into my eyes, possibly waiting for me to make fun of him. I wouldn't.

"Seifer, what are you talking about? Why would you hurt me?" I spoke softly, daring to entangle my fingers in his soft, golden hair, reveling in the feel of it. I stared back at him, in the eyes that were once filled with anger and ridicule now empty. My hand was now gently caressing his tear-streaked face.

"She's still in my head, Squall! She's trying to control me again!" He was hysterical and I knew instantly that he was speaking of Ultimecia. Because of Seifer's coldness, he was and easy mark for the sorceress. He didn't care about anyone and knew people didn't care about him.

"She's in my dreams and she won't go away!" I wrapped both of my scrawny arms around his now trembling figure, trying my best to relax him. "She hurt me so much. It plays over and over again in my mind. I can still see it so--so..... vividly" his voice lowered at the end of his statement. "What do you see, Seifer? How did she hurt you?" he took a deep breath and recapped. "If ever I disobeyed her, she allowed the guards that were watching me to--to...." he broke off. I broke on, " to what, Seifer? It's okay." I reassured him, rubbing his back with the flat side of my hand. "They raped me, Squall! Over and over....they called me a whore and they said that I'm worth nothing...not even a good lay." I cringed at the words. It pained me to see him damaged like this. It must have pained him more to have to lay out his emotions, for his tears came full on, at the moment. "Seifer, it's okay," I soothed lulling him to stillness, "She won't have you again. I won't let her!" I was now so intent on keeping Seifer safe, that I even sort of surprised myself. He must've sensed my oh-so-sudden security because he looked up at me with disbelief in his expression. I only continued to run my fingers through his hair. His tears began to cease as he once again nuzzled against the warmth that was me. After only minutes of sheer comfort, he spoke, muffling his voice against my shoulder. "C- could we go for a walk? I need time to think." I stayed silent for a few moments, enjoying the affection that passed between us until he lifted his head off of my shoulder. "Of course," I willingly answered.

He disentangled himself from the sanctity of my limbs and hurried over to where his duffel bag lay at the foot of the couch. He rummaged through it and pulled out a light blue T-shirt and a darkly colored pair of denim jeans. "Be right back!" He offered me a small smile then turned and jogged to the bathroom.

Upon hearing the door shut, I hoisted myself up off the carpet and treaded over to my bed, plopping myself down onto it in the process. I saw steam emerging from underneath the closed door and after about ten minutes, a fresh, clean Seifer sprung out from behind the door. He took a deep breath then exhaled as if he had stepped out into the great outdoors. "Do you have an extra toothbrush?" he asked grinning. It then dawned on me that I had yet to freshen up my own mouth.

"Oh! yah!...in the cabinet." I searched around the toilet paper and found a pack of new toothbrushes that had yet to be used. We each grabbed one and popped open the toothpaste and cleansed our mouths. I rinsed out my mouth and then my toothbrush and set it in its place just underneath the mirror and nudged Seifer to do the same.

"Let's go," I urged, stepping out into the hall. Seifer grabbed his trench coat, threw it over his shoulder, and followed me out.

"HEY! SQUALL!!" A hyper voice called from the end of the hall. It was Zell, running up to me nearly tripping over his own feet. He grinned sheepishly at me. It wasn't until he had regained his footing that he had noticed Seifer next to me.

"SEIFER!!!" He yelled excitedly, bruising Seifer in a bone-crushing hug. "....Chickie...Why are you hugging me?" Seifer rasped out.

"'Cause man, I'm glad t' see ya!... and don't call me that!! ..So... Where ya been? Where ya goin'?"

"We're only going for a walk, Zell. Perhaps the lake..." I stated, obviously irritated.

"COOOOOOOL....Can I come?? Huh? Can I? Can I?" He was practically beaming, bouncing up and down on his heels like a kangaroo.... Damn, it was annoying.

"No" I said simply.

"Please?"

"No"

"Maaannnn....tch... fine, see if I care... later dudes." He continued down the hall, moping like a six year old.

"Come on." I gestured for him to follow.

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We were standing near the boats, ignoring all that was around us, going on with casual conversation.

"...... and she sat directly in the melted chocolate on the stool.... she didn't even look at what she was doing! So! There's this huge ass brown stain on the back of Selphie's pants and Zell just teased her and teased her until she got real pissed and punched him in the nose!" I doubled over in laughter, telling him about things that happened during his absence.

"Man, I would've loved to see a bloody chicken!" he chuckled gruffly.

"Seifer, you've missed so much!" I said finally catching my breath.

"Yeah...you know, you're not such a bad person, Squall."

"Neither are you...."

We continued walking down toward an area that was secluded by trees, sand gracing the ground, the lake only a few yards away. It was already almost 6 p.m. and I had suggested that we watch the sunset from my favorite spot. We sat down onto the grainy sand below us, him fairly close to me....

"I kinda regret it," Seifer murmured.

"Regret what?"

"Treating you like shit all the time, Squall... I'm sorry." A frown marred his elegant features.

"It's all right, Seifer...I was the one being a cold prick all the time.." I gave a slight grin.

"Why did you even put up with me, Squall? I was no better than you..... You should've taken your gunblade and pierced my heart, Squall... you should've killed me.... why the hell did you put up with me for all the years?"

"Be--because I...I"

"Squall?"

I took a deep breath and let it out again, "Because I'm attracted to you, Seifer, I always have been, but I never knew it and I never wanted hurt you..."

"Squall, I---"

"Listen Seifer, I know it's wrong and immoral and disgusting, but you can't help who you fall in love with can you?" My eyes were watering... What if he rejected me? What if he became so disgusted in me that he would never want to speak to me again?

"Squall--"

"And I know your straight and that you'd never--" He silenced me with a firm, yet soft kiss to my lips.

"I'm glad to know you feel the same," he grinned affirmatively.

"You mean---you---Oh my--" I was speechless. I had no idea... woah...

He confirmed my thoughts with another kiss. It started off chaste and innocent, but then turn passionate and lip-bruising. I willingly opened my mouth allowing his tongue to explore deeper within my hot orifice. I eagerly sucked gently on the tongue that now fucked my mouth, pushing rapidly in and out as I willed his manhood to do to that place underneath the confines of my clothing. I already felt my underwear become tight and I prayed to God that he wouldn't feel it in case he wasn't ready to go that far with me yet.... I felt my head become light as I felt something unbelievably rigid pressing onto my arm as Seifer rubbed himself against me. He was as hard as I was...I moaned into his heated mouth, the sensation of his cock overcoming me and the anticipation driving me mad.

(to be continued)

************************** Author's notes: Ummm... I dunno what to say except that I got through this far and I'll go even farther really soon... I promise!!! ^_^....meantime.....RRRREEEVVVIIEEWWW....I hope it's not too corny.... >_<