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07/31/03

 

1.The Center of My World

2.The Kid

3.Amalgam

4.North

5.Conversations

6.Late in the Day

7.Solitude Rock

8.Hurt You No More

9.Wisdom

10.I Sure Have Made A Mess Of Things

11.Island of Love

12.Waking From The Sliver Of A Dream (Whispers)

13.It's Only Love I Feel For You

14.P.S. (To Wormwood)

15.Get It Right

16.There And Back Again

17.Chapel42

18.Hey Cow!

19.Waiting At The Gate

20.What We Talk About When We Talk About Love

 

The Center of My World

I want to stay here forever 
Don't want to face what I don't know 
On the bed of my contentment 
I'm afraid, but it doesn't show 
In my selfish estimations 
On how my history has unfurled 
Don't want to leave until I've found 
The center of my world 

Danced in the shoes of my maker 
Tasted sweat and flesh He made 
I spoke boldly in a natural tongue 
'til the words began to fade 
I rode alone from home to Montfort 
To forget the poison I had hurled 
In the rage of youth I tried to find 
The center of my world

I walked down to the river
By the rushes, bade you come
Your mouth, a pool of knowledge
Your numbers, an inscrutable sum
But your humor overtook me
In my seat I moaned and curled
In April's song you claimed to be
The center of my world

 

An unlikely inspiration

You stretched out like a wound

Even now I still wonder if

I got to know you much too soon

Decked out in God's raiment 

Your forehead wiped and pearled

You made your rightful claim on me

And the center of my world

 

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 

 

The Kid

Rozanna 
I've given everything to you 
Everything that a man can give 
Everything while a man can live 

Rozanna 
You know I feel for you 
Everything a man can feel 
While he can keep it real 

I'm not trying to be too articulate 
Just saying what's in my gut 
Just reaching out to you but 

Rozanna 
You don't show any response 
Don't blink not even once 
Staring into the distance

Rozanna 
What happened to the joy we shared 
Underneath the yoke we beared 
You act like you never cared 

Rozanna, you're turning away? 
Rozanna, you've got nothing to say? 

Maybe I'm a lion 
Maybe I could roar 
Maybe I could once 
But not anymore 
Baby I thought what we had was strong 
What are all the things that I did wrong

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 

 

Amalgam

I met a girl in New Orleans

While I was wandering in my dreams

I said "Hey whatcha knowin', your insides are showin'

You can't be as real as you seem"

So I opened up my eyes

To the scent of carnation and the sound of her cries

She seemed like a ghost, with more substance than most

I felt it each time she sighed

 

Yet she knows that she's alive

Of that she can be sure

Communicating that idea

Is what she's living for

And now she's singing out of time

And it don't matter if the words don't rhyme

You ought to know that s he's alive

That's all she's living for

 

She wrote poetry in her youth

She'll do whatever her maker lets her do in her later years

Hand out heartaches by the dozen

Driven her mother to tears

She knows the humor of the Queen

She learned to tap-dance in the hallway without being seen

Talks with a smile, as wide as a mile

So you can't tell where she's been

And I know that she's alive

Of that I can be sure

Communicating that idea

Is what she's living for

And now she's singing out of time

And it don't matter if the words don't rhyme

You ought to know that she's alive

That's all she's living for

 

She knows where she wants to be

Forever in Port Dickson, playing by the sea

But she's grown up now, sometimes she writes to me

She's a bold little bold little bumblebee

She's well acquainted with scorn

Her heart's been stretched out, flapped out, perforated and torn

Lost every thought her angel bought

But laughs like she's just been born

 

And we know that she's alive

Of that we can be sure

Communicating that idea

Is what she's living for

And now she's singing out of time

And it don't matter if the words don't rhyme

We ought to know that she's alive

That's all she's living for

 

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 

 

North

There's a body of water West of the Malay Peninsular
Centuries ago many ships sailed here to find Malacca
The Chinese came with spices silk and golden things
And princesses to wed them to the local kings
I don't have gold to give
Or silk to hide your skin
Just the flavor of a song on tongue to
Lose your senses in
I played the sailor charting waters 'neath a Western sky
Was there a way I could resist the darkness in your eye

Won't you be my North
'Till I can take my eyes off you

Clever as my words believe they are far from arresting you
In any pose you find I'm twisted in, my mouth is struggling too
Much to make some sense of the thunder rolling through my skull
Play on dear Moira, set me drifting through the lull
In a storm of sound
The thrashing on my chest
Salt water in my eyes
No harbor to find rest
Been mentally jousting waves of doubt, oh why'd I come so far
Sumatran winds tear through my route so hard they'll leave a scar

Won't you be my North
'Till I can take my eyes off you

You, with a commoner's laugh sown into your hair
The horizon fades with your iridescent stare
When my childhood was a simple daily line for bread
I started lingering where angels will not tread
My friend, What's a day with one less laugh?
Lets think on it a little, don't go answering me too soon
It's not a sad day, it's just a sadder day
And you know I love a sadder day morning cartoon
My friend, once just a friend
Blinding in the false light of the moon

Won't you be my North
Cause I can't tear my eyes of you
Won't you be my North
'Till we find a North that's true

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 

 

Conversations

Tell me about all of the things you'd thought you'd figured out
And learned a little later on what you'd been wrong about
I need to laugh bout something
I need to smile bout something
Thought I'd told you once before there is no fatal line
You use them right in combination they'll fit right in each time
You need to laugh bout something
You need to smile bout something

See the pieces of a story falling from their place
We'd catch them if we were only freed up from the race
Of a world that's been our cradle and our cell
Since before there was history to tell

Once there was a girl I knew with whom I fell in love
Her every smile fit round my daydreams like a glove
I need to laugh bout something
Now I need to smile bout something

Tell me stories from your book, do not withhold your peace
Fill this empty heart with smoke and bid the daylight cease
Within a perfect brew of clouds and flames
Let's make up songs about old lover games

You know between the two of us
We don't think we know or need to know that much
And what is our main concern
Sunday 1 o'clock it's hey man what's for lunch
You go up to the mountains
To get frozen to the bone
I look up and curse the sun
For leaving me all alone

When it's late and I come home and you're too asleep to speak
I announce I'm giving in with a shuffle and a creak
I need to laugh bout something
I need to smile bout something

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 

 

Late In The Day

There is a voice from Minnesota
Made a name in the Greenwich Village coffeehouses
Sang a song to break my heart
When I'm wasn't certain what a broken heart is
We were walking up the hill
Late the in the day the bells filled the air
I hear there's better music downtown
I'll spend a couple of nights drinking coffee there

The song didn't have a chorus
Just lines that needed to be said
Not unlike the words of the lord Jesus
In the bible bleeding red
It's not dark yet he sang but it's getting there
Getting to where a man can barely see
Late in the day, beneath a lonesome tree

I learned how to be in love
Perhaps in Autumn but I can't be sure
Can't be certain of a lot of things
Can't be certain what I think of you so much for
It's been quiet here lately
So much so you hear the woodwork sigh
Oh why don't you call me baby
That's a performance in the park let's go see it tonite

You know exactly what's right for us
It's not what I've been trying to pull
I know my feelings have got their uses
But darlin' I feel for you still
I longed to take an evening walk, just us alone
And see the night town neon in your eyes
Late in the day, beneath the purple skies

Copyright © Bernard Ng Jin Choon, 2001

 
 

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