*Four Months Later*
I dont understand what is up with AJ, he's been acting funny lately. I mean, he barely talks to me, he barely eats and the only thing he does is eat, sleep, shower, and work. It's frustrating and lonely. I mean, yeah I work too, but not as much as AJ. I understand he is just trying to save up money for us and everything, but it's getting so hard.
I havent spoken to Alana in four months and I didnt want to either. Yeah she is my sister, but she betrayed me and my trust in her. The only person I talk to back home is my father and I dont think he even realizes that Im gone. I had him withdraw me from school, so I am no longer attending and neither is AJ. That'll make it harder on us, considering a high school degree is quite essential in the working world.
"Melissa, Im leaving," AJ told me, walking into the bedroom. I was trying to decide whether or not I should tell him the news. I was excited, but that doesnt mean AJ would feel the same way.
The truth is Im about three months pregnant. I found out last week. Im still under my father's insurance, so Im covered as far as doctor visits and everything, but still...
"AJ, I think we need to talk," I said looking up at him.
"What?" he asked.
"Um, Im, uh, kinda, pregnant," I stuttered.
"What?!" he shouted.
"AJ, please dont get mad, I cant help it," I said noticing the anger in his voice.
"How the hell did this happen?" he shouted.
"Um, yeah, well, there's this thing called intercourse. It's where a penis is inserted into a vagina and..."
"I know what the hell it is," he said glaring at me.
"AJ, say something," I told him after a long silence.
He walked over to a dresser drawer and pulled out a wad of money.
"Here," he said handing it to me.
"What's this for?" I asked.
"Pack your things, you're going home," he told me.
"What?! You cant do that AJ! This baby is yours too," I exclaimed, shocked.
"I know," he answered.
"So, you're just going to ship me back to live in THAT place?" I asked.
"I dont want a baby," he told me.
"It doesnt matter what you want right now AJ. It cant always be about you," I argued.
"I dont want anything to do with you or that baby," he said bitterly.
I couldnt understand why he was doing this.
"Why are you doing this AJ. Is there someone else?" I asked. He looked at me with sad eyes and just turned away.
"AJ," I begged.
"Go Melissa."
"I never thought you would do this to me. Not after everything we've been through," I told him.
"Im sorry Melissa, but I cant deal with you or a relationship and definitly a baby," he whispered. I felt the tears swell up in my eyes.
"I hate you," I said bitterly, my bottom lip trembling. I walked to the closet, grabbed a suitcase and threw all my belonging in it and a bag.
I didnt say a word when I left the house and walked to the gas station. I called a taxi company and waited impatiently for the taxi to come and hoping that just maybe AJ would come chasing after me, telling me he was wrong and how much he wanted me to stay. But, as I looked down the street, I didnt see anyone running to come get me, but I did see the taxi coming.
I looked in the direction I knew AJ was in and frowned.
"I love you."
I flagged the taxi down and crawled into the backseat.
"Bus station please," I told him softly.
He drove me to the bus station, I looked out the window the whole time and felt the tears slip down my cheeks. I didnt want to cry, not over a guy, like I have so many times before, but I actually love AJ. I couldnt understand why he was doing this. What made him so scared. He wasnt scared 4 months ago when we left home and came to Florida, not telling a single soul. The only thing that mattered was that we were together. Ive never met anyone like AJ before, he was special. But, I guess I wasnt special to him anymore. If I was, he wouldnt do this to me.
"Here we are," the cab driver said stopping.
"Oh, thank you so much. How much do I owe you?" I asked looking at him.
He looked at my tear-stained face and frowned, "Nothing darling. It was a free ride."
"No, no, how much?" I asked, refusing to just go.
"Dont worry about it, it's ok. You look like you've had a hard day," he said, smiling slightly.
"Ever had your heartbroken?" I asked looking into his hazel eyes.
"That's the worst pain," he answered.
"Tell me about it," I sighed.
"Go on sweetie. Oh and just for the record, keep this in mind: 'The one man that is worth your tears, is the one who wont make you cry'," he told me.
I smiled and nodded.
"Thank you so much," I replied.
"Bye."
I got out of the car and walked up to the window to buy a bus ticket.
"Hi," I smiled at the lady.
"Where and how many?" she asked.
I looked down at my bags for reassurance that I was actually leaving.
After I got my ticket, I went and sat down to wait for the bus. I had an hour. It was the longest hour of my life. I kept looking to see if AJ was coming to apologize and hold me in his arms and tell me everything would be ok. But, as I was getting on the bus, I took one last look for AJ and realized he wasnt coming and I was actually leaving.
I held back the tears as I climbed onto the bus, leaving everything that mattered to me, for a reason I wasnt even understanding. I thought AJ loved me and I thought he cared about me, but I guess things change over time and there's nothing I could do. He didnt want me in his life or this baby. It was time to say goodbye. But G-D knows I still love AJ and I always will, but I will never understand what happened today.
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